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"But in the past two years, I have been unable to keep my diary, and my memory of you seems to be getting more and more blurred... I seem to have done something very sorry for you... I found that I seem to have gradually lost your memory I lost my face. A few days ago, I searched all over the Qiushan Villa, but I couldn’t find any photos of us together.”

"I even went to the old newspapers, trying to find the photos we had framed together from the scandals in the newspapers...Maybe God is deliberately punishing me, it doesn't want me to get a single bit related to you... ...so I still haven't found a picture of the two of us framed together."

Chu Ting's voice became more and more desolate, and his figure seemed to hunker down, but he still held the stone tablet and refused to let go.

The night is like black paint, and there is no light to be found.

There are too many days without moon and stars this year.But I don't know when it started, every day seems so long and so dark to Chu Ting.

"I met someone who looked a lot like you in Somalia...but I knew it wouldn't be you."

"Chen Jiao."

Chu Ting babbled so much, not a single word mentioned the word "missing", but every word was inseparable from missing.

If he can say the words after the name calmly, I guess what he wants to say is: "Chen Jiao, I miss you very much."

I really want to.

In the older generation, most couples might be asked this question: "Who do you want to leave first?"

But now I finally understand that there is a standard answer to this question, and those who survive are not necessarily the happiest.

Chu Ting hugged the tombstone and slept in the cemetery all night.

His eyelashes fluttered, he couldn't sleep well, and he repeated a name ten times a night.

Until the dew soaked his clothes, until the dawn appeared in the sky, he woke up from the chaotic sleep.

His vigorous and cowardly figure continued to hunched, and his steps became staggering, as if he had aged ten years overnight.

After he left, I walked to the tombstone, and suddenly a tear seemed to fall.

There is no picture on the tombstone, only a line of delicate and small characters are engraved, "The tomb of my beloved wife Chen Jiao."

Later I asked Chu Ting, all the women in his life come and go, why should I be so special to him?

He placed a light kiss on my forehead, as if he wanted to seal all the hidden and hard-to-see love in this kiss.

After New Year's Day, the company began to enter the normal operation state.

The capital chain is sufficient and the talents are sufficient.What really makes me sad is how I should gain a firm foothold in the venture capital world.

Ji's enterprise was acquired by Yuanshui Group, and COSCO Group dominates the venture capital industry.Counting down, there are also Zhao Chuangming Investment and Tongshan Capital occupying the giant positions.

Small venture capital companies can naturally thrive in the market, and occasionally receive a big project and even spring up like mushrooms after a spring rain to boost the company.

But I set my sights on the big market from the very beginning, and if I compete with Chu Ting, I won't be wronged to hide in a small venture capital company.

So how to develop the company's current brand and reputation has become a tricky thing that makes me unable to eat or sleep well.

In order to make me happy, Gu Jian specially asked me to go to Gui'anhai to relax and relax.

Four years ago, "Chen Jiao" was buried in this sea area. How can I be happy now that I am revisiting the old place?
There are ships passing by on the sea, breaking the sea surface, and honking their whistles; on the deck, people are enjoying the night view or talking high-spirited.

I walked barefoot on the beach, the white sand was fine, but it hurt my feet.My ankles seemed to be wrapped in invisible but rampant seaweed, and my breath was bound together.

As soon as Gu Jianfu turned his head, he found that my face was abnormally pale, and asked in a low voice if I was not feeling well.

I was short of breath, staggered and fell to the ground, my chest began to heave violently.

My throat seemed to be tightly grasped by a big hand, and through the carnival of the crowd, I seemed to see Ji Jiarui walking towards me slowly.

She was wearing a bracelet studded with fine diamonds. The gems were polished into the shape of the Big Dipper and fell down.Her fingers were as slender as onion segments, and her nails were covered with splinters, revealing a faint cherry pink color.

Such a pair of extremely beautiful hands overlapped inexplicably with the hands that pushed me into the deep sea on the ship.I shook my head quickly, trying to get rid of these unrealistic thoughts in my mind.

The red high-heeled shoes stayed in front of me, and the words were crisp and clear: "What's wrong with her? Do you need help?"

Although the person Ji Jiarui asked was me, her gaze kept on Gu Jian.

Her tone also has a kind of intimacy and familiarity, which gave me the illusion that she and Gu Jian are familiar with each other.

"No need." There was a sharp contrast between the tone of the two, and Gu Jian's tone was blunt.

At the same time, his hands touched my back, helping me to breathe.

"Gu Jian, long time no see." After a pause, Ji Jiarui asked straight to the point, "Is she your new girlfriend?"

Because I was leaning forward, my hair hanging down to my ears just covered my face, otherwise, I guess Ji Jiarui wouldn't be stupid enough to ask this question.

