Black-bellied ex-husband don't get entangled

Have a baby in your belly?I have the same bloodline as her, maybe I will be like her in the future, maybe I will be like that man, I will grow up slowly by her side, I will slowly learn to turn over, I will slowly learn to stand, I will slowly learn to walk and talk, How wonderful it is to gradually become an indispensable part of each other's lives.What if she still had a home?
Li Junsheng disagreed, his gentle voice sounded clear and pleasant, but it couldn't warm Yao Mujin's cold heart.

"I can't give him a happy time." Yao Mujin's bright eyes were unusually deep.

"You can do it now." Li Junsheng spoke resolutely, so resolutely that it was indisputable.

"I can't even give him a home," Yao Mujin retorted.

"He thinks home is where you are."
After hearing this, Yao Mujin's heart trembled.

His empty eyes widened a little, and he looked at Li Junsheng in a daze, as if he was just born.

She stared at Li Junsheng in front of her speechlessly, as if she wanted to distinguish the truth from the false, she hesitated like a lamb walking on a road in a foreign land.

From his point of view, where you live is home, Yao Mujin, do you want to try it?Don't care who the child is, don't care what will happen in the future.

However, if she stayed, it would be a sign of that man appearing in her life, and every day in the future, when she saw this child, she would think of that man, would she torture herself like this?According to her current depressed state of mind, how she believes that she can give a life happiness and support for that life, she is afraid that what awaits her is to give the other party endless torture.

In this case, we should say goodbye to the past once and for all, this child cannot stay.

Now she doesn't even know where she should go, how could she let a child who is not Shi Chen come into this complicated world in such a hurry.

Yao Muzhen was very preoccupied, she didn't believe herself, because the house was not complete, Yao Muzhen said in a deadpan tone, "Brother, I can't let him suffer with me."

Maybe even Yao Mujin didn't realize that when she said this, there were tears in her eyes, she thought that the love of a family is complete.

Li Junsheng said that every word is bitten very hard, as if every sentence has a deep meaning, "A family without love, even if there are fathers, mothers, grandfathers, and grandmothers, this family is just a house."

In the end, Yao Muzhen and Li Junsheng failed to reach an agreement. Yao Muzhen failed to do the abortion immediately, and Li Junsheng failed to persuade Yao Muzhen to keep the child. They were persuaded by the doctor, "Everyone go back and think about it. How can a child be so childish."

Years later, Yao Mujin still remembered what Li Junsheng said when he left the hospital, looking into his eyes, "That child will grow up in your love, that's enough."

"Little Hibiscus, keep this child, we will go to England to start again, we will all be happy."

After Yao Mujin and Li Junsheng left the hospital, they quarreled endlessly over the child's issue many times, and ended in failure every time.

Yao Muzhen's decision this time was extremely firm, no matter what Li Junsheng said, Yao Muzhen did not intend to back down.

Sometimes Yao Mujin doesn't know what she's insisting on, some things become obsessions, and obsessions become paranoid after a long time.

This point, Yao Mujin may not understand, because she can't figure it out, she feels that she lives in a trance every day, seems to pass every day very slowly, at the end of the day, she doesn't know what she is doing, whether she is busy or idle.

Yao Mujin's insomnia problem is getting worse.

Everyone said that she gave up on herself, not because she didn't want to rest, but because she couldn't rest at all.

Just lying on the bed will cause unbearable pain in my heart, making my exhausted body and mind unable to fall asleep. Even if I take sleeping pills, I will be awakened by endless nightmares. The back image of the man who left in the dream A nightmare haunted her like a nightmare.

She was suffocating like a climbing vine, and it looked like a vicious circle from which she could not escape.

It's just that there is something more in this circle now.

A young child's voice asked her: "Mom, why don't you want me?" The soft voice hit people's hearts.

Mom, why don't you want me anymore?That helplessness made her heart ache.

　"Mom didn't want you, mom just... just..." She replied in her dream, but there was no more text afterwards.

Have you ever been unable to sleep one day, woke up before dawn, or burst into tears countless times from a dream?In the dream, your father and mother turned into dust, your lovers turned into ghosts one by one, and your friends turned into blue-faced beasts one by one.

After waking up, you can no longer sleep, you are sleeping with tears, and you are crying in your sleep.

In the dark space, it seems that even oneself does not exist.

Sometimes I feel that my body is struggling in the vast world, while my soul is standing on the sidelines and watching coldly.

Yao Muzhen felt as if she had landed on one foot, she really couldn't bear it anymore, Yao Muzhen who was lying on the bed thought, let's go.

"I won't keep this child. I'll go to see people on weekends. It's up to you whether you go or not." Those were the last words Yao Mujin said to Li Junsheng during the day.

The gentle and elegant Li Junsheng no longer insisted on persuading him, he just nodded his head after a long silence to express his understanding, then turned and left helplessly.

His back was thinner, and he looked a little lonely.

Yao Mujin thought that Li Junsheng would not bother with her anymore because of the trouble, so Yao Mujin didn't expect to see Li Junsheng at the door of the company.

"Brother Junsheng? Why are you here?"
Seeing Yao Muzhen's footsteps stopped in surprise, Li Junsheng's dissatisfaction with Yao Muzhen's ruthless decision-making in the past few days suddenly disappeared, and he suddenly realized how fragile Yao Muzhen was now.

Sudden experience of too much, Yao Muzhen's heart has already reached saturation, and she doesn't know when it will suddenly explode and destroy herself. She doesn't believe that she will be taken care of, that she will be loved, and that she can be normal again Live like a human.

Now, she is like a bird with broken wings, fearing everything around her, making it difficult to soar into the sky.

Yao Mujin took two steps towards Li Junsheng, as if he was testing the unknown cub.

"Of course I must come. Although I don't agree with your decision, I will not leave you anyway."
Li Junsheng smiled gently at Yao Mujin, and opened his arms to hug the skinny Yao Mujin.

Yao Mujin gently leaned against Li Junsheng and smiled faintly.

The two of them didn't speak any more on the way to the hospital. Yao Mujin unconsciously pursed her lips as they rushed to the car ahead.

"Don't take the narcotics," she told the doctors.

Does it hurt?Pain, Yao Mujin wanted to let her stay in pain forever.

"No." Liu Junsheng objected immediately.

The doctors also objected to this. They said: "It is very dangerous to perform an abortion with your current physical condition, and you will not be able to survive without anesthesia."

This time, Yao Muzhen did not persist, because she knew that her persistence was meaningless, she compromised, and her soft voice seemed to dissipate when the wind blows, "Then, local anesthesia."

Watching the child stay away from her was also a punishment for herself.

Lying on the operating bed, Yao Mujin felt the cold needles pierce her skin, she couldn't express her inner feelings, strong fear and anxiety?Unwilling to give up without trying?She couldn't say it herself, looking at the flickering lights above, a water mark suddenly appeared in her empty eyes, passed through her temples, and fell into her ears.

"He's where he thinks you are."
"That child will grow in your love, and that's enough."