Long-term love becomes sick, ex-husband is too involved in the drama

On the terrace outside, the figure sitting there is slender.

Li Yan's heart that was raised suddenly was finally let go, and soon he was suspended again.

Unspeakable emotions spread, she stared at Shi Huan's back.

After a long time, she lifted the quilt and got out of bed, walked over slowly, sat down beside her, and held her hand.

Suddenly, Mu Shihuan, who was immersed in his own world, seemed to be disturbed, his body tensed up immediately, and he relaxed when he realized it was Li Yan.

She didn't speak, neither did Li Yan.

It was already early morning, everything was silent, the night was thick, and the faint moonlight shrouded it added some softness.

Li Yan looked at the moon, and finally his eyes fell on the person beside him.

"Shi Huan, let's talk." She said softly.

The moment the voice fell, she clearly felt that her body, which had just returned to normal, tensed up again.

As if repelling.

But this time, she didn't give her a chance to escape.

"I won't treat you as a patient." Through her slender figure, Li Yan's eyes fell into the distance, "I won't be careful when I think you are sick, and be careful about your physical and psychological conditions."

She held Shi Huan's hand tightly.

"You don't want me to treat you as a patient, don't you?" She reminded, "You also said similar things, Shi Huan, do you remember?"

Suddenly, Mu Shihuan's eyelashes fluttered uncontrollably.

Of course she remembered.

She wanted to say it, but for some reason, she suddenly felt her throat was blocked by something.

It's hard, I can't make a sound.

After all, Li Yan still looked at her.

As far as the eye can see, she has lost a lot of weight, not just on the surface.

Although she couldn't bear it, she had to be cruel. She knew that some things couldn't be delayed.

"I didn't mention it or ask about it abroad, and I haven't even asked about it until now." She looked at her and said, "But Shi Huan, if I didn't mention it, it doesn't mean I don't know, it doesn't mean that these things don't exist, and they can be erased without trace. .”

"And you, you can't make it through at all."

They didn't say it clearly, but both of them understood that they were talking about the child and her psychological state.

Mu Shihuan's hand that was held by her trembled faintly, and even his breathing became a little short uncontrollably.

She was tempted to decline the subject.

but……

"I asked the doctor," seeing her evasion, Li Yan forced her to face it, "your progesterone is low, there are signs of threatened miscarriage, and you need to have a miscarriage in the early stage, and your mood and psychological condition are not good. something is wrong."

Mu Shihuan's breathing became more and more rapid, and gradually became heavy.

Li Yan stared at her cruelly: "The doctor said that there is a high chance that the child will not exist. Even if... Li Jingyan was by your side at the time, the child may not be able to stay."

"pat-"

A drop of tears fell with Mu Shihuan's bowed head, and dripped on the back of Li Yan's hand.

Li Yan held her hand even tighter.

"You blame Li Jingyan, don't you? Blame him for not discussing with you and sending you away on his own initiative. Blame him for letting you get pregnant under such circumstances. Blame him for not allowing them to tell you any news about him in the first year of high school." , Cut off your sources of news, so that you don’t know anything.”

Every time he said a word, Mu Shihuan's body seemed to tense up.

Li Yan felt it clearly.

"You blame him even more. When you actually needed him, you didn't show up, and you couldn't even hear his voice. You think you hate him, but in your heart, you once expected him to show up."

"Shi Huan, am I right?"

Silence enveloped, only Li Yan's voice was clear, every word was extraordinarily clear, and it floated into Mu Shihuan's ears clearly.

It's even... settled in her heart.

Mu Shihuan didn't want to admit it, but he seemed to have to admit that Yanyan was right.

The fine teeth bit her lip silently and forcefully, she didn't want to make a sound.

"You blame him, but you blame yourself even more. You didn't let the child be safe, you didn't keep the child. You need and look forward to the child. The child is your hope."

The strength of her biting her lip seemed to be much heavier.

Li Yan has no way to bear it for her, so he can only comfort her as much as possible, let her know that he is by her side.

A strand of her hair fell loose, but Li Yan didn't push it behind her ear.

She just asked: "But Shi Huan, when do you want to blame yourself, do you want to keep hiding yourself? Do you want to let yourself live in guilt and pain? Are you sure you want to punish yourself like this?"

Mu Shihuan still didn't speak, but his chest heaved even more.

Li Yan felt very congested and felt uncomfortable.

She resisted: "I can't get out, the situation is always bad, what will happen in the future, have you thought about it?" After a pause, she spit out the rest of the words, "I will only lose more."

Another tear fell suddenly.

Li Yan looked at it, and resisted wiping it for her: "The child you were an undercover agent back then is still missing. It may be in a corner of this world, or it may be... If there is no definite news for a day, there is still hope, isn't it? ?"

That child...

In an instant, Mo Shihuan had difficulty breathing, his eyes were hot, and he was about to move, as if he wanted to swallow her up.

