Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 208 Meditation

Zhao Bai'an returned to the dormitory, Yang Liuyiyi and Gao Yanran started their daily inquiries as usual.

"Xiao An, how are you doing today?"

Gao Yanran's question was more subtle, while Yang Liuyiyi's emotion was more intense.

She asked excitedly: "Xiao'an, tell me, is there anything fun to do? What did he do for you today?"

Zhao Bai'an was used to the gossip between the two of them, and he gradually got used to the relationship with Chen Yudi from the bottom of his heart.Now she is no longer as young as she was before, but she is a little willing to share with everyone.Roommates are such gossips, there's nothing they can do about it, after all they are good in other places, so Zhao Bai'an doesn't dislike this.

In fact, deep in Zhao Bai'an's heart, she is still a little bit happy. After all, Chen Yudi treats her really well now. Girls sometimes fantasize about being a princess by themselves, and she has a loyal and careful follower by her side. Or, she has now experienced a feeling of being praised as a treasure, so she is happy to share it with everyone.

Zhao Bai'an briefly talked about the process of getting along with Yang Liuyiyi and Gao Yanran today.Zhao Bai'an was unwilling to go into too much detail, after all, it was completely unnecessary.

However, even if Zhao Bai'an abbreviated 1 characters into [-], Yang Liu Yiyi could still imagine [-] characters in her mind. She was surprised and exclaimed: "Wow, that Chen Yudi who doesn't usually talk much He actually has such an unknown side, he is simply too romantic!"

Zhao Bai'an replied: "Liu Yiyi, what do you think? Is giving food really romantic?"

What Zhao Bai'an said was the truth, she really only felt a little touched in her heart and didn't think it was very romantic.

Gao Yanran smiled and said: "Xiao An, although I have never been in a relationship, I have watched that kind of TV series. I think the problem is not what he gave, but the meaning behind what he gave."

Yang Liuyiyi nodded in agreement: "Yes, yes, it is already romantic for him to be so careful, it proves that he holds you in his hands and loves you in his heart."

Zhao Bai'an suddenly felt a little embarrassed, she didn't think about it so deeply, now that Yang Liuyiyi's words were too straightforward, she suddenly felt a hot feeling on her face.

Zhao Bai'an found a random reason and ended the discussion between them today: "Oh, let's stop talking, I'm going to rest, I don't know why I feel so sleepy all of a sudden."

Yang Liuyiyi and Gao Yanran did not speak, but looked at each other and smiled. They were really happy for Zhao Bai'an in their hearts.

In the past, the two felt that Zhao Bai'an was a bit lonely, not because she was lonely without friends, but because she was able to accept any emotion, but at the same time shielded all emotions, as if the outermost layer of the body could absorb everything but could not wear anything Past film in general.

The two of them even discussed in private whether Zhao Bai'an's college life would just pass away like this.Yang Liuyiyi hopes that Zhao Bai'an can fall in love. Of course, she hopes that everyone in 605 will fall in love, so that she can have more melons to eat; and although Gao Yanran doesn't care at all whether her friends fall in love, after all, she He refused, but this did not prevent him from hoping that Zhao Bai'an could find some kind of warm support.

Now Yang Liuyiyi and Gao Yanran suddenly saw that Zhao Bai'an was happier than before. As friends and roommates, they naturally wished Zhao Bai'an from the bottom of their hearts.

After Zhao Bai'an finished washing, he returned to his little bed, lay on the bed and soon fell asleep.

She came to a place that felt very, very familiar.

ah!Yes!

This is the rehearsal venue for the drama club!

Looking at the familiar scene, Zhao Bai'an slowly approached, and quietly opened the door, only to find that all the people from the drama club were lying on the ground, not knowing what they were doing.Except that she herself was not inside, Xu Hao was not inside either.

She looked at this scene and found it familiar, but she couldn't remember it for a while, Zhao Bai'an always felt that her head was foggy.

She tiptoedly closed the door.

"Click!"

Obviously Zhao Bai'an's movements were very light, but the door lock still made a sound, which was particularly abrupt in this very quiet scene.

Zhao Bai'an's heart beat faster for a moment, and cold sweat broke out from her back. She turned her stiff neck and looked back. Fortunately, everyone was still the same as when she came in at the beginning, and they were not disturbed by the sound.

"Inhale~~"

"Exhale~~"

"Inhale~~"

"Exhale~~"

Director Xiao's voice came over, and while Zhao Bai'an breathed a sigh of relief, she finally remembered that she just went out to use the bathroom, and before that, their drama club was doing meditation training.

Approaching the crowd, Zhao Bai'an found that they all had their eyes closed, and Wang Yichuan was lying on the ground in a "big" shape, looking very relaxed.

