Omniscient and Almighty

Chapter 2 Xu Guangling

This is an answer that leaves no doubts.No pair of parents who love their children deeply can tolerate their children seeking death, even if they themselves are no longer there.As deep as the love is, so is the expectation, and this expectation not only accompanies their whole life, but also the life of their children.

Even under the Nine Springs, they will use their eyes to watch the growth of their children, feel gratified, proud of it, think about it, and suffer for it.

So, even if he was heartbroken, even if he really wanted to seek death more than once, in the end, Xu Guangling slowly walked out of that heavy shadow, but there are some things that he can never get rid of for a lifetime up.

In the world, there are many news of accident victims.

But how many people have thought about what kind of situation the family members of the accident victims, especially their children, will be in?

For Xu Guangling, his parents' accident had a huge impact on him. This huge impact is not only reflected in his inability to face his parents' departure, but he still has to face it in the face of time. He never accepts it until he has to accept it. , but at the same time it caused him a disillusionment in his outlook on life.

Before his parents had an accident, Xu Guangling was sunny, aggressive and hardworking.

After his parents' accident, Xu Guangling was gloomy, silent, and lost his direction and goals in life. He didn't know what else to fight for, and more importantly, what's the point of fighting?Maybe everything was fine in the last moment, it couldn't be better, but in the next moment, there is nothing.

Is this trauma?

Yes, no.

He said yes, because it was indeed brought to him by his parents' accident, and said no, because the trauma can be healed, but this kind of influence can't be healed, and he doesn't know how long it will be with him.

After that incident, Xu Guangling never submitted a manuscript, never composed a piece of music, never touched a piano, never organized a school activity, never participated in a study competition, let alone a competition, He didn't even bother to listen to basic classes.

When his parents were there, his father didn't have too many demands on Xu Guangling's studies. Of course, because he didn't need to make any demands in fact, Xu Guangling himself had already done well, and it was far beyond his expectations, but his mother There are requirements, even Xu Guangling's route for the next few years has been arranged.

Go to Tsinghua University first, finish your studies in two or three years, then go to Harvard or Cambridge to get a master’s degree, and get a Ph.

Xu's father had no objection to this arrangement, and neither did Xu Guangling.

However, with the unexpected, everything changed.

In the third year of high school, Xu Guangling rejected the school's special recruitment arrangement, took the college entrance examination casually, and then entered a university randomly. In the university, he basically only lingered in the on-campus library and the National Library outside the school.

Read books, many books, all kinds of miscellaneous books.

This is the only way to make him forget about the outside world and about his parents.

Then four years passed like this.Even if it took the normal four years to graduate, Xu Guangling was only nineteen years old when he graduated, not yet twenty.He entered school at the age of six, skipped a grade in elementary school, and skipped another grade in junior high school.

After graduation, Xu Guangling did not look for a job, nor did he plan to.

As a writer and expert in literature and history research, Xu's father is well-known in the province and well-known in China. As a composer, Xu's mother is slightly inferior to Xu's father. She is unknown outside the circle and only well-known inside the circle. , but more than Xu's father.

After they left, what they left for Xu Guangling was a 280-square-meter apartment in the city center and a bank deposit of 400 million.

This is actually enough for Xu Guangling to spend his whole life wandering.

But since entering university, Xu Guangling hasn't returned home once, and after graduating from university, he still hasn't returned home.He is afraid of touching the scene and hurting his heart.Xu Guangling just randomly found a place, rented a house casually, and indulged in the world in the book casually.

Until you get tired of one place, choose a new place and start over.

So and so, confused and confused.No direction, no purpose, no motivation.No one is in charge of him, nor will anyone be in charge of him. ——Parents are gone.During college, even though he was always depressed and showed no performance, there were still many girls who showed affection, but Xu Guangling refused and ignored them all. To him, it seemed to be something from another world.

Indifferent, silent, withdrawn, even weird, this is Xu Guangling after his parents' accident.

However, time is really a force that cannot be ignored.Five or six years is enough to quietly change some things, revive the ashes, and revitalize the silence.Or maybe it was because he had changed many places, climbed mountains, and seen more seas. Xu Guangling gradually became less gloomy.

He began to try to write or record some things again, about his parents, about himself, about the outside world's landscape knowledge and so on, or a few words, or longer, but no longer published.

He also tried to recompose some songs, some songs, some tunes, or both songs, or just one or two melodies and fragments. Similarly, these are only recorded and will not be published.Not to mention whether it is good or not, the reason why it will not be published is that these things are to record his mood, record his experience, record his impressions and nostalgia, which are too personal and too selfish.

Those are some things that are not suitable to be made public, but only suitable for one person, to be recorded quietly and recalled quietly.

He also made some friends.

I didn’t take the initiative to make friends with you, but I have traveled many places and experienced many mountains and rivers. There will always be some people who hit it off with you at first sight. Just a look, a smile, or a few simple words will fit you. up.

There are quite a few people like this, and some of them, after they parted, were separated from each other.And there are still some who meet again in different places accidentally or inevitably, or even meet again and again, so they become friends, even good friends.

At this time, Xu Guangling chatted with two friends online.

These two friends are both insects.

The so-called insects are also from Kunming.When traveling to Xiazhou and counties, many Kunming people left a bad impression on the locals because they didn’t pay much attention to anything, so they got the name "insect". The word itself is derogatory, but since it was expanded , and many Kunming people call themselves insects.

For example, the person Xu Guangling was chatting with at this time had a profile of "an insect." It was also from him that Xu Guangling learned about insects.

Dasha: Third child, come over to play?

The wine is too thin to drink (Xu Guangling): Where are you?Where else have you not played?

Mr. Jia: I won’t talk about Dali, Lijiang and Shangri-La, but you have been to Bianzhai.I thought about it, but there is a place that the three of us have never been to. Third, have you heard of Fuxian Lake?

Xu Guangling did not, so he used Baidu.

After browsing a lot of web pages, Xu Guangling even came across a passage like this: Yunnan people are generous, they selflessly share Lijiang Shangri-La and other beautiful scenery with the world, and Yunnan people are selfish, they give the best things I left it to myself. (Here refers to Fuxian Lake)

Xu Guangling copied this passage up.

The wine is too thin to drink: really so good?

Dasha: I don’t know, I guess.Because as a local, I have never heard of it before!But it doesn't matter, go and see it.

The wine is too thin to drink: OK.

Mr. Jia: Or come by train?The idiot and I will pick you up tomorrow.

The wine is too thin to drink: good.

(End of this chapter)