The routine of marriage first and love later is slightly sweet

Bai Jinglan showed a simple smile, she reached out and grabbed Lin Xiaosen's hand, looked up at the twinkling stars in the sky and said: "That's because he knows that I don't love him, and Luo Yuncai loves him very much. As far as Yuncai is concerned, he is Luo Yuncai's everything.

When I knew about the relationship between Luo Yuncai and him, I didn't pay much attention to it, because to me, it didn't matter who he was with.

It was also my laissez-faire attitude that caused Luo Yuncai and Lin Qing'er to push their noses more and more, and finally almost killed our mother and daughter.

And when Mom married Lin Tian, ​​she thought the same as you do now. At that time, Lin Tian loved me, and for me, he was the most suitable person to marry and live.

Mom told you this, not to let you choose what you love. Mom said this just to give you a reference. When I was young, I also had a vigorous love.

But in the end we all lost to reality, but if I had to choose again, I might choose to fight against fate. A few years ago, your dad was really good to me, but I don’t love him, just like in life It's like there is no condiment, and I always feel that there is a lack of flavor. To be honest, your father's life is uncomfortable, and I am also uncomfortable. "

Listening to Bai Jinglan's recounting of the past, Lin Xiaosen couldn't figure out why her father loved her so much when she was young, and why her father loved her so much. When she grew up, everything changed. Now she finally understands.

She held Bai Jinglan's hand instead, and "Mom" Bai Jinglan patted her hand gently, "I have never met Su Mozhe, but he can take care of you for three years, and he is a good boy in my opinion. Mom can't deal with emotional matters." Help you decide, but Mom can share with you some of what Mom saw.

Three years ago, when I heard the news of your death, I hated Jun Mofan so much in my heart. For a moment, I wanted to go down to accompany you. You also know that Mom is in this world, and you are the only concern, but he He hugged Jinger and put it in my hand.

I can't let him find a stepmother for Jinger to abuse Jinger, and at that time, Jinger's psychological trauma stress syndrome was very serious, so I gave up the idea of ​​death, thinking about raising Jinger well .

At that time, because of your death, Jun Mofan was very sad. In the first year, on the day of your death, he drank a lot of wine. Seeing his pain, I just felt that he deserved everything, he asked for it of.

That night he lost his mind, grabbed the fruit knife on the table and stabbed himself. At that time, he really had no desire to survive. It was Jing Er who found him and saw the blood all over the ground. I was so frightened that I burst into tears. When I came out to hug Jinger, I found that he was covered in blood. I asked Zhang Ma to call the emergency number. "

Speaking of this, Bai Jinglan showed a smile like a fool, "You know what? At that time, he was covered in blood, but he wanted to comfort the crying Jinger, he wanted to hug Jinger.

But the closer he got, the more Jinger cried. Since then, he has never committed suicide again, and all his heart is on Jinger. You know why Jinger must cry every night before going to bed. Want to fall asleep to a story?
"Listening to Bai Jinglan's narration, Lin Xiaosen immediately appeared in Lin Xiaosen's mind, the scene of the things Bai Jinglan said just now, felt like being picked up by something, very painful.

"Why?" At this time, she didn't realize that she had already burst into tears, and Bai Jinglan didn't remind her, but continued: "When Jun Mofan brought Jing Er back, Jing Er was very afraid of being approached by others. He sleeps in the tent in the room every day. There are a lot of things piled up in the tent. Whenever Jing Er is afraid, he will hide in the tent.

Jun Mofan slept with Jinger on the floor for nearly a year. Jun Mofan didn't know how to tell stories, so he bought a lot of picture books and kept them at home. At night, he would follow Jinger one by one. speak.

Later, when Jing Er's condition got better, he told Jing Er what happened between you two. In front of Jing Er, a child, he admitted his mistake without hesitation, saying that you failed him and him. you.

You can ask the employees of Jun's Group, what kind of state Jun Mofan has been in these three years, and why Jun's Group has achieved today's achievements?In the past three years, he has been extremely harsh on his employees. He will only smile when Jing Er is around. At other times, it is hard work, because he wants to use tiredness and work to make himself miss you. .

As long as he stops, he will spend the whole day in a state of depression. Every year on the day of your death, he will go to the bar to get drunk, and then come back after venting outside.

He never regards his body as a body. In fact, I know what he thinks. He wants to go underground to see you, but because of Jinger, he has to take care of his body. It can be said that he has been living in the past three years. In this repeated torture.

The news that you are still alive, I actually noticed it before you came back. When Jun Mofan proposed to me to take Jinger to country M, I found that his whole state has changed, like It's like a pool of stagnant water coming back to life.

Komori, Jun Mofan made mistakes, he has to bear it, whether he loves you or not, mom believes you know best in your heart, Su Mozhe has been with you for three years, and has taken care of you for three years, you can't let him down, so You have to choose carefully.

Well, it's getting late, and I'm getting older, and I can't stay up late like you young people. I'll go to rest first, and you should go to rest earlier. "

"Okay, Mom, you go, I will sit down for a while and go to rest."

Lin Xiaosen didn't expect that Bai Jinglan would throw her a dilemma in the end, yes, she couldn't choose between Jun Mofan and Su Mozhe.

She half-lyed on the chair, brought up the blanket that Bai Jinglan had draped over her, and covered herself, looking at the stars in the sky, for some reason, after knowing how Jun Mofan had lived in the past three years, she became irritable My heart also calmed down.

"Xingxing, Xingxing, can you tell me how should I choose?" She murmured to herself, gradually she closed her eyes at some point and fell into a sweet dreamland.

Jun Mofan came back after being very drunk. As soon as the car drove into the gate, he saw Lin Xiaosen who was asleep in the yard. Immediately, all the drunkenness disappeared. In this moment, all the coldness and hardness in his heart melted into Soft around your fingers.

He used to come home very late, at that time Lin Xiaosen would always wait for her in the living room, no matter how late she was, she would not go to sleep until he came back.

At that time, he didn't know how to cherish. Every time he came back, he treated her coldly, and even deliberately said some hurtful things to her. At that time, she also endured them all.

After losing Lin Xiaosen, he realized how happy it is to have someone waiting for you in the middle of the night.Although he knew intellectually that Lin Xiaosen just happened to sleep here today and had nothing to do with waiting for him, but he was still very happy in his heart and felt very happy.