Chief President, I love you to the core

Qiao Jinglian's eyes turned red all of a sudden, he really didn't know how to describe this feeling, it was as if his heart had been pulled out, it was nothing more than frying it in a frying pan, he looked at Zijin and cried As if he was about to hold his breath, his thin face was covered with tears, like a hideous little crab, crawling on it meanderingly. ‖? .

He pursed his lips tightly, his heart ached, but he still stretched out his hand, his trembling fingers gently wiped away her tears, he hugged the fragile woman into his arms, but he didn't know how to comfort her She is the best, and I can only feel that her tears kept gushing out of her eyes, and then soaked his white shirt.

Qiao Jinglian's thin lips twitched for a moment, but in the end she didn't say anything, but quietly and gently stroked her long black hair, squatting in front of her, letting her lie on her shoulders, and crying heartily .

It's okay to cry.

What he was most afraid of was that she would keep silent and suppress all her emotions deep in her heart. The doctor was afraid that her behavior would be bad for the fetus. Now that she could finally cry, it would be fine if she had cried.

Zijin was really uncomfortable, not because she didn't want to shed tears, but because she always felt that Gu Yanshen was not dead, and he wouldn't leave him alone like this, she didn't believe it, so why did she cry?

But waiting is the most torturous thing in this world.

For so many days and nights in the past, she almost slowly piled up more despair on top of despair. When she suddenly heard this song today, she felt that those clear words were just mocking her lonely self.

It turned out that Gu Yanshen was not by her side, the whole world was so quiet, and she was so embarrassed.

Does he not want her?

Did he really leave like this?

She couldn't bear it any longer, all her emotions came fiercely like a flood that broke a bank, crushing her self-deception and causing her to collapse completely. She used to like hugging that man's waist so much. At that time, he smiled softly and said to himself with evil spirits——Zijin, you like to scratch me here, and the shirt is scratched by you. Change another Let you grab the place, okay?

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As if she had been electrocuted, the whole body reacted suddenly, and stretched out her hand to push Qiao Jinglian away, but because the movement was too vigorous, and she didn't have much strength, she lost her balance and fell backwards. Qiao Jinglian quickly reached out and grabbed her, "...Zijin."

"Don't, don't touch me, don't come here..."

"Zijin, it's me..."

"Don't...don't..." She shook her head, her vision had long been blurred, the whole world seemed to have been subverted by someone, and she could no longer see any color, and the darkness made her feel uncomfortable, "...he doesn't I like that I am too close to other men. If he knows, he will be angry. I don’t want him to be angry. When he is by my side, I always feel that he will always be by my side, even one day Leaving me, maybe he will be in a certain corner of the world. I never thought that one day he will really be like this... Leave me alone. That's why I'm so unscrupulous... Do you think he is Angry? He was also... angry before, and suddenly went to England, is he also angry now..."

"Zijin!"

Qiao Jinglian stood up abruptly, and pulled her up together. He grasped her slender waist with one hand knowingly, and the slender waist seemed to be cut off with a pinch of his fingers. Pain, but still had to pull her to the door, "Come with me, I'll take you to a place."

"I do not want to go--"

Zijin struggled and shook his head, "I don't want to go anywhere, I want to wait for him here, he will come back, Yanshen will definitely come back! I don't want to go..."

"Zijin! Can you stop doing this? Gu Yanshen is dead! He is dead! He was killed by a bomb! He will not come back! You are right, he may be watching us from the sky, Can you wake up a bit, he—”

With a "snap", the crisp sound abruptly interrupted Qiao Jinglian's words.

"Zijin..." Qiao Jinglian turned her face to the side, but it really didn't hurt much, and it wasn't the first time he was slapped by her. How much strength can a woman have?What's more, her current strength is worse than usual.

But he felt uncomfortable, what made him uncomfortable was seeing her decisive eyes, and what she said word by word afterward——

"I said, Gu Yanshen is not dead, Yanshen is not dead! I won't let you talk about him again, I won't let you hear that?!"

"Go ahead."

Qiao Jinglian sighed lightly, smiled self-deprecatingly, put her face in front of her, and said in a low voice: "Zijin, no matter how many times you hit me, I won't feel pain, but I still feel uncomfortable , but what fact can you change if you hit me? Gu Yanshen is dead, no matter how many times you hit me, I still have to say, I have to make you accept this fact, do you know? There is still a child in your belly! You When will this self-abuse go? Look at you—come with me!"

