A Long Way to Marriage: Sweet New Wife Loves Not Enough

After Rong Che left, Lin Qinghuan played with Rong Siyuan for a while and then fell asleep.

No one disturbed him today, and Siyuan didn't have to worry about whether someone would hug him away when he was half asleep.

The next day, Lin Qinghuan woke up a bit late, Rong Siyuan was still asleep, checked the time, and quickly called him up: "You are going to be late for class, pack up quickly, I will call Uncle Liu to pick you up right away .”

Rong Siyuan thought she was doing something, so it was to wake him up and go to school.

The little guy rubbed his sleepy eyes, and fell back to sleep decisively.

Lin Qinghuan: "..."

Rong Siyuan leaned into her arms and hugged her: "Father asked for leave for me and asked me to stay with you."

Lin Qinghuan hesitated for a while, not knowing what to say.

After being silent for a while, he patted Rong Siyuan's back carefully, and said softly: "Okay then, you sleep a little longer, I'll go wash and brush your teeth, and ask the nurse sister to help us get something to eat."

Lin Qinghuan lives in the intensive care unit, so she doesn't have to worry about anything, as there are special staff to take care of it.

Rong Siyuan looked up at her and asked, "Aren't you going to sleep for a while?"

"I've had enough sleep. I've been lying on the hospital bed for two days. It's time to get up and move around."

Rong Siyuan hesitated, but finally agreed: "That's fine."

Lin Qinghuan rubbed his little head, turned over and got out of bed, and then covered him with a small quilt.

When she was almost done cleaning up, she thought about going to stand on the terrace for a while to catch her breath. After all, she had been stuffy in the room for two days, and if she didn't come out to breathe fresh air, she would get sick from stuffiness.

However, when passing through the safe passage, Lin Qinghuan didn't react at all, and was forcibly pulled in by someone grabbing his wrist.

Just as she was about to call someone, Shen Fengyan's face appeared in front of her eyes.

Lin Qinghuan was not so scared anymore, she gradually calmed down, looked at him and asked, "Shen Fengyan, what do you want to do?"

Shen Fengyan held her wrist tightly, pressed against the wall, and slowly approached her: "I want to take you home."

Lin Qinghuan tried hard to restrain her breathing, gritted her teeth and said, "Are you crazy?"

"If you insist on saying that, I won't deny it." Shen Fengyan lowered his head and approached her lips.

Lin Qinghuan hurriedly avoided.

The corners of Shen Fengyan's mouth moved slightly, and he smiled lightly: "Qing Huan, tell me the truth, do you still love me?"

Lin Qinghuan frowned slightly: "How many times do you have to tell me before you believe me, we've already ended, and there's no way we can have any more relationship."

"I just want you to answer my question. I don't care whether it's over or whether it will matter again."

Speaking of which, there is no one who is more stubborn than Shen Fengyan.

For five years, all he wanted to know was this answer.

"Is it interesting for you to ask these things now?" Lin Qinghuan didn't even dare to look him in the eyes when she said this.

How can she say no to love.

Rong Che once asked her what Shen Fengyan did for her and how he managed to catch up with her.

How would she say it?

When I was young, my relationship was already stubborn, and I tried my best to love, but it didn't go to the point of dying.

The lingering regret is not only for Shen Fengyan.

She said that Rong Che never gave Qin Yao a chance to explain, and Lin Qinghuan was similar to him, but she didn't give herself a chance to explain.

After all, she gave up on herself first.

Rong Che gave up because of his patience with Qin Yao, and what Lin Qinghuan gave up was because of his hope for her and Shen Fengyan to be together.

She didn't speak, and Shen Fengyan was not surprised. A gentle voice like water slowly rang in her ears: "Qing Huan, if you were given another chance, would you accept your suffering, your torment, and your grievance?" tell me?"

Lin Qinghuan gritted her teeth, she chose to remain silent as before.

She has thought about this question many times, and Song Chi has also asked it many times.

Just, it's ridiculous.

She said no when she was awake, but Song Chi said that the subconscious mind in deep hypnosis told him that she didn't want to bear it alone again.

Shen Fengyan let go of her wrist that he was holding tightly, looked at her for a while, and said with a smile: "Have you ever thought about it? If you told me about that at the beginning, how would I react?"

Lin Qinghuan didn't answer.

Shen Fengyan looked at her and said with a smile: "I will desperately come back to meet you, find him, and then kill him."

Lin Qinghuan's eyes trembled, and it took her a while to respond with a smile: "But what you said was just what if, I didn't tell you, and you didn't come back desperately. Now we are strangers, that's all."

"That's why I regret it." Shen Fengyan said slowly, his tone was as soft as a gust of wind, without leaving a trace, but it disturbed the people unable to calm down: "Now, I want to ask if you also have a little bit of regret."

"In my memory you are always smiling, but now, when I think about it carefully, in fact, you may not always be happy when you are with me. It is because I am always absent from your powerlessness without knowing it. I am always Accepting the choice compulsively, but never really making a decision, we tried our best but did not regret until death, you have your hopelessness, but I am ignorant and unwilling.”

After he finished speaking, his eyes drooped slightly, he looked at Lin Qinghuan, and asked with a self-deprecating smile: "Am I right? Qinghuan?"

