Lord, don't chase me, I want to go back to modern times

"I will send you to him personally." His voice was extremely firm, and I no longer guessed what he was going to do next, just smiled and stretched out my hand into the water, the cold feeling invaded my palm , My heart gradually became more comfortable.

When approaching the shore, I saw General Zhao and Xiao Zuo, whom I had not seen for many years, on the shore, welcoming Xiao Jincheng's return.

I know that everything is over, from now on, he is the emperor of the Southern Dynasty, and I am the Yuefei of Khitan.

I just hope that he won't let me down again this time, I'm very afraid of being used by him again.

When I walked past Xiao Zuo, a faint and indifferent voice sounded in my ear, "Won't you regret it?"

I looked sideways, and what I saw was a familiar yet unfamiliar face, Xiao Zuo's eyes were full of indifference!
Do you regret it?Maybe, maybe many years later I will miss what happened these days, the seven days with Xiao Jincheng, but now, I know, I can't stop, and likewise, I really haven't stopped...

Outside the barren smoke, horns blazed into the sky.The two armies confronted each other, and the smoke filled the air.When I followed Xiao Jincheng's army to the main tent where they were facing each other, I saw Yeluqi.

At this moment, I suddenly wanted to know his mood at the moment, how did he stand beside Xiao Jincheng and raise his sword to stab his compatriots?

However, it was difficult for him in front of him, because he seemed to have lost weight several times due to the days of fighting, and his eyes were covered with bloodshot eyes.I heard that this war has lasted for ten days. The strength of the two armies is equal, and the number of casualties is similar. Now it seems to be a protracted war. Whoever can hold on longer will be the victor.

"Why did the Khitan suddenly increase so many troops..." Xiao Jincheng walked to the head of the military tent and sat down, picked up the distribution map of the troops on display for a long time, clenched his fists, and tapped the table, as if he had fallen into a trap. In his own contemplation.

There was silence inside, and none of the soldiers present answered. I received General Zhao's guarded eyes, and it turned out that they were guarding against me!
I smiled resentfully, opened the curtain very wisely and went out.

Gunpowder smoke filled the air, people were crowded, and there was a bloody smell all around. I walked to the top of the mountain outside the army commander and looked down at the wreckage under the mountains and rivers. They were all human lives!The wind is strong and swift, moving the north. The war brings the separation of wives and children, and the turmoil brings the people without food and clothing.

The location of the Southern Dynasty is very advantageous. They are on the top of the mountain, and they can see every move of the enemy army. It is psychologically beneficial to be condescending, but it is easy to defend and difficult to attack.That's why the confrontation between the two armies has been a protracted struggle to this day. Neither side dares to make a move easily. If they do, both sides will suffer.I think this time Khitan is going all out, after all, they don't want to be inferior to others forever!

If I want to protect myself at this time, it shouldn't be a problem, it mainly depends on how strong Xiao Jincheng's desire to destroy Khitan is.

Suddenly, I remembered everything I had done. For the first time, I was so at a loss for the belief that I always wanted revenge. It turned out that I hated Xiao Jincheng, so I always wanted him to give something to comfort Chunrui's soul. However, when I knew everything, I was at a loss again. My so-called revenge would be another killing, and blood would flow like a river.Even if it's really revenge, do I just want to see Xiao Jincheng die?
Obviously I was still worried about him one moment, but want him dead the next moment?

In the final analysis, my selfishness is too heavy, and I am too easily swayed by emotions...

I was wrong, didn't I, did I do something wrong?The hatred I have always insisted on seems to have deceived my heart, and I want to push the common people into eternal doom for my own selfish desires!Where did the free and carefree An Huai heart go?

What she pursued was just an ordinary life. Since when did hatred kill my remaining innocence?

Huan, are you angry now because I didn't keep my promise? I only hope that this war will end soon and you can get through this crisis safely. I hope that when we meet again, you can listen to my explanation to you!

"Chunrui, forgive me, forgive me for always using you as an excuse." Along with the turbulent wind, I whispered to the sky, "I don't want revenge, I don't want people to be burned, I don't want bloody killings, I don't want any of them I don't want to die, I don't want to..."

"Are you finally able to let go of your hatred?" Yeluqi's voice followed my words.

I suddenly looked back and stared at him in silver armor and helmet, walking towards me. Why, did the military discussion end so quickly?

