Mommy, look at Daddy kneeling again

Nuan Nuan looked at the man on the hospital bed, his eye sockets burned up little by little.

He even said that if he remarried, he would continue to insist on contraception. Why?
At this moment, she seemed to have returned to the rainy night when he drove after her and forced her to fall into the river.

Going back to the moment when she learned that he resolutely went for a vasectomy in order not to have a child with her, she felt chills to the bone.

"Feng Liyan, does it mean that if I get pregnant again, you still have to press me to fall off!?"

Feng Liyan looked at Nuan Nuan who suddenly lost control of his emotions in astonishment, "Why do you think so?"

Nuannuan rushed to the hospital bed unknowingly, with a sarcastic smile on her face.

"Because I almost lost the child in my womb back then! Because you did a vasectomy to prevent me from getting pregnant! Because even if we were together again, you would still choose contraception! Whether or not to have a child is clearly a matter between the husband and wife ! Why did you make all the decisions on your own?"

Nuan Nuan thought of this, and the grievance and anger in her heart surged again.

There are some things that she once thought were over, but maybe they haven't passed at all, and they were just deliberately suppressed by her in her heart.

Those emotions, held in the bottom of my heart for too long, suddenly turned into abscesses.

I usually use numbness to cover it up, but when it is pricked, I will find that it is still painful. Only when the abscess is completely pierced, will the scab really fall off and a new skin grow.

"Nuan Nuan, I..."

Feng Liyan panicked slightly, and sat up propped up. He raised his hand to touch the crystals that slipped from her eyes.

Nuan Nuan turned her head suddenly, and wiped it off first.

When she looked at him again, her emotions had calmed down, and her voice was no longer trembling and excited.

"Pregnancy and childbirth are things that every woman fantasizes about. In fantasies, this event is always sacred and beautiful. I am also an ordinary and vulgar woman. I also fantasize about preparing for a sweet pregnancy with the one I love and looking forward to a new life together. Come, when I tell him I'm pregnant, he will be ecstatic and hug me in circles, laughing like a fool..."

Obviously this kind of fantasy is not too much, obviously this is just a small happiness that ordinary wives can have, but why is it so difficult when it comes to her?

"Feng Liyan, when it comes to pregnancy and childbirth, you have always brought me negative emotions such as rejection and dislike, and I have never had any sense of security. How should I think about you?"

Nuannuan felt that his mouth was full of bitterness for no reason.

She looked at Feng Liyan with puzzlement and hurt in her eyes.

"You clearly said that you have untied the knot in your heart, and even kept saying that you love me, but you still don't want to have children with me? I can't understand, and I can't figure it out! Tell me clearly!"

Her body was trembling faintly, her face was pale, her hand hanging by her side was tightly clenched, her red, swollen and bruised five fingers curled up, excruciatingly painful.

Feng Liyan was slightly stunned. Looking at her at this moment, he realized how much he hurt and affected her when he forced her to kill the child.

That incident probably left the deepest scar on her heart, which has not healed until today, but he has been ignoring it all the time.

Feng Liyan seemed to have a ball of cotton choked in his throat, full of self-blame and remorse, he grabbed her hand violently.

Nuan Nuan's body was unstable, and he fell to the hospital bed, and was hugged tightly by the man.

He held her long hair, and his voice rang in her ears.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's my fault, I should have made it clear to you earlier, I thought that Lemon and Lemon had grown up so much, the thing I forced you back then was just a misunderstanding, I thought it was just a misunderstanding Our scars will make you blame me even more, since it's all over, there's no need to talk about it, but I didn't expect this matter to have such a big impact on your heart..."

Nuannuan listened to his helpless and gentle explanation, but clenched her fists, wanting to punch him a few times.

Her heart is also fleshy, so why should he think that if it hurts, he can just say it and let it go?

In the past, she didn't mention it because she still loved him and didn't want to hold on to the past.

Now that she has left him, let's settle the matter thoroughly.

"Nuannuan, I don't use contraception because I still can't accept having a baby with you. Back then, I got into a dead end to have a ligation. It was the most stupid and stupid thing I did in Feng Liyan's life. After we met again, I didn't even know it. I wanted you to have a baby for me when Lemon and Lemon were my children."

Nuannuan pushed Feng Liyan away in astonishment, she felt that she couldn't understand his words again, and couldn't figure out his logic.

"You don't know. At that time, I thought Lime and Lemon were the children of you and other men. How jealous and uncomfortable I was! I looked at them and wished I could tie you back and force you to give me a baby too. No, more babies!"

"However, when I know that Lime and Lemon are our children, I don't have that plan. If I explain it this way, don't you still understand?"

Nuannuan blinked slowly, thought about his words again, and suddenly seemed to understand his intention.

She looked at him in astonishment and shock, with mixed feelings in her heart.

"Nuannuan, in five years, I missed too much, I missed the birth of Baby Lemon, I was never the first person to hold them, I don't know what they looked like when they were born, I don't know their first birth. When did a deciduous tooth erupt, who helped them up when they fell for the first time, they were babbling, and I was not by their side when they first learned to call Daddy..."

"When I found out that Baby Lemon was our child, I couldn't sleep all night. Not only was my child missing, I was so anxious, but also because I thought of these regrets and misses, I felt so guilty that I couldn't sleep. I owed Baby Lemon too much. I haven't even accompanied them to an amusement park once, taking them on a trip..."

Nuannuan listened to his words, lowered her head, but the tears could no longer be controlled, she trembled slightly, and murmured.

"It turned out to be like this. It turns out that you only use contraception for Lemon and Lemon, because of the children..."

"Yes, I just found the children... No, Baby Lemon just found me as the daddy. I am not a qualified and responsible daddy. I owe the children too much, so I am not qualified to do it again until I make up for it Father of any new life."

"Nuannuan, I want to give my limited energy and fatherly love to Baby Lemon, that's all. If I still can't accept having a life with you, then I will ask Chi Baimo to perform a ligation operation on me, won't I?"

After Feng Liyan finished speaking, seeing Nuan Nuan keeping her head down, she felt more and more uneasy.

Seeing her silent appearance, his face, which was already not well, turned even paler.

"Nuan Nuan, I was wrong, you can punish me, whatever you want..."