I can't hide my affection for you

Gu Feirou, who got the recording, was in a good mood. She came out of the bar and planned to go home, but Feirou clearly felt that someone was following her. This feeling started when she was talking to Chang Yu at the bar. I faintly feel that someone is watching me in a certain corner, and my every move is being watched.But at that time, it was the critical moment when he was busy getting evidence from Chang Yu's mouth, and since the man didn't stop him, he shouldn't have any malicious intentions, so Feirou didn't take it to heart.But now, he has already come out of the bar, and it seems that the man is still following him, which makes Feirou have to be vigilant, and before Feirou can do anything, the man rushes over.

"Do you need evidence that much? Are you so eager to take revenge? For these, you have used all methods. You can think of beauty tricks. Have you considered the consequences? What will you do if something really happens? What should I do?" Jiang Xiying, it turned out to be Jiang Xiying, and it was Jiang Xiying who followed her in the bar one night.how so?That means that everything he saw at the bar today was for him.For this kind of situation, Feirou is not willing. In Feirou's eyes, Jiang Xiying has always been his friend. Feirou has nothing left. The only two friends left are Beibei and him Jiang Xiying, in my heart, they are already the most important thing to me, and they are the only people I want to treat with my heart. Feirou really doesn't want any of them to see her current self, a person blinded by hatred The self, the self who will do anything for revenge, the self that is no longer the original self.They are Feirou's last line of defense. Feirou has always hoped that in their minds, they are beautiful. Even if they are cold, not talkative, and reject people thousands of miles away, they are still sunny and lovely girls. A villain who can use it.But now, it may not be possible.

"Yes, in order to bring down my dear uncle, I can use any means." Feirou suppressed the tears in her eyes and roared at Jiang Xiying.No one knows how much pressure Feirou has endured, just like no one knows what Feirou has experienced in the past six years. After six years of experience, the original Gu Xiaorou has long been tortured and lost by life. Feirou is not her at all.Now Gu Feirou's only purpose of living is to make her uncle pay with blood, and let him experience everything she has experienced.For revenge, she would rather become the person she once looked down on the most, a villain who is scheming, cunning, and capable of using any means.But no one will ever understand how painful and tormented Feirou is in her heart. In fact, she also hates herself now. Maybe they will think that what Feirou lost is only her parents. How do they know that it is Feirou Rou's most precious beauty is the past that Feirou misses, and it is the only happy memory in Feirou's mind.

"Since you want revenge so much, you can use flattery like a stranger for revenge, otherwise you come to me, I will help you complete your plan, just stay with me, I don't need you to find someone else, just concentrate Just stay by my side, just stay by my side, don’t leave, I’ll help you.” Jiang Xiying was completely irritated by the scene just now, and now he has completely lost his mind, he doesn’t even know that he What are you talking about? He has only one purpose in his mind, that is, he doesn't want Feirou to laugh at others, cry at others, flatter others, he wants her, he wants her to stay by his side, all her joys, sorrows and joys All for themselves. "Jiang Xiying, sure enough, you still said it. In your heart, I have always been this kind of person, right? When you said this, the relationship between us was over." Proud as if not soft, Even now Feirou, she can not care about anyone's opinion, but she can't ignore her friends. She doesn't want to let them look down on her. Since she regards Jiang Xiying as her friend, Feirou naturally doesn't want to involve them , can't bear to let them take risks, let alone use their feelings to achieve their goals, that is a desecration of the only tender feelings in Feirou's heart.But today, Jiang Xiying actually said such a thing. Perhaps, in his eyes, he is not a good person, but a villain who can take advantage of everything around him, and a villain who can take advantage of their feelings at critical moments; A kind of slander of Feirou is also a kind of slander of their feelings. In this case, I blame Feirou for seeing the wrong person before. It is wisest to throw away some things that are wrong in time.

After finishing speaking, Feirou shook off the arm pulled by Jiang Xiying, and walked straight forward. She didn't want to pay attention to the current Jiang Xiying, and she didn't want Jiang Xiying to see her current self, a self who had been drowned in tears, and who regretted losing this love story. Emotional self, a self who bears loneliness alone.

Jiang Xiying just stood behind Feirou, looking at Feirou who gradually faded out of sight, he panicked, he really panicked, at this moment, he really woke up.Originally, I just found out that Feirou likes this bar today, so I came here at night to see what Feirou's favorite bar looks like, but I ran into a well-dressed Feirou and a boy I didn't know at all. Had a great time at the bar.This kind of Feirou was something I had never seen before, she would laugh unscrupulously, cry without anyone else, expressing her emotions recklessly, which was completely different from the Feirou in her mind.Even though he knew that these were all illusions, Feirou was pretending, and she needed something from that boy, but he was still not willing, he was not willing to see such Feirou being seen by others, he wanted to stop it, but he was afraid He was afraid that his appearance would destroy Feirou's plan. Once it was destroyed, he knew that Feirou would really be angry. In that case, maybe he and Feirou wouldn't even have to be friends.Therefore, he could only stare closely in the corner, observing Feirou's every move, every frown and smile, which was simply a torment for him.

Finally, this suffering was over, she got what she wanted, and she finally left that boy.At that time, Jiang Xiying really couldn't restrain the indignation in his heart. At that time, he really needed to explode, and he urgently needed to find an outlet to vent his emotions.Thus, Gu Feirou, who was about to leave under him, and Jiang Xiying, who was overwhelmed by anger, completely lost his mind. He was no longer the Jiang Xiying who was willing to stay by Feirou's side silently. At that time, he had only one belief: let Feirou stay by his side.But now, Feirou's words finally woke him up, and he realized that he had done something wrong. He insulted himself, Feirou, and the relationship between the two.In fact, he has always understood that as long as Feirou speaks, he will help her no matter whether Feirou will be with him or not, but Feirou has never asked him for help. He knows that Feirou She was worried about him, afraid that he would be involved. She really cherished the relationship between the two of them, so she would not take advantage of this relationship.But at this moment, Jiang Xiying, who woke up, looked at Feirou's fading figure. He really wanted to chase, he wanted to keep him, and he wanted to tell Feirou that he was wrong just now, but he didn't dare, he didn't have the courage, because he knew Well, since he said those words, he has lost the qualification to stand in front of her, let alone keep her.

Feirou, who was walking alone under the night light, looked extremely lonely. She suppressed the tears in her eyes and didn't want to cry out. She didn't want people around her to see her sadness, but even so, tears trickled down from her eye sockets. Fall, fall silently.Finally, Feirou came to an empty alley, leaning against the wall of the alley, Feirou still cried out, she always thought that Jiang Xiying would understand herself, he would understand herself, but today, she discovered that it turned out that In his heart, he has always seen himself that way.The only friend I value in my heart actually looks down on me like that, which is undoubtedly the biggest blow to Feirou.In Feirou's subconscious mind, she always thought: Anyone can look down on me, but there are only two people, never can, because they are the only people I value for the rest of my life.It was also for this reason that Feirou couldn't accept Jiang Xiying's words just now, and she collapsed.

Feirou, who was hiding in the corner, once again realized her loneliness. In such a crowded city, in such a city full of music every night, she couldn't find a place that could comfort her soul. She, like this, It's really sad. "Ringlingling" Feirou's cell phone rang, at this moment, would anyone still call her? "Gu Feirou, where the hell did you go? I called you just now and didn't answer, and I didn't see you when I went to look for it. Where are you?" An Zihao yelled on the other end of the phone.Unexpectedly, at this moment, it wasn't Jiang Xiying who called, but An Zihao, whom she had known for a few months. Maybe it was God's will. God made a decision for her. "I'm in such a hurry to find me, what's the matter?" Feirou subconsciously still didn't want others to know that she just cried.As proud as her, how could she show her hurt side? "What's the matter, I can't find you if I have nothing to do? I'm very annoying, I'm in a bad mood, and I want to drink, where can I go?" "I don't know where it is, a small alley" "Give me the location, I'll find you" "No , you go home, I'll take a taxi there" "Really no need? I'll go, you're a girl" "Stop it, really no need, really" Even the current Gu Feirou is still wearing a strong mask.

Actually, An Zihao didn't have the so-called bad mood today at all. He was having a good time. At this moment, An Zihao received a call from Xiao Yong. Something was wrong. She drank a lot of wine with a strange boy, and was about to leave alone when she was done. When she left, she had a big fight with another boy. She seemed to be in a very bad state, unlike her usual self.This made An Zihao very worried. An Zihao had always known that there were many secrets hidden in Feirou. Even if he didn't ask, he could still feel that these secrets were not simple.Therefore, when Xiaoyong called himself, An Zihao had a premonition that something might happen to Feirou today. He rushed to "Taste" and called Feirou several times, but there was no one. Then, when I got to the bar, I didn't see anyone.When Feirou finally got his call, he had already walked around the bar many times, but he didn't tell Feirou.From Feirou's voice, he could clearly feel that she had just cried. He knew that she might be sad, or she might be crying silently in a corner. He knew that her proud character could not be questioned by others, so he didn't It was the only thing he could do to expose her clumsy acting skills and continue to act with her, so he lied, he asked Fei Rou to come and accompany him, in fact, he didn't want her to be so lonely now.

Finally, when they arrived at An Zihao's house, Fei Rou knocked on the door.In fact, Feirou has a key, she can open the door and go in by herself, but today, she especially wants to experience the feeling of going home. The sense of belonging that opens the door for oneself.Now she really desperately needs the warmth of home, even if she knows that this is just an illusion, she is willing to deceive herself for a while.Not long after, An Zihao came over and opened the door. "Forgot to bring the keys?" "Well, I forgot," Feirou reached out and put the keys in the bag. "Come here, have a drink with me, I'm really mad today" "What's the matter? Besides me, who else could be mad at you? It can't be that the girl you like doesn't like you?" Feirou didn't want to let An Zihao noticed the strangeness in himself, so he deliberately said it lightly. "Go, go, how can anyone resist my master's charm? You, Gu Feirou, have bad eyesight, but anyone who gets close to me will not fall in love with me." An Zihao said angrily. "Then what's the situation? Can you drink away your worries?" "It's nothing more than some family affairs." An Zihao said, and went to the refrigerator to get a few bottles of wine out as he spoke. He had already opened two bottles. , put it on the side of the sofa, and said: "Let's not talk about it, I'm going to the kitchen for two small dishes, you change your clothes first, eat and chat, you go to my room and find a loose T-shirt to change, your clothes are more The more uncomfortable it looks." Indeed, Feirou is still wearing the clothes she changed today to meet Chang Yu. Although it looks good, it is definitely not the Feirou that An Zihao knows. Besides, drinking must be comfortable. Who would wear it? To drink like this.Thinking about it, Fei Rou went to An Zihao's room to grab a piece of clothing and changed into it.

After finishing Fei Rou, he went back to the living room and found that An Zihao was already sitting on the sofa in the living room, scrolling leisurely on his phone. He didn't look sad at all. People who drink to drown their sorrows?Doesn't look like it at all? "Hey, don't look at your phone, talk about you, aren't you sad? This is called sad? Are you lying to me?" "No, who would deceive people with this kind of thing, I'm really sad. "Then tell me, what's going on?" As she spoke, Feirou kicked An Zihao's legs away and got into the sofa. "It's nothing, it's just that things at home bother me, so I can't explain it to you." Home?Hearing what An Zihao said, Feirou realized that she didn't really know An Zihao well. After knowing him for so long, she always felt that An Zihao was a very cheerful boy.From Feirou's point of view, An Zihao who could cultivate such a free-spirited, free-spirited and cheerful personality must have lived a happy life when he was a child, and there should be nothing worth worrying about at all.Could it be that the free and unrestrained An Zihao was just an appearance? Could it be that he also had an unknown past? "Then do you want to talk to me?" Feirou knew clearly that people like them, the deeper they hide things in their hearts, the more calm they will appear, and they don't want people to notice easily. Will easily explain to others, even if that person is someone you trust very much.

"What's there to say? You are the same. Everyone has scars. Why bother to uncover them? Opening up the scars will only make you hurt more. Why don't you try to forget them?" An Zihao looked at Feirou, Said calmly.This sentence was for Feirou, and it was also for himself. Today he really wanted to comfort Feirou, but it didn't mean what he said was a complete lie.In fact, An Zihao also had an unknown past. The An Zihao in the past was also lost. At that time, he also hated the world and many people. He lived in self-torment every day. After a long time, finally, he finally looked away, and he understood: everyone has scars, everyone makes mistakes, entangled in the past, will only waste the present time, and will only be sorry for the present self.

In the end, he came out of that period of gloom, he began to become cheerful, free and easy, and he finally lived the way a boy of his age should be, but he never talked to anyone about the most difficult time for him. mentioned.Regarding the past, he will always just smile and say that he has forgotten it, even if he will always remember it, even if it has been buried in the deepest place in his heart, he will try his best to forget it and refuse to mention it.Because, he didn't want the past to kidnap him again, and he had to bear some scars alone in the dark night.It is also for this reason that he can especially understand Feirou now. Even if he doesn't know what Feirou has experienced in the past, he doesn't want Feirou to be stuck in the swamp all the time. He wants to pull Feirou out, he wants to tell Feirou Rou, there is still sunshine in this world. As long as she is willing, she can face the sunshine and live happily.

With Feirou's wisdom, how could she fail to notice the meaning of An Zihao's words. She understood An Zihao's good intentions, but there are some things that are not so easy to forget, nor can they be forgotten. Some scars, even if they hurt , but also to reopen it and expose it to sunlight.Seeing that Feirou didn't intend to continue, An Zihao also understood that he might not be able to convince her, but no matter what, An Zihao still hoped that Feirou could be as happy as possible. At least, Feirou by his side was can be happy.

Thinking about it, An Zihao said again: "What do you care about so much, when you can play, play happily, when you can drink, drink happily, life is only a hundred years, why bother to think so much, think Just do whatever you want, as long as you have no regrets." Then, he clinked glasses with Feirou and drank the whole bottle in one gulp.I have to say that Feirou really appreciates An Zihao's free and easy personality, maybe because she is used to wearing a mask and suppressing it for too long, every time she is with An Zihao, she always feels more relaxed than ever. "Yes, you're right, it's just over a hundred years, why bother to think so much, drink" Feirou also drank the wine in his hand, "However, I want to make one point, your life may It's less than a hundred years, I'm not, I have a long, long time to live." Fei Rou is like this, no matter what time it is, she will never forget to tease him An Zihao. "What are you talking about? Why do I not live as long as you? My body is very good. I have eight-pack abs. Would you like to see it?" "Just you? Eight-pack abs? Don't make trouble, you say they all I can still believe it when we get together for a meeting." "Go, go, who do you look down on? Gu Feirou, you wait for me, I have to show you my eight-pack abs today." "No, no, I I still want to live a few more years, don't insult my eyes" "Gu Feirou, don't run away if you have the guts, stop for me" "You think I'm stupid, I don't, come here, someone Playing hooligans." Sure enough, the Gu Feirou next to An Zihao was still the crazy, troublesome, laughing, poor Gu Feirou...

I don't know how long this chase lasted, but in the end, it stopped under Feirou's begging for mercy.The tired and exhausted two sat on the sofa panting. "Get up, get up, get it for me." Feirou lay half on the sofa, kicking An Zihao and said. "Why should I go? I'm tired too. You go." This An Zihao didn't back down. Who made him look so tired? "Besides, you're obviously a little closer to the refrigerator." An Zihao added again. "Just because this is your home and I'm a guest, who else will you go to?" Feirou returned unwillingly. "When did you treat yourself as a guest?" "Just asking if you want to go?" "Go, go, can I go?" Realizing the threat in Feirou's words, An Zihao still didn't dare to take it lightly. Taking his own life as a joke, he had no choice but to compromise.Seeing this scene, it is impossible for anyone to believe that the combined age of these two guys can exceed ten years old, no, it should be eight years old.An Zihao got up and went to the refrigerator, took out a few bottles of beer, returned to the sofa, opened the beer and handed it to Feirou out of habit.Perhaps it was because of being too thirsty, Feirou just took the beer and drank it in one gulp. An Zihao saw it and said, "You can't drink it slowly. Beer costs money, so it's not good." Don't forget to open another bottle for Feirou.Feirou took An Zihao's second bottle of wine, but this time she didn't finish it in one gulp. After taking a sip, she turned her head to look at An Zihao who was drinking, and said, "Why are you being so nice to me?"

This question was what Feirou wanted to ask a long time ago. For such a long time, despite An Zihao's cheerful and cheerful appearance, he didn't care about anything.But Feirou can feel that he cares about his own feelings, knowing that he likes the taste of home, he will learn how to make supper for himself; If he is not happy, he will pretend not to know, silently accompany him, and try his best to make himself happy. "Because you're good-looking." An Zihao blurted out without thinking.If someone else said this sentence, she, Gu Feirou, might still believe it, but he, An Zihao's words, had zero credibility with Feirou.Having known each other for so long, Fei Rou already knew clearly that the relationship between the two of them was not so simple, it surpassed the so-called relationship between a man and a woman, but it was not about love, it was more about cherishing, they both Cherish each other very much and take care of this relationship.

"I want to hear the truth." Feirou said in a serious manner, not even the slightest joke, she really wanted to know, she really wanted to know the reason. "Do you really want to hear the truth?" An Zihao looked at the serious Feirou and asked seriously. "Yes" "I don't want you to face this world alone," An Zihao said word by word, with a serious expression on his face, without any intention of joking.Facing this sentence, Feirou was really moved. Sure enough, An Zihao really understood him, he really understood himself, he knew his loneliness, the helplessness in his heart, and how much he longed for company , "An Zihao, thank you, really."