He grabbed Zijin's hand, ignored her struggle and resistance, and dragged her to the full-length mirror in the bedroom, where two figures were immediately reflected

All Zijin's struggles suddenly stopped. Is that... the woman in the mirror... pale, thin, and extremely haggard?

Those big dark eyes were red and swollen at the moment, and the face that was originally delicate and full of aura was even more expressionless at the moment.

She didn't know that she had tormented herself like this.

Qiao Jinglian pressed her shoulders with both hands, then pointed to Zijin in the mirror, and said, "Look at you, Zijin, your stomach is only less than 3 months old, the baby really needs nutrition, but what are you doing?" Toss this child? Do you really think that apart from Gu Yanshen, there is no one else in this world who can let you live a good life? What about this? This child, is he not worthy of your strong life? For yourself, for your children, and—Brother wants you to live well, so live on, okay?"

child……

child……

That's right, she's about to forget that she's already pregnant, and this child belongs to her and Gu Yanshen, yet she's been torturing this child all this time...

Seeing the look in her eyes, Qiao Jinglian was already touched, took her hand again, and said, "Zijin, I'll take you somewhere."

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sea.

The blue sea, stretching as far as the eye can see, seems to be connected with the horizon.

Zijin was dragged out of the car by Qiao Jinglian, what she saw was this scene, in fact, it was really beautiful, the blue sea, the blue sky, she didn't know how much she had since she had never breathed so fresh Because I am standing here, my breath seems to have a wet and salty smell, but it does not make people feel disgusted at all.

The blowing sea breeze messed up her skirt and her long hair. She stood there motionless.

"I have encountered things that I can't live with before, so I will come here."

Qiao Jinglian looked at her profile and said, "Zijin, follow my example and shout out to the sea what you want but dare not say, and you will feel very comfortable."

"........."

"Actually, a person will encounter too many things in his life. I know that in this world, apart from life and death, which is not a trivial matter? But a dead person is one thing, but a living person has to bear countless things. Suffering, this is the most difficult, right?"

"........."

"At that time, I suddenly had a half-brother brother who was better than me in everything, so I came here, and I shouted to the sea: "I hate this man so much, why is he my brother? "

"At that time, I really had a feeling that I was both born Yu and Shengliang. Later, I was betrayed by Xie Lingxi, and I still came here. I felt like a fool. I looked glamorous, as if I had everything. In the end , but I’m just a fool who doesn’t know anything. But when you divorced me, I was the saddest. But I didn’t come at that time, I kept this thought in my heart, I know that you and I The distance is too far, and sometimes I really don’t want to shout out this sadness, I know that once I shout out, it seems like there is nothing.”

"Zijin."

Qiao Jinglian gently pinched her shoulder blades, walked around behind her, and whispered in her ear: "Today I want to shout out all these sadness, and you will follow me, when you turn around, you You will definitely find that your life has turned a new page.”

"Come on, what do you want to say, you can say it to it."

Zijin had been listening quietly all the time. At the end of Qiao Jinglian's words, what did those words mean? In fact, Zijin knew very well in her heart that no matter how sad she was, she would never fail to feel that a man's concern for a woman is what it is. What does it represent.

Really, he didn't have to do that at all.

Zijin gently pushed his hand away, she didn't say anything to Hai as he said, but turned around calmly, looked at Qiao Jinglian, and said, "Thank you for doing it for me. Everything, maybe for any of you, Yanshen, he is really... I have been unwilling to accept this reality, but now I know that he is not dead in my heart, he has always lived in my heart, These days... I must have caused you a lot of trouble, Jing Lian, I really thank you, but I don't want to turn over the page of my life that is related to Gu Yanshen. I want to keep it, no matter where he is No matter where he is, he will always be in my heart.”

"Don't worry, I will never abuse myself, let alone my baby."

She stretched out her hand and gently covered her lower abdomen, "You are right, this is Yanshen and I's child, I will do well, for the sake of the child."

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In the following time, Zijin really did what she said—well, for the sake of the child.

She began to eat and take medicine on time, everything seemed so good, and gradually returned to normal, but only she knew how the bone-deep pain tortured her when she couldn't sleep all night .

