As deep as you are as hell

My body is shaped like this by myself.

So I don't blame anyone, it's just that I have some regrets and feel inappropriate.I am only 27 years old this year, and I finally found Chu Ting back with great difficulty recently. I also want to see how our lives will be in the future.

Will we have our own cozy little house?When I stood in front of Chu Ting wearing a wedding dress, what kind of reaction would he have?
But it seems that I can't accompany Chu Ting to experience many things.At the beginning, I boasted that I would appear at the wedding scene... Now I am afraid that my body is at the end of its strength.

Back then...if only I hadn't wasted those years.

In the dark night, the circles of my eyes turned red, but suddenly I heard Chu Ting whisper in my ear: "Okay, if you don't want to go, we won't go."

"Go to sleep, good night. Mrs. Chu."

The address immediately following the words made my heart tremble, and Chu Ting had already closed his eyes, and gently pressed his chin against the pit of my neck.

I stayed up all night that night, but Chu Ting's embrace really reassured me and gave me a full sense of security.

On the second day, Chu Ting took me to meet designer Xie. Chu Ting said that it took her three years to design the wedding dress for me, and she herself was looking forward to meeting today.

Xie Han's residence is in the suburbs. The small villa is built by the mountains and rivers. The environment is quiet, and you can also hear the crisp birdsong from the back mountain.

When Xie Han sat opposite me, I was first attracted by her beauty. Her slightly raised eyelashes, blemish-free face, and unique temperament made her frown like an orchid in an empty valley. Every smile is breathtaking.

When I looked away silently, Xie Han said in a clean and crisp voice: "Miss Chen is even more beautiful than I imagined, no wonder Mr. Chu has been fond of you for so many years."

"It's just that Ms. Chen is too thin. If I want to try on that wedding dress now, I'm afraid there are still a few things that need to be changed."

"Let me take a look at the design first."

If the wedding dress is not in my aesthetic point, I probably won't try it on.

Xie Han said "OK" with a smile, and the first thing he did when he got up was to invite Chu Ting to the living room.So it was just the two of us in the room.

Xie Han's steps are curly, and the charm is fully reflected in his steps.And the clothes she presented made me unable to take my eyes off for just a moment.

That wedding dress is a combination of Chinese and Western styles. The hem of the dress is fluffy, and the four skirt doors are overlapped in pairs to form a two-piece skirt curtain. design.

The double breast pleats of the upper lining are lined with bowknots, the back of the clothes is hollowed out, and complicated bowknots are woven into a paperclip structure.

The white skirt can always be associated with "holy and pure" in my heart. When I took the tray containing the clothes in Xie Han's hand, I felt a strange feeling in my heart.

"Miss Chen, do you want to try on the clothes first? If it doesn't fit, I'll make changes." Xie Han smiled and spoke softly.

I compared my figure, but found that Xie Han, who was slightly taller than me, was obviously more suitable for this suit than me.

Three 10 minutes later.

Chu Ting looked at the national style painting hanging on the wall in the living room, his brows and eyes were slightly lowered, but it gave him an aura like a firm green pine.

Hearing the crisp sound of high heels hitting the wooden floor behind him, Chu Ting's heart skipped a beat, and he turned his head almost immediately.

I could see the surprise, astonishment and praise flashing in his eyes for a moment, but these joyful emotions turned into sporadic flames after the visitor hung down the round fan, and soon they would never light up again.

That wedding dress is indeed more suitable for Xie Han. She is tall and well-proportioned. She has flesh where it should be fleshy, and lean where it should be lean. The clothes are almost tailor-made for her.

Xie Han is also a smart woman. After seeing clearly that Ting's expression was not disturbed at all, she said wittily, "I used to measure and tailor clothes according to the data Mr. Chu provided me, but I didn't expect Miss Chen to lose a lot of weight."

"This wedding dress will look too baggy on Ms. Chen's body now, but if the waist and abdomen are added with a waist design, and the lower skirt is so fluffy, the design of the whole dress will look a bit nondescript." Xie Han The tone was calm, and he only analyzed the suitability of the clothes to fit the person according to the facts.

"But if I redesign a wedding dress, with my speed, it is impossible to design and typesetting it next week, and then make it into a ready-made garment."

That's why I said this to Xie Han just now, I appreciate her inspirational and thoughtful design, but I have some regrets and pity.

Now it's Xie Han's turn to be confused.

She thinks my complexion is too pale, if the wedding dress is all white, it will really make my complexion worse.

But big red, I told her just now that I don't like this kind of color that is too festive, and I declined it even with pink.

