Hello, my Mr. Shangguan

"When did you still think about it?"

When Mu Zixiao thought of Ming Nana's drug addiction relapse, she was worried for a while, and even her eyes couldn't help turning red.

Seeing her like this, Ming Nana retreated back to the bed, casually took out a pillow and hugged her in her arms, made a sad face, stared nervously at Mu Zixiao, and exaggeratedly said, "No way! Mu Zixiao, I'm here perfectly fine, do you have to make me cry?"

If Min Nana woke up full of complaints, she would feel better.

But Ming Nana still had such a giggling look.

Mu Zixiao knew that she didn't want others to feel sorry for her because of this.

But... As her best friend, Mu Zixiao only felt more uncomfortable seeing Ming Nana like this.

Drug addiction, if it was really so easy to overcome, there wouldn't be so many people in this world who are stuck in it and unable to extricate themselves.

She didn't want Min Nana to bear all that pain and loneliness alone.

The moment Mu Zixiao turned her face away, tears could not help but slip out of her eyes.

She didn't make a sound, and deliberately suppressed her breathing, but the trembling shoulders still betrayed her emotions at this time.

Ming Nana paused for a moment, then put down the pillow in her hand, and leaned over.

Just like in the past, she hugged Mu Zixiao, pillowed on Mu Zixiao's shoulder, and said with a sigh, "Xiaoxiao, if you cry now, it will make me feel very embarrassed."

She speaks in a soft voice, and all emotions are contained in it.

Hearing these words, Mu Zixiao's shoulders shrugged even more, even if she clenched her lower lip, she couldn't hold back her sobbing.

Turning around, Mu Zixiao was completely anxious, and yelled at her, "Ming Nana, why are you so willful! Why do you do this, why do you do such a thing! Why do you let yourself be so selfish for others? Injured like this. Do you know that I..."

Do you know, when I watched you fall asleep, I thought you would never wake up again.

You know, I almost thought I was going to lose you as a person.

Mu Zixiao didn't say anything about the latter.

However, Ming Nana understands everything, she can understand it all.

He took a tissue from the side, stretched out his hand to wipe Mu Zixiao's tears, and murmured, "I know, I know...I know, I...know..."

"Ming Nana, I'm angry, I'm really angry."

Mu Zixiao looked at her, feeling really sad, uncontrollable sad.

"Okay, don't be angry." Ming Nana coaxed her to say, "I'm fine!"

After a while, Min Nana looked at her and said firmly, "I... will be fine."

Under Mu Zixiao's gaze, Ming Nana pursed her lips, remembering the past, when she opened her mouth, she began to scold, "You, you have been like this since you were a child, you have always been so timid, and you are scared of anything. Really I don't know how Shangguan Jingyu can stand you with this kind of character!"

But Mu Zixiao didn't like this at all, and warned her viciously, "Ming Nana, I warn you, this kind of thing can't happen again. No, there will never be a next time."

Ming Nana smiled, patted the seat on one side, motioned her to sit down, smiled at her, and said, "I know."

Mu Zixiao swallowed the choking in her voice, she just felt that it was not worth it for Ming Nana, "Actually, just for Mo Xuening, you are not worth taking such a big risk."

She didn't understand why Min Nana would take such a risk for someone who had framed her before.

In her view, all of this is very unreasonable.

When the afternoon sun shone, Min Nana was in a daze.

Not worth it, many people have said similar things to her.

In response to this, Ming Nana smiled faintly, shook her head slowly, lowered her head, looked at her fingertips, and sighed softly, "If you don't do something, how will you know if it's worth it?" worth."

Mu Zixiao looked at her with a serious expression on his cold eyebrows.

Min Nana tilted her head, she was wearing a loose hospital gown, without delicate makeup, and after adding sickness, she looked a little haggard, her lips were only light pink "Actually, it's not just for her, I do it for myself as well.”

Folding her arms and putting them on her knees, Min Nana smiled at her, her tone relaxed, and she said as if she was telling a story, "Xiaoxiao, you don't know. In fact, the entertainers in the entertainment industry are not It looks so beautiful. Especially, it is an artist who has just entered the circle."

"They are like vases placed in front of people. They are objects that people can choose from. When people see them, they will say, this looks better, or that looks better. It is natural to be favored by others. The possibility of being picked away, and the rest will fall into another state of despair. That kind of life is very difficult, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is trembling, but it is not an exaggeration to force a smile!"

