The Nth Disappearance of My Wife

It seems that God is telling me that the devil is not worthy of love, is not worthy of being loved, and cannot be loved.

Birth, old age, sickness and death are natural, but I never thought that he would leave so quickly, he left me all of a sudden, even at the end of her life, I was still working hard to earn her medical expenses.

Medicine in this era can't save too many things at all. Birth, old age, sickness and death are really painful things.

At the end of her life, I begged the vampire to bite her. Even if she becomes a monster like me later, I don't want her to leave me like this.

Then my beloved she still did not wake up.

"She doesn't want to become a monster, and if she wants to be bitten into a vampire, she must want to live." The vampire said helplessly.

I collapsed on the ground against the wall, and she left without the will to survive. I may think she is too tired to live.

Because even if she is a normal person, she will still be slandered by some people. Perhaps in the eyes of those so-called normal people in the true sense, she is not a normal person.

Because she is intersex, everyone regards her as a monster, just like when I was a child, maybe only two people who have been considered monsters and demons since childhood can get together.

In fact, what I like about her is that she seems to be always positive and sunny, but I can't do it like this.

I found out later that she was not really positive and optimistic. In fact, she had this disease early in the morning just because she just found out that she was pregnant at that time.

She wanted to bring the baby to me without telling me, but instead made me lose her forever.

In fact, I am still very grateful to the vampire who bit her. He is really a good person in the vampire world, so I am afraid that when people hunt and kill vampires, they will always let people keep that vampire.

I raised Xiaoyang alone, until one day I found that the energy in my body was becoming more and more uncontrollable. I would get angry from time to time, smash things from time to time, and sometimes even turn into a wisp of black smoke.

I became a complete monster and a complete demon. I sent Xiaoyang to her mother's relatives and gave them a lot of money.

I know those people are not good to her, not good to my daughter at all, but I have no choice but to watch from a distance, as if I don't know everything.

But what can I do?I am afraid that the dark energy in me will hurt my daughter. I am already a monster wife, how can I make my daughter a monster in the eyes of others?
I clearly know that they are working hard to live, why the world treats me so unfairly and wants me to suffer things that I don't want to suffer.

The priests who taught me to learn, brought me knowledge, taught me to love, and taught me to speak were burned to death by those ignorant.

The one who brought me love and my baby left me just like that.

And my daughter because I don't want her to become a monster, so I still have to leave her, even if that person hates me, even if she hates me, even if she will be sad, so what?

Although he will be sad, he will not be looked down upon, he will not be treated as a monster, and I don't want my daughter to step into this footsteps again.

Her mother and I have always been treated as monsters, so I don't want her to be a monster again.

It seems that this world is not worthy of my love at all. Later, I checked a lot of information and found out that the dark energy in me is called the seven deadly sins.

Maybe I'm really a devil, maybe I'm just a container for those evil choices, but don't all human beings have the seven deadly sins?
Can anyone really avoid the seven deadly sins?
In fact, I have been waiting for someone to wipe me out of this world. I have lived for hundreds of years, and I am tired of life. I will always watch the person I care about leave me.

Pride, jealousy, rage, sloth, greed, gluttony and lust.

I obviously don't seem to exist in any of these, but I am still called a monster and a devil just like this.

I also thought about loving this world deeply, but what this world gives me is endless sadness forever.

I don't seem to hate anyone and I don't seem to love anyone anymore, because I know that these people don't live as long as I do, and I will just watch them leave this world, and I still live alone.

I always want to read songs and live a long life, but I find that no matter what, I can't die. Since when did you want to destroy this world?
It seems that since one day I was walking alone on the street, I found that everyone's eyes here are full of arrogance, jealousy, rage, laziness, greed, gluttony and lust.

These people are obviously the real demons, none of these people are spared, and all of them have the energy of the seven deadly sins.

Why am I alone called a devil, why should I bear these dark energies?

Since they are all bad guys, let's destroy the world completely, that's what I think.

