I can't catch the idol queen

"Of course my mother refused to come, and she refused with a gesture of my hands. That person asked my mother for her contact information, so that I can thank her later, because there was a refusal before, and it would be unreasonable to refuse this time. We changed our contact information in no time.”

"Later, that person often ran to Jiangnan. Every time he came, he would always look for my mother for various reasons."

"My mother was moved by his perseverance, and finally when the man confessed, she complied naturally."

"My mother told me that she loved him at that time."

At that time, he was young and didn't know what love was. He thought that love was his mother and that person.

Xi Qin and Chen Shu lived a happy life for several years, and Chu Shan could think that this should be a perfect story when she heard what Shen Mufei said.

But things backfired, and the later stories were not so perfect, even cruel enough to make one's heart tremble.

Shen Mufei said: "My mother is ill, very seriously ill, grandma won't let me see her, she says she is afraid that I will be sad seeing her."

"I know, that's what my mother meant. My mother was elegant and beautiful all her life. When she was down and pitiful, she always didn't want her close relatives to see her."

"But I always take advantage of the fact that the adults are not paying attention, and secretly look at her. Sometimes I see only my mother lying on the bed, motionless, and even breathing, so frivolous as if she didn't."

"Sometimes, I can see two people, and that person came to see my mother."

"The man sat on the chair in front of the bed and said to my mother on the hospital bed, Ashu, I love you. From the beginning to the end, until now, that love has never changed. I was able to marry you back then. I think I am the happiest man in the world, but after spending time with you for a long time, I realized that I am not."

Shen Mufei said: "The man said that being with my mother is very tiring. My mother is always elegant, beautiful, and generous. She treats everyone with such perfect thoughtfulness that both humans and gods hate her, as if she is an angel sent by heaven to warm everything in the world. "

"But that person doesn't like this feeling. He hopes that my mother can be a little bit worse to others, be a little warmer to him, or even be warmer to him alone, which is the best."

"My mother was lying on the bed at the time, didn't say anything, just stared at that person for a long, long time, and finally sighed deeply."

"I think that person probably doesn't understand my mother. The disappointment in that sigh made me, who was peeking outside the door, so sad that my heart trembled, but that person still shouted that my mother was noble , and finally flung his sleeves and left angrily."

"That man is selfish. He says he loves my mother, but at the end of the day, he just loves himself."

It's rare for Shen Mufei to speak such a long sentence. After speaking, his eyes were full of fatigue, but his back straightened even more.

Chu Shan wanted to interrupt to say something, but she didn't know how to speak.

And Shen Mufei decided to tell this story, so he didn't intend to hide it, so after a short pause, he continued to talk about the following.

"Since that incident, my mother has become more ill and can barely speak. She can only eat liquid food, but most of what she eats every day is spit out."

It is very similar to his current situation.

He continued: "The family invited the best doctors, doctors from all over the country, and finally diagnosed that my mother had anorexia coincident with a special disease."

"Actually, my mother didn't suffer from anorexia, it's just that what she ate was tampered with."

This is a fact that he only knew when he was almost an adult.

"Less than a year after my mother passed away, that man married Jin Qian back home and brought a child with him."

"That child once received alimony from his mother and grew up well. When he came to the house, he was chubby all over. He obviously ate well, dressed well, and was well-fed."

"That child is very domineering. When he came to Shen's house, he quickly took over everything, including what my mother left for me."

Inkstones, writing brushes made of his lanugo hair, small costumes...

Many things are occupied and destroyed by him when he is not at home at school.

At that time, Shen Mufei was still very young, and he was also angry. When he came back from school, he saw that the things his mother had left for him were destroyed, so he directly pushed the girl down from the second floor.

Pushing it down didn't count, but he rushed up and kicked the girl hard.

In the end, the girl's earth-shattering cries called Shen Mufei's grandparents, Xi Qin, Jin Qian and others.

They had already been captured by the chubby little girl, they didn't say anything at that time, and sent the little girl to the hospital first.

The diagnosis came out very quickly. The little girl's bones were not fully developed. She fell from the second floor and directly broke her right leg. Shen Mufei's kick was so hard that it broke one of the little girl's ribs.

With such a big injury, even if Shen Mufei had too many grievances, he just ignored it.

Mr. Xi is the backbone of the family. Before the little girl came out of the hospital, he immediately ordered someone to send Shen Mufei to the school for accommodation.

At that time, Shen Mufei was just in the first year of junior high school, and he, who had never lived in a dormitory, lived in the school alone.

In addition, he was sent in by his grandfather without asking why, so he felt dissatisfied in his heart, and his personality became weird from then on.

Later, I didn’t fit in well in school and was bullied by students. It wasn’t bullying, but isolated.

Later, because of conflicts with the students, he was persuaded to leave by the school. When Shen's family went to pick him up, they found that Shen Mufei's temperament had become a bit vicious, so they found him an extremely closed school with strict management and sent him in. .

But this is not the reason that finally made him what he is now. The specific reason is that he was 17 years old.

That year, Xi Ran was only in his early six years old, and he was used to being lawless by the old man Xi, and finally found various reasons to trouble Shen Mufei.

Shen Mufei didn't want to see her since he was a child, so naturally he didn't accept the offer.

