She is Bai Yueguang

The relationship between them was different from ordinary people in the beginning. When he first approached her, she didn't feel strange. She asked herself that she was not very beautiful, far inferior to those delicate beauties, but he So I picked her.

She also wants to be like a normal girl, find someone she likes, have a good relationship with him, and feel the feeling of being cared for and loved.

But what can she do?In the face of her mother's sky-high medical expenses, she had no other choice. Before he appeared, she had not considered taking this path, but he appeared and gave her hope, as well as her mother's hope.

Even though her mother didn't survive, and even though she was very tired during that time, she still thanked Fu Shi, at least he caught her when she was desperate.

So all his demands at that time, in her opinion, should be, he is the one who pays, and she is the one who pays the price, which is fair.

She won't pretend to stand up again, and talk to him about moral principles after taking the money. If she dies, she is nothing.

The smile on the corner of Xu Zhouran's mouth deepened, he looked at him, and said again: "Fu Shi, thank you, sincerely."

Fu Shi never thought that these words would come out of her mouth. He always thought that she should hate him or loathe him, otherwise she wouldn't turn around and leave without any reluctance when the time limit expired.

But now, she said, thank him.

"You..." Fu Shi opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say, so he pursed his lips slightly, "Why did you leave back then?"

He had been holding this question in his mind for a long time. From the moment they met again, he wanted to ask why he had to leave.

He had held back the question for so many years, and the moment he asked it, he felt relieved and wondered if it was a bit redundant.

Because she also said just now that the relationship between them at that time was distorted and not normal, so how could it continue.

Xu Zhouran looked at him. In the dark night, she could only distinguish his expression when he asked this question through the light of the street lamp, "I thought you should be very clear."

After thinking about it, yes, he doesn't remember it now, so he will naturally ask more questions, and looks forward, "Can you understand, in front of a person, what kind of state is it to always feel inferior to the extreme?"

Fu Shi didn't speak, but Xu Zhouran knew that he was waiting for her to continue.

"My mother left at that time, and I naively thought about a possibility, if..." She choked her throat slightly, raised her eyes, and lowered her voice, "If I tell you, I want to stay by your side , What do you think? Do you think I can't get my lover right, or will you say that I'm out of my mind. "

She thought for a long time, but she still didn't say it, because she knew that there was another woman by his side.

That woman named Lin Xiaomo, although she had never met Lin Xiaomo before, she knew that he was extremely gentle and patient towards her.

So she didn't dare, she was afraid, she was afraid that if she said something, not only would she not get the answer she wanted, but she would lose even a trace of dignity in her final departure.

She chooses to say these words tonight, but she just feels that he doesn't remember anyway, and many things that she finds embarrassing are not so embarrassing now, which is pretty good, at least frankly in front of him No, she left soon anyway.

"Anyway, it's good that we are like this now. Don't take it to heart after hearing what you said tonight. When you think of everything in the future, you won't think I'm ridiculous. Well, it's getting late , let's go back."

Saying that, Xu Zhouran stood up, but was held back by Fu Shi, she turned to look at him, "What's wrong?"

"Do you want to listen to what I have to say?" In the dark night, Fu Shi's eyes were searching for her, his voice was low, and he couldn't hear his emotions at the moment.

His words made Xu Zhouran's heart tremble slightly, and her eyes flickered, as if she wanted to escape.

But he doesn't remember her now, does he?Why should she be afraid?
Her feet weighed as much as a thousand catties, she should have left, she had agreed not to get entangled with each other, but he stayed behind with a short sentence.

Seeing that she didn't want to leave anymore, Fu Shi pulled her to sit down again, "If I told you in my current state that I have feelings for you, what would you do?"

Xu Zhouran's pupils dilated, and he looked at him in disbelief.

"Xu Zhouran, whether I remember or not, you are special to me. Even though I don't remember you, I subconsciously want to talk to you. I subconsciously feel that you are not just an ordinary woman. This feeling makes me very clear that you are different, this time, no matter what the result is, I don't want to miss you again."

