love you deeply

The fierce resistance and struggle failed to awaken his rationality, and Ji Nanqiao didn't expect that the moment he really said what he wanted in his heart, he let go instead.

Gently let her go, thinking about the two words she said in a sad tone just now, Lu Youyan was a little lost.

Seeing Lu Youyan turn and walk out the door, Ji Nanqiao couldn't control his emotions anymore, pulled off the quilt, buried himself in the quilt, and cried out loudly.

Everything I hoped for could not come true after all.

As soon as he thought that he had just uttered the thoughts that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time, he turned around and left. For Ji Nanqiao, that feeling was more painful than any previous humiliation.

So what he did before had nothing to do with love, but was it just a punishment for her dirtying the name of Mrs. Lu?

The more Ji Nanqiao thought about it, the sadder he became, and he clenched the quilt tightly with both hands, crying heartbreakingly.

On the other side, Lu Youyan is not much better at the moment.

After looking for a homestay owner to buy a simple suit and put it on, Lu Youyan said in a muffled voice, "Is there any wine?"

The owner of the homestay didn't say much, and pointed to the wine cabinet not far away.

After taking a bottle of wine, Lu Youyan walked into the yard behind the hotel, drinking wine by himself.

The clip just now kept piercing into my mind, and Ji Nanqiao's bitter and sad words kept crashing into my mind.

He had warned himself that since he couldn't bear the responsibility, he shouldn't touch her or hurt her.

But in the end, all this got out of control under Grandpa's scheme.

The never-before-seen upset surged like a tide, and it easily buried Lu Youyan in it.

"Fourth brother, I also want to have a good talk about my own love..."

"I've never been in a real relationship..."

The more he thought about it, the more it hurt, Lu Youyan suddenly raised his hand and threw the wine glass out, then raised the wine bottle, and poured wine at himself like crazy.

The owner of the homestay store heard the movement behind him, stood up and walked over to take a look, but finally just sighed and walked back.

After opening the shop here for so many years, he has met all kinds of people, so he was not surprised by people like Lu Youyan and Ji Nanqiao, and he didn't want to take too much care, so he just walked away silently.
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After not sleeping well all night, coupled with crying in the middle of the night, Ji Nanqiao's eyes were inevitably swollen when he got up early.

Looking at himself in the mirror, Ji Nanqiao couldn't help but sighed heavily.

Originally, he wanted to just stay in the hotel for a day, but when he thought about giving himself a vacation for the first time in so many years, Ji Nanqiao didn't want to waste a day.

After finding a pair of sunglasses from the suitcase and putting them on, Ji Nanqiao walked over and opened the door.

It's just that she didn't expect Lu Youyan to be standing at the door of the room right now.

The moment he met him, the grievances in his heart began to surge again. Ji Nanqiao almost didn't even think about it. He took a step back and reached out to close the door.

But it didn't work, and Lu Youyan stretched out his hand to press the door.

Ji Nanqiao tried his best but failed to close the door, so he simply let go of the door, turned around and walked inside.

Lu Youyan frowned slightly, and followed her into the room, "When did you become so angry?"

After not sleeping all night, and sitting in the wind all night, Lu Youyan's voice was a little hoarse at the moment, but it was surprisingly nice.

Ji Nanqiao ignored him.

Standing there seemingly indifferently, but in fact he was so nervous that he was at a loss what to do.

The eyes behind the sunglasses were flooded again.

He didn't know how much uproar his carelessness and casual questions would cause in her heart every time.

Every time, she tried her best to subdue these huge waves, but he broke into her life again and acted recklessly, causing her life trajectory to completely deviate, and she was on the verge of losing control at any time.

"Let's go, go have breakfast." Seeing that she didn't speak, Lu Youyan went straight over, grabbed her hand, and led her out.

Ji Nanqiao didn't have time to react before he was dragged downstairs.
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Sitting at the dining table, looking at the breakfast in front of him, Ji Nanqiao didn't have any appetite, but his eyes fell loosely on the delicate pastry.

Even if she deliberately didn't look at him, he would still break into the corner of her eye, making it impossible for her to ignore his existence.

"Not to your liking?" Seeing that she was holding a piece of pastry with chopsticks, but she didn't eat it for a long time, Lu Youyan asked aloud.

"En." Seeing him asking, Ji Nanqiao simply put down the chopsticks in his hand and responded directly.

"Then I'll change it for you, what do you want to eat?"

"Not hungry."

After saying two words, Ji Nanqiao heard Lu Youyan sigh softly, then slowly stood up and walked away.

Ji Nanqiao still didn't look up.

People who didn't belong to her in the first place will leave sooner or later, there is nothing to be sad about.

Biting her lip hard, Ji Nanqiao forced herself to smile, reached out and took the bag beside her, just about to stand up and leave, when she saw Lu Youyan walking back with a bowl in her hand .

Seeing her getting up to leave, Lu Youyan's face changed slightly, but he didn't say anything, and walked over slowly, and put the bowl in front of her.

It is a bowl of duck blood vermicelli.

Ji Nanqiao didn't know where he got it, but at that moment, tears almost burst out of Ji Nanqiao's eyes.

During the period when her father just passed away, she was sent from Nancheng to the Imperial Capital. She suffered a huge psychological blow and was not used to life.

At that time, Lu Youyan also brought a bowl of duck blood fans over, and only then did she burst into tears that had been suppressed for a long time.

For Ji Nanqiao, who was only ten years old at the time, Lu Youyan's gentleness at that time was her most powerful support when she was helpless.

At that time, she was like a ship lost in the darkness, suddenly saw the lighthouse, and then willingly chased after him.

After all, Ji Nanqiao reached out to take the bowl, took a mouthful, and ate up the contents.

All the emotions involved were pulled to the extreme bit by bit.

Lu Youyan, I have loved you for more than ten years, do you know that?

You obviously can't give me anything, why do you still give me these illusory tenderness?

She finally got used to the coldness of the past two years, and finally gradually forgot his kindness and tenderness, but why do you want me to remember all of this now?
The secret love of more than ten years has long been unforgettable.

So even though he knew it was a moth to the flame, Ji Nanqiao still couldn't refuse.

At least in the moment when they rushed towards the fierce fire, moths also had a brief moment of brilliance...