Later, after I was defeated by that man named Q, I changed from a vampire leader to a real demon.

Later I found out that the seven deadly sins of some people are the worst and the dark energy is the strongest, but I found that some of these people are forced.

For example, a pervert, obviously he was not a bad person at the beginning, obviously he was just a person who longed to be loved at the beginning, but he was hurt all over his body.

But he is indeed a big villain. If he doesn't mix with me, he will probably be punished by law. Even if he does, he will be punished.

But he still didn't flinch in the slightest. The fact that he wanted to become a companion of the devil surprised me.

It turns out that the warmth given to people unintentionally is so powerful?
When he was defeated by Okai Chaoqi, I subconsciously saved him, because I was also trusted so much by a person.

They say that the devil has no heart, but the devil also has a heart at the beginning, but the heart dies later.

And one of my current cadres is Cao Wen, who was obviously a star before, living a life of luxury and good food and clothing.

However, he became the demon's companion in order to revive his sister.

In fact, I know that he also feels that his sister cannot be resurrected at all. In fact, he just wants to avenge his sister.

Because people often use the most disgusting language to describe his sister, and use the most beautiful language to praise him, and the meaning of his sister to him is extraordinary.

He never felt that his sister was a bad person.

Another reason why I want to destroy this world is that after I collect all the emotions of people's parents, then I will be able to change everything and have the ability to change history.

Qiuba, now that the world is destroyed, I can fabricate a world I want, which must be a new world without demons.

When the whole world is full of demons, then there will be no such thing as demons in this world.

I plan to bring Xiaoyang to my side, because I found that I can control those evil energies and not harm Xiaoyang.

I wanted to make up for Xiaoyang all the fatherly love I lost in those years, but Xiaoyang refused. After thinking about it, I still have to respect Xiaoyang's choice.

But Cao Wen didn't think so, Cao Wen actually still loves Xiao Yang, but he has become a demon's companion and is not worthy of a clean Xiao Yang, so he decided to turn Xiao Yang into a demon too.

The news that I am Xiaoyang's father came from Cao Wenfang.

"Why do you do that, Xiaoyang doesn't want to come back, why do you force her?" I beat Cao Wen angrily.

"Don't you want her back? Don't you want to come back? Devil, you miss her too, don't you?" Cao Wen said, licking the blood from the corner of his mouth.

What Cao Wen said is actually right, even a devil wants to be a good father.

This is the story of my becoming a demon.

I also don't want to be a devil, but this world seems to be against me forever. They say that good fortune tricks people, so why am I not?

If I could, I would like to be a singer. I would like to sing the songs I wrote to her and Xiaoyang who I like.

It's a pity that the world doesn't seem to want me to appear!
So the music world lost a superstar.

If I can do it all over again, I want to be an ordinary person, I don't want to be a devil, I want to try to be an angel.

I hope that the sun in the future can shine on me, give me warmth and love, and I also hope that every stranger I meet can be polite to me, instead of calling me a monster and calling me a monster.

I don't want to be immortal, I want to be an ordinary person's partner for a lifetime, instead of watching her leave without being able to recover.

I hope that in my limited life, I can do many things that I once wanted to do but dare not do. I want to go to far away places, not because there is no place to go, not because of wandering, but because I just want to Go to that place to play.

I also yearned for poetry and distant places, but the places I went were not poetry and distant places, but endless desolation.

If I can start again, I don't want my parents to abandon me, I hope I can see the world from the beginning, I hope people in this world can be gentle to me.

I hope that in the days to come, I can make my mediocre life colorful, and I hope that after I leave this world, I can live in the hearts of others.

It's a pity that there is never a way to start over, the devil is the devil.

Once some things start, there is no way to turn back, even if you don’t want to be the person you hate the most, but when you were born, everyone said that you are like this, and then you are forced to accept that if you are that kind of person, Even if you want to turn back halfway, there is no chance for you to turn back.

So let me, a lonely demon, be killed earlier!