I'm invincible at the start

Chen Tian smiled, not a smirk, but the scene before his eyes.
His soul began to dissipate.
no one can stop
He let go of everything, and looked back at the scene before him.
That was when he was watching the show, seeing her getting ready to go on stage.

It was a sunset in his heart, and he once persuaded him not to go on that show because it was boring.

But she said that the program group gave a lot of money.

he doesn't talk anymore
She looked anxious, annoyed, and even had a feeling of "breaking the pot", she really looked like a little girl.

He was still thinking that her personality hadn't changed for the better, and she couldn't bear the pressure at all, and it was all written on her face.As soon as she came on stage, she said that her leader thought she was dead because she couldn't be contacted. Someone immediately took a picture of the flashlight. She was surprised, and I was also surprised.

Am I thinking this is funny?It's kind of funny, because it's so ironic, it's like this in today's industry, no matter what time of day, even at 3 o'clock in the morning, you have to be on call.

I found out later that she had severe depression and committed suicide many times. The female leader was afraid of her death, but she was really afraid of her death
He always remembers what she told the back of the story, saying that the subway in the northern border goes round and round day after day, and the universe has an end. There is no such thing in the northern border, let alone Shang Hai.
Probably, all those who have worked in first-tier cities can smile knowingly, with tears in their smiles.

When I was in Guangzhou, I took the subway in the wrong direction several times.

Every time she sends me a WeChat message and knows that I am taking the subway, she reminds me not to take the wrong direction.

But in fact, counting the many times I have taken the subway, it is normal to occasionally take the wrong direction a few times.

The subway in Guangzhou does not go around in circles. It is like a spider web extending from the old city of Zhujiang. After get off work, you silently walk farther and farther away from the bustling city.

If you get off work on time, getting on the subway in the old city of Zhujiang is a matter of knowledge. At that time, I did a lot of research on how to get to the place with the fewest people the fastest.

In the last few trains, there were much fewer people, but still more than I expected, but I can walk into the subway with peace of mind.

At this time, I will look at the clothes of men and women in the subway station. They are all dressed brightly, which perfectly matches the high-rise summer.

Later, when I changed careers, a friend joked that those people work in the most glamorous office buildings and wear the most glamorous clothes, but their income is far lower than that of those programmers in game companies in remote suburbs who wear big pants and pull slippers.

Sometimes I really think, what confuses young people, thinking that they can earn more money and live a better life in a big city than in a small city.
Later, I changed careers to the game industry. In the remote Luogang, I no longer have to take the subway.

Before I moved there, I had to take a bus to go there for a long time. First, there was a road with fewer and fewer houses, and then I went around an old factory building area, and then I passed an orchard, and finally arrived at it under the overpass. , it feels like it's almost there.

The road is new, wide and straight. The bus dropped me off at the gate of the community, and I walked on Banhe Road for nearly 800 meters to the company park.

When it rains, it’s really bad. There are flooded and dead cars everywhere in the factory building, and that road can only accommodate two cars, and it can be blocked at once. The driver can only take a detour, but Wherever I went, I found that there was a blockage, and the 45-minute journey to work could not be reached in three or four hours.

The company is also very humane, knowing this situation and notifying them that they will not be late that day, and the colleagues who took the company bus in Huangcun after [-] o'clock in the afternoon have not been seen since [-] o'clock in the afternoon.

But that's not a problem in broad daylight.

I often work overtime at work, the last bus is after nine o'clock, but I arrived after 12 o'clock.

It was called Didi at the beginning, because Didi is cheaper than taxis.

But once when taking Didi, the driver was greedy for the shortest route and took a shortcut.

Later, I became very familiar with the shortcut, that is, from the old factory area I mentioned, turn left and walk a section of dirt road, enter another factory area, those factories are much newer, but there are no people there, and then walk a section of dirt road, Turn into a farmland, pass a path in the middle of a pond, and then arrive at Huangpu District.

The first time I walked that road, there was no light, no figure, or a dog barking on the road. I didn't know if the driver could see the road clearly. I only knew that I was really scared.

I don't know how to describe that place to others, but I can only say that there is no dog, and the car is bumping on the dirt road, and I can only see clearly the place where the headlights shine.

I can only keep chatting with the driver in a friendly way, revealing that someone is waiting for me at the end, but I know that there is actually no one.

I have told more than one person that that part of the road scares me, but no one seems to believe that a part of the road in Guangzhou can be scary.But in the end, because of some things, I made up my mind to move out.

Living in a new place is a very happy time. The rental price is not expensive and the environment is comfortable.

