A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

In the afternoon, I buried myself in a pile of documents. From sorting out to familiarizing myself, I felt that my whole body was about to collapse.

From the section design of the sample booklet to the review of the articles by the authors under the name of the magazine, there are more than one word to describe it, and there are simply too many.

Fortunately, there is Xiaobai as his right-hand assistant, otherwise, even if I sit in the office for three days and three nights, I may not be able to finish these tasks.

So I complained to Xiaobai without the spirit of subordinates, "Xiaobai, does your Shen always deliberately punish me? There are so many documents waiting for me to deal with, and I will definitely not kill me."

Xiaobai thought about it based on my complaints, and then replied shyly, "Editor-in-chief, you can't blame Mr. Shen, he's been very busy these days, and he doesn't have time to take care of our magazine."

"Oh, that's it." I looked up at Xiaobai who was also busy with me in the midst of my busy schedule, and then I threw myself into the file again to start a long day.

It was five o'clock in the afternoon, just in time for the rush hour, and the streets were extremely crowded with cars coming and going.The setting sun slanted, and the remaining light illuminated the congested city.

I stood on the sidewalk next to the magazine office, holding out my hand to stop the car.However, it was overcrowded, and I stopped for a long time, but I didn't see a taxi stopping in front of me.

I had no choice but to try to go to a farther place to get a car. Since it was a long way from where I lived, after a while of deliberation, I resolutely gave up the idea of ​​walking home.

I stopped in front of a bustling bus stop that deviated from the downtown area.

Having not taken this usual means of transportation for many years, I was lost in the vast crowd and lost my way.

It seems that when I look up, I can still see the young boy who walked in the crowd and came through the crowd.

My heart hurts for no reason, and my fingers clenched into fists unconsciously, wishing I could pinch it into the flesh and wake myself up again.

The bus in the distance came slowly and stopped slowly in front of the platform.

The crowd waiting for the bus rushed to the bus, pushing each other, just to be the No.1 rushing to the bus after the bus came to a safe stop.

I was about to step forward, but before I took two steps, the bus started to drive away, leaving only a bunch of passers-by who couldn't get on the bus wandering restlessly on the side of the road, waiting for the next bus to come .

The night fell unconsciously, and the dim lights on the side of the road gradually lit up, illuminating the people who were still anxious to go home.

On the bus platform behind them, the billboards also lit up one by one, adding a bit of bright white to the dark yellow of the place.

Subconsciously, he touched the phone in his pocket and took it out to see that the time was already pointing to seven o'clock in the evening.

It turns out that in this inadvertent dawdling, time flies by like a white horse.

I stomped a few steps on the spot, relieved my legs that were numb from standing for a long time, and looked around blindly.

The lights on the side of the road became increasingly dimmer, and the figures of the crowded people on the side of the road were intertwined together, forming a huge dark monster.

Time passed by every minute and every second, but I still couldn't wait for the bus to arrive as I wished, so I set foot on a desolate place and walked leisurely.

His eyes drifted away from the various landscapes and pedestrians on the roadside, and his mind suddenly became blank, not knowing what he was thinking, and what he should think about.

In a daze, as if I saw a familiar scene in my memory, I raised my eyes and looked around, only to realize that I had come to the familiar Jiangzhou University inadvertently.

At the gate of Jiangzhou University, people kept coming in and out, either alone or in small groups.This lively scene inexplicably touched the string hidden in my heart.

Today's Jiangzhou University, after undergoing reconstruction, is very different from what it was then.The teaching building is newly built, and many shops have been added to it.The only thing that remains the same is the girls' dormitories standing in the same place, and those paved gravel paths.

Almost without thinking about it, my steps have already made a decision for myself.

Stepping into Jiangzhou University again, the strange and familiar atmosphere came to my nostrils at the same time, which made me unable to stand still, and I had already stepped into the world that belonged to me alone.

The last time I came, it was late at night when it was snowing.And now, in the evening of early summer, I am the only one on the jungle path full of lights, and I am slowly treading.

Occasionally someone passed by, and they all looked at me with very strange eyes.And I seemed to have lost my mind, stumbling all the way, panicking.

No one knows what kind of mood I came here at this time, and what kind of mood I was standing downstairs in the girls' dormitory building, looking at a certain girl's dormitory upstairs with sad eyes in a daze.

Back then, An Jinnian stood in the position where I am now, confessed to me, and said love words that would never be abandoned in my life, which became the best memory in my life.

That was a scene that I couldn't let go of, no matter how many years passed.Because, there is an obsession in that scene that I have been unwilling to give up for so many years.

At that time, Lin Xi was so purely in love with An Jinnian who belonged to her alone.

As a result, after so many years, I only miss An Jinnian in my heart.

An Jinnian, you know that after all these years, I still want nothing but you.