"Perhaps." It was not easy for Lin Qinghuan to say this.

You are right, but there is no need to admit it anymore.

The two stood opposite each other, neither of them said anything.

Standing by the door were Rong Che and Song Chi.

After not hearing what they said for a long time, Rong Che reached out and knocked on the door: "Are you done talking?"

Lin Qinghuan breathed a sigh of relief, left the half leaning wall, bypassed Shen Fengyan and went out directly.

Shen Fengyan was still standing there, he didn't know if that counted as a response.

Rong Che was still standing outside, Shen Fengyan didn't leave, neither did he.

Lin Qinghuan and Song Chi went back to the ward, but Rong Che felt that it was inconvenient for Rong Siyuan to be there, so he asked someone to send him back to the old house.

Song Chi pulled a chair and sat down opposite her, stared at Lin Qinghuan for a long time before smiling and said: "That person is Shen Fengyan, right?"

Lin Qinghuan lowered her eyes and responded casually: "Yeah, after listening to me so many times, I finally saw a living one this time, how is it?"

"How is it?" Song Chi thought about the words, and immediately asked back with a frown: "Are you sure you should ask me this?"

Lin Qinghuan smiled resentfully: "Yeah, I'm just asking you, isn't it strange?"

Song Chi hesitated for a while, then shook his head and said, "It's not surprising."

Lin Qinghuan didn't say anything, just leaned on the hospital bed and looked out the window. Song Chi followed her gaze and saw nothing.

For a long time, he lowered his head and smiled.

After a while, Song Chi said straight to the point: "Lin Qinghuan, tell the truth..."

"There's nothing I can't say to you. Don't worry, I won't compete with myself anymore."

Song Chi twitched the corner of his mouth and smiled, pondered for a moment before asking: "So, are you still in a relationship, or have you started a new life?"

Lin Qing laughed hopelessly.

Shen Fengyan asked her a similar question before, but Song Chi asked her again with a different starting point.

But Song Chi didn't speak.

It doesn't matter whether Lin Qinghuan answers or not. For a psychological counselor, the answer itself is not that important.

He thought that Lin Qinghuan would remain silent forever, but he didn't expect it to be only for a short time.

"Neither in the previous relationship nor starting a new life, it's like, I can't say goodbye, and I don't dare to look forward to tomorrow. In fact, I understand better than anyone else. As long as I let myself go, everything will be fine." It will be better than everything else, but, I just refuse to let myself go, I dare not approach like a cocoon, afraid of getting hurt, and the seeds of inferiority are deeply buried in my bones, which have been deeply rooted from the beginning, and there is no way to escape."

Lin Qinghuan really needs to talk, she doesn't want to let herself collapse, so she must learn to release the pressure.

"Why do you feel inferior?" Song Chi asked.

"Why do you feel inferior?" Lin Qinghuan breathed a sigh of relief, lay on the bed and closed her eyes. After a moment of silence, she slowly said, "I don't know why I feel inferior, but sometimes I always wonder why those misfortunes always come to me. Myself. Why is it always me who is left behind? Did I do something wrong?"

"Perhaps, your parents didn't mean to abandon you." Song Chi kept looking at her when he said this: "You don't need to forgive, but there's no need to be sad about it."

"I'm just a little wronged, there's nothing unforgivable." Lin Qinghuan replied with a chuckle: "She said that she left me because I was the catastrophe of her life. What about uncle, Xiaoxiao, am I also theirs? What about the catastrophe of a lifetime?"

Song Chi put down the recording pen in his hand, and compared with the soft and gentle tone at the beginning, he was a little more impatient at the moment: "Is the matter of He Yan still on your shoulders!"

Lin Qinghuan opened her eyes, turned her head to look at Song Chi who was losing his composure, and asked with frowned eyebrows, "Mr. Song knows my uncle?"

Song Chi obviously realized that he had lost his composure, he breathed a sigh of relief, and said with a smile, "I've heard of it."

Lin Qinghuan sat up from the hospital bed, and asked with a smile: "The affairs of the He family are hardly known to outsiders, is Mr. Song an insider?"

The corner of Song Chi's mouth twitched slightly, and he smiled warmly as always: "It's not a matter of knowing, I just heard some inside stories by accident, and I don't know much, but no matter how I don't know, I won't believe any nonsense about fortune-telling. .”

Lin Qinghuan laughed at herself, and soon lay down again: "Someone believes it, but I still have no choice. Whether I was sent out at birth or used as a pawn in a commercial marriage, I seem to have no choice."

Song Chi smiled: "Now you have a choice."

Lin Qinghuan didn't speak.

Song Chi continued: "Try to say goodbye, and then, look forward to tomorrow."

This is a choice, whether to choose or not depends on Lin Qinghuan's courage.

She didn't answer, she just lay down and fell asleep.

Seeing that she had fallen asleep, Song Chi didn't stay long, packed his things and went out directly.

After Shen Fengyan left the hospital, he came directly, didn't go in, just stood at the door of the ward and listened.

He knew everything, but couldn't give more.

Song Chi was not surprised to see him outside, and said with a smile, "If there's nothing else, I'll go back first and continue tomorrow."

Rong Che didn't respond, but lowered his head in silence, and said in a deep voice, "Xiaoxiao is..."