Lord, don't chase me, I want to go back to modern times

"Why do you say this to her, even though you are bound by the secular world?" Xiao Jincheng's voice was mixed with a strong voice of anger.

"The poor nun also thought twice before saying this. Your Majesty, the poor nun has seen the heart of the concubine Xian. It has already been scarred and scarred by others. This is her only way out. Otherwise, she will never be able to give up her heart. In the future... she will be tormented by the demons in her heart, and she will be in pain." Master Jinghui's voice was extremely sincere, "Besides, the emperor heard her hatred for you, so you still rest assured to keep her by your pillow?"

"Master Jinghui, you are wrong. In fact, my heart has always been like a mirror." He sighed a long time, "I already knew that Xin'er hated me now, since that day she cruelly killed Chunlan with death poison. , I knew that her hatred has always existed."

Hearing this, I couldn't help shivering, did he know that Chunlan was caused by me?he knows?
My thoughts suddenly came back to that day when Xiao Jincheng hugged me tightly and said anxiously, "It's a good thing you're fine, it's a good thing you didn't eat eel."

"Zhi Tao, Shen Jieyu, Concubine Lian, Mrs. Qi, I didn't pursue everything she did, because I owed her that. I broke the contract again and again, and lied to her again and again. None of me did it, and in the end, she was infertile for life. This was the greatest harm I did to her, and I would never finish it. Since I promised to give her the second place, today, all obstacles have been cleared away. I should fulfill my promise at that time, and this position belongs to her. This is not only a debt to her, but also a promise made by a man to a woman. I want to use love to accommodate her and dilute her With a heart of hatred, I want to give her all the best. The only regret is that I can no longer enter the bottom of her heart for the promise that has been delayed for so many years."

Xiao Jincheng's voice was a little choked up.

"Your Majesty, now is the time when wars are raging everywhere. You can no longer put your mind on the private relationship of your children. For the sake of the world, I ask you to let go..." Master Jinghui's tone was mixed with anxiety and comfort. "You are a wise king, you should help the world. Your responsibility is to unify the world. This is not only the oath you made when you ascended the throne, but also the expectation of your father. Besides, the people today can no longer bear the burden of years. War, the world can no longer continue to be divided."

"I'm sorry."

"Regret what?"

"Usurping the throne. I used to think that the throne was mine! They robbed what should belong to me, but until now, I realized that I was tired. In order to become the throne, I killed my mother, killed my brother, and used The woman I want to protect the most. Just to consolidate this throne, I really sacrificed too much for this throne... Even the person I love hates me."

Xiao Jincheng's voice was as violent as a storm coming, and he screamed for help, "All this is only for this throne! Only for this throne! How many times have I wanted to abandon this throne, go far away with my heart, and live a The days of the gods and couples... But I can't, because I am the emperor, I have a responsibility to the country... I wish we could go back to the beginning, no matter how frightening her thoughts are, I will accompany her..."

"The poor nun has always known that you are a good emperor!"

I covered my lips in disbelief, he had always known.

Don't turn my tolerance towards you into capital for you to bully empresses and concubines.

It turns out that he has always known, that's why he said such things to me. It turns out that he has always known what I did in the harem, and he has always been tolerant.

Tears finally dripped from my eyes uncontrollably, onto my cheeks, and finally onto the back of my hand...

Since he knows everything, why does he still keep me by his side? Since he knows that I want to endanger his country, why does he still want to keep me, and even make him queen.

The queen...just because he owes me a promise.I owe a promise that should belong to me...

The Ninth Five-Year Lord is also a mortal, and he also yearns for family happiness.

I quietly lowered my hand covering my lips, stepped out from behind the stone pillar, choked with tears, and asked, "Why didn't you tell me these words earlier?"

The two people in the room suddenly turned their heads to look at me, with surprise in their eyes.

I walked towards Xiao Jincheng step by step, tears rolled down, and my hazy eyes stared blankly at Xiao Jincheng with tears in his eyes, "If you can tell me these words yourself, maybe I can hate you less now. Some, but, you never, I said, never."

"Xin'er..." He whispered emotionally, and the tears that filled his eyes slipped quietly.

"Amitabha." Master Jinghui tightly held the rosary in his hand, "There seem to be many unexplainable misunderstandings between the emperor and his wife. The poor nun just wants to say that if people who love each other for a while can't open their hearts and have a long talk at midnight, That's a very sad thing." She sighed again and again, "I hope that at this moment, you can let go of everything and express what is in your heart."

She finally bowed deeply, turned around and left the hall, opened the curtain and walked in.