"I vaguely remember the first time I saw you. You were in the crowd with disheveled clothes. You were not as indifferent as ordinary women. The second time I saw you, you were rejected from the palace but calmly changed the situation and forced Qingshu to carry you in." Mansion, I have seen you three times, the loneliness in your eyes made me curious, you are so different, and you are so bold... After that, I was attracted by you again and again, and I paid more attention to you unconsciously." He didn't stop until I looked at him. After many days of fighting, he was exhausted physically and mentally, but I didn't know what expression to use to continue talking to him, "It's not just you after so many years. One person was blinded by hatred, and I said high-sounding reasons to support my hatred, but what is hatred? What is hatred? The comrade in front of me died under my own knife. Although I don’t want to, I still can’t turn back. Maybe A traitor like me will only become a lonely ghost after death, with nowhere to take him in... You are much better than me."

His expression seemed to be crying but not crying, half smiling but not smiling, but it was extremely sad.

"Have you thought about...going back?" I sighed softly and asked lightly.

However, his answer was not unexpected, "No, now it's an arrow that has been shot, and there is no turning back!"

"Then have you ever regretted it?" Regret like me?

"……"regret?If he had asked clearly about the concubine's affair and hadn't had any misunderstandings with his elder brother, then would he not have come back, wouldn't have... fallen in love with her?

He was silent for a long time, then cast his eyes on my lower abdomen, "Is it because the child in your belly made you see through all this hatred?"

"Yes!" I nodded, stroking my belly with warmth. "In the past, I always wanted to have a child, a child with Xiao Jincheng...but it was destined that I couldn't have a child with him."

I smiled bitterly, looking back at the smoky and confused area, so desolate, "I can see that you still can't let the emperor go, why don't you stay?"

I was a little surprised by his question, he actually wanted me...to stay?

"You also said just now that there is no turning back when you open the bow. I have my responsibility. I have been selfish once. I can't be selfish for the second time and ignore other people's feelings like this." Since I chose to accept Yeluhuan at the beginning, then I will To keep choosing...

Yuntun Barrier, Pi Zhen Shengling, Yeluqi took a step forward, looked at the sky with me, a goshawk flew by, and hissed, "You know, before Qingshu knocked you unconscious and imprisoned you in the palace, it was to use you To restrain elder brother, use you to make him abandon his weapons and surrender. But just now, he actually said that he would send you back, I don’t know what happened in the past few days that made Qing Shu change his original intention.”

His words were swallowed by the strong wind, and I had to listen carefully, only to see him continue, "You are the only one who can make him like this. Now I realize that I was really wrong about Musk. .”

Listening to Yeluqi's every word, my heart seemed to be hollowed out. It turned out that he really wanted to use me but why did he give up? Jiangshan is no longer important to him?Or is he certain of winning?
"Do you still care so much? I don't blame you anymore." I used a steady and sincere voice to confirm my forgiveness to him. I just want to go back quickly. Now the two armies are at war. As Yelu Huan's concubine Yue should be by his side. "

Yeluqi sighed softly, and just as he was about to speak, Xiao Jincheng's voice drifted into his ears with the wind, "Do you really want to go back to him that much?"

My body was stiff, I calmed down, turned around and said with a smile, "Didn't you say you wanted to send me back to him? You don't know how to count your words."

He smiled helplessly, I have already sent a spy to deliver the letter, and I will deliver you to him in person tonight. "

I looked at him suspiciously, feeling a little wary in my heart, "Why did you go in person? I can go back by myself. I want to see Huan in person."

"After all, you used to be my woman." He stood far away, the dust was blown up by the strong wind, and the wind and sand were misty, "If I really want to use you, I'll just use you and threaten him to hand over Khitan, I believe, you And the child in the womb has that weight in his heart."

Seeing that he showed no signs of deceit, I chose to believe him, because in those seven days, he showed me the real Xiao Jincheng.

As the night fell and the mountain road was dark, Xiao Jincheng originally wanted to ride a horse with me, but I refused.

Riding on a horse alone, I don't want to have too many intimate movements with him, and I don't want Yeluhuan to see it.I have never had such a contradiction.

What surprised me was that this time Xiao Jincheng only brought Yeluqi with him, not Xiao Zuo, and they only brought a group of elite soldiers behind them.

I can't help but worry that if he goes like this, will he be in danger?What if Yeluhuan had ambushed a large group of people there in advance to surround him?Or, Xiao Jincheng ambushed someone?
I was restless on the horseback and turned back again and again, wanting to see if there was an army secretly accompanying me behind me. Seeing me turning back again and again, Xiao Jincheng felt a little helpless, "What are you looking at?"

I hastily withdrew my gaze and cast it forward, pretending to look at the dark night with the bright moon illuminating Lu Lian, "It's nothing."

Yeluqi followed me closely, without looking sideways, and without speaking. This long road was exceptionally quiet, only the sound of footsteps and hooves of the elite soldiers behind me, and no one spoke.The closer I got to my destination, the heavier my heart became.The sound of the horse's hooves every time it takes a step makes my heart sink into a trough.