As deep as you are as hell

At one point, I even had a strange idea in my mind, if Chu Ting dared to buy me flowers now and said a lot of sensational and nasty words, I would dare to throw a whole bouquet of flowers on his face.

I didn't see how Chu Ting made eye contact with the little girl, but the little girl finally nodded obediently, took another deep look at me, and left with her arms full of flowers.

The fragrance of flowers is still faintly floating in the air, enveloping the atmosphere between Chu Ting and me.

When I was thinking about how to talk to Chu Ting to let him let me go, Chu Ting suddenly hugged me into his arms and buried my head in the crook of my neck.

This hug was very strong, Chu Ting seemed to want to rub me into his body.

I seem to have heard the sound of his beating heart violently, and heard him let out a helpless sigh.

When I got back to the hospital, my mother had just finished all the tests.She sat on the hospital bed and folded her clothes, her face looked a little more rosy than yesterday.

The sound of my opening the door startled her, and after my mother and I briefly said a few words about today's inspection, she suddenly asked, "Jiaojiao, why don't mom and you live in City A this time..."

She wasn't afraid that any accident would happen to her, but she was afraid that I would worry about her day and night, and that she would forget me.

I reached out and hugged her, and my tone and expression finally relaxed: "Okay. Mom, I've been waiting for this day for a long, long time."

To the mother, city A is her sad place.

So before, I never dared to force my mother to live with me in City A for a long time, but now that she has let go, I am more than happy to let things go.

And I also have confidence that I can take good care of my mother.

My mother brushed the broken hair from my forehead behind my ears, with a kind smile on her face: "Is our Jiaojiao very tired recently? Look at this face, she has become thinner again." Her eyes were full of distress.

She hesitated to speak, and wanted to persuade me to find a good family to live the rest of my life smoothly, but she was afraid that this topic would be my backlash, so she couldn't decide whether she should bring it up.

My mother knows her physical condition, and she wants to accompany me for another year, which is already reluctant enough.

And Alzheimer's disease cruelly deprived her of her memories... My mother didn't want to see me wandering alone for most of my life like her.

And Chu Ting came to her this morning to ask her for a favor... Mother thought, if I still can't let go of Chu Ting in my heart after all these years, she will consider agreeing to Chu Ting's request.

After all, it takes a long time to see people's hearts, and the little things we get along with each other in the past four years have completely changed my mother's view of Chu Ting.

I shook my head, and answered my mother's question, "I'm not tired at all...and as long as my mother is with me, I'm happy enough." Relatives are always the most precious in this world, but unfortunately, when I understand this truth, I'm too old. Night.

I tidied up things with my mother, and we went back to our hometown the next morning to do another round of tidying up.

There are many photos of me when I was young in my old home, and I found Chu Ting's figure in several photos, but he always looked at me from afar.

When I was young, I was the king of children in the courtyard, and children were very friendly. In the alley, I waved my hand and cheered, and a group of children followed me.

So during that time, I will never lack followers around me.But Chu Ting never came forward to say hello to me, he just looked at me from a distance in the corner of the alley, with a little envy in his eyes.

I remembered the times when I was young and Chu Ting and I met each other, rescued people in an earthquake, bought sweet-scented osmanthus cakes... He seemed to have engraved my eyebrows and eyes in his mind a long time ago, and when I first met him at the age of 25 , I haven't recognized him in my yellowed memory, and he has left such a thick and colorful description.

There were very few things that my mother wanted to take to City A, and we chose to burn many things that could not be taken away.After the room became a little bit empty, I stood in the living room with a moment of emotion.

A lot of things, after all, are not human beings.

My mother took me to pay respects to my father's tomb again. She knelt down piously and muttered words, hoping that if my father is alive in heaven, he can ensure that my future journey will be smooth and safe.

After my mother finished talking, she handed me three sticks of incense. I smoked the incense skillfully and neatly, but suddenly found that I didn't seem to know what to say to Chen Zemin.

If I continue to investigate the truth of the past... I will soon be able to restore Chen Zemin's innocence.

I hope I didn't disappoint Chen Zemin.

After helping my mother to get up, I took another deep look at the tombstone, trying to imprint the black and white photos and every word on it in my mind.

It was clearly three o'clock in the afternoon, but the sky suddenly darkened, and the dark clouds were surging, as if a mighty rain was about to be brewed.

When the rain was like catkins, I opened the black umbrella, and my eyes were moist for a moment.

Father... Did you also hear the deepest voice in my heart?
Can you tell me, what should I do next?
On the third day, I returned to City A with my mother.During the taxi ride to the courtyard, my mother kept holding my hand tightly, her palm was cold.

After many years, after going around and around, she came back here again.

The car accident at the entrance of the alley, the cordon that was pulled up on a rainy night...every detail suddenly became vivid and clear in my mother's mind.

The vines are entwined and the green trees are shaded.

Standing in the wind and rain, this courtyard house retains its original appearance, quietly waiting for the return of the tenants.

I returned to the most familiar place, but that night I couldn't sleep, I couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning, and suddenly I began to think about the relationship between me and Chu Ting.

I couldn't sleep anymore, so I put on my clothes and got out of bed, planning to go for a walk outside.

The door of my mother's room was closed tightly, and there was a faint sound of even breathing. I tiptoed across the hall and closed the door gently.

But I don't know, not long after I closed the door, my mother walked out of the room in a short while and stood at the door of my room for a long time.

The long alley was shrouded in darkness, the flickering street lamps creaked and shook, the corners of the walls were covered with moss, and occasionally one or two morning glory could be seen.

I kicked a small stone with my toe, and the small stone rolled forward and stopped next to another pair of leather shoes.

When I looked up, I crashed into a sea of ​​stars.

And the "instigator" scratched his head in embarrassment at me, and said with a smirk, "What a coincidence, Miss Sofia, we meet again."

It's really a coincidence that the more people you don't want to meet, you can always run into them again and again.

But I unexpectedly discovered that every time Chu Ting called me "Miss Sofia", his voice was always full of unspeakable tenderness and tenderness, and he plucked at my heartstrings.

"What are you doing?" Xu Shi's spring breeze was intoxicating, and Xu Shi's way of getting along with Chu Ting all the time also made me sleepy, so this time my words were rare and peaceful, and even released a signal of intimacy.

Chu Ting glanced at me somewhat unexpectedly, pointed to the two white instruments at his hand and explained to me seriously: "This is a small projector, and this is an astronomical telescope."

"The telescope is connected to the computer, and the screen can be projected synchronously on the computer. This projector is then connected to Wi-Fi, and the projection screen can be projected on the wall in real time." So there is the piece that hit my eyes just now. Sea of ​​Stars.

I like to look at the beauty of the world, whether it is the ancient stars or the morning and sunset clouds.But in City A, when one looks up at the night sky, one often sees only darkness and a solitary moon.

Looking at the dim night sky and the shining stars on the wall, I was shocked for a moment.And Chu Ting looked a little nervous, waiting for me to strike up a conversation.

"It's really beautiful." I praised sincerely, "But Mr. Chu doesn't sleep most of the night, why did he come here to fiddle with these things?" My tone was suspicious.

Chu Ting's laughter was blown far away by the wind, he suddenly stretched out his hand and rubbed the top of my hair with an intimate and ambiguous gesture: "What if I said, I am preparing to confess my love to you?"

"It doesn't matter if you get rejected this time, I will carefully prepare the second confession and the third confession...until you agree to me or you can't bear my troubles and firmly ask me to give up on you."

It turned out that he could hear the entanglement and paradox in my words before.When I was hesitating in place, he had already made up his mind and walked towards me firmly step by step.

"I didn't expect to be bumped into by you when I was debugging the equipment for the first time." Chu Ting smiled dotingly and helplessly.

The night wind blew coldly, I stared at my toes in a daze, and said in a muffled voice, "Chu Ting, I want to eat egg waffles."

His name, I blurted out in an instant.

And at this moment, I can't help but feel a little annoyed at my words that sound a little coquettish.

But Chu Ting smiled happily: "Okay, just wait for me... No, you go home first, and I will go downstairs to your house to find you later."

He was afraid that it would be unsafe for me to be alone in the middle of the night, so he personally sent me to the gate of the courtyard and watched me go in with a pair of slippers.

After closing the iron gate, I couldn't help shaking my head. The courtyard house is far away from the bustling city center, and there are few snack streets nearby. Where is Chu Ting going to buy me egg waffles?
I didn't take this matter to heart, and I also felt that Chu Ting would not come to see me again tonight, so I prepared to tiptoe back to my room.

But the lights were on in my room, and my mother was wearing reading glasses and sitting quietly at the desk.

In her hand was my medical record.

"Mom, why haven't you slept so late? Are you having a nightmare or can't sleep?" I walked over and hugged my mother from behind, but the coldness in my arms really made her shiver.

Mother rubbed my hand, her voice was vicissitudes: "Why didn't you tell me about this?"

The word "stomach cancer" is prominent on the medical record.

"Mom, that doctor misdiagnosed..." I reached out to hide the medical record.

"Then why do you take so many medicines? Stomach cancer, anti-depression, anxiety... aren't you taking all these medicines? Jiaojiao, how many things have happened to you that mom doesn't know about in the past four years? "My mother's eyes filled with distress.

My voice was slightly astringent: "But those days are over. My greatest wish now is to reunite with you and stay by your side every day until you get tired of my little tail."

"Then...how long can you live? Is the three months on the medical certificate true?" The mother's finger holding the medical certificate trembled slightly, almost covering her face with tears.

What a painful thing for a white-haired person to send a black-haired person.