Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 542 Nightmare
Xiao Jia seemed to be possessed by a nightmare, she didn't respond to Zhao Bai'an, just hugged her legs like that, buried her head deeply in her knees, and lay quietly in the darkness.

Seeing such a girl, Zhao Bai'an's heart felt rippling after another, and she slowly climbed down from the bed, and finally came to the girl's side, holding the girl in her arms.

The girl's tense nerves slowly relaxed her vigilance, and she slowly raised her head.

Only at this time did Zhao Bai'an realize that the girl was actually crying.

She felt a little distressed: "What's the matter?"

A nervous look flashed in Xiaojia's eyes, she didn't resist Zhao Bai'an, in fact, in her heart, she already trusted the big sister beside her very much.

It's just that she has always been used to being alone, and now someone suddenly cares about her. In such a dark night, she can't help but feel a little overwhelmed.

She didn't respond to Zhao Bai'an immediately, but reached out and hugged Zhao Bai'an back.

Zhao Bai'an was taken aback for a moment, and after the two were silent for a long time, Xiao Jia finally spoke to Zhao Bai'an slowly.

"Big sister, I had a nightmare just now. I do this every night. It's been a long time, and I'm used to it."

"What nightmare did you have?"

Xiao Jia began to describe the scene in the dream with a gloomy tone.

"Sister, I dreamed that my father came back... He, he wanted to hit me again. I was afraid and ran away, but I don't know why, I can see my father wherever I run."

"Later, I dreamed that my father in my dream had turned into a demon. He had a bloody mouth and wanted to eat me! And I will never be able to avoid it!"

"Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow!"

Zhao Bai'an patted her on the back to comfort her: "Xiao Jia, be good, don't be afraid, father is not here, don't worry, there is only sister alone."

The girl's body trembled slightly, she broke free from Zhao Bai'an's embrace, and said excitedly: "No, sister, you don't understand, you don't understand anything."

Zhao Bai'an was a little surprised, the little girl was a bit different from the person she saw during the day at this moment, it can be said that she didn't know the little girl in a flash.

In her impression of Xiao Jia, she was pitiful when she first met, but later she was kind, brave, lively and generous, but now she is hysterical, more like a child with problems.

Perhaps this is the truth... perhaps, each of them is true.

Zhao Bai'an couldn't help but feel a little worried, but he couldn't seem to say some things.

She actually experienced the first half of the little girl's life, but because of the change of the scene, she felt that her identity was a bit special.

Although she understood the little girl very well, she felt that it was inconvenient for her to point it out.

Zhao Bai'an was thinking, the little girl slowly came back to her senses, and from Zhao Bai'an's eyes, she noticed that her behavior was inappropriate.

She said softly to Zhao Bai'an: "I'm sorry, sister, I didn't mean it, I just remembered something from the past, I'm afraid, I'm afraid."

Zhao Bai'an shook his head, and then put the little girl back into his arms: "Xiaojia, if you are afraid of something, you should say it, so that you won't be afraid, my sister is with you, can you tell my sister? ?”

Xiaojia hesitated for a moment, and then, under Zhao Bai'an's rhythmic soothing, slowly told her all the experiences she had when she was a child.

"Big sister, I... I'm a girl, is that wrong? Dad often beats me and ignores me. I even wonder if I'm her own."

"Are boys that good? If I were a little boy...would Daddy love me? Would he love Mommy too?"

"Mom and Dad divorced later, and I finally don't have to be beaten every day, but although there is no one in the family who is always swearing, but...why do I always laugh at other children's fathers when I see them?"

"I heard that my father married another woman outside and gave birth to a child. It was a little boy. How wonderful would it be if I were that boy? Dad must be very happy..."

"Sister, can you tell me why? My classmates at school always bully me because I don't have a father. Is my father so important?"

"Could it have been better if I had been a boy?"

The girl poured out all the words in one go. After she finished speaking, she seemed to be less nervous, but sadness and sorrow were inevitable.She has been holding Zhao Bai'an tightly all the time, as if she could find her own piece of sunshine and temporary peace in her arms.

Zhao Bai quietly accompanied the little girl. As she said, she is a loyal listener, but she is not a person who is good at comforting others.

She was very worried, especially the question the girl asked at the end.

Yeah, if it's a boy, doesn't everything get better?

Can make people have such doubts and doubts, so what happened to this world? !

And when she heard the little girl say that she was ridiculed by others at school, Zhao Bai'an felt even more sad. The malice of children is always very terrible.

She didn't know what the little girl had experienced in school, but from the girl's statement, she knew that the girl must have experienced something that ordinary people did not experience.

A child who was originally so sunny has such a dark side.

But a child with such a dark life experience can still have such a sunny and kind side.

The two were originally contradictory, but inexplicably softened together in Xiaojia's body.

Zhao Bai'an hugged Xiaojia tightly in his arms, what a rare child Xiaojia is.

She secretly guessed what Xiaojia would be like when she grew up in the future, and what she wanted to know was, what kind of life would such a child lead?

Zhao Bai'an liked and admired the little girl in front of him. Although she was only a little girl, she showed a maturity and changeability that was different from children of the same age.

"Xiaojia, my sister wants to ask you, do you want to leave the matter of father in the present, or bring it to the future?"

The subtext that Zhao Bai'an actually wanted to say in his heart was, will Xiao Jia still be influenced by her father in the future?

But she didn't say it directly, she just wanted to probe into the little girl's heart from the side.

Looking at the little girl now is like reading a book, with profound connotations and far-reaching meanings.

The girl slowly broke free from her arms, crawled out of the bed, sat up straight again, and fell into deep thought.

Zhao Bai'an was actually not in a hurry, she didn't mind waiting a little longer, she just wanted to hear the little girl's true heart.

Time passed bit by bit, and Xiao Jia gradually withdrawn from thinking.

She turned to face Zhao Bai'an and responded seriously: "I want to leave them in the past."

(End of this chapter)