A Long Way to Marriage: Sweet New Wife Loves Not Enough

Anyway, it was only for one night, and she was the only one going back. If Xiao Su knew about it, he would naturally arrange everything, and she had nothing to worry about.

In fact, imagination is also somewhat inexplicable.

In the past, Lin Qinghuan was not afraid of these things, but now, for no reason, she was a little scared, worried that she would have a bad life, so she was always cautious.

I don't know if He Ranzhi is at home.

After all, He Ranzhi had been living with Song Chi during this time.

After a while, Song Chi parked the car in the garage of his villa, opened the door to let Lin Qinghuan get out of the car, walked towards the main villa, and said, "He Ranzhi is on a business trip, and he won't be back in a few days. If you want to eat, just ask The aunt at home said that Professor Xu lives next door, so you must tell me if you feel uncomfortable, you know?"

Lin Qinghuan: "..."

A little speechless, but still said: "Got it."

Song Chi also smiled, opened the door and went in. The bedroom prepared for Lin Qinghuan was the same as when she lived here before, and all the daily necessities were used by her.

Song Chi didn't know when she would come to live, but she still thought so in her heart, so she always kept the things she could use, the room was often cleaned up, and the toiletries were often changed.

There is also Siyuan's room.

All along, he has no home.

When he was in the Song family, he didn't know if he could integrate into that family, and he had been watching other people's lives cautiously.

Later Song Li'an talked about love with He Min, the Song family didn't like He Min very much, but he was fine and not so repulsive.

He Min didn't really like him either.

Maybe it's because he feels sorry for him?

So every time I pass by, I occasionally say a few words to him.

After that, he never saw He Min again.

Song Li'an didn't see how happy he was either.

Later Song Li'an got married again, but the bride was not the one he liked.

But, it doesn't matter.

Because at that time, he also gradually understood what Song Yang, his nominal elder brother and actual cousin, often said: In a family like ours, everything is beyond our control.

Song Yang had no choice, and neither did Song Li'an.

Song Chi also doesn't remember when he found out that he was different from others about things between men and women.

Maybe it's nothing to be surprised about.

only……

Probably a sexual orientation like his would never be allowed in the Song family.

Even though the Song family never took his existence seriously.

For the Song family, it is not easy to tolerate his existence. If it brings any negative influence to the Song family, or it is a topic of conversation after dinner, he and Lin Qinghuan will probably be in danger.

and so……

It wasn't Chi Mo's fault either.

But at that time, I was too cowardly, and I didn't have the courage to fight against the world.

As a result, he always subconsciously chooses to escape.

Years ago, he escaped.

After meeting Lin Qinghuan, seeing how painful she was because of her relationship, he decided to forget it for him without any hesitation.

In fact, he should think about it.

Why is he always brooding and unwilling to forget, but stubbornly wants Lin Qinghuan to forget.

Song Yang was right.

He is cruel.

It's the kind of... stubborn ones who are only cruel to others, but always leave room for themselves.

He regrets it a little.

This kind of remorse will intensify when seeing Siyuan suffering from illness, and also see the forbearance of Rong Che and Lin Qinghuan and the flourishing of the branches on their wrists.

He still can't forget that person.

Can't forget the past.

But he couldn't make himself move forward.

perhaps……

Probably never existed.

They'll be fine all the time...

He thought so.

Thoughts also go further and further away.

However, the next moment, it was interrupted by a crisp knock on the door.

He suddenly came back to his senses and followed the sound, his eyes fell on Lin Qinghuan who came in wrapped in a fluffy nightgown, he hesitated a little, but he soon came back to his senses.

In a panic, he turned around and pressed the unfinished cigarette in his hand on the railing of the balcony. Without caring about anything else, he opened the window to disperse the smell of smoke.

But Lin Qinghuan still came towards him.

Song Chi: "Don't come here, I just smoked, it's not good for you and the child."

Lin Qinghuan raised the corners of her lips, walked over as if nothing had happened, and then said, "Don't be so nervous, it's all fine."

When she said this, the person had already arrived in front of him, so Song Chi didn't stop him.

The two stood on the terrace and looked at the dim lights not far away. For a moment, they couldn't help feeling a lot of emotion.

Eyebrows were slightly frowned, and it took a while to look sideways at Song Chi, and said without any warning: "Every year during the Lantern Festival, the Qingcheng Municipal Government will hold a firework show by the lake. Willing to go."

"She didn't go, and I couldn't go. Later, when I was in high school, I lived in a dormitory. Usually, the school just started at that time, and the teacher was not strict, so I sneaked out with my friends in the dormitory. After reading it, I came back to the school. It’s already closed, and a few little girls and I really have nowhere to go, so we stayed at the Zhaoyun Pagoda by the lake for one night, and then slipped back to school the next morning when the managers of the scenic spot weren’t paying attention.”