I suddenly became a little curious, what is the relationship between these two people?Why did Gu Jian and I know each other for nearly two years, but he never mentioned Ji Jiarui to me.

Moreover, Gu Jian also seemed to have a huge secret buried in him.

Since his hometown is here, but the number of times he has been back to City A before is countable, and he never seems to want to mention everything about City A when he is in a foreign country.

"What does it have to do with you? Ms. Ji is so busy now, why should she meddle in other people's business?" Gu Jian said coldly, with a hint of hatred.

In the two years I have known him, I have never seen him speak to others in such a tone.

This made me even more curious about the relationship between the two.

Ji Jiarui seemed to be unable to bear it any longer: "Gu Jian, do you have to talk to me like this? We haven't seen each other for five years..." Wouldn't it be better to catch up on the past than the current embarrassing situation for both of us?
"I don't think it's necessary for us to talk properly. By the way..." Gu Jian's gaze finally fell on Ji Jiarui for a moment, but there were too many emotions mixed in that gaze, and disgust and intolerance accounted for the largest proportion , "You don't know how happy I am to learn that Ji's enterprise has gone bankrupt."

Gu Jian finally noticed the ring on Ji Jiarui's hand, and his original thoughts of speaking were suddenly interrupted, leaving him speechless.

He simply picked me up and wanted to take me away.

When passing by Ji Jiarui, Gu Jian's arm was firmly grasped.

Ji Jiarui suddenly threw herself into Gu Jian's arms, tears streaming from the corners of her eyes, with a look of pity for me: "Gu Jian, I really know I was wrong...don't hold grudges against me anymore, okay... ..."

Gu Jian simply pushed Ji Jiarui away: "Do you use this trick on any man? Whether it's against Gu Peisheng, Ji Jiayan, or me, do you always use this trick?"

He smiled mockingly, took his gaze back, and landed firmly on me again.

But my face became paler and paler, and my hands and feet gradually became colder. There was a dense pain from my heart, and I started to cough violently.

Gu Jian is a doctor, so he immediately became nervous, put me on his back without saying a word, and took a taxi to take me to the hospital.

Obviously, it was almost New Year's Eve, but I was lying in the hospital again.

After the injection, I was still dizzy, but I didn't faint anymore.

Gu Jian and I were joking, trying to relax the dull atmosphere in the ward: "It's been four years, and I've lived in the hospital every New Year's Eve. I can't think of anything sadder than this in the world .”

Gu Jian patted my shoulder and gave me comfort among friends: "Take a good rest, adjust your body slowly, you will always get better."

"Usually we always advise you, don't work overtime as soon as you start working, pay attention to rest. You don't take your body seriously, no matter how hard we onlookers try to persuade you, it won't help."

Just as I was about to speak, the doctor just came over with the inspection report, and after basically checking some information, he told me the reason for my sudden physical discomfort: "Have you ever had a history of stomach cancer before?"

I nod.But Li Liang also told me that it is benign gastric cancer, and it is still possible to avoid it from getting worse.

A bad premonition rose from my heart, and the accuracy was verified by the doctor's cold words: "But you should also know that cancer is a malignant tumor. There is no such thing as a benign cancer in clinical practice. It is estimated that the doctor is either not The profession is either deliberately deceiving you."

"What I want to tell you today is bad news. Patients and their families must be mentally prepared... The cancer factor has spread, the gastric cancer has worsened, and the patient has at most three years to live."

Three years is still the most optimistic scenario.

Stomach cancer cannot be cured. If the cancer factor spreads quickly, I may even have only three months to live.

But I obviously... went back to City A after going through a lot of hardships, why did God treat me so cruelly? !
Gu Jian's hands were clenched into fists, and the veins on his neck were bulging.Although he was trying his best to suppress the strange emotions in his voice, his voice was still inevitably hoarse: "Doctor, this diagnosis... Is there any possibility of misdiagnosis?"

He thought of the wind blowing on the roof and my fluttering skirt when he saw me for the first time, and how he spent so much time by my side in the past two years, that he finally saw Sofia, who seemed to be reborn today. The diagnosis pushed me into the abyss again.

The report card is in the hands of the doctor, and the doctor can understand the mentality of the patient and family members, but after all these years of practicing medicine, he is used to seeing life and death, so there is not much human touch in his words: "According to the report card, it is indeed this Diagnosis results. Can we still open our eyes and talk nonsense?"

The doctor gave some suggestions as usual, asking me to actively adjust my mentality and take medicine on time; Gu Jian and others also spent more time with me, so as not to let me grit my teeth and go through difficult times alone.

After the doctor left, the atmosphere in the ward seemed to drop to freezing point.

The corners of Gu Jian's mouth drooped downwards, yet he managed to squeeze out a smile that was uglier than crying.