Fu Shi's words, like a breeze blowing gently at night, suddenly blew into the bottom of Xu Zhouran's heart, stirring her most sensitive heartstrings.

She opened her mouth slightly, but seemed to be speechless.

"Put aside all your worries and ask yourself, if you come back to me again, would you be willing?"

……

At five o'clock in the morning, Xu Zhouran was still nestling on the hanging chair on the balcony, looking at the gradually clear silhouette outside, she couldn't believe it until now, she escaped, after Fu Shi said those words, she did it immediately The response was not to answer how he was, but to turn around and run away.

Turning over, Xu Zhouran let out a long sigh, and then Jiang Lili made a phone call.

ten o'clock in the morning.

With dark circles under her eyes, Jiang Lili sat on the rattan chair, looked at Xu Zhouran who was still nestled on the hanging chair, and looked at her with confused eyes, "Sister, you called me over, what's the matter with you? I said? It’s not a problem to be in a daze all the time, okay?”

"What?" Xu Zhouran asked back.

Jiang Lili: "..."

say what?This guy took her over, and when she came, this woman was fine, she just stood here in a daze without saying a word.

Xu Zhouran heaved a long sigh, and Jiang Lili followed her in heaving a long sigh.

"Why are you sighing?" Xu Zhouran looked at her speechlessly.

Jiang Lili looked at her and rolled her eyes, "You're like this before dawn. Tell me, what's the big deal? A person who deserves your attention to skin care is lying here without taking off his makeup. Look at what time is it now? It's ten o'clock, you go look in the mirror, look at your skin, tsk tsk, look at the dark circles under your eyes, it's so ugly, really."

Hearing Jiang Lili's words, Xu Zhouran touched his face subconsciously, "Really?"

Then Xu Zhouran moved his body, as if he wanted to get up to take a look, but just as he got up, he sighed again, wailed softly, lay back down again, and gave up directly.

"Forget it, ugly is ugly, anyway, there are no men to see."

Jiang Lili was surprised by the self-defeating words, and couldn't help standing up and pinching her face, "What do you mean? What are you doing now? Broken love? It's not right, oh, you left with Lawyer Fu last night, So what happened? You're so depressed."

Jiang Lili finally came to his senses, no man looked at her, isn't this just worrying about men?
Then she has no one except Fu Shi.

Xu Zhouran turned his face away, unwilling to look at Jiang Lili, "It's okay."

"What's all right?" Jiang Lili leaned closer to stare at her, and then said: "Be clear, you are not all right, hurry up, make it clear, what do you mean no man is watching? What's going on?"

Xu Zhouran felt that a big stone was pressing on his heart, he slowed down, sighed again, turned to look at Jiang Lili, thought for a while, and asked: "You said that if you were a man, he said to you, You are different, I don’t want to miss you, what does this mean?”

Hearing this, Jiang Lili squinted his eyes, "Lawyer Fu said? He said you are different?"

"..." Xu Zhouran looked at her and choked up a bit, as if he was blaming Jiang Lili for making it so clear.

Jiang Lili pulled a chair and sat down, straightened Xu Zhouran's face with both hands, smiled meaningfully, and stared at her, "He said you are different, and he didn't want to miss you, but you didn't sleep all night? Xu Zhou Ran, you are finished, you have fallen."

"Go away, who is finished, who has fallen, go away, and ask you what's going on, can you do it?" Xu Zhouran raised his hand and waved her hand away, with an impatient expression on his face.

Jiang Lili laughed out loud, "No, then what are you struggling with now? He told you that he wants to get back together? No, that's called getting back together, so why did he propose to get back together with you?"

Otherwise, Xu Zhouran wouldn't be so entangled, he must have mentioned this point, otherwise, with Xu Zhouran's temperament, he definitely wouldn't be tossing and turning like this and couldn't sleep all night.

Being poked into his mind, Xu Zhouran's face was a little hot, he blushed slightly, he pursed his lips, and nodded, "Well, yes, he said he didn't want to miss me anymore, but don't you think it's sudden? And he is now If he doesn't remember me, if he doesn't remember me and makes such a request, if he remembers it later and regrets it, what should I do?"