"So I'm really undecided about the color of the wedding dress... In my opinion, maybe Ms. Chen is not against these festive colors, but I think she seems to have something on her mind. Why don't Chu Ting have a good chat with Ms. Chen first?"

As a wedding dress designer, Xie Han knows that a wedding dress is the most anticipated gift in a woman's life, but the moment many women put on a wedding dress, the first emotion that arises in their hearts is not happiness or joy, but stress.

It is also a very popular term on the Internet in recent years-premarital phobia.

Chu Ting glanced not far away, and easily fixed on a blue figure behind a certain brown pillar.

I hid behind the pillar, with my ears pricked up, intending to concentrate on listening to what Xie Han and Chu Ting would talk about.But this distance is really not friendly to me, and I didn't wear my hearing aid to go out, but the more I listened, the harder it became.

"What do you want to know? How about I tell you, huh? Mrs. Chu."

Under the bright sunshine, Chu Ting's figure was elongated, and a dark bunch followed behind him, showing a little more naive.

And the word "Mrs. Chu" completely exploded the fireworks in my mind.

I stretched out my hand and pushed Chu Ting, and laughed and scolded him for being unreasonable, but I found that there was a warm current in my heart.

There is a height difference between Chu Ting and I, and since I got sick, I seldom wear high heels, so I am not short among the girls, and now I can reach Chu Ting's shoulders.

But every time Chu Ting talked to me, he would unconsciously half-bend to listen to me.

"If you don't like this designer's design, the foreign designer's plane just landed yesterday, or should we meet that designer tomorrow?"

"You don't think I'm troublesome?"

I have heard of Xie Han's great reputation for a long time. There are many top-notch actresses and celebrities in the business circle who are waiting for her to design high-end dresses for her, but usually it is difficult to see Xie Han.

Let Xie Han spend three years designing a wedding dress... Chu Ting was the first person to do it.

"What's the trouble? I also want you to appear at the wedding scene happily, and then become the focus of everyone's attention."

"Then your company is not busy?"
Water Group's business is booming, and now is the moment when the company needs him the most.

But now he hangs around me every day, what's the matter?

"It's not a big problem to hand over the company's affairs to Cheng Xunsheng and Gu Peicheng."

I sat down on the brown bench in the corridor, half-closed my eyes because of the glare of the sun: "Actually, I really like that wedding dress." I can even imagine the lightness and relaxation of my body when I put on this wedding dress, but...

"Chu Ting, I don't want to get married anymore." My eye circles were astringent, "The doctor gave me the last resort... My body is already at the end of its strength, so I won't cause you any trouble."

The tone of pretending to be relaxed did not relieve the atmosphere that seemed to be frozen by ice and snow.

I sniffed and tried to think about the future. I believed that what Chu Ting said to love me was precisely because of that, so I had no doubt that after I left, Chu Ting would only depend on Sang Ji for life and put himself Days are becoming more and more like ascetics.

It's me who seems to hold another person with a ring.

But I don't want it anymore, I don't want him to have more painful and suffering times than happy ones for the rest of his life.

Isn't it the best choice for us to stop the loss in time?
I stretched out my hand to Chu Ting, with tears in my eyes: "The way you want to go, I will accompany you here first, okay? Don't hang yourself on my crooked neck tree, you want Otherwise you will be very sad."

Chu Ting slowly sat down beside me: "What if I say I don't want to?"

He hugged me in his arms and didn't let me continue my frustrating words.

In the evening, Chu Ting took me to the nearby Xiangshan Mountain.

Xiangshan is a well-known tourist attraction in City A. Plum trees are planted all over the mountain in winter, and clusters of white and pink plum blossoms hang on the branches, which are delicate and proud of the snow.

And the temple located on the top of the mountain specially framed a poem for this magnificent view: "When I think of the things I regret in this life, plum blossoms fall all over Nanshan."

"When I was young, my adoptive father often took me here for outings and outings. He felt that I was withdrawn and should interact more with my peers. He often asked me to try to invite my classmates to come here for outings."

But Chu Ting's invitation has never been successful.

But after he returned to Chu's house, invitation letters came pouring in every weekend, classmates and even classmates in the same school, classmates whose names he could pronounce and those whose names he couldn't pronounce were eager to get acquainted with him.

In the end, Ye Qinglan helped him out of this predicament.As a result, they gradually became close friends.

When Chu Ting recounted these old events to me, his brows and eyes were warmed by the setting sun, and the lines of his side face were soft, and the fine hairs could be clearly seen.

I asked for no reason: "The time we met in the hotel, did you..."