Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 432 Believe in God's Will

It was only at this moment that Zhao Bai'an understood a simple truth. It turned out that she hadn't cleared up her position. It's no wonder that the phone froze instantly just now.

Up to now, she started from Japan, no, she never knew when it started, her continuous dreams were completely shattered at this moment.

Although it is impossible for her to be as calm as water, until now, she has truly returned to reality.

At this time, she suddenly remembered the song that Liu Ruoying once sang, in which there was such a sentence: If I return to the position of good friends, can you and I still be the same as before.

However, Zhao Bai'an knew clearly that Mori Shan would never be her friend, because once he got close, she would fall in love with him.So if you really want to be friends, first of all, you will regard him as your loved one first.

Thinking of this, Zhao Bai'an couldn't help laughing, but this smile was not sweet.

With such a mood, she just responded with two words to Mori Shan: "Very good."

Then she wanted to put away the phone again, but Moriyama's response broke in again.

"Really? That's great, as long as you're fine."

At the same time, Moriyama also included a smiling expression this time.

Zhao Bai'an didn't know why, seeing that sentence and that expression, she couldn't bear to end the conversation between the two of them like this.

She didn't know why her heart was aching, but she felt that maybe she was narrow-minded. Although the two of them are no longer in a relationship, they are still classmates. This is an indelible fact.

So she shouldn't end this chat hastily.

Since Moriyama is showing such generosity now, she should also respond.

Of course this is just Zhao Bai'an's excuse, she is just reluctant to give up, but she doesn't know it.

She just pinched the phone and continued to reply, wanting to hear more about Moriyama.

"Moriyama, thank you for your concern, what about you, what have you done these years?"

Moriyama did not answer, but sent a thoughtful expression.

Zhao Bai'an was a little confused, so she did the same and sent Mori Shan a small emoji, but hers was a silly smile.

Mori Shan looked at the message sent by Zhao Bai'an on the other side of the phone, and a strange look flashed in his eyes.

He is not in a much more relaxed mood than Zhao Bai'an at this time. Opposite him is Zhao Bai'an, his lover, who he has already left... his lover.

After more than five years, why did she suddenly come to find herself?what does she mean?
Moriyama was puzzled and had many thoughts.

Today, he suddenly received a message from Zhao Bai'an. He was actually very surprised. When he saw who the message came from, his heart was beating violently, he was very excited, and he was very happy.

But such emotions were fleeting. After that joy, what was left was more sense of loss and helplessness. He couldn't help but glanced at his scarred wrist.

After a long time, he thought that Zhao Bai'an was good as an excuse, and deliberately alienated and indifferent.

But he never expected that Zhao Bai'an would suddenly ask himself how are you.

Although this was a simple sentence, he knew in his heart that it was difficult for him to answer.

Everything is not worth this simple sentence, how are you.

His hands holding the phone trembled. In fact, he really wanted to tell Zhao Bai'an that I was not good, that I was very bad, but he was inexplicably afraid that he would have a bad influence on Zhao Bai'an after he said so.

Besides, they are just classmates now, to put it mildly, they are friends, so what can I say more?

So he just sent a thoughtful little emoji. He wanted to take it like that, but he didn't expect Zhao Bai'an to reply too. Judging by the momentum, it was obvious that he wanted to continue the topic.

He wavered a little, he knew that if he didn't reply, the conversation between the two people would naturally end there.

But if you reply to him, what should you say?Is he going to lie?Tell Zhao Bai'an that he is fine?
Thinking about it, Mori Shan himself felt that such a lie was too ridiculous. Although Zhao Bai'an couldn't see it, he didn't want to deceive himself.

After thinking for a long time, I decided to change the subject altogether.

He sexually sent Zhao Bai'an the following sentence: "Speaking of which, we have all graduated for so long, I don't know how the teachers in our class are doing now, maybe they are leading some junior high school students who are as old as us Bar."

After Zhao Bai'an waited for a long time, he actually waited for such a sentence, which made no sense.

But this didn't affect her mood of talking with Moriyama.

Through the few short sentences just now, Zhao Bai'an was sensitively aware that Mori Shan seemed to be avoiding something on purpose.

He didn't seem to like himself asking how he was doing.

Since he doesn't like it, then just don't do it yourself.

She also talked about some irrelevant topics like Moriyama. As for the content of the topics, they all revolved around some happy times when she was a child, and some simple conversations about daily concerns.

After a while, the two just bid farewell.

Zhao Bai'an put the phone back into his pocket, but when he looked up, he found that everyone had disappeared.

She was a little anxious, and wanted to call everyone, but just as she put her hands back into her pockets, Oscar suddenly patted her on the shoulder heavily behind her.

Zhao Bai'an turned his head quickly, Ou Sijia showed a mischievous state, winked and said to Zhao Bai'an: "How about Xiaobai? I got what I wanted."

Zhao Bai'an froze for a moment, she didn't quite understand something.

Oscar pointed to the half-leaked hand in her pocket and said, "That's it...Did Moriyama reply to the message?"

Only then did Zhao Bai'an suddenly realize, and she nodded honestly.

A smile appeared in Oska's eyes: "What did he say? You two..."

Before she finished speaking, Zhao Bai'an interrupted it directly, and Zhao Bai'an didn't want to say anything more about it.

There was a tinge of embarrassment in Oscarle, but only a tinge, and it was gone in an instant.

"Xiaobai, it's fine. If you really think that the two of you are destined, there will be another day."

Hearing this slightly strange sentence, Zhao Bai'an had a long-lost smile on his face. This smile was the first relaxed one so far.

Since the beginning of the trip, although she went with a relaxed and happy heart, it was accompanied by a kind of tension that she could not control.

This kind of tension and depression all came from the dream, and she had an inseparable concern for Moriyama.

But the brief conversation just now made the rope in her heart loosen a lot.

It just so happened that Oska accidentally said that sentence again. Although it sounded a little nonsensical, there was a hint of Zen hidden in it.

There is no need to force everything, sometimes she is more willing to believe in God's will.

Zhao Bai'an thought about it a lot, and no longer entangled too much.

She was no longer depressed or overthinking. She puffed her chest out and returned to her previous state. She turned to look at Oska and said, "Let's go, let's go home."

(End of this chapter)