She was in pain, but she couldn't cry out, she wanted to cry, but she couldn't cry.

But no matter how deep the pain is, it will probably gradually become a habit and become natural with the passage of time.

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When she was 4 months old, her belly was already slightly swollen. Her petite figure made her belly more prominent.Probably because she is usually very careful, so the fetus develops very well.

Tao Wantian and Shen Dongming's health have also returned to normal, and now they come to see her every day, go to class every week, and then there are birth checks and the like, all of which are accompanied by Qiao Jinglian, and I have just refused a few times , but Qiao Jinglian said every time - elder brother told me before, let me take good care of you, this is my responsibility, besides, isn't your child my nephew?

If Zijin didn't refute it, he could say it. If there were too many times, he would let him go.

However, Qiao Jinglian always opens her mouth and shuts her mouth to call her elder brother, which is really smooth.

Sometimes when I think about it, life is impermanent, and I really answered this sentence.

In a blink of an eye, it is already the end of the year.

The weather is getting colder, and Zijin's belly is getting bigger and bigger. It is inconvenient for her to do many things by herself, but Gu Huimin has asked her aunt who has been taking care of her food and daily life to take care of her 24 hours a day. Zijin has always lived alone. In Gu Yanshen's apartment, Gu Huimin himself usually comes over 2 or 3 times a week, while Tao Wantian and Shen Dongming live in Zijin's previous house, and basically visit her every day.

However, on this day, it was snowing heavily and the traffic was not smooth, so no one could catch up. Zijin stayed in the apartment all day and did not go out all day. She was wearing a light blue thick sweater with a gray pair underneath Tied trousers, at home, have a constant temperature, and will not feel cold or hot all year round. She can wear whatever is comfortable.

In fact, the belly has been 6 months old, and now I have a big belly, which is really uncomfortable. Auntie happened to go shopping again today, and it is already dinner time, and she has not come back yet.

Zijin was so hungry that he wanted to get something to eat by himself. When he went into the kitchen, he found that there were a lot of washed vegetables in the sink. Zijin took some out and prepared noodles.

When she opened the refrigerator to get the noodles, the cold air rushed towards her face, and her heart, which seemed to have been frozen for almost half a year, also burst at this moment.

There is a kind of pain that slowly seeps out from the cracks.

On the bottom shelf on the upper shelf of the refrigerator, there was a package of noodles lying quietly after being unpacked.

All kinds of things from the past, just like this, come rushing towards us.

She remembered that when she was hungry, he liked to make noodles for himself.

She still remembered that they had a quarrel that day, and it was the last time he made noodles for himself, and there was a fierce dispute at the end.

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She thought that so many days had passed, it had been several months, more than half a year, the pain she thought she could hide, but it was still dormant quietly, as long as you were not careful, all these pains would come out, Tear off the false mask you put on so hard.

With trembling hands, Zijin took out the bag of noodles, probably because the expiration date has not expired, this kind is vacuum-packed, and there are small packets of sub-packages inside, so the aunt who cooks has never lost it.She slowly caressed the plastic bag with her fingers, and then closed the refrigerator. She didn't shed a single tear, but just opened two small packages, and then took some cooked vegetables that had been washed and put them on the cutting board. a bowl of noodles.

She still remembered how the noodles he made for herself tasted like.

But when he was cutting vegetables, he accidentally cut himself. Zijin didn't pay attention, and subconsciously exclaimed. The kitchen knife in his hand also snapped and fell to the floor with a crisp sound. Zijin was so frightened. Jin's face turned pale, and soon there was a rush of footsteps outside, as well as a familiar male voice——

"Zijin, what's wrong with you?"

"........."

Zijin pressed her finger with one hand, and the moment she turned her face away, her heart rose to her throat. At that moment, she really thought that the voice she heard belonged to Gu Yanshen, and the person she saw was also Gu Yanshen. .

But the person standing in front of him was not him, but Qiao Jinglian.

"What's wrong with you? Your fingers are bleeding."

Qiao Jinglian didn't know what she was thinking, and glanced at the messy cutting board again, he sighed, "I knew it, Auntie said to call you, but you didn't answer, and thought you were sleeping, so you called me Come on, I bought you something to eat, come on, let me bandage your wound first."