In the dead of night, the lights in the girls' dormitory building gradually dimmed until it became pitch black. I still stood where I was, unable to move half a minute, and the scene of that year was still replaying in my mind.

At that time, An Jinnian was like a ray of light in the sky, piercing the dark sky, illuminating the dark detour ahead of me, and becoming the softest lamp in my heart.

"How did you come."

Just when my thoughts were all over the sky and I was full of melancholy, a familiar, gentle and pleasant voice suddenly sounded behind me.

I subconsciously turned around, and before I could recognize who the person in front of me was, I threw myself into his arms.

When the familiar fragrance spread to the tip of my nose, I couldn't help but indulge in the warm embrace.

"Jinnian..." I hugged him tightly and called out in a low voice.

An Jinnian didn't snort, just raised his hand to caress the top of my head, his nails sank into the hair, the warm touch made my scalp numb.

Everything in front of me is like a dream, so unreal.

After not seeing him for a few days, his body became thinner and thinner.

I greedily sucked the temperature in his arms, and rubbed my fingertips on his back.When I touched his blunt and abrupt ribs, I stopped the movement of my hands, and poked my head out of his arms to look up at him.

"What have you been up to recently? Why have you lost so much weight?" I stretched out my hand to touch his face in distress, but when I stroked his pointed chin with protruding bones, I stopped my hand.

My heart twitched violently for no reason, and my breathing gradually stopped due to the pain.

On an early summer night, the coolness brushed my face lightly, as if reminding me how ridiculous my actions are at the moment.

An Jinnian gently pushed me away, the cool breath on his body gradually became stronger, his thin lips were slightly parted, and there was no warmth, "It's very late, I'll take you back."

After several hours of sinking and confusion, my brain waves gradually returned to the right track, and I recognized the situation in front of me clearly.

His words were still so ruthless, almost merciless, and he pushed me away without mercy.

I sniffed and lowered my head, unwilling to explore his eyes as deep as an ancient well. "No, I'll go back by myself." The words of refusal blurted out.

"Let's go." Not allowing me to move, An Jinnian took my hand and strode away.

His strides are so big that I, who has been pulled by him, have messy steps, and I need to trot to barely keep up with his pace.

The strange thing is that the hand he held me tightly seemed to be very strong, but it was cold and weak, like a ball of soft cotton falling on my wrist, and I didn't feel it clearly.

"Slow down." I shook my arms twice, seemingly forcefully but weakly, and then easily broke free from his hands.

I looked at him in surprise, not knowing how to describe the scene I saw.

It wasn't until he took my hand again that I stuttered and asked, "Are you... are you... are you hiding something from me?"

An Jinnian's body froze, his hands tightened, his facial expression was shrouded in the night, not very clear, but chilly. "No."

I was caught off guard and staggered, pounced on him, "An Jinnian, you are lying."

"No, it's not, believe it or not." He didn't stay any longer, and once again pulled me towards the gate of Jiangzhou University.

When I passed the track of Jiangzhou University, I stood there cheeky, squatting on the ground with a self-destructive image, unwilling to move even half a step.

An Jinnian sighed helplessly, stopped and looked down at me, and said, "Why don't you leave."

I begged for mercy with my eyes and said, "Will you sit here with me?"

"Not good." An Jinnian refused, "It's late at night, let's go back."

This time, I didn't fight anymore, I got up from the ground, let him pull me, and remained motionless.

I no longer have the strength to play childish temper with him, and the numbness in my heart made me lose the courage to stay.

Along the way, I didn't say a word, but silently followed An Jinnian's footsteps, stepping on his elongated shadow, complaining again and again.

The bitterness in my heart overflowed, and even my mouth was filled with bitterness.He wanted to speak, but he was desperate for face, and he refused to bow his head for a long time.

An Jinnian's estrangement reminds me all the time that I have nothing to do with him.

Obviously heartbroken to the point of dying, but still resisting to show strangeness in front of him.

For a moment, I even wanted to slap myself and smash my ridiculous and inferior self-esteem.

An Jinnian escorted me all the way to the gate of the community where I lived. During this period, the atmosphere between us was silent and oppressive, and we were unanimously cold.

I even found a good excuse for being so strong, and I was unwilling to be the one who broke the silence.

It wasn't until An Jinnian disappeared from my sight as he wished, that I couldn't help squatting on the corner of the street and crying.

Obviously there are so many things to say, so many questions to be clarified, but in the end, under his deliberate alienation, all of them turned into saliva and swallowed back.

An Jinnian, when did we become so strangers without even a single extra polite word.

"Fool, leave as soon as you leave, there is nothing to cry about."

Someone squatted down, keeping the same height as me, and reached out to brush the hair on my forehead that was messed up by the wind and blurred my vision. "It's just one year of An Jin, it's a big deal."

Xu Yan's high-pitched voice rang in her ears, and she continued, "Besides, don't you still have me?"