I can't hide my affection for you

It was already afternoon when the two finished their meal. Of course, the rest of the work of washing dishes and cleaning the kitchen must be handed over to An Zihao.At this moment, Feirou was sitting on the sofa in the living room in a daze, her eyes wandering aimlessly, without saying a word, just sitting there in a daze, even An Zihao didn't know what she was thinking.After tidying up the kitchen, An Zihao walked to the living room, handed the brewed coffee to Feirou, who took a sip without thinking. "An, Zi, Hao, who the hell told you to put salt in your coffee? What are you so worried about?" , I didn't expect him to be alive." An Zihao said while taking a bottle of drink from the refrigerator and handing it to Feirou. "Go, go, damn it, you haven't had a single good word out of your mouth," Fei Rou naturally took the drink from An Zihao's hand, and said. "What's on your mind? You're so engrossed in your thoughts, girls, don't pretend to be so busy, aren't you tired?" This sentence was not a joke, it was what An Zihao said to Fei Rou from the bottom of his heart. Rou felt so much in her heart that even a boy like An Zihao felt tired when he saw it, but she didn't take it seriously. This kind of her really made An Zihao feel bad; from An Zihao's point of view, girls should be It's for pain, especially for a girl like Feirou, who deserves to be treated with care by many people. She really shouldn't bear so many things by herself. "Besides, I think about so many things in my head, but it's easy to go bald." An Zihao stroked Feirou's "dog hair" as he spoke. "Let's go, you're pretty much bald. Didn't you know that scientific surveys show that boys are [-]% more likely to be bald in middle age than girls?" Feirou said while giving An Zihao a supercilious look.

"Seriously, Feirou, I know that I can't get involved in your affairs, but if you have something that you can't think about, you can really tell me. I can't guarantee that I can help you, but I hope you can't figure it out. Sometimes, there will be someone by your side, someone who can listen to you, of course, I am happy to be that person." An Zihao said seriously while reaching out to straighten Feirou's messy hair.An Zihao's words naturally came from the heart. He really hoped that Feirou could be happy and happy. His feelings for Feirou were not ordinary love between a man and a woman. It was a kind of pity. It was more like a brother to a sister. The concern comes from the heart but does not ask for anything in return.Of course, An Zihao understands her feelings for Feirou. Feirou knows An Zihao no less than he knows herself. One of the reasons why Hao is at ease in front of Hao; although Fei Rou often hates An Zihao, in her heart, she already regards An Zihao as her family and her brother. I felt the long-lost family affection.

"Ask you a question. A person treats you very well. He is the kind who has lived with you since childhood. When he was young, he tolerated everything about you, including your petty temper, unreasonable troubles, and pranks. Even later Many people have left you, but he was the only one who has been with you for six years. He has been with you forever. For him, he didn't leave; but one day, you found that the self in his heart was not the self you imagined, and he hurt you with his own words, even though you knew it was not true, but it was really sad, Would you still forgive such a person?" That's right, Feirou was talking about Jiang Xiying, and the story she told was about the past between herself and Jiang Xiying, Jiang Xiying was kind to her, she was not unaware, she was not An ice cube, she knew that Jiang Xiying really tried her best to treat herself well, the kind of kindness that she wished to take out her heart for herself, and therefore, Feirou had long recognized Jiang Xiying as a good friend in her heart, but it was also because of the As a good friend, Jiang Xiying had to keep a distance; but Jiang Xiying didn't understand Feirou's heart at all, but Feirou didn't care about these things. What she cared about were Jiang Xiying's words, those words that really hurt her.In fact, Feirou doesn't know what she's struggling with now. She doesn't know if it's because of Jiang Xiying's words that made her angry, or because of her unrelenting demeanor, or maybe it's because Jiang Xiying doesn't understand herself. She doesn't know. Knowing why she is so sad, even in Feirou's heart, she has decided to give up her relationship with Jiang Xiying, but she still has doubts about her decision, she needs someone to support her decision, she needs someone He told himself that what he did was right, and that person could only be An Zihao.

"Why ask me? In fact, when you said this, you have already made a decision in your heart, haven't you? Many times, when people ask other people's opinions, they have already made their own decisions. It's just that other people get the answer, just like you now, you have already made a decision, but you just want me to support you, right?" Sure enough, An Zihao's intelligence is not fake, he just said a word to his heart. Having said that, he really understands himself very well. The current An Zihao is completely different from the handsome young man who hangs out in bars. Now he is more like a psychiatrist. The question that I didn't want to explain, I said it in a burst of blood.

"Let me guess, the person you are talking about should be your childhood sweetheart. He likes you very much, no, he should love you very much. Similarly, he has been very good to you these years, and you also value him in your heart; But because something happened between you, some of his actions made you sad, even if you knew it was unintentional, but you still couldn't forgive him; according to your personality, you have given up this relationship in your heart, but you can't. You are reluctant to deny it, and you still have nostalgia for him, because of this, you need someone to agree with what you are doing now, and that person is me, right?" Seeing that Feirou remained silent, An Zihao knew that he What you just said is correct, let’s continue.In fact, An Zihao didn't know about the person Feirou was talking about, nor had he ever seen him before, but according to Feirou's character, her cold temper, which received so many compliments from Feirou, was naturally very important to Feirou. Of course, Feirou is someone who can't let go of Feirou's heart; An Zihao has long understood this: Gu Feirou is that kind of person who doesn't care about everything around him and doesn't pay much attention to others, but once If you give someone away in your heart, you will really let him go. Even if you don't say it, you really value that person.But as proud as she is, her self-esteem is really strong. It is undeniable that in many cases, a boy's self-esteem is not as good as Feirou's. She really cared, so even if she really cared about a person, she would never forgive him, never.

