Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 469 The Cold Ling Chi

Zhao Bai'an and the little boy didn't have a fixed topic, everything seemed so casual, and everything closely matched the current situation.

They warmed each other and made fun of each other, the little boy also completely opened his heart at this moment, smiling sincerely at Zhao Bai'an.

The little boy is no longer what Zhao Baian saw when he first met him. Now he is full of vitality, and even when Zhao Baian has nothing to talk about, he will take the initiative to substitute.

Zhao Bai'an was in a very happy mood. She always felt that she was always in a panic when she was in Hongxin Island, but now she is really at ease. It seems that many things are really hard to find without comparison.

Seeing the happy appearance of the little boy, she felt an inexplicable sense of accomplishment in her heart, but before she could be much happier, Zhao Bai'an felt her eyes darken, and she fell into a dizzy state where the space of another dimension was reversed.

I can't see the surrounding environment clearly, I just feel dizzy in my head.

When he opened his eyes again, Zhao Bai'an had already woken up from the dream.

She looked at the surrounding environment in a daze, the beige curtains, and the small desk she was familiar with, and the blankets scattered on the ground around the bed were kicked off because of her improper sleeping position.

Zhao Bai'an was confused for a while, but then he remembered that it was already winter vacation, so she should have woken up at home.

Zhao Bai'an took a deep breath, and then quietly lay back on the bed.

Holidays are always lazy, she is no longer sleepy now, but she just doesn't want to get up.

So now she would rather stay on the bed and think wildly than move half a step.

She swayed directly, and fell into a complete self-exile. Originally, she wanted to relax, but for some reason, when her brain was working automatically, she suddenly remembered the scene in her dream.

She didn't know why she had such a dream, she had such a dream that she was her young self.

Zhao Bai'an was suspicious, and at the same time began to recall.

Dreams seem to have omens, so this dream must also be conveying something to her.

She searched carefully in the depths of memory.

For this dream, she really has no memory of the past.

But for some reason, she felt an inexplicable sense of familiarity, as if she had experienced it before.

This feeling struck every nerve of hers one after another.

Suddenly, a fragment flashed in her mind.

She suddenly remembered the time at the beginning of freshman year, when she thought it was the first time she came to Hongxin Island, Huo Sanmu explained the world to her who didn't understand anything, saying that she used to come here often when she was a child.

After recalling this point, another idea kept clamoring in Zhao Bai'an's mind.

Maybe this is what Huo Sanmu said, her lost dream memory.

I don't know who once said such a sentence, but the human brain can selectively remember it.Sometimes, some people may lock their memories in a certain place after being stimulated.Of course, some people will also cause such a phenomenon because the fluctuation frequency of the cerebral cortex is too large.

Zhao Bai'an has some doubts, her current situation is like this, rather than saying that she has lost her memory, it is better to say that it is not necessarily lost, it may be sealed.

She fell into deep memories at this moment.

Zhao Bai'an tried hard to recall the past.

But the strange thing is that she didn't know what the young self in the dream looked like, but the little boy's face was very clear.

Obviously she has seen her own reflection in the lake, but now she recalls it as a blur.

Zhao Bai'an frowned on the bed, part of overlapping images from yesterday's dream suddenly flashed in her mind.

Zhao Bai'an knew that the little boy should be Mori Shan, but she didn't know how Mori Shan came to Hongxin Island, and she also didn't know whether Mori Shan went to Hongxin Island often before, or only this time.

After all, Red Heart Island should be her dream home from her own understanding.

She was a little curious, but then Zhao Bai'an felt that her curiosity seemed superfluous, the other party had nothing to do with her, and she still couldn't forget it, it's ridiculous!He even said that he was completely guilty!
Her heart throbbed again, as if being stabbed by an extremely blunt knife, but no matter how painful it was, she hadn't contacted Moriyama since that exhibition.

As long as she thought of the scene at that time, she felt extremely cold.

That memory was deeply imprinted in the deepest part of her heart. Zhao Bai'an admitted that she was really hurt, and she was hurt badly.

So from that day on, she warned herself countless times, don't be stupid, don't go to Mori Shan again!
In fact, she really did it. Intentional avoidance and mandatory restraint have become her new code of conduct.

Although sometimes she really wants to chat with Moriyama in her heart, no, it can't be said that it is sometimes, it can only be said that she scratches her heart and lungs and wants to find Moriyama every moment.

But this feeling has been intentionally restrained by her.

But sometimes the more deliberate it is, the more it will result in self-deception.

Just like now, Zhao Bai'an's thoughts were completely out of control, and he was inexplicably brought into another situation.

With heartache, she burst into tears without knowing it.

Maybe I will be so decadent...

But Zhao Bai'an never expected that in the next second, she would be unexpectedly redeemed.

Just when she was stuck in missing her, her phone suddenly vibrated, and it kept vibrating.

As a last resort, she had no choice but to take back her thoughts that she no longer knew where they were going, got out of bed and ran to check, only to find out that there was a message in the group of old friends.

Now that everyone is on vacation, everyone has nothing to do, so they are all excited to ask out to play.

Zhao Bai'an didn't have time to read the general content, the frequency of news in the circle was too fast.

It seems that everyone in the group has been involved for a long time, and she is the only one who is a foreigner.

Everyone is expressing their opinions, teasing each other, and chatting with each other.

Zhao Bai'an's mood hadn't recovered yet, so he quietly stayed aside to investigate the situation.

The scrolling messages in front of me finally stopped.

A message from Oscaria popped up: "Why don't we go on a trip again? Didn't we go to Japan before? Then we discussed how to find a place we haven't been to for a group tour?"

"I'll go, Scarlett, you're too uncreative. We've already been to travel, can you think of something new?" Long Jingshan objected afterwards.

Ou Sijia was angry: "Then you gave everyone a reasonable suggestion."

(End of this chapter)