"I understand it, that is to say, what you are worried about now is that he tells you now that he wants to be with you, in case he remembers later, remembers all the things you had before, and then he goes back on his word , but you fell headlong into it again, what should you do if you are covered in bruises? Is that right?" Jiang Lili spread her hands and asked.

Xu Zhouran hesitated for a moment, then nodded hesitantly, "That's what it means, anyway, I think, according to his previous temper, he shouldn't say that, if he thinks about it, it definitely won't be like this attitude."
Based on her understanding of Fu Shi for so many years, he will definitely change his mind at that time. Will she still be able to leave so gracefully?
"Zhouran." Jiang Lili suddenly looked at Xu Zhouran earnestly, and shouted softly.

Xu Zhouran turned his gaze to Jiang Lili, "Huh? What's the matter?"
Jiang Lili didn't speak for a while, stared at Xu Zhouran for a while, and then said: "Actually, do you still love Fu Shi?"
This question made Xu Zhouran silent. She didn't want to admit it, but there was nothing she could do. She did have different expectations for Fu Shi.

It was as if when he said that sentence, she was different to him, she had no thoughts of her own at all.

If she didn't have any feelings for this man, and she didn't have any expectations, then she would never get to the point of running away.

She was afraid, afraid that if she didn't leave, she would lose completely, and promised him everything, but in that case, could the relationship between them really continue?
Not necessarily, the previous distorted relationship has finally ended, even if it wants to start, they should not continue to start in this situation.

"Okay, you don't need to answer anymore, you can hesitate for so long, it already explains everything, even after so long, you still can't let him go, admit it, you still love him." Jiang Lili said softly .

Xu Zhouran's eyes suddenly turned red, and when he looked out of the window, his tears began to be uncontrollable, and he raised his hand to wipe away the tears, "Lili, do you think I'm spineless? He clearly agreed to start over, but he just wants to In one sentence, I lost, I felt that I was too useless, and I was being held to death by him."
"What about Lin Xiaomo, you don't mind her anymore?" Jiang Lili asked tentatively.

When mentioning Lin Xiaomo, Xu Zhouran paused and said: "He said, he and Lin Xiaomo are not in the relationship I thought, he will not marry Lin Xiaomo, and Lin Xiaomo also understands what he means, That is to say, they... are not a married couple, nor are they boyfriend and girlfriend."
Jiang Lili raised his eyebrows, but he didn't expect that Fu Shi would explain this point, but he still has a bit of conscience, otherwise guessing and guessing would be the most annoying.

"That's fine, then you can do whatever you want, anyway, you don't have to think about whether it will involve innocent people, if you really say that he has something to do with that Lin Xiaomo, you have to be careful, after all, for your own sake You can't do immoral things like thinking about someone else's life or death." Jiang Lili spread his hands, his tone light and relaxed.

Xu Zhouran looked at her with teary eyes, sniffed, and asked, "Then do you think I'm useless?"
"If you are useless, I am useless. In fact, think about it carefully, I am in a similar situation to you. There have been so many twists and turns between Lin Chen and I. I have hated him and resented him. If it weren't for him, I might be living my life in a normal way. Over the years, I have loved my husband and gave birth to a child that belongs to us. I will live a very stable life, not like it is now. "
"When I returned to China, I was full of resentment. I just thought, why am I the only one suffering? Since I am in hell, I will drag him to hell, so that I can feel happy ."
Jiang Lili recalled all the things at the beginning, and sighed, "But later, when he was kind to me, I still couldn't help but soften my heart. When I knew the truth, I even thought, all the misfortunes I encountered were not He caused it all by himself, how lucky I should be, I finally had a reason to convince myself to be with him again, and later, when I saw his family love Zhizhou so much, I actually felt that I could let go of the past Resentment, tell me, am I useless like this?"
So, compared to Xu Zhouran, she is not much better, isn't she?