I'm Princess Jing in Crossing the Langya List

Chapter 61 A heart-wrenching dilemma Originally, Bai Yue would always rush to Langzhou to visit Mei Changsu before the first snow fell, but this year he did not come as scheduled.

Grandmother died before the snow fell. Although she always wanted to see the snow scene in Jinling, she still couldn’t survive the permanent autumn—every minute and every second seemed to pass very slowly. Not even a single shadow could be found.

Bai Yue sent her grandmother away amidst the crying of the entire family. Tears fell as if she was dying. The little grandma and the eldest grandma stayed by her side all the time, with solemn expressions like two Buddhas. .

For Bai Yue, Bai Mansion suddenly became a meaningless empty mansion, and Bai Ye hesitated to speak a few times, but he couldn't arouse her interest.

Mei Changsu was very worried about Bai Yue, but he and Lin Chen were caught up in Jianghu affairs recently, so they couldn't come here in person, so they had to let Mr. Shisan watch more.

The letters Mr. Shisan returned were getting worse and worse. Miss Bai Yue's complexion was getting worse and worse, and her expression was a little dazed. Should she use other things to divert her attention.

Mei Changsu pondered for a while, but still thought of Jingyan.

Xiao Jingyan, who guarded his loyal heart in Jinling, turned out to be the only person in Jinling who could bring joy to Xiaoyue.

Regarding the matter of Xiaoyue marrying Jingyan, to be honest, Mei Changsu hasn't made up his mind yet.After he saw the current situation where two tigers were competing, he immediately thought of Fu Jingyan as the leader—this meant that he needed a wife with a clean family background and a high position, a wife who was suitable to be a queen .Xiaoyue is not suitable for life in the harem. If she becomes a queen, she may not even be able to achieve the level of Queen Yan.It is impossible to accommodate the concubines of the sixth palace with generosity, and it is impossible to coquettish and win favor like Yue Guifei.

Jingyan——Xiao Jingyan, who can be said to be an emperor, is also suitable for Xiaoyue.As an emperor, even if he is above the Nine Heavens, he must also bear the pressure that ordinary people cannot match. The arm Xiaoyue needs must not always lean on her and become her reliance, otherwise Xiaoyue will be lost.Her eyes will be grayed, her color will be dimmed, her life will be cut short.

Mei Changsu frowned slightly, the charcoal stove in front of him was burning hot, but he still felt cold.Fei Liu, who was frozen in speech and expression, squatted silently across from him. The two of them were like two huge icebergs. They were far away and formidable, but they couldn't get rid of the frost on their bodies.

"Fei Liu, do you think people are selfish?" Mei Changsu asked.

Fei Liu didn't understand what selfishness was, but as long as Brother Changsu said it was correct, he nodded vigorously.

Mei Changsu smiled—no, it was just a slight twitch of the corner of his mouth, not really a smile.

"I used to think that I objected to the marriage between Jingyan and your sister Xiaoyue just because I thought they were not compatible, but now—" Changsu's eyebrows are getting lighter and lighter, like a fairy floating in the air.

Fei Liu tilted his head to look at him, quietly waiting for his next words.

Facing Fei Liu's crystal-clear eyes, Mei Changsu suddenly lost his voice. His thoughts should not be told to such a child.Fei Liu is as clear and transparent as Xiao Yue, so he shouldn't just be stained with the ashes of the world.

Changsu didn't go on talking, Feiliu still tilted his head to look at him, as if he was the only one in the world, Mei Changsu.

Mei Changsu covered his heart, perhaps because he realized that Xiaoyue's most distressed list was not only for himself, but for others as well.Even if it's Jingyan, he still feels jealous, but that's his Mei Changsu's younger sister!

Just as Mei Changsu was pressing down on his hot heart, Li Gang's message came from outside: "Princess Nihuang has arrived."

Mei Changsu's eyelids twitched slightly, and it took him a long time to answer, "Is there still time to stop her?"

Li Gang lowered his eyebrows outside the window: "I'm afraid it's too late, the subordinates have already heard footsteps."

"The one who should come will always come." Mei Changsu smiled lightly, this time Fei Liu definitely felt the smile from him, and he also twitched the corner of his mouth slightly.The effect is not very good, but it is still an attempt by him as a human being.

"Fei Liu." Mei Changsula said with Fei Liu's hand, "A beautiful sister will come later, if she gets emotional, you can stop her, okay? But you must not hurt her, you understand? "

Fei Liu was assigned a task for the first time, his eyes were full of longing, and he nodded fiercely.Mei Changsu smiled and patted his head, then let him stand behind her.

Although Fei Liu didn't understand why he did this, Li Gang and Zhen Ping both did this when outsiders came in the past.

Nihuang soon came in. She was still wearing white clothes. Mei Changsu knew that this dress was not only a tribute to her father, but also a distant memory of her fiancé, Lin Shu, who was about to go to Changan in anger. , the little fireman who single-handedly broke into the thieves' camp, the idiot who was willing to grow old with her forever.