"It was still very cold at that time, and I don't know how they fell asleep. I really couldn't sleep, so I climbed to the top of the tower alone."

"Watching the lights of Wanjia go out one by one."

Watching the city sink into boundless silence.

"Do you know what I was thinking at that time?"

Song Chi opened his mouth, and his deeply drawn eyebrows and eyes were slightly moved.

After hesitating for a while, he slowly opened his mouth: "You are probably like me, waiting for a lamp that turns on and off only for yourself."

"Xiao Huan..."

"I understand."

"All along, I understand everything you expect."

The corners of Lin Qinghuan's mouth twitched involuntarily, and after a long while, he finally opened his mouth: "I found it, and I lost it, but fortunately, he is always there."

Song Chi couldn't help laughing lowly, with a bit of sinking in his tone: "I don't know if you're talking about me or Rong Che?"

"It's you, and it's Rong Che."

Song Chi hesitated a little.

Even, some can't believe it.

But then, Lin Qinghuan said again: "In this world, we are always saying goodbye and starting a new life at the other end. When we were born, we left the safest and warmest babies in this world and came to this strange world , At that time, none of us knew whether the world was warm, and whether those who were already in this world would expect us to come."

"When you open your eyes and look at the world, you are probably afraid, right?"

"Then grow up day by day, and then slowly integrate into this world, and the process of growing up is all based on leaving and losing, leaving home to go to school, leaving school to enter the workplace, falling in love, breaking up, starting a family, Accept the passage of time, come clean, and leave clean in the end."

"The family of origin is just the starting point for us."

"To me, you are a safe haven that I can see when I look back, and Rong Che is a light that follows me everywhere."

"I hope I'm just a dependency you can see when you look back, not the end."

Song Chi: "..."

He suddenly discovered that he had been giving psychological counseling to people for so many years, but the words Lin Qinghuan told him at this moment were not more touching.

Hasn't it been these that have kept him nostalgic all along?

but……

He held the corners of his lips in a daze, and said with some doubts in his tone, "Maybe I won't be as lucky as you to get back what I lost."

"he……"

Song Chi hesitated for a long time, but in the end he announced it directly: "He has a boyfriend, and he is the owner of the restaurant where he ate today."

Lin Qinghuan: "..."

After a while, there was a vague reply: "Oh."

However, it was only for a moment, and he quickly said: "But it's okay, in the future... maybe you will meet someone you like again, maybe he is a bit like him, or he may be completely opposite to him, in short, you like him Yes, but...whether he looks like it or not, you have to know that he is another person, not a substitute for someone else."

Song Chi: "..."

Slightly speechless raised the corners of his lips, smiled and nodded: "I know."

Lin Qinghuan: "Since you know it, don't let me enlighten you. I'm not very good at these things."

If you are good at it, the embarrassing situation before will not appear.

Song Chi smiled: "Yes, you don't understand, you just experienced it, and then shared your past experiences with me in detail..."

Lin Qinghuan: "..." Seeing that he was still in the mood for joking, he breathed a sigh of relief, and immediately raised his hands and said, "Take a good rest, I feel that Rong Che will be back soon, I have to prepare to go to Sweden to see Siyuan. "

After she finished speaking, she was about to turn around and leave.

Just after leaving for a little bit, Song Chi pulled him back again.

Carefully hugging him in his arms, resting his chin on her shoulder, his deep voice was full of nostalgia: "Xiao Huan... Thank you!"

Thank you for forgiving me, my dear sister.

However, it was only for a while, and soon let go.

Putting his hand on his shoulder, he frowned and smiled, and said in a slow voice: "When you see Siyuan, greet him for me, and take care of yourself and the unborn little niece in your belly."

Lin Qinghuan: "..."

Slightly speechless: "How do you know it must be a girl? What if she is a little nephew like Siyuan?"

Song Chi: "..."

Mouth opened, a little hesitant.

The last prenatal examination was done with the help of Professor Xu. Lin Qinghuan and Rong Che did not care about the gender of the fetus, but Professor Xu had told him about it in private.

I was really happy at first, but...

Feeling less happy afterward.

Sure enough, for things like pregnancy and childbirth, it's better to leave the surprise at the last moment.

and so.

After weighing it again and again, in the end, I still didn't tell Lin Qinghuan.

"Little nephew is also fine, so that Siyuan will have a playmate in the future."

Lin Qinghuan frowned, feeling something was wrong: "Do you know something?"

Song Chi: "No, don't think too much, go to sleep."