The little girl was so angry that she didn't get a response, and she was annoyed in her heart, almost with an element of showing off, and she bluffed about the thing that was added to Chen Shu's meal back then.

At that time, the little girl didn't understand, she thought that after saying this, she would be stronger, would make Shen Mufei angry, and make him pay attention to her.

In fact, Shen Mufei was really angry and paid attention, but it was in his heart.

Since then, he has become more vicious, and he can even not speak for a month, but he is extraordinarily serious about his studies.

It was also at that time that he started not to eat much, and every time he ate something in his stomach, he had to watch someone do it to make sure there was nothing before eating it.

He was also afraid that the same food as what his mother had eaten would be added to the food he ate.

He thought that if he was more careful, there would be no problems, but Xi Ran still made a fuss with him about his diet.

Once, he was busy and couldn't stay in the kitchen. He watched the food come out of the pan with his own eyes, but Xi Ran secretly added ingredients to it.

In fact, it's not poison, it's just that nearly half of the white vinegar is in his bowl of soup.

Shen Mufei, who was already worried about diet, vomited it up on the spot after drinking the bowl of hot water.

At that time, he vomited very badly, almost in convulsions. He vomited out all the food he ate, even bile.

From then on, he couldn't eat anymore, and vomited whatever he ate. Food was like poison to him.

The one in the Shen family who loves him the most is Mrs. Xi. Seeing her grandson like this, she hurriedly invited a doctor for diagnosis and treatment. After more than half a year of treatment, but no improvement, she was diagnosed as special anorexia.

Shen Mufei didn't tell Chu Shan about the latter in detail, but Chu Shan was curious and wanted to know all about his past. Although she was not eager, she asked aloud, and he picked up a concise explanation.

He only said that he couldn't eat because his mother was passive about his diet and had obstacles in his heart.

Although Shen Mufei was much more succinct, Chu Shan burst into tears after listening to it all the way.

At the beginning, she was curious about Shen Mufei's past, but now that she knew it, she couldn't help feeling distressed, wishing she didn't know.

If she didn't know, she would be able to deceive herself and tell herself that the past of the chief devil was as beautiful as her own.

But now that she knew it, she was extremely thankful that the big devil had suffered in the past, but now that she had her, she was always by his side, cooking for him, making him laugh, and hating all the people he hated.

Seeing her crying, Shen Mufei subconsciously wanted to frown, but before the brows were furrowed, he couldn't bear to think that she was crying for himself.

He couldn't help but wanted to sigh, but he couldn't. He turned his head, wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with his fingers, and said, "Chu Shan, if I had known that you would cry, I wouldn't have told you this."

After hearing this, Chu Shan shook her head in fright: "No, big devil, you must not tell me."

Your past is so sad, you must be very bitter in your heart, if you don’t have someone to bear with you, how lonely you would be.

Chu Shan didn't say the last sentence, but Shen Mufei understood a lot from her eyes.

He raised the corners of his lips rarely, showed a smile, and said, "Chu Shan, I'm not sad at all now, I'm very happy."

After speaking, he turned to look at the incense table again.

Behind the candlelight, the spirit tablet of his mother, Chen Shu of the Shen family, stood out.

There was no portrait on it, only a plaque. He looked at the plaque and said silently in his heart: "Mom, look, Chu Shan is with me."

Following Shen Mufei's gaze, Chu Shan also looked at the incense desk, and saw Chen Shu's spirit tablet.

She stood up, knelt down on the futon neatly, kowtowed to the spirit tablet, and shouted seriously: "Mom!"

……

Old Madam Xi cruelly made Shen Mufei kneel in the ancestral hall, but she couldn't bear to let Chu Shan kneel inside for too long.

How to put it, this is also the Shen family's new daughter-in-law, if she is wronged, if she runs away in the future, what will happen if she doesn't want to see her grandson.

Seeing that the time was almost up, Mrs. Xi pushed open the door of the ancestral hall and asked Chu Shan to come out to rest.

Chu Shan is very protective of the calf, she is not tired of killing herself, she wants to stay with Shen Mufei inside.

But she said this, but her body couldn't bear it. Since she kowtowed to Chen Shu just now, she has been kneeling all the time. Now her knees are hurting again, her body is swaying, and there are signs of falling down at any time.

My new daughter-in-law has already knelt like this, if she is asked to continue kneeling, she will not know how to scold their old Shen family tomorrow.

In the end, the old lady had no choice but to let Chu Shan get up and rest, so she had no choice but to let Shen Mufei get up angrily.

The old lady Xi really felt that her eldest grandson was too stupid, she left the words that made Shen Mu fly up, turned around and left the ancestral hall without looking at the two of them.

The big devil Xi got the amnesty order, and Chu Shan was so happy that she jumped up and got up from the futon, then pulled Shen Mufei's sleeve, and called him happily: "Wake up big devil, grandma said!" You don't need to kneel anymore, let's go back and rest."

At Shen's house that day, the two of them could be regarded as having the same room in the true sense.

But because of the story that Shen Mufei told before, the impact on the hearts of the two of them was not small. In addition, the two of them knelt in the ancestral hall for so long, and when they walked, their legs were trembling.