Xiao Jincheng and I were the only ones left in the empty lobby. We just looked at each other silently, with thousands of words, but we didn't know where to start.

The water waves are as transparent as scandium, and the setting sun spreads the water jade dust pond.
He and I went boating on the lake again. At dusk and sunset, the slanting light was like fire, covering our bodies, dyeing half of our bodies red.

He said that he always wanted to bring me here again, and wanted to see the two plum trees planted by us side by side.

I feel a little wistful and confused.

What flashed in my mind was the ordinary life of those seven days. If we want to say that we are truly happy, there is only those short seven days.

On the surface of the lake, Xiao Jincheng didn't paddle with his hands, but just sat still, letting the wind stir up waves of ripplings on the water and spread them into the distance...

Well, if it was in the past, I would definitely laugh at him. When will we drift like this, but now I am less wanton and happy than before, and I have become silent...

We all looked down at the reflection in the water, and remained silent for more than half an hour, still relatively speechless.

The warm wind at the end of summer was blowing slowly, and our boat was always swaying in the lake, never reaching the shore.

"Master Jinghui is right. If a couple who love each other can't open their hearts and have a long talk in the middle of the night, it is a very sad thing. Thinking about it carefully, we have never really had a heart-to-heart relationship. We used to feel that we were failures." , never really entered into your heart. But later, I understood that you will always have that line of defense on your body, and no one can step through that line of defense, including me." The first to speak was me, Always me.

He will never take the initiative to talk to me, unless I ask him, otherwise, he will always be the passive person.

"I thought you knew everything." He looked at me from his reflection in the water, looking straight into my eyes, with a hint of bitterness in his voice.

"Yes, I know all about it." I nodded a little funny, why does he always say this.No matter when or what, he thinks I will know?Even if I do know, "But what I'm waiting for is for you to tell me yourself."

I waved my hand vigorously, breaking the calm lake surface, and shattering the reflection of the two of us.

The water sprayed up, wet my sleeves, and wet my hair, "That time I escaped because of your use, but I didn't expect to be caught by you again. You spent seven days of ordinary life trying to keep me , but I didn't stay. Not only because I have A Huan's child, not only because I feel deeply guilty for A Huan, but also a more important reason." After a pause, he said, "In those seven days, You are indeed very good to me, but your kindness to me will only push me further. On the seventh day, I have been waiting for you to explain the poisoning to me, but you have never spoken to me Speaking of a few words, it is enough to show that you still don't believe me."

He also splashed a lot of water stains on his body, and some of them fell on his face. He didn't reach out to wipe it off, but listened to me very seriously, and then gave me a deep sentence, "I thought, I don't need to wipe it off." Explain, you can understand."

"Yes, I know all about it." My heart was suffocated, and a wave of annoyance welled up in my heart, and I slapped the water waves on the surface of the lake fiercely.

The calm lake surface was broken again, my whole body was gradually covered with residual beads, and I shouted at him excitedly, "Every time you use me up, you say 'I'm sorry, I will make it up to you' You don't know, In my eyes, this sentence is a great insult to me. Do you think what I want is compensation? No, I want your explanation, I want to hear you tell me your difficulties... Although the difficulties I I know, but I want to hear it from you!"

"Then why didn't you ask?" His face gradually showed confusion, dismay, and bewilderment.

"Ask? What face do you want me to ask the man I love the most?" I got up from the boat when I was sitting curled up, and looked down at him who was still sitting quietly. Am I poisoned? Let me ask you, why does the man who keeps saying he loves use me to consolidate the imperial power? Why did you not stick to it in the end after you promised to only touch me and did so much for me? Tell me, this How can I be so embarrassed by everything? I am a human being, a person with flesh and blood and feelings! Please let me leave the last trace of pride for myself, please?" Sour tears came to my eyes, layers of mist, I looked at I don't know his expression, it's really vague.

He seemed to move his mouth, and I interrupted sadly and continued, "Just like the accident that happened in the Palace of Thousand Birds that day, I always knew that you pushed me away on purpose. And you also understand, I already knew it. But you didn't explain it, you just said to me again 'I'm sorry, I will make it up to you', yes, your compensation is to make me a queen, that is, let me be one person under one person and above ten thousand people in the harem. But do you know? The you at that time made me feel insulted by you again. As the queen, my child’s life is only enough to exchange for a queen who should belong to me, do you know? I am in peace The heart is never rare for the queen."

If I want a successor, I should tell the world after he ascends the throne that I am the legitimate wife of Zhenbei Wang Xiao Jincheng, I did not escape, I am not an escaped concubine!

Tears fell silently, tears spread, and my voice trembled more and more.