Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 184 Chaos

Zhao Bai'an blushed and raised her head, she bravely looked into Mori Shan's eyes, and it turned out!This...how could it be?

Zhao Bai'an was surprised to find that Mori Shan's face turned into Chen Yudi.

The memories in the brain began to be connected in series, and some memories had slowly been connected in a way that she didn't recognize.

Zhao Bai'an was completely confused at this moment, he had indescribable feelings in his heart, and at the same time, he was also indescribably confused.She only felt that the appearance of the person in front of her changed from clear to blurred, and then the surrounding environment also began to change slowly.

A sense of dizziness and uncontrollable discomfort filled every nerve in her body.Zhao Bai'an only felt that she was about to collapse. She felt that the surrounding environment was constantly squeezing and collapsing, and she herself was also infected by this environment.

She felt uncontrollable nausea, as if she was going to vomit her stomach out in a second, and felt that she was about to faint, so she fell into the darkness and couldn't wake up.

Gradually, she became a little weak and unbearable, and she fell directly to the ground heavily.

Without any consciousness in the brain, Zhao Bai'an traveled through time and space again and returned to the time when Chen Yudi's first reasoning club activity ended, and she is now lying on the ground under the podium.

Zhao Bai'an's head was heavy, she stood up slowly while rubbing her head.The different space is stretching and transforming just like before, and finally freezes at a certain time, the very familiar memory that was once faintly visible in her mind.

In her memory, the scene of this place has not changed in any way, the only difference is that the surrounding time and space seem to be static.Only Chen Yudi and herself are mobile.

Chen Yudi approached herself with a smile, and also took out three books in her hand, and gave them to Zhao Bai'an in the same way.

Zhao Bai'an looked down, and the three books that Chen Yudi gave were originally prizes from the reasoning club, and they were all mystery novels.They are "Second Body" by Keigo Higashino, "Wonderful Heaven" by Shoji Shimada, and "The Tragedy of X" by Quinn.

Zhao Bai'an's mood was still the same nervous and apprehensive as before, with a little trembling.She liked the three books very much, but this sudden change made her feel a little uncomfortable. She opened her eyes wide and stared at everything in front of her.

Zhao Bai'an was really afraid that everything in front of her would suddenly disappear just like before, at this moment she was really a little confused.

She gently opened her red lips and asked Chen Yudi who was standing in front of her in a slightly doubtful and trembling voice: "Are you you?"

Chen Yudi showed a shallow smile, and he responded to Zhao Bai'an: "Why are you so strange? I am not who I am? Of course I am me, what's wrong with you?"

Zhao Bai'an only felt that she was dazzled for a while, and she responded casually: "It's okay, it's okay!"

Then she remembered that she should say something appropriate for the scene, so she quickly added: "Thank you, fellow magician!"

Chen Yudi didn't find anything strange about Zhao Bai'an's sudden thanks, he responded with a smile: "You're welcome."

Zhao Bai'an suddenly woke up from the dream, she unconsciously looked at the surrounding environment, it was pitch black, this was one of the few times she woke up before daylight came.She was very, very awake, as if she had never been asleep.

The roommates in the dormitory were still sleeping naively, Zhao Bai'an's biological clock was a bit confused, and she strangely recalled the scene in her dream just now in her mind.She didn't understand why Moriyama in the dream turned into Chen Yudi in the end.

This question was intertwined in her mind, and she couldn't think of any clues, so gradually she couldn't sit still on the bed.

Zhao Bai'an slowly climbed out of bed, the scene in her dream led her to the bookshelf in the bedroom.

She stopped and looked at the books on both sides of the bookshelf, her eyes wandered between them, looking over the spine of each book.On one side is the book given by Chen Yudi, and on the other side is the book given to her by Moriyama.

No matter how many times he changed dormitories, Zhao Bai'an would always keep these three books by his side, perhaps because Mori Shan's literary quality is really good, Zhao Bai'an has always liked the three books he gave, and he never tires of reading them .

Zhao Bai'an didn't know why, so he couldn't help but took out the books that Moriyama gave her, among which she liked the most.She rubbed the cover of the book that was almost torn by her with her palm, thinking hard in secret.

She kept asking herself over and over again in her heart, why?Why is this something that I will never leave behind no matter where I move.Why have I read it so many times, even if I already know what is said in it, I still want to watch it again.

Zhao Bai'an became interested, since he is so sober now, why not read it again.She took the three books out of the shelf, sat at the desk, and flipped through them one by one.

She read the names on the cover in a low voice. Moriyama's books are Zhang Xiaofeng's "Rebirth", Zhou Guoping's "Watching Distance" and McCullough's "The Thorn Bird".

Zhao Bai'an looked at these books carefully, she liked all these books very much, whether it was the cover, the content, or what they wanted to express.

Zhao Bai'an fell into a wave of junior high school memories, she gradually began to let go of her knowledge and emotions, and her thoughts drifted away.

She remembered that when Moriyama was in junior high school, he was the representative of the Chinese class in the class. In her memory, Moriyama was always such a learned man.She remembered that every time she wrote a composition, Moriyama would be rated as an excellent composition in the class or even the grade.Not only that, he knew almost everything, no matter what Zhao Baian talked to him later, he could understand and talk about it with eloquence.Whether it is chemical physics, or astronomy and geography, or railway operation, or animation and music.He knows just about every topic you can think of.

Zhao Bai'an remembered that he really admired Moriyama at that time, and memories were like the gears of time, slowly getting closer.

To this day, Zhao Bai'an still feels that these books are very good, and she really likes them, so she still keeps them with her to this day.

Zhao Bai'an looked at these books, picked out the one "Rebirth" from the middle, and read it carefully.

There are these two sentences in the book, which she has always liked very much.

——It’s like two banks, just because there is a vast river constantly flowing between us.We loved the river so much, so much, that we turned ourselves into a bank... I was swimming toward you, I was meeting you, swimming toward me.We meet in the heart of the river...

——When you love someone, when you dial the phone, you suddenly don’t know what to say, and then you realize that you just want to hear the familiar voice, and what you want to dial is the string in your heart...

These few words are like a gust of breeze, slowly flashing and drifting in the depths of Zhao Bai'an's heart.Like a willow, it soothes the ray of emotion in her heart that she doesn't know how to place.

These two sentences in the book were said by Zhang Xiaofeng. She really likes Zhang Xiaofeng. From the first time she opened this book, she fell in love with her words that can soothe people’s hearts. After that, Zhao Bai'an read almost all of Zhang Xiaofeng's essays.Zhang Xiaofeng's words can always soothe her heart.

Just like now, Zhao Baian felt emotionally chaotic just a second ago, but now he suddenly found peace, his turbulent heart suddenly calmed down, and his chaotic emotions found a place to belong.

Zhao Bai'an began to examine her feelings, and all the past was like a broken kite, floating around in her consciousness space.

Perhaps it was because the hazy night was already intoxicating, her brain uncontrollably recalled everything about her and Chen Yudi so far, it was extremely clear.

Even Chen Yudi's every expression, every movement, which she didn't pay attention to at ordinary times, gradually became part of her memory at this moment.

A warm current flowed through her heart, and this warm current intertwined with her hot heart.

Zhao Bai'an suddenly understood what her heart was aiming for, and she also understood what the little throbbing in her heart was all about.

It turned out that I fell in love with Chen Yudi unknowingly.

　Zhang Xiaofeng is indeed an author I like very much, and the two sentences in this chapter are also the original text.

　　Thanks for reading~

　　

　

(End of this chapter)