"You're right. Tell me, am I too cruel?" Feirou drank the drink in her hand, opened her eyes wide and looked at An Zihao. There were tears, those tears were reluctance to give up on the relationship between herself and Jiang Xiying, similarly, those tears were also a kind of complaint, she was complaining about her ridiculous dignity.Of course, Fei Rou wouldn't let the tears flow, so she held back her tears and looked at An Zihao.

"To be honest, even though I know that you want me to support you, I really don't understand. I don't understand what you are insisting on? Why are you so stubborn? Why can't you accept others' kindness to you? You clearly know that he It was unintentional, but you still insisted on giving up on him. I really don’t understand. Don’t all girls want others to take care of themselves? Why do you push people away? The only reason to explain it is that you are protecting him. You are protecting him now. What you did was very dangerous, you don't want him to be in danger, this is just an excuse, an excuse for you to give up on him, right?" Sure enough, An Zihao really knew himself too well, in fact, deep in Feirou's heart, There has always been a fact that she doesn't want to admit. She is indeed very sad about Jiang Xiying's words. Her self-esteem does not allow Jiang Xiying to slander herself like that, but no one is an ice cube. Jiang Xiying has been kind to herself all these years. She can feel that she will be sad because of Jiang Xiying's words, but she will never give up this relationship. The only thing that really makes her give up this relationship is her willingness. She really doesn't want him to be in danger. This is what she hides in her heart. In her deepest thoughts, she thought that she was well hidden and disguised well. She thought that no one would know, but she never thought that An Zihao knew her so well. Her disguise was really worthless in front of An Zihao.

"You're quite right." Since his disguise was totally effective in front of An Zihao, why should he pretend?Feirou gave up her resistance, and said in a flat tone, of course, there was a slight sadness in the flat tone. "Don't think about anything else, since you have made a decision, don't regret it, I support you, as long as you can be happy; many things are like the coffee you just drank, everyone can only see the appearance it wants others to see , without tasting, no one knows what it tastes like; your life, others have not experienced it, so naturally you have no position to say anything, your decision, as long as you are happy." As he spoke, An Zihao picked up the non-soft drink just now. I took a sip of coffee and drank it all.Sometimes, Feirou really admires An Zihao. Every time I go to his place when she is obviously depressed, she can always use his own theory to convince herself that Feirou is a girl with her own ideas. It is basically impossible to accept other people's theories by oneself, but An Zihao can do it, and more than once, he always uses his own unique theories to resolve Feirou's thoughts. I feel much better.Feirou sometimes even wondered what An Zihao had experienced in the past to make him come up with such a unique summary. Feirou knew that An Zihao's experience must be no less than her own.

"Wow, by the way, isn't your coffee too salty? Why did I put so much salt? Water, water, give me water." While Feirou was still thinking, An Zihao had returned to his usual sloppy manner. He looked like he was so salty by the coffee, he was looking for water to drink everywhere. "Here, here, don't worry, hey, can you drink slowly, I'm going to finish the bottle in one gulp, please slow down" Feirou got up to fetch a bottle of mineral water for An Zihao, handed it to An Zihao and said arrive. "Try it, finish that cup of coffee in one gulp, and see if you want to drink a bottle of water." "You didn't make that yourself." "Why do you say I made it, I did it for you, okay?"" You made the coffee yourself, you asked for it yourself, why didn’t you make it yourself?” “I don’t care about you, I’ll go get a bottle of water” “Cut, if you can’t say it, just run away, la la la” “Go and go Go, go, do you have nothing to do, what time is it, and you still don’t go home? Are you going to be all right tomorrow?” “I want you to take care of it!”…

Looking at the darkening sky outside the window, it was obviously very late, Feirou still decided to go home.After all, starting tomorrow, I still have to go to work in the company. The two days of debauchery are enough. I have pampered myself a lot in the past two days. I still have to go back to where I should be, and there are many things to do. looking at myself. "Hey, I'm going home. I should be very busy these days, so I won't come to see you." Feirou said casually while packing her things.The more plainly you talk about some things, the more you can't let go of them, just like Feirou now, she knows that she will be very busy in the future, and it's impossible to rely on An Zihao's side like these two days. She really lived happily for the past two days. She felt the happiness she should have at her age with An Zihao's side these two days, but these were all virtual, just like Cinderella's glass slipper. When the time came, She still had to return to reality, but even so, she was still very grateful to An Zihao for giving her a chance to dream; how could such a beautiful dream not make people miss it?But after all, she still has things she should do, and she still has her own responsibilities, so even if she feels desperate in her heart, she must return to reality.