Lord, don't chase me, I want to go back to modern times

"Xin'er, don't go." His eyes were black and clear, "Stay by my side, let me give you a good hug, and don't let anyone disturb us."

"But... your wound..." I still stared at the white gauze stained with blood red, what if the wound becomes infected?
"It's just a slight injury, I can still bear it." Seeing me hesitating, he immediately took me into his arms without any explanation, laying down on my chest and closing his eyes to rest, his steady breathing made me feel whether he was asleep .

Well, looking at the pale face on my chest, I was so soft that I couldn't open my mouth to refuse.

I tried my best not to lean against his body, for fear that an accident would tear his wound open again.Gently moving up with my fingertips, gently stroking across his cheeks, I stared deeply at his sleeping face, as if I was afraid that he would disappear from my eyes.

For my touch, his body was stiff for a moment, and then relaxed, and the hand on my waist tightened a bit.Taking a few deep breaths, with a clean smile on his face, "Xin'er, I love you."

Facing his abrupt confession, I was taken aback when I heard it, and then suspected that the confession I heard just now was my hallucination, and asked a little uncertainly, "What did you say?"

"I said, I love you." I love you and find you wherever you go.

He didn't say the second half of the sentence, but still closed his eyes and repeated it with a smile.

I really haven't heard him say "I love you" for a long time. It feels like a long time since he said it to me for the first time.

I was still a little uncertain, so I asked again seriously, "What did you say? I didn't hear clearly."

"Xiao Jincheng said that he loves you very much. No matter where you go, he will always, always love you..." He replied patiently, burying his head deeply in my chest, really... like children.

I like him like this, because this is the most real him right now, the real him wakes me up, but there is no one beside the bed, my heart is cold to the soles of my feet, where is Xiao Jincheng?Where did you go?

I was confused and searched in the tent, but I saw Xiao Zuo and Mu Tianyan helping Xiao Jincheng to open the tent and enter.

I was startled, and immediately jumped out of the bed with bare feet, supported his other hand, and said to them, "The emperor's injury is not healed, how can he go out and walk around casually, look, the wound is bleeding again."

"The minister also advises the emperor not to go out, but the emperor is very firm, and the minister cannot hold him back." Xiao Zuo wrinkled, with an aggrieved expression on his face.

Xiao Jincheng smiled faintly, "I'm afraid my injuries are the most worrying point for the soldiers in the army. If I don't go out to give them peace of mind, our army will have lost half of this battle."

"Then you can't make fun of your own life. Your wound has just stabilized, and the medicinal materials will arrive in a long time. If you make another emergency, don't I have to go to Xuefeng to pick snow lotus again!"

My tone suddenly flashed abnormal excitement, but the strength to support him was still cautious.

Seeing Xiao Zuo and Mu Tianyan help him sit on a chair covered with snow wolf fur, he leaned softly on it, looked at me with a smile, "I'm fine."

I sighed helplessly, and suddenly saw that the fires in the four warm basins were not as prosperous as they were at the beginning, so I squatted by the braziers and added carbon to them.

The atmosphere in the tent suddenly became quiet, Mu Tianyan and Xiao Zuo glanced at each other, as if they had sensed something, they bowed together, "I/I will leave first."

Then only the sound of the tent being lifted and lowered was heard, and the coals were 'crackling' burning in the basin.

I got up and walked to him, and asked rather worriedly, "Jincheng, are you sure you can win this battle?"

"No." He answered very easily, but these two words are so dignified.

"Are you so unconfident? Our strength is much stronger than Liancheng's." Besides, you are the male lead. How can there be any reason why the male lead should let Siwuliu win instead of winning? !
But his lack of confidence surprised me. I never thought that he would say such words without confidence.

Xiao Jincheng took my left hand hanging by the side, "I'm tired."

tired!This is the first time I heard him say this word in his mouth.I never thought that he would say tired.

His slender fingertips rubbed against each of my fingers, so gently.The corners of Bo Rui's mouth were raised as usual, but there was a faint smile and expectation in it, "Xin'er, let's be selfish for once too. Leave this 50 army behind, let's go far away, go to Live the life you want, no war, no blood, no exploits..."

Once again, I was stunned by his words, and could only stare blankly at him for a long, long time.

Xiao Jincheng has really changed, he is really tired of the court struggle and the helplessness of being an emperor, and he no longer has that strength and inhumanity.

The two words he said today, tired, are those Xiao Jincheng in front of me who can kill even his younger brother in order to fight for the throne?
"Xin'er, answer me." Xiao Jincheng held my hand with a bit of strength, which brought me back to my senses, wandering around with messy eyes and not daring to look at him directly, "Jincheng, stop joking with me .”

Before the sound dissipated, he immediately continued, "I'm serious."

