Wife meets opponent: Be good, call me husband!

Su Nian once liked someone.After she told Lu Yushen that story, Lu Yushen was very jealous and angry, because he always thought that he should be the only man Su Nian ever liked.

Recalling that time, Su Nian murmured to Lu Yu deeply, "Actually, I don't know what my feelings for him are at all now. I never met him when I knew him, but I already know that he has a family. My child. When I saw him later, I felt different from what I imagined. He was much better looking than I imagined, and he was much taller. Later, we worked together and went out together every day. Gradually, the two of us became familiar. He was six years older than me. He knows a lot, but he is very restrained. There are many things I don't know how to solve better. He often teaches me, and later became my master.

I used to fall in love with someone because of their voice, their eyes, or even their smile.

He gave me the feeling that a long stream of water is flowing, and the accumulation of small things is moving.The first thing that left a deep impression on me was that everyone was sitting together drinking tea, and he was in charge of making the tea.Everyone else drank raw tea, but I was the only one who poured me a cup of cooked tea from another pot.People around me asked, why did you pour that for her alone?He said naturally that she didn't like drinking raw tea.People around are laughing, you see how much your master loves you.I pretended to be stupid, and my heart was really aroused.Few people remember my hobbies, and trouble themselves for my hobbies.I just thought in my heart that I must be more kind to my master.Later, people around me often said, "You see how much your master loves you, and how much your master loves you."You see how kind your apprentice treats you, your apprentice only has you in his eyes.So, I began to be confused about my feelings.That afternoon, I went to the warehouse with him and a sister to tidy up. There was a big tea cake, which was framed by a wooden board. Because it was very heavy, I moved the wooden frame with him, and my fingers were careless. After being pricked by a wooden thorn, he looked at me, frowned and said, got it?I don't know why, my heart trembled, looked at him, and quickly replied, it's okay, it doesn't hurt!The elder sister who came with me looked at me and him, her eyes were full of inquiries. At that moment, I felt a little guilty for some reason.Maybe I feel that he treats me differently, maybe I finally realize that he treats me differently.

I adore him, trust him, and rely on him.In the few months we met, we were together almost every day, busy with other things, occasionally he took me out to do errands, took me shopping in his spare time, once we went to the warehouse, and he showed me how to blow cigarettes at the door Circle, rotate the lit cigarette 360 ​​degrees in the mouth, and smoke will come out of the nostrils!In front of me, he is an omnipotent big man, but also a disobedient child.

When I came back after Chinese New Year, I knew he was going to Yunnan soon.Once you go, you may come back in half a year, and it may be the end of the year.In those few days, he had a particularly good temper, and he often listened to what I said.I casually said that I wanted to go to the Hero Mountain Cultural Market, and after finishing work in the warehouse, he took me there.There was a sweet potato candy seller on the road, I just went to look at it, and he bought it for me.I've never felt so much like a child, never been so treated like a child.The night before going to Yunnan, I went back to the dormitory to cook, and he went shopping in Ginza, and then we left together.He said, go to the dormitory to find me after shopping.I left my mobile phone in class, and when I got back to class, I found out that he had called me several times.It should be to ask me if I have finished cooking and if I am still in the dormitory.I didn't get a call, but he went to the dormitory to find me anyway.After dinner, he was leaving.I said goodbye to him.Then tears started to flow out uncontrollably, obviously he had just walked out of the store, but I had already started to miss him.The elder sister around me was inconceivable watching me cry, and couldn't understand why I was crying so sadly.In fact, I didn't understand at first, why I was so reluctant and sad.Later I told Sister Di and asked Sister Di what was going on.Sister Di said, are you in love with him?It can't be love for a long time!
I don't quite believe it, how can a person like me be in love for a long time?However, until now, he has been in Yunnan for almost three months, and I miss him every day. What's going on?
I don't know what kind of mentality I am in, what kind of feelings I am, but I am sure that when I miss him, I am sad that he doesn't know, and I can't tell him.

Probably when everyone can see that I like him, but I don't know it myself.When I was sure I liked him, he got farther and farther away from me.And now, I finally lost his message. "

Setbacks make me stronger, uncontrollable, and my heart becomes cold.From being overwhelmed with sympathy, he has now become indifferent to most things.It's not that I'm not being kind anymore, it's just that I don't know how to heal, and I don't have the ability to warm others.

Su Nian saw a sentence in the book that day and said, "The moon on the sea is the moon in the sky, and the person in front of you is the one you love.

The heart has always been the heart of the audience, but the person in the play is the one.

All my life I have longed to be collected, properly placed, and carefully preserved.Don't be surprised, don't suffer, don't wander around, don't have branches to cling to.

But that man, I know, I've always known, will never come.

It doesn't matter if he never comes, I will put him in the bottom of my heart, put him in a safe place, collect it carefully, and never forget it forever. "

After she saw it, she felt very moved.It is a very pleasant thing to like you.I see the corner of your clothes.I see the tip of your brow.You are wearing a peaked cap today.Your eyes are smiling like a bridge today.You walk past me.Your casual gaze.All make me very happy.It's all because I like you.

Recently Su Nian couldn't go shopping because she was pregnant, so she wrote at home after playing casually.She wrote a paragraph that day, which probably meant this, "Below the cliff is the sea, and there are fish in the sea, sand in the sea, and rain in the sea.

Occasionally, blue sky and white clouds can be seen through the sea.Why don't people sleep in the sea?Maybe life will be better.

I have been thinking to myself for many years, when I am 60 years old, my face is gone, my body is old, I am willing to go down from there, into the sea, into the waves, into freedom.I will be free and fly happily.My hair will be at its prettiest, my eyes will sparkle like stars, I will definitely remember everything I wanted in the first place, and now, even if I don't, I'll still be the happiest.

let's go.My home, I will eventually come to your side.

I yearn for you, I love you. "

Lu Yushen was extremely nervous, thinking that he had some bad thoughts.

He quickly greeted her and said that he would take her to see a psychiatrist.

Immediately afterwards, Su Nianyou made a long confession to Lu Yushen, saying, "I love you, just like I love myself, whom I want to love so much.

Then do your best.Like a plant grabbing nutrients, desperately absorbing them.Conveying blood and spirit.Let the soul that was originally heavy like shackles get a moment of respite.

I love you, only then can I make myself live better.

When I see you, it's like seeing another me.Therefore, I am so eager that you can live a good life, and no one can be as happy as you.Because of that, through the mountains and the crowds, I can see that another me is doing well with just a glance from a distance. "

In the past, Su Nian was a bad boy. He said he was a bad boy, but in fact it was not that serious.But, she wears red shoes and is a vulgar woman.There were large and small scars on her arms, which looked like marks from a knife or glass.A child asked her, Auntie, why do you have so many scars on your arms.pretty ugly.She laughed, young and ignorant.It's just that under this sentence, how much despair and sadness are hidden.

She remembