He is like hell

"Is there nothing at all?" I walked up to Lu Yan and looked into his eyes.

Because I knew it was the last chance, I felt a little desperate.

"Shen Ruolin, you want me to tell you a few more times, don't you just talk about your dreams, okay? Everything before was imagined by you. If your father didn't threaten me with business matters, I wouldn't even look at you at all. of."

"Heh, heh." I laughed loudly, "Yes, you are Mr. Lu, the sole heir of the Lu Group." Finally, I laughed wantonly. If everything is over, then all of this is meaningless now up.

I laughed exaggeratedly, "Remember, Lu Yan, even if you have never loved me, from today onwards, I will make you unable to leave me, let you fall in love with me fiercely, and then never fall in love with me." Leave with mercy." I stared into his eyes and said word by word.

I don't know what I was thinking in my heart when I said these words. Maybe I have no heart at this time, and what I have are just crazy thoughts.

All the dissatisfaction rushed to the position of the heart, and the whole body trembled with excitement.

"It depends on your ability." Lu Yan laughed directly, "I said Shen Ruolin, you really dare to think about it." He and Su Wanyan looked at each other, "Do you think this woman is crazy?"

At this time, Shen Ruolin had completely recovered from what happened just now.

She wanted to say something at first, but when she glanced at Lu Yan, she immediately laughed.

She pretended to be next to me, turned around a few times and laughed even more wildly, "Did I hear correctly just now? Shen Ruolin, what did you say? Want A Yan to fall in love with you? I think you are dreaming."

Maybe I didn't feel anything when I said it just now, but after the two of them said this, my face immediately turned red.

But what I said was splashed, "You two better not get complacent too early," I glanced at Su Wanyan, and turned my eyes back to Lu Yan.

Looking him up and down, "You better remember what I said today."

"You'd better remember what I said," Lu Yan pinched my chin with his hand, "What you said just now is just a dream, I will never look at you again, never."

"If you have the time, you might as well look in the mirror more, and don't look at what you look like now." He hugged Su Wanyan, turned and left the room.

"Look in the mirror?" I muttered this sentence, and suddenly felt a burst of desolation.

Looking at the figures of them embracing each other and leaving, I knew they were showing me on purpose.

"It's over," I told myself softly, it was over.

Even if this is a dream, after so many years, no matter how much I lie to myself, this dream should wake up.

I smiled wryly, holding down my heart tightly, which is now tearing my heart apart.

The person who lived in my heart for more than ten years, just like this, left without sloppiness at all.

Even if I beg, even if I try to be brave, I can't lie to myself now.

"Come on, get out of here." I told myself after the tears had dried.

Indeed, this place is just a sad place for me. Although I have lived in this city for more than [-] years, it is also in this city that I lost my relatives, my children, and my love. A full ten years of people.

Before I lied to myself, I always let myself fantasize about it, and refused to leave, thinking that as long as I stayed here, there was still a chance, but today, now, I know.

It's time to leave.

I spent the whole night saying goodbye to the past, didn't I say something, clear the past and let the past go.

I'm so tired, I don't have the energy, and I don't have the mood to think about the past. Now that it's over, let's be more straightforward.

I couldn't believe what happened last night until the next day when I was on the plane going abroad.

Some regret, but more firm.Tell yourself firmly that the past is all in the past.

I am good at learning English, and with Shen Yu's help, I can say that I have a prosperous life abroad.

I deliberately locked the door of my heart tightly, built a high wall outside the soft atrium, and devoted all my energy to studying.

I applied for the school that I have always dreamed of. In fact, I applied for it when I was in China, but it was delayed because of my marriage with Lu Yan, so naturally it didn't matter in the end.But this time, I want to live wonderfully.

Unexpectedly, I received the offer, and Shen Yu specially helped me celebrate on the day I got the notice.

I knew that my life would be different from now on.

New surroundings, I've adopted a new name for myself here, Mrs. Jennifer.I don't mean no, I'm reminding myself that men are cold by nature, don't think about things that are good or bad.

It is precisely because some are immobile, angry, and unkind that they have won the love of many people abroad and made many friends.

There are boys and girls among them, and there are not a few who pursue me and even explicitly express that they want to marry me, but because I have already suffered a loss, I don't care about these things at all.

When they saw me indifferent, they thought it was amusing at first, but they stopped mentioning it when they encountered many obstacles, and they didn't think about me after a long time.

But this is exactly what I want.

I know that the most important thing for a woman is to learn, and only by letting herself keep learning can she be closely related to the world.It is precisely because of my attitude that I have received special attention and love from my instructors.

In some academic research or conferences, they always gave me the opportunity to speak, and slowly I finally stopped being addicted to the past, and I knew that I was slowly coming out.

Four years passed by in a flash. After finishing my postgraduate studies, I was admitted to a doctoral degree that I liked as my supervisor. I have seen a bigger world, and I have more knowledge in my mind.

Occasionally, when I think of the previous things, I smile slightly, only thinking that it was a dream.

Sometimes I don't understand, I don't know if it's me who died for Lu Yan, or if it's me who is now concentrating on academics.

It's just that every time I receive an email from Ye Yao, I will sit in the room for most of the night, staring at a place with empty eyes, and often when I come back to my senses, the sky is already pale.

Yes, I have always been in contact with Ye Yao.

I know that since I left, Lu Yan and Su Wanyan got their marriage certificate very quickly, and I also know that their relationship after marriage is not as good as expected, I know that Su Wanyan has begun to care less about Lu Yan, and I also know that their relationship before Big things happened.

When I received Ye Yao's email that time, I worked in the room for 24 hours. I ignored whoever knocked on the door. In the end, it was Shen Yu who forced the door open and I managed to drink a little water.

Ye Yao put it this way in the email:

Ruolin, I found something, I don't know if I should tell you.After thinking about it for a long time, I still think you have the right to know about this matter.

I was eating in the mall that day, and I saw a woman who looked exactly like that, no, to be exact, it should be her, shopping with another man, and the two looked very close.

I took a photo of the two of them together and showed it to Lu Yan.Lu Yan didn't believe it at first, but in the end he questioned the woman. Of course, the woman tricked Lu Yan.

But I'm pretty sure it's her.

Ruolin, do you know, in fact, Lu Yan is not doing well at all, he even chanted your name a few times when he was drunk, he said that he only found out about your well-being after you left, and now he is very busy with work, Who knew that the woman was even busier after returning home. She was always busy with parties and shopping, and she never saw anyone. Every time she returned home, it was late at night.

I know you still have Lu Yan in your heart. Now that woman is pregnant, but I suspect that the child may not belong to Lu Yan. Ruolin, this is your last chance. I don’t know whether I should tell you about these things , but I know, you want to know in your heart.

Don't blame me, and don't be impulsive.I know that you are living well now, or it is time to forget these past events, no matter what you say, I am on your side, Ruolin, I hope you can live well.

Ann, don't read.

This is the entire content of Ye Yao's entire email, but I read it back and forth dozens of times, and finally my eyes are fixed on the words "I will know how good I am after I leave".

I know that Lu Yan has a good capacity for alcohol, and he has never drank too much no matter it's entertainment or anything else.

Lu Yan knew that Ye Yao and I had a good relationship, and he should have guessed that there was still a connection between us. He said this to Ye Yao through his drunkenness, didn't he just want me to know?

Thinking of this, a smile appeared on the corner of my mouth, a little miserable, but also a little proud.

The events of these years are played back in my mind over and over again, the despair in my heart when I left that year, and the prosperity of these years, do I really have to give up all of this, just because of Lu Yan's "Leaving Knowing" good? '

I don't know, and I can't figure it out.

I came to the office early the next morning.

Tom has been my mentor for so many years. He is young, promising and personable, and he has expressed his affection for me more than once.

After I either tactfully or directly refused, we still became good friends and started a company together. Of course, Shen Yu also contributed a lot to this.

Looking at my dark circles, Tom screamed in surprise: "Oh, My God! What's wrong with you?"

His Chinese is not easy to speak, but he still learned a lot for me.

Seeing his exaggerated expression, I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

He put the breakfast he brought on the table. Over the years, I have been used to him bringing breakfast for me every day, but today, I have something more important to say.