The Nth Disappearance of My Wife

Tian Xiaoxiao is writing a diary. She saw Bai He updated her circle of friends today, and Bai He posted a selfie of herself.

The diary reads like this:
How are you doing now?I want to know that I miss you very much, but I don't have the courage to tell you that I miss you, because I am no longer the original me, but I don't know if the later you are the original you.

After you left, I drew a lot of pictures about you. I remember all the things you taught me. Now I am also a person who likes to draw. I am not very good at drawing, but I hope you don’t dislike it.

No, you can't even see it, how can you dislike it?
Bai He, I really want to ask you, do you still have feelings for me?I still remember the ends of your hair, I still remember your samples and hard work, don't let time take it all away, I remember you, I love you.

You used to be my best friend who still told me not to care, and now you tell me that the one-in-a-million girl is still gone, and I still lost my one-in-a-million you.

You said that you want the world to like your paintings, and then your albums are very good, I am very proud of you, but what I can do is, use an unknown trumpet to click on your Weibo Zan didn't even dare to comment.

I will scan your circle of friends, but I never like it. I am afraid to let you know that I am learning about your life, because I used to be able to know the trajectory of your life because we are best friends, but now I am But I don't have the right to know whether you are doing well or not.

I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of your sister, Tang Tang is also my good friend, I'm sorry I didn't take good care of her.I was dazzled by the hurt, I hate what your sister did to me, but your sister Tang Tang once trampled on my dignity and deprived me of everything, I wanted to take revenge, but I never thought about it She will really fall in love with me and will go through some painful things later.

You told me that your sister is not a bad child, she is indeed not a bad child, Tang Tang is just a little girl who doesn't care about the world and doesn't know how to behave in the world.

Tang Tang left me and you too.

And you left me, I have no way to intervene in your life, I can only stand and watch from a distance, watching you live well is my greatest happiness, if you live poorly, my It was as if a dagger had been inserted into the heart, pulled out and inserted again.

So promise me that you must have a good life. When you meet me, you want to have a good life after you meet me. I would rather I have a bad life. I hope you can live a good life, because you deserve a good life.

I still remember the bits and pieces of our getting along, everything was still so beautiful, but time has changed, time is not us anymore.

I often wonder if your lonely personality has no friends there, but I also think that it is because of your loneliness and indifference that so many people like you, because people like your cold personality because you cannot get it of.

I am very glad that I met your piece of ice. When I lost my memory, you said that when you picked me up, it was like seeing a mermaid.

I think everything is fate, I heard you said that you once loved me, it was just the love of fans for idols, but they never thought that they would really meet me.

What a joyful thing it is to be liked by you. I still remember the places we went to, and I often go to the restaurants we went to together, but later I was alone, and I would not take others I have been to the places we went together and the food we ate together, and I will not allow anyone to touch even the things you gave me.

I stubbornly believe that that is the place we have been to together, and I don't want to go with others.

Just now they often said, "Even if you don't go with me, someone will go by themselves."

I know people come and go to these places, but if I go, I want to go with you.

I don't want to share your goodness with anyone, even if you are no longer by my side, I don't allow anyone to get close to our past memories, I rarely mention you to others, probably because I want to keep you in the deepest part of my memory.

They say that time will wash away everything including memory, it must not be like this, but every night when everyone is quiet, I can't help but think of you and my ice beauty.

You are the same as your name, you are like a lotus flower, and people always say that you are difficult to get close to, but I can get close to you.

People say that you are cold, but I think you are actually gentle. I still remember that time when the two of us kept each other warm and relied on each other, and walked a part of our life.

Even though the journey is not very long, it is enough in my heart. Time flies, and many people around me are passers-by, but you are the only one who is different.

Because even if you go to another place and leave me, I will still miss you for so long, and my feelings for you have never changed.

I believe that we are another self in the world, just like Osaki Nana and Komatsu Nana in the comic "NANA". You are the cool and sexy Osaki Nana, and I am ordinary and gentle Komatsu Nana.

We are so different from each other, but we match each other very well. We are always in such harmony together, it seems that there is a tacit understanding from the beginning.

I used to think that you would accompany me on a long, long journey, but I didn't expect that halfway through, I would have to part ways and go in a long and opposite direction.

We always feel that the future is far away, but if we are not careful, our future will not have each other. You are my best friend, but I don't know if you regard me as your best friend, but it doesn't matter.

Just like the last time someone said that I like you, it has nothing to do with you not liking me. You will not see what I wrote, but I still want to write, probably to remind myself not to forget you as a friend.

Someone will definitely remember, I think my diary will be delivered to you one day after I leave this world, but that may be in the next century, will you still remember me at that time?

I remember Tian Xiaoxiao who was reckless but relied on you very much, your big cat, my shit shovel officer, my ice beauty Bai He, I really hope you don't forget me.

But I also thought that if you remember me, then you should be very painful, so you should not remember me, because if you are painful, I will also be very painful, although you should be very sad if you forget me, but it will be fine soon up.

I will often watch your circle of friends and browse your Weibo. I hope that when you update your circle of friends or Weibo next time, you will have a better life than now.

I love you until the mountains fall apart, I love you until the sea dries up, I love you till the end of time.