But only Chen Yudi's eyes were wide open, looking around in a panic.

Zhao Bai'an approached Chen Yudi quietly, she bent down and asked in a hoarse voice: "What's wrong with you? Student magician, what's wrong with you? Is there something wrong?"

Chen Yudi looked a little nervous, Zhao Bai'an didn't know why, a similar expression suddenly flashed in her mind, it seemed to be more painful than the one in front of her.

She shook her head, then knelt down and quickly supported Chen Yudi who was lying down, and helped him to the nearest corner to sit down and rest.

Chen Yudi shook his head and said weakly, "I don't want to sit here."

Before Zhao Bai'an had time to react, Chen Yudi stood up alone and walked towards the entrance of the drama club.Like Zhao Bai'an when he came in, he opened the door and walked out.Leave behind Zhao Bai'an who hasn't reacted yet.

Zhao Bai'an hurried to catch up, and after two "clicks" passed, both of them arrived at the corridor of the rehearsal venue.

Chen Yudi looked at the scenery from a distance, and the atmosphere around him felt oppressed and sad. Zhao Bai'an looked at it and suddenly suggested, "Well, let's go out and take a walk on the sports field, shall we?"

After Chen Yudi heard what Zhao Bai'an said, the tense expression on his face relaxed. He nodded to Zhao Bai'an, and the two came to the school playground together.

Looking at this playground, Zhao Bai'an felt a little strange, because there seemed to be no one in the playground today, which is very unusual.

But she is not in the mood to worry about these things now, she has more important tasks, and she is very concerned about what happened to Chen Yudi.This is the low air pressure that is usually difficult to feel on his body.

She walked around the playground, and then went straight to the point: "What happened to you just now?"

Chen Yudi rolled his eyes, and then responded: "Ah, I just feel a little uncomfortable."

Zhao Bai'an didn't quite understand, and tilted his head: "What's wrong with you?"

Chen Yudi's expression at this time suddenly became more serious than before. He stared at Zhao Bai'an, then looked away, sighed and said with a slightly hesitant tone: "I...I don't like that...I hate that kind Tension, I don't like this kind of form..."

"This form...does it mean meditation?" Zhao Bai'an didn't understand.

"Correct."

Chen Yudi expressed his thoughts, but Zhao Baian fell into deep thought.She recalled some things alone, and a lot of images were concatenated in her mind.

She suddenly thought that she seemed to have experienced something similar before, but for some reason, there was like a misty mist in her head, and she couldn't see clearly no matter how she looked.

Until Chen Yudi whispered to himself again: "It's because I saw a psychiatrist before, and he always asked me to do meditation exercises. So meditation will only make me recall uncomfortable things."

The foggy images in Zhao Bai'an's mind just now finally dissipated, and a thought flashed in her mind, and she began to suspect that Chen Yudi had suffered from depression before.

She remembered that she had been exposed to similar cases before, and specially checked some manifestations and treatment methods of depression.And as far as their country is concerned, seeing a psychiatrist is not a very common thing, that's why Chen Yudi seemed so hesitant to talk.Although this is definitely a prejudice, because seeing a psychiatrist is actually just an adjustment of emotions, and it has nothing to do with whether there is a mental illness.

Besides, depression, anxiety, mania, etc. are all diseases. They are not much different from colds, fevers, stomach pains, etc., and should not be treated differently.In many cases, it is because of people's fear or prejudice that it makes everything worse.

"So." Regarding this, Zhao Bai'an decided to get straight to the point, "Yu Di, have you ever had a similar related disease? It doesn't matter if you still have it now."

Chen Yudi stopped walking.

Zhao Bai'an also stopped immediately, looked up into his eyes, and then smiled lightly.

"Yes... yes. I used to be...slightly..." Chen Yudi looked into Zhao Bai'an's eyes, those calm eyes that seemed to have no impurity in them, and then decided to say again, "I used to have mild depression, But for a short while."

"It's okay." Zhao Bai'an turned around and took Chen Yudi's hand, her hand was very warm, "I think you are fine now, I like you very much now."

As soon as Zhao Bai'an raised her head, something flashed in front of her eyes, as if two faces with similar expressions overlapped together, maybe it was momentary dizziness, because she blinked her eyes and then disappeared.

Zhao Bai'an held Chen Yudi's hand and rubbed it lightly: "Yudi, do you have anything to say? If you have something, I am willing to listen."

Zhao Bai'an paused: "I am a listener."

　The happy holiday has just passed, everyone don't be discouraged~ Did you have fun during the holiday?Thanks for reading.

　　

　

(End of this chapter)