"But...they persisted. No matter what purpose they had in mind, they were always pursuing what they wanted. From a little artist who was ignored by anyone, Suffering little by little. I don’t know when I will be discovered, and I don’t know where the end is, so I just wait, hope, and think, whether luck will come earlier than expected.”

"Very lonely, very helpless, even... very helpless, because I need to face the uncertainty of the future every day. Every time I want to give up, I will persuade myself, can I hold on for a while, and then, Try to hold on for a while longer. However, even I don’t know when this persistence will end.”

Ming Nana said so, her nose suddenly became sour, "Actually, I was like this at the beginning."

It's just that she deliberately forgot those difficult times.

Everyone said that she was born lucky, but they didn't know that she also endured and endured the difficult nights tremblingly.

Even when Zhou Ningyuan broke up with her at the beginning, she cried so much that she couldn't help herself anymore. The next day, she was still able to cheer up, try her best, show the brightest smile in front of people, and talk and laugh happily Talking about something she wasn't interested in.

If you ask her what she used to persist, she would say it was a 'dream'.

But... the irony of reality is that time will make you forget what a dream is.

With a long sigh, Ming Nana smiled, and said in a relaxed tone, "Every industry will have such a 'strength', such an inherent situation, there is no way to break it. However, the current appearance of all this is not It’s not what it should have been.”

"When did we see injustice, but we refused to stand up and say the word 'unfair'; when did we never see other people's sadness. It seems... since growing up Start. Rationality, more and more, leave less and less emotion for yourself and others.”

Shaking her head, Min Nana denied all of this, "I think it's not good, it's an unhealthy trend, but no one jumped out to say it's wrong. Because they have no ability, no qualifications, no background , have no confidence, or because all this has nothing to do with me, so I treat all this with indifference. So, this kind of trend is only growing."

"The reality is like this, but it doesn't mean that everything should be like this."

"Performance is a very rich and layered thing, and what it represents is art. Beauty, although important, is far from being the standard for people to judge, let alone something that others can easily exchange with the existing rights in their hands. thing."

"Those who are famous can get admiring and admiring glances from others; while those who are dim are always dimmed, and then, just wandering in this circle, wandering endlessly. In such a situation, Too bad and so sad."

"Mo Xuening is like this. She is weak and weak in this circle. She has no right to speak, or even the right to choose. Everything she has experienced is far from what she should have endured. Although she has no Telling all of this to the outside world does not mean that the harm inflicted on her is what she should bear."

"Many people are advising others that suffering is part of growing up."

"Was mich nicht umbringt, macht mich stsrker. What doesn't kill me, only makes me stronger."

"But... Suffering can sometimes kill people. Suffering needs to be experienced before it can grow and become stronger; and... the suffering that cannot be overcome is the suffering, the suffering that is inevitable."

"My catastrophe has passed, but... there are still many people who are still deeply involved in it. I, I have obtained too many benefits from this circle, fame, reputation, respect, everything I can get here, I will give it to you." Got."

"So, I think I should do more. Because, compared to others, I still have choices, and I can even control more. Therefore, I don't want to see a life fall in front of me, and remain indifferent .”

It is true that she does not have much affection for a character like Mo Xuening, but she is willing to lend a helping hand when such a life needs it.

This is all her reason.

Therefore, when others are asking her if it is worth it, even she is asking herself this question in her heart.

Is it worth it.

But at best, the answer is not so clear even to herself.

She always felt that she should do something, whether it was for herself or for others, she always needed to do something.

"I know that in this world, the same event may still be happening at the same moment. I may not be able to see it, hear it, and even have no way to lend a helping hand. However, within my ability , where I can take care of, as long as I can, I am willing to try to help."

"Everyone will do such things as being wise and safe. But today, we keep silent in the face of other people's misfortune, and when misfortune befalls us! Will others retain the same attitude towards us!"

"I think what this society needs is more enthusiasm, not more and more indifference." Speaking of this, Min Nana smiled, "So, I, I have nothing to regret, I used to think that I was a strong person. But... I far overestimated my psychological endurance. I just couldn't bear it after seeing all this, not to mention... besides, Mo Xuening experienced all of them personally everything of……"

"So, things are ... pretty good," she said.

Staring at the fingertips, "I'm fine, I think, I can get through this."

[PS: Everyone has joys and sorrows, and those who experience it personally, whether good or bad, are the ultimate self.And what Ming Nana insists on is her righteous heart, which may seem absurd in the eyes of others, but only those who have entered her world can appreciate the rarity of this. 】