Mei Changsu felt his heart ache, as if a piece had been torn apart, and blood flowed out in large quantities, forming rivers, lakes and seas, forming vicissitudes of life, forming a scene that would never return.

He wanted to be Little Fireman, Lin Shu, and the young man who was in love with Nihuang.However, he can only sit here now and can't do anything.

Lin Shu has a birthmark on his arm, Lin Shu knows peerless martial arts, and the most beautiful thing Lin Shu has is longevity—the kind of paving stone that can accompany the lover to the end.

Nihuang seemed very calm, but Mei Changsu still felt unusual fluctuations. In fact, the conversation between Xiaoyue and Nihuang had already reached him, but he kept paralyzing himself, persuading himself that Nihuang would calm down. Phoenix will not come.

But what should come will still come.

"What's the important thing for the princess to come to the Jiangzuo League?" Mei Changsu calmed down, with a businesslike tone.

Nihuang raised her eyebrows: "I'm here to speak out for a friend of mine."

"Jiang Zuomeng sees the princess's help to Xiaoyue. If the princess has any orders, just send someone to say it. Why come all the way here." Mei Changsu smiled slightly at Li Gang outside the window , Li Gang understands.

Nihuang was not in a hurry to sit down, she just stood there looking down at Mei Changsu, his hair was neatly brushed, how did he comb it every morning?Or is there someone else helping him?

"Many times, people only trust their own eyes, and I am no exception." Nihuang said slowly.

Mei Changsu looked up at her, Nihuang's eyes were bright.

"Sometimes the eyes make mistakes." Mei Changsu tilted his head and lowered his eyebrows, and replied with a smile, "Is there any time when the Princess is wrong?"

Nihuang also smiled: "Of course there is. For example, when I saw Sect Master Mei for the first time, I thought that Sect Master Mei was just a commoner."

"Am I not?"

Li Gang's tea was brought up, and he knelt on one side, pouring tea for them. The green tea fell from mid-air into the jade cup along the jade-colored spout, and gradually released small water splashes, which were also translucent and beautiful.

Mei Changsu put one of the glasses on the opposite side, and Nihuang sat down with her mouth pursed.The two of them looked at each other, both of them were filled with thousands of rivers that could not stop, but the spring breeze was blowing on their faces without making a sound.

"It's not anymore. You are planning to send your righteous sister to King Jing, don't you want to meddle in the affairs of the court?" Nihuang raised the cup but didn't drink it, just held it in her hand.

However, Mei Changsu took a sip leisurely, and said, "I wouldn't do such a thing. Besides, since you want to intervene to seize the heir, it would be a more reasonable explanation to send Xiaoyue to King Yu or the crown prince, right?"

Nihuang didn't speak, she watched Mei Changsu drink tea, and suddenly took a sip, black air gathered between her brows, this was not Lin Shu's previous taste.

Feeling very irritable for no reason, Nihuang drank the remaining tea and asked: "Then do you agree with Prince Jing and Miss Bai Yue?"

Mei Changsu paused, and said, "This is their business."

Yeah?The corners of Nihuang's lips curled up slightly, as if mocking him. It's no wonder that not long ago in Yunnan, Nihuang prevented Xiao Jingyan and Bai Yue from meeting for him.Say it's none of your business right now?Nihuang felt disappointed. She felt that her brother Lin Shu would not be so irresponsible. What was this Mei Changsu thinking?Let's find a chance to try the birthmark on his body first.

Mei Changsu ignored Nihuang's sarcasm, he was willing to be honest with Nihuang about everything except his identity, but he hadn't thought about Xiaoyue's matter yet.

He not only wants Xiaoyue to be perfect, but also Jingyan to be perfect—in fact, he wants his Zhao Xue thing to be perfect most of all.

Will he break up Xiaoyue and Jingyan for the sake of the Red Flame Army?

It's hard to say now, he knows that the living need a bright future, but he also bears the hope of the dead.He dared not forget a word of what his father said when he let go of the cliff that day. When chewing in the dark, life would suddenly be full of strength.

He can't die, he wants to pay back the innocence of the [-] Red Flame Army, and let his father accept other people's sacrifices in a dignified way.It's not watching Jingyan secretly wear plain clothes and being squeezed out, not watching Nihuang being jealous and forced to separate from Qing'er, let alone being in the glorious era brought by King Qi, but even him dare not mention his name.

In order for Emperor Liang to plead guilty, he must have a strong backing. He can not only grasp the morale of the army, but also shine on civil servants. Behind him, there must be the shadow of the clan, and more importantly, he must be able to bring unprecedented light to the entire Liang.

And these, only Jingyan can do.

From the moment he woke up, he lost the qualification to strip away every layer of his heart in the sunshine, and now he hides everything in the deepest part of his heart.

You can't see the sunshine, but you have to work hard to drive the sunshine into the lives of others.

At this moment, Nihuang suddenly felt Lin Shu's touch came back.