I smiled wryly, and didn’t know what to say. If I hadn’t recovered my memory, I might be moved when I heard what he said, and I might agree to him, but… now… I can’t, and neither can he…

"If you really want to abandon the people of the Southern Kingdom, I can accompany you to be selfish once, but what about after we leave? Yes, ordinary days are very happy, but are you really happy? You will always carry the burden of selfishness on your shoulders." The responsibility of millions of people in the Southern Kingdom, and unification of the world is your lifelong long-cherished wish. Will you really be willing to lose without a fight, retreat before the battle, and hand over the country to others? Maybe you will think it is worth it now, but ten years later, 20 years from now, will you still have no regrets? You get the life you want, but discard your lifelong wish. You will have regrets in this life. Even if we live an ordinary life, we will not Happy." Moreover, I used to be very confident about your fate and the fate of other people, but now, although I have recovered my memory, what is the difference between me and the people in these books?It is also at a loss for the future, for the future ending...

Asking in a daze, I saw the pain, struggle, and contradiction in Xiao Jincheng's eyes.

My heart was also hurting, and I said calmly, "Whether you win or lose this battle, I will always stand by your side."

I am the heroine of this book, and I will definitely be with Xiao Jincheng...

"Xin'er..." He called out movingly, and hugged me tightly in his arms, but he couldn't speak anymore.

"The success or failure of the war is not important. The important thing is that we have all persisted and paid for our long-cherished wish. In this way, even if we die on the battlefield, it is more important than Mount Tai. Xiao Jincheng, remember my words, you are not ordinary, you are high above, Looking down at the world is your final position."

"Then what do you do, what about your long-cherished wish?"

"A few days ago, my long-cherished wish was to return to the place where I came from. But today, my long-cherished wish is to live and live together, and to die and die together."

Now, Xiao Jincheng and I are tied together, he can give up the country for me, why can't I give up my long-cherished wish for him with peace of mind.

……

In the past ten days, Zhao Zhirui and Xiao Zuo sent spies secretly to the Khitan's border ten miles away, to get a clear picture of the situation of the troops stationed on all sides, the surrounding snow and the terrain where the troops can be hidden.

Every night they would come to the military tent with Mu Tianyan to discuss military affairs with Xiao Jincheng, and they would try their best to conquer the border defense in the shortest time, which shows that they are still in a difficult situation on food and grass.

When they were discussing the war, I wanted to avoid it. After all, I was not allowed to snoop on this military secret, but Xiao Jincheng forbade me to go out, saying that it was cold outside and it was fine to stay inside.

Xiao Zuo, Zhao Zhirui, and Mu Tianyan didn't object, they also talked freely in front of me, and discussed every night until dawn before giving up. I was really worried about whether Xiao Jincheng's body could hold on.

If I were Liancheng, I would definitely take advantage of Xiao Jincheng's injury to confront him in the past few days, so that the chance of victory would be better, but Liancheng did not.

Sometimes I really don't understand the setting of the character Liancheng. What exactly does he want to do when he appears? !

Sometimes he uses unscrupulous means for his ends, and sometimes he maintains his status as an emperor and does not take advantage of others' dangers.

A character with contradictions, a character with contradictions...

I sat next to the brazier with my knees in my arms, adding carbon to the tent from time to time to keep the tent warm. Today, the medicinal materials from the southern country have arrived, and the military doctor prepared it for it and sent it to the military tent, but Xiao Jincheng put it aside on the table and moved. He didn't move, and concentrated on discussing with the two soldiers how to conquer the iron-like city wall of the border defense.I know he's under a lot of pressure, after all, the southern army is no match for the Khitan army, and our food and grass can't support it at all.

Nanguo wins, Khitan wins, it is no longer important to me.

No matter who becomes the emperor, he will benefit the common people.It was once thought that Liancheng was not qualified to unify the Three Kingdoms, not only because he was not the hero, but because the hatred in his heart was fierce, but now his heart is enough to be an emperor who unifies the world.

The most important thing in the current war between the two countries is just a process, and success or failure is no longer important.

Sometimes even I am confused, who is the hero in my book, Xiao Jincheng, Yeluhuan or Liancheng?
The three of them are the talents of emperors, and each character has its own characteristics... Sometimes I think, now that these two have the characteristics of the masters of the world, if they can unify the whole world without fighting, there will be no bloodshed.

But every time I got out of my mouth, I backed off. There can only be one monarch, and Liancheng would never submit to Xiao Jincheng, and Xiao Jincheng, who is so proud, would never bow to Liancheng.

Both of them are so proud, it is impossible for anyone to bow their heads, even if they lose, they will lose on the battlefield.

A burst of coldness ran across my cheeks, and I opened my eyes suddenly, meeting a pair of eyes as deep as an eagle.

I rubbed my closed eyes in contemplation, regained my bewildered consciousness, and covered his cold palm with my warm hands, "Are you all gone?"

Xiao Jincheng smiled slightly at the corner of his lips, and held back his warming hand, "How many times have I told you that I have discussed the military situation with the three of them for a long time, and you don't want to go to rest earlier, you always have to wait for me."

"I don't wait for you, who can keep the charcoal burning in the brazier? I don't wait for you, who can undress you and help you to rest on the bed? Do you want to drink the medicine?" I plausibly asked three questions back and forth, and he stared at me in astonishment for a moment, not knowing what to answer.