Li Yan felt her mood change.

As long as there can be changes, I'm afraid I'll keep pushing myself.

Stretching out his other hand to wrap her body, Li Yan said the following words: "What happened back then, my child, what happened to Yu Linshang, what happened in the past six months..."

"These are what Li Jingyan needs to explain to you. I can't tell you. I don't want to hide it from you. Except that I really don't know clearly, this is fundamentally a problem that needs to be resolved between you and Li Jingyan."

Her hands were cold, Li Yan warmed her up.

Mu Shihuan still didn't speak.

She didn't know what she was doing, whether she was escaping, or she didn't dare to face it, or her psychological problems were so severe that she rejected everything from the outside world.

Yes, she knew, she had a mental problem.

She knew that Yanyan was right, she knew...

But no matter how much she knew, she still couldn't convince herself.

She didn't say a word, but Li Yan understood her, no one knew each other better than them.

After a short silence, Li Yan changed the subject again, not giving her a chance to avoid it again: "Do you still love Li Jingyan?"

The sound is very light.

Mu Shihuan's breathing stopped suddenly, and then his rhythm became chaotic.

She opened her mouth, wanting to say that she didn't love her, and even had the urge to deny that she blamed him just now, and she seemed unwilling to admit everything about Li Jingyan.

however……

Li Yan's eyes are always watching her gently.

"Shi Huan," she said softly but firmly, "either, let it go completely, as you said, Jiangcheng has nothing to do with you from now on, you start anew, live anew, as long as you are willing, everything will gradually get better .”

But the premise of willingness is that she does not reject treatment.

She needs to see a psychiatrist.

Li Yan understands, why doesn't Mu Shihuan understand.

Her fingers trembled.

Li Yan held her hand tightly again, comforting her silently.

She continued: "If you can't let go, if you still love him to this day, then get back together and give each other a chance."

"I don't love him..." Mo Shihuan finally managed to make a sound.

Li Yan fell silent.

"If you don't love, why do you have expectations? If you don't love, why blame him and yourself?" She asked back, hitting the nail on the head, "If you don't love, why don't you even want to see his face."

"I……"

"There's no shame in admitting that you still love him, and it's not a sin."

The sourness grew silently and intensely.

Li Yan's tone was gentle: "What happened when you were undercover, from your respective standpoints at that time, you thought that the other party was an enemy, but in fact, no one was wrong. Everything that happened later was accidental and man-made. You know it very well, don't you?"

Reaching out, she hugged her.

"Then you reunited, the problems between him and Mu Nuan, and then you met again after you lost your memory and returned. I believe he has explained everything to you. I will not comment on it during this period."

"After that, your life and death were unknown for a year after the accident. It cannot be denied that the accident was largely due to him. No matter how Yu Linshang calculated and arranged, it is an indisputable fact that he did not protect you well. I will not say anything for him."

"As for now, I won't defend him either. He is the only one who can explain to you. I can't, Tang Yu can't, except Li Jingyan, no one is more qualified."

Li Yan paused: "Of course, the premise is that you want an explanation, an explanation."

She let go of her.

"Shi Huan, do you understand what I mean?" She stared at her and asked.

Mo Shihuan moved her lips, feeling extremely uncomfortable in her chest.

Li Yan sighed silently.

"No matter what decision you make, I will always support you, except you choose to escape." She solemnly turned her face to let her look at herself, "You know that you are sick and what kind of disease you are, and you have to continue Do you want to escape?"

She also knows.

Shi Huan already has a tendency to depression, or to be precise, more than a tendency, it started long ago.

The first thing that can help her is that she no longer escapes, and the second is the doctor.

And... Li Jingyan.

Li Jingyan has long been a knot in her heart, whether it is this time or the past.

"Shi Huan, I hope you get better." Li Yan got up, then squatted down in front of her, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with his fingertips, "Let's see a doctor and forget about unhappy things, okay? "

"Mu Shihuan shouldn't be the current Mu Shihuan. She knows what she wants. She is very brave and won't run away. Even if she wants to hide and heal her wounds, she won't give up on herself, because she is Mu Shihuan." Li Yan Said softly.

After saying this, she didn't say anything more.

Time flows quietly.

After a while, Mu Shihuan slowly raised his eyes, which were already red.

Li Yan got up, pulled her up as well, led her back to the bedroom, half gently and half forcefully let her lie back on the bed, and covered her with the quilt.

"I'm going to sleep next door. It won't affect you. You should think about it carefully and give me an answer tomorrow morning." She said, and turned the light to the darkest.

Shi's family originally prepared a guest room for her, which was just next door, but she slept with Shi Huan because she was worried, but now she thinks, she should give Shi Huan space and time to think clearly.

She went out and closed the door behind her.

Quiet prevailed.

In the huge bedroom, Mu Shihuan was the only one left.