"no need……"

Zijin pulled out her hand, her expression extremely gloomy, she passed Qiao Jinglian and was about to walk to the bedroom, and said weakly: "It's just a small wound, don't bother, I'll take a bandage and stick it on myself later, I'll rest first , not hungry..."

"You are pregnant now, and you are not in good health. Do you still want to bleed yourself?"

Qiao Jinglian frowned, dragged her over, let her sit on the sofa, and ran to the room, found the prepared medicine box, and carefully disinfected her fingers. During the disinfection, there was a slight The pain, but Zijin didn't seem to feel it, and didn't respond at all.

After the bandage was finished, she still maintained her original posture. Qiao Jinglian didn't think too much about it, and took out the food that she specially asked someone to go to the hotel to cook, "Eat something, it's all your favorite food."

In the past six months, he has seen himself almost every day.

It's not that Zijin doesn't know what his kindness to her means, but she no longer has the energy to think about it. Now that she suddenly looks at him like this, Zijin feels how unfair this is to Qiao Jinglian. In fact, he is so good, it is really not worth wasting too much time for himself.

He opened the lunch box and smelled the aroma, but Zijin suddenly raised his head and looked at Qiao Jinglian, "Jinglian, I want to go to England."

"........."

All movements stopped suddenly, Qiao Jinglian raised her head, "What did you say?"

His voice was a little cold, Zijin lowered his eyes quietly, "I think it's the same wherever I live, I just want to go to England, maybe the child will be born there... Do you remember? Yanshen's household registration is British, ours My child, of course I want to be like him, I want Ji Yang to help me..."

"Shen Zijin!"

Qiao Jinglian dropped the chopsticks in her hand, and looked at her with burning eyes. There were too many emotions in her eyes, and Zijin couldn't explain it carefully, "Is it really so unforgettable? I have done so much for you, you really Can't you see anything?"

"........."

"It's been so long, yes, maybe for you, every day is a torment, but for me, isn't it? The last sentence he said to me before was-no matter what, take good care of me Take good care of her and let her live well. I said to him—Gu Yanshen, you tried your best to take this woman away from me, but now you want me to take good care of her. What do you think I am, Qiao Jinglian? It's not your free nanny, if you dare not come back, then I won't let go, I will let her become my woman again—"

Zijin's heart trembled, and he looked at Qiao Jinglian with a somewhat stiff and awkward gaze.

Qiao Jinglian stared at her non-stop, "Zijin, your comprehension ability shouldn't be that bad, right? I've worked hard for so long, you should be able to see it, right? I don't want you to be alone , so lonely, and I don’t want your child to have no father, so I come, I don’t mind at all, I will take good care of you, you are still so young, single mothers will be very hard, instead of you going to find someone else later, Why don't you find me? I will treat you well, I..."

"do not talk."

Zijin stood up suddenly, the movement was too big, the corner of the sweater happened to touch the food box beside her, she pulled subconsciously, the food box fell to the floor with a thud, and the vegetable soup splashed out and penetrated into her body There was a stain on the top of the sweater.

Her slender fingers tightly grasped the corner of the clothes, and said word by word: "I won't look for others, and I don't feel lonely. My child has only one father, and it can't be anyone. It must be Gu Yanshen."

"Zijin—"

"Jinglian, stop talking, I beg you! Don't force me, okay? I know you are always by my side, but you know, I don't love you, I might compromise my life, I might I will compromise on... many things, but I will not compromise on love. I only love Gu Yanshen, no man in this world can replace him."

"I didn't say to replace him, you can think about him, I just want to take care of you, Zijin, time can wear down too many things, it doesn't matter if you don't love me, we are family, aren't we?"

Qiao Jinglian took a step forward, but Zijin took a step back. She shook her head and said firmly, "No, it's impossible. In my life, I will never see him again, and I will never be with anyone else."

"........."

After Zijin finished speaking, he turned and walked into the bedroom.

Qiao Jinglian stood quietly in the living room alone. He smoked 5 cigarettes. He waited until the corners of his lips were numb. Then he stood up slowly and shook the ash off his body. He stood at the bedroom door and knocked on the door. Knocking on the door, regardless of whether Zijin could hear it or not, he spoke in a hoarse voice, "...I'll take you to see Gu Yanshen."

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