Walking the dog downstairs in the community, I met a lot of dog friends. I lived alone in one room and one living room for a period of time. When I went to work or walked the dog at night, I was always afraid that I would lose the key. Imagine walking the dog countless times. At that time, the key was dropped in the sewer.

It was actually a relatively peaceful time during that time, the work was relatively smooth, and the team atmosphere was also good, which gave me the hope of settling down in Guangzhou.

Even at that time, I started to think about buying a house there.

But I don’t know why it started to take a turn for the worse from a certain point. The pressure of being promoted too fast at work began to distort me. My friend said that this was because I was taking too many steps, so I resigned later.

Looking back, I always feel that this resignation is very regrettable, but thinking about it, it seems that there is no way.

I will go to Gaowan for my next job, and I choose to live in Foshan New City, which is very close to Gaowan.

I am really a person who is very good at renting houses. It seems that I am lucky enough to find a good house, but I really did a lot of homework. I read a lot of information and listed a lot of tables in advance, so I know exactly where to look. house, and what kind of house to look for.

The first house I rented was in Huangpu. It was very close to the subway entrance. It took less than 30 minutes to get to the old town of Zhujiang by subway. It was an old-fashioned public dormitory surrounded by government agencies. It was safe and comfortable, with three bedrooms and one living room. feel like home.

The second and the third one turned out that the environment and price were very suitable there, so that some people in the circle of friends who posted the pictures envied me.

The last one was in Foshan, and it took two days to find it. On the first day, I went to see the house for a day, but I couldn't find the one I liked.

The transportation takes half an hour to reach the place of work, because it is late to work overtime, there should be no dark paths from the subway station to the place where I live, and the price should not be too high, otherwise I will not be able to afford it; the place must be large enough to put my super many things.

It was tricky, and the first day was frustrating, especially when compared to the original place.

The next day, my friend at the time accompanied me to see it. I was already very frustrated and had no confidence. He encouraged me to comfort me and said that he would come to look for it together today, so I barely moved.

Finally, I found a house with a very good price and the entrance of the community was next to the subway station.

As I said this, I was really moved by the scene at that time.

At that time, I was full of hope for my life in Foshan and had many plans.Sitting in front of the KFC in Pucheng, although very frustrated, but fortunately everything is okay.

This is a very suitable place for living. Going out to the left is the tourist spot Ancestral Temple, various internet celebrity check-in points, and to the right is Pujun New City. There are a lot of delicious food praised by Laofoshan around it, which are cheap and delicious.

There is also a breakfast rice roll behind the complex that tastes better than everything in Guangzhou. It only costs [-] yuan. I really hope that I can buy my own apartment there.

It seems that Liangliangtangtang is about to start a bright journey, but unfortunately, after struggling for a year, it still ends in failure.

Later, I read a passage, and I repeatedly sent it to my ex in the circle of friends. In general, you are like a piece of candy that I have been looking forward to for a long time and painstakingly peeled. The moment I brought it to my mouth, it fell to the ground.

Someone's universe ends in the sea of ​​stars, mine ends here.I came back to the same place, I took the bus by myself, looked at the road around the island and the sea on the bus, and changed to Dejima in the back house.

The sea in Nan'ao is really beautiful. I remember it very clearly. Every time I go there, I can't help but take a lot of photos.

At that time, I also thought, will I live in this place, will I live in this place.Everything was different from what I thought. The reefs and those white seabirds wagged their heads and tails away from me. I have never been in nature, and I have never been half-kind.

I am in awe of nature, and like everyone else, I said goodbye to the sea, and the sea said back to me, who are you.

Sometimes I also think, will I go to this island again, it is not necessary.I have seen a lot of scenery here. The seas all over the world are like this.

I have eaten the best seafood on this island, and I will not be able to eat it next time.

I came back at the end of February last year, and it has been more than a year and a half now.

I have experienced more things than I imagined, probably because I owe Shantou too much, and I have to pay off the debt when I come back suddenly.

Then suddenly there was silence in the chaos again, leaving me a little helpless and at a loss.

Finally, I too am finally entering a new life.

A few months ago, I thought this was another playground, but I calmed down and realized that, just like in the past, work is work, and I am myself, not what others say it is.

If you are impetuous, you will listen to others again, what should be done here, what should be done by you.

But unfortunately, I am a very proud person, I say what I do, I am smarter than most people.It was so in the past and it is so now.

"What a beautiful illusion"

Chen Tian left two clear tears, his body turned into starlight and disappeared from the world
No one knows if the last thing he saw was the one he had. Maybe it was, or maybe it wasn't.