Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 782 Decision
Zhao Bai'an couldn't stop thinking about what Mori Shan should do, she had completely put the scene in her dream on Mori Shan's body.

To be exact, she is not guessing now, but affirming it, so she is even more anxious, and her mind is even more cranky.

For Zhao Bai'an, Morishan is really important to her, she cannot live without Morishan, if something happened to Morishan, she...she doesn't want to live alone like this!
Suddenly, what Moriyama said to herself sounded in her mind again: the meaning of life.

Yes, the meaning of life.

So, what is the point of living?
Why live?Why do people live?

Yeah, why... why...?
Could it be that everything between her and Moriyama is meaningless?So many beautiful things, didn't they give him any hope and longing for life?
Was she just...a failure?

Life... is it so meaningless?

What is the meaning of human existence?

Zhao Bai'an suddenly didn't understand, she suddenly didn't understand.

Looking up, Zhao Bai'an didn't see anything, her dull eyes didn't focus on anything.

Sober, sober!Need to wake up!
Zhao Bai'an was suddenly shocked.

Paper cutter, yes, paper cutter!She's looking for a paper knife!

"Where's the knife? Where's the paper knife?" She started talking to herself.

Zhao Bai'an jumped up suddenly, and started to rummage in the room as if out of control. She searched all the places where she could put things that she could see, but in the end she still couldn't find what she was looking for.

Suddenly, she saw something under her bed.

Zhao Bai'an ran away, wanted to squat on the ground to pick it up, but unexpectedly, Huo Sanmu stood in front of her.

Huo Sanmu's eyes were extremely worried, but Zhao Bai'an didn't realize it. She only cared about what she was looking for, pushed Huo Sanmu and said, "Get out of the way...you get out of the way!"

Of course Huo Sanmu wouldn't get out of the way, she stubbornly stood in front of Zhao Bai'an: "Xiao Bai, calm down slowly, don't worry, let's find a way together, shall we?"

Huo Sanmu stretched out his hands to hold Zhao Bai'an's hands, pulling her and pressing her to the chair placed in the corner of the room.

"You wait here, don't wander around." Huo Sanmu looked Zhao Bai'an straight in the eyes and said to her.

It's also very strange to say that Zhao Bai'an miraculously quieted down after hearing what Huo Sanmu said.

Now this feeling, to Zhao Bai'an, is like hearing Moriyama talking.

Then she couldn't help but nodded dumbly.

Then Huo Miki walked out of the room.

After a while, she came back with warm water in her hand.

Huo Sanmu handed the hot water to Zhao Bai'an, and said to her gently: "Drink this glass of water, you will feel better."

As before, Zhao Bai'an took the water glass over, and obediently took a sip of the warm water in the glass.

Afterwards, Huo Sanmu randomly found a stool, pulled it to sit beside Zhao Bai'an, and began to think about solutions with Zhao Bai'an.

"Xiaobai, have you ever thought that instead of worrying here, it's better to take action, so that you can confirm what you suspect?"

Hearing the words, Zhao Bai'an straightened his body, after thinking about it, he felt that it was okay.Indeed, instead of guessing like just now, it is better to check it out in due course.

But if she wants to prove it, she has to go back, which faces many practical problems.

For example, the problem of asking for leave that must be solved right now. Although the courses here are not very busy, she has only been here for two months after all, and it is recommended by the school, so she must first go through the school here if she wants to ask for leave. Then report to your alma mater.

It may take a long time to go back and forth like this, let alone go back immediately, I am afraid that the day lily will be cold.

And she also thought that if she really wanted to go back now, she had to find a good excuse.

This is more difficult for Zhao Bai'an, she is not good at lying, and now her head is in chaos.Now she can't even think of a perfect excuse, let alone a perfect excuse, even if she makes up something to fool the child.

Zhao Bai'an hesitated, she didn't answer Huo Sanmu's words, and fell into deep thought.

However, Huo Sanmu at the side understood what she meant, she was like a roundworm in Zhao Bai'an's stomach, knowing what she was thinking.

"Xiaobai, have you ever thought about it? The problems you think about are not problems. If you really want to go back, I think you can be brave."

Zhao Baian tilted his head, and said to her in an uncertain tone: "Sanmu, can you really ignore everything?"

Huo Miki looked at her and nodded solemnly.Such a decision is the most suitable for Zhao Bai'an now.

Through Huo Sanmu's eyes, Zhao Bai'an saw something.At this moment, it was as if she had been shocked by an electric shock, and she instantly became excited.

yes!That's the way it should be done!

Zhao Bai'an decided to go back, and she felt that the sooner the time, the better.

Once the decision was made, Zhao Bai'an took out his mobile phone without hesitation, and began to search for the round-trip flight.

However, when she saw the price list that popped up on the airline's main page, she was suddenly brought back to reality.

Only now did Zhao Bai'an realize a very serious problem, the round-trip air ticket would cost at least 2 yuan.

And roughly calculated, the time the plane is in the sky is [-] hours in the air for one trip.

She has something more to hide from others.

Facing the heavy reality, Zhao Bai'an became a little cowardly, and suddenly she really didn't know what to do.

As if asking for help, Zhao Bai'an looked at Huo Sanmu again.

Huo Sanmu still had that affirmative look in his eyes, and encouraged her again: "Xiaobai, come on, do what you want in your heart."

Zhao Bai'an was very helpless: "Sanmu, can I really...can do it?"

Huo Miki nodded lightly: "Xiaobai, think about Moriyama, he needs you, or he is expecting you to go back."

These words hit Zhao Bai'an's soft heart thoroughly, and she had no reason to refuse.

She had to admit that even if she was not strong or brave now, she still couldn't ignore Mori Shan.There is no way to ignore such a little bit.

Moriyama is like a curse, filling her heart, she can't get rid of it, but she can't skip it either.

Huo Sanmu's words completely made Zhao Bai'an see her heart clearly, and it also made her completely clear about her thoughts.

She finally understood that everything is not important, only Moriyama is the most important.

Although she knew that if she went back regardless, the next thing she would face might be difficult and dangerous.

There may even be unexpected confusion for her, and she may also encounter misunderstandings from teachers, family members and friends.

But all these considerations did not change her mind after all.

She wants to go back.

(End of this chapter)