I owe you a lifetime of love

It was only when he grew up that he learned some vague memories from his grandma.

Grandma said that Fu Xiao cheated on her mother while she was pregnant.

He also knew from his mother's diary that mother doesn't like children, so he was an accident...

It was also when I was married not long ago.

In a vague memory, he seemed to say that he didn't want An Nian to leave any hidden dangers.

He never bothered to explain, but now, when he stepped into this deserted villa, he seemed to be able to feel the grievance An Nian suffered at that time.

After she was pregnant, he complained briefly why the woman didn't tell him such a big thing, but now, he knows.

It's not that she didn't want to say it, it's that he never gave her a sense of security from the beginning to the end, and it's that he didn't give her a chance.

Fu Qingshen turned on the light in the living room, and he walked around the villa like a wandering ghost. When he reached the door of the baby room on the second floor, he stopped suddenly.

The girl sitting on the bay window appeared in his mind again, with tears all over her face.

At this moment, his heart ached so badly that he couldn't breathe.

He thought of An Nian when he married him three years ago. At that time, her eyes were shining with a smile on her face.

But now, the light in her eyes is gone, and her smile is gone.

Fu Qing held his heart with some heartache, he changed his clothes casually, and then went downstairs to the community where An Nian lived.

Fu Qingshen stood leaning against the car with one hand in his pocket. He didn't know when he had such deep feelings for An Nian.

It was a feeling of being in a daze, an unknown place, which made him feel terrible and strange.

He couldn't close his eyes, and all he could see was An Nian's appearance.

He just stood there and smoked two cigarettes. Suddenly, someone patted his shoulder.

Fu Qingshen turned his head to look, and saw An Nian standing quietly behind him.

He turned around abruptly, and at that moment, he thought it was an illusion, so he stared at her motionlessly.

Until the burnt cigarette butt burned his hand, a scorching tingling pulled back his thoughts.

Fu Qing moved his lips deeply, maybe it was too cold, his fingers were a little stiff from the cold, and the breath he exhaled after opening his mouth was hot.

"Annian, I..." He lowered his head subconsciously, "I didn't appear here on purpose, I just..."

"Just what?" An Nian tilted his head, his expression normal.

"It's just..." Fu Qing stared at An Nian, his eyes turned red for a moment.

Once upon a time, he was the one who questioned her in such a superior manner.

But Feng Shui took turns, and now it was his turn.

"Just want to see me?" An Nian said easily in a flat tone.

Fu Qingshen turned away, he was standing under the searchlights of the community.

His handsome and deep facial contours seemed to be tinged with a sense of loneliness in the dark night.

He hung his head halfway and said nothing.

Anian laughed at herself, and she raised her eyes to stare at the man's profile: "Fu Qingshen, you see that you have always been like this. You don't say anything, and you need others to guess everything. How tiring is it?"

Fu Qing turned his head and met An Nian's eyes. He said in a flat voice, "I dare not show up again."

An Nian said: "If you dare not show up, why do you show up?"

"I can't help it..." He was very wronged, his heart was empty, he didn't want to be alone again, he didn't want to face the long night, "Annian, I can't help it, I can't help but want to see you."

An Nian was wearing a long beige overcoat. She raised her hand to gather the skirt and put her hands in her pockets.

The expression on her face was indifferent, as if Fu Qingshen's words with burning emotions had no meaning to her now.

She just lowered her head and her neck was tucked into the turtleneck sweater. She stared at the light seriously. She and Fu Qingshen stood side by side. The light pulled her slender figures together.

She was sore and sad in her heart. This scene was once her extravagant wish.

But later...

She couldn't remember how long it had been since she and Fu Qingshen got along so peacefully.

She was sick, depressed.

Her heart caught a cold.

Her emotions are out of control, she is sad every day, everything in front of her eyes is gloomy, she is inexplicably irritable, bothering herself and everyone around her.

She held on, and when Fu Qingshen carried her out of the bathtub, when those doctors were racing against time on the operating table to save her life.

Every day after the rest, she is working hard, and she wants to live a good life.

She wanted to work hard and have nothing to do with Fu Qingshen.

Can wait until the dust settles.

Fu Qingshen refused to let her go.

Last night, she didn't sleep all night, her eyes were kept open, she thought all night.

It seemed that since she and Fu Qingshen got married, it was Fu Qingshen who had been trapping her.

Now, too.

She thought, maybe she didn't make enough mistakes with Fu Qingshen, maybe it's because the beginning of their mistake didn't end at all...

After a long silence, An Nian finally spoke softly: "Song Chao told me..."

Fu Qingshen still turned his head to stare at the girl's side face.

She stared at the shadow on the ground.

He looked at her.

She said: "Actually, you are not indifferent. After my mother was hospitalized, you managed to give her the best medicine and find the best doctor."

"No matter how busy you are, you will always go to the hospital to see her and ask the attending doctor how my mother is doing."

Fu Qing nervously clenched his hands hanging by his side.

"so what?"

"So..." An Nian also turned his head and looked at Fu Qingshen, "The morning you forced me, you talked with the attending doctor on the phone. You know that my mother's condition has stabilized recently, so you don't believe what I said?"

Fu Qingshen's eyes were hot and sour.

It seems that the grievances that have been misunderstood have been washed away.

He nodded vigorously.

"It's not that you are soft-hearted to me, you just believe that these things are within your control, don't you?"

He nodded again: "Yes!"

"It's a pity that everything didn't go as planned. Things went off the rails. My mother died suddenly."

Fu Qing's voice was hoarse: "I want to make up for my mistakes and repay everything, but... it seems that the more I do, the more mistakes I make, and I can't do it well..."

"Yes." Anian's mouth cracked into a pale smile, "Fu Qingshen, you are really terrible!"

"Do you know? We actually still have room for change. I thought my pregnancy was a turning point, and you seemed to be loose, and you are no longer so indifferent to me. But... something happened to grandma. "

Fu Qingshen was defeated by An Nian's questioning every sentence!

He said hoarsely, "I'm sorry..."

"Actually, I was quite sad. After all, I was like a fool at that time, wondering what I did wrong all day long. Why did the Fu family stare at me with such hatred..."

Fu Qingshen explained: "I..."

"I know." An Nian interrupted him, "I was pregnant at that time, you just had nothing to do with me, so you wanted to punish me in such a cruel way."

"No...no..." Fu Qingshen shook his head intermittently, and he said, "That's what I said when I was confused. I won't tell you, and I won't let others tell you, because I'm afraid you might get gas .”

In the past, An Nian was obsessed with the reason, but now that she knows it, it doesn't seem to make any sense.