A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

It was a woman's innate intuition, if it wasn't for Xu Yan, Yu Sheng, and Mu Yuan who would deny my guess at any time and stabilize my emotions.

Then, at that time, I would definitely go straight to settle down the moment I was discharged from the hospital.

An Jinnian, the person who always appears in my dreams but keeps a distance from me.Once again, pulling my heart to a deeper abyss.

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Xu Yan pulled me and made a fuss at Yu Sheng's house until late at night, never giving me a moment to think about it.

It wasn't until the sound of the rain outside the house patting on the glass roof of Yu Sheng's open-air balcony that I suddenly realized that the day had passed like this.

Continuous heavy rain, pouring down, like a strange sound in the dark night, falling on the heart, hurting in the heart.

When a person's fear is magnified infinitely because of the cloudy or sunny weather, you will know that the weather is good or bad, and people's mood is actually closely related.

Xu Yan and Yu Sheng were extremely quiet this day.

Even Xu Yan, who always likes to be lively, no longer drags me, because the parents are short-sighted.It was just after dinner at Yu Sheng's house that I dragged Yu Sheng and me to sit on the sofa at his house and watch a horror movie.

As a timid me, after being frightened by the horror scenes in the movie many times, Xu Yan finally gave up and changed the horror movie into a comedy movie.

Accompanied by exaggerated laughter, it sounded in the quiet living room from time to time, adding a bit of noise to the silence of the room.Yu Sheng was sitting at the other end of the sofa, smiling lightly and saying nothing.

The corners of the curved mouth reveal his two charming dimples, which add a bit of hazy beauty to his appearance under the reflection of the TV light in the dark night.

His gentle appearance is very similar to the poor scholars often seen on TV, neither in a hurry nor in a hurry, nor in a panic.

Many times, I think that people like Yu Sheng are destined to live on the screen and be sought after by thousands of people.

After all, such a good-tempered person is rare in reality.
After watching the movie, the hour hand went to three o'clock in the morning.

Xu Yan pulled my arm with sleepy eyes, talking in her sleep, "Lin Xi, when are we going to Beijing? I haven't seen my uncle and aunt for a long time. I miss them."

Xu Yan's words were half dreamy, soft and far-fetched.

I was two points confused and three points awake, half-closed my eyes, looking for the light in the dark night.

The four words uncle and aunt awakened the memory sleeping in my mind.

I can't remember the last time I called my parents. In the world of love between children, I obviously forgot that I still have a home.

I am naturally cool-tempered, so I am not keen on telephone, video and other communication tools.This also led to me becoming more indifferent and having the same strange temper as An Jinnian.

The light in the living room had turned on at some point, Yu Sheng walked slowly on slippers, and asked softly, "Is Xu Yan already asleep?"

I nodded in a drowsy head, and said in a voice I couldn't hear, "Go to sleep, I'm already talking nonsense."

"Do you want me to help take her back? Or are you staying in my guest room tonight..."

I couldn't hear Yu Sheng's words clearly anymore, because I, who seemed to be awake, actually entered sleep in another state.

A good night's sleep.

When I woke up again, it was in the bright sunshine after the rain.

I was nestled on the sofa in Yu Sheng's house without any image, lying in a mess, half of my body had already fallen to the ground.Xu Yan squeezed inside the sofa, shaking her long legs from time to time, kicking my feet.

I was innocently affected, so I pushed Xu Yan into the sofa sadly, and lay down again.Most of the quilt covering her body was pulled away by Xu Yan. She murmured in her dreams, her mouth was like chewing wax, and she kept chattering non-stop, as if she had some rare gourmet dream, which made her yearn for it.

"Xu Yan..." After flipping back and forth twice, I was sure that I fell asleep under Xu Yan's smacking lips repeatedly.So, it also disturbed her sweet dreams.

However, I underestimated Xu Yan's unshakable drowsiness. After several times of blowing hot air and tickling her, I gave up without waking her up.

Then I took out my phone to check the time, only to find that it was still early.

So, getting up and washing has become my number one priority today.

When I saw my unkempt self in the mirror at home, I had the illusion of being struck by lightning.

But after sleeping on the sofa for one night, she turned into such a horrible appearance, one can imagine what it would be like when Xu Yan got up from the sofa.

I couldn't help shivering, and couldn't bear to think about it anymore.

Maybe it was because I returned to my own home and had a certain sense of belonging, so after washing up, I went back to the bedroom and got a good night's sleep.

In the afternoon, the assistant Xiaobai called and said that the magazine had a batch of documents waiting for me to process.Then, before he had time to say hello to Xu Yan and Yu Sheng, he hurried away alone.

It's the season for outings, and the weather in the south is good and bad, just like the morning is still sunny, but in the afternoon it has become dark clouds, and it is another heavy rain.

I stood at the bus stop waiting for the arrival of the bus, still crowded and noisy.

Fortunately, I managed to get on the first bus when it arrived.

Maybe it's because I haven't been on a bus for a long time, but I've grown to enjoy the hustle and bustle of the bus.

Many times, when a person is alone for a long time, he will inexplicably envy the bustling crowds in the downtown.Like the long-lost sunshine, the restless heart slowly calmed down.

Standing in front of people, drowning in the sea of ​​people.It was my pursuit once. I like the noise mixed with human touch, and the development of the changing situation.

The only thing I don't like is that I am one of them.

I just want to be a stranger, or a bystander, counting the people and things that hang around me.Sighing the dramatic changes, and then embarking on the return trip to a distant place, returning to the peace that belongs to me alone.

Just like me now, standing in the crowd of strangers, quietly looking around like a child at a loss.

An inexplicable panic surged into my heart, and I tried my best to stabilize my figure under the shaking of the bus stop.

When I got off the bus, my face changed from white to horribly pale.The cold sweat dripping all over my body, and the increasingly blurred vision in front of my eyes, are telling me one thing.

Hypotension occurred.

Yes, sunny and rainy weather is the most likely to make people feel irritable. When the dull air poured into the tip of the nose, my hypotension broke out uncontrollably.

After leaving the crowded bus, I sat down on the long wooden rest chair by the roadside.

The sound of heavy breathing still didn't make my condition better.I am like a person wandering on the edge of life and death, losing all consciousness.

When there was only darkness in sight, I collapsed on the bench by the roadside and let the breath of death wrap me.

"Lin Xi...what's wrong with you..."

Just when I thought I was bound to die, Shen Ke's familiar voice sounded above my head.

I murmured, unable to speak, "Water..."

"I'll take you back to the magazine office first." Shen Ke picked me up and walked quickly towards the magazine office.

The bus stop is only a few steps away from the magazine office, and before I blink, I have been gently placed on the sofa in the office by Shen Ke.

Xiao Bai approached with the document in his arms, and asked in a panic, "Editor-in-Chief, what's wrong with you."

"Xiaobai, go and pour a glass of water for your editor-in-chief." Shen Ke lightly raised his hand to caress my back, comforting me.

After a series of tossing, my consciousness has become clearer, only the figure in front of me is blurred.

"Editor-in-chief, drink some water." Xiaobai said as he handed me the cup.

I fumbled for the cup, smiled, and said "Thank you."

"How is it, are you feeling better?" Shen Ke asked with concern.

"Much better." After drinking the water in the glass, I was almost back to normal.

The body soaked in cold sweat seemed to be wet from rain, sticky and extremely uncomfortable.

"It's so good, I passed out on the side of the road. If I didn't go to the car to pick up something, I happened to run into you..." Shen Ke gently held my hand dripping with cold sweat, and said with fear, "I almost thought that I was going to lose is you."

Shen Ke's hands trembled slightly, with a bit of uneasiness.He looked at me with deep eyes and soft words.

I was taken aback, and withdrew my hand from his hand without a trace, and said, "Don't worry, it's fine."

Shen Ke kept silent, looked away disappointed, and said, "Lin Xi, during the few days you disappeared, I was actually very..."

"Shen Ke, the past is in the past, don't need to mention it again." I interrupted him mercilessly, and said the words of refusal thousands of times, and I have already learned it by heart, and it is catchy.

Knowing it can't be done.

Shen Ke like this never made me feel guilty.Even if the relationship between us is bad, it is not enough to say everything in a few words.

It's just that I'm tired and don't want to have any more ambiguous entanglements with them.

Because, the person I love may still be waiting for me somewhere I don't know.

My heart became extremely warm because of someone.An Jinnian, this dreamlike name, kept struggling and roaring in my heart.

"Sure enough, you only have An Jinnian in your heart. You never ask what other people have done for you." Shen Ke looked at me with insightful eyes, and then said, "You! Except An Jinnian , others are nothing in your eyes."

Shen Ke's words hit my pain point and awakened the fact that I have been buried in my heart and I don't want to face it.

I suddenly remembered the dream Xu Yan said last night when she was sleeping, "Lin Xi, when are we going to Beijing? I haven't seen my uncles and aunts for a long time. It's strange to miss them."

Guilt, spontaneously arises.

Even Xu Yan knew that she missed my parents, but as a daughter, I was hesitating, clicking on the familiar number, pressing and retracting countless times.

Like a frightened kitten, it refuses to take this substantive step.

"What's the matter, are you stupid?" Shen Ke raised his hand in front of my eyes and asked.

"No...no." I cleared my throat and asked, "Didn't you say there are documents to be processed?"

"Oh, here, editor-in-chief." Xiaobai shrewdly handed me the document he was holding in his arms, and said, "This is the information of several authors who are about to sign contracts with the magazine recently. After the first and second trials, only you, the editor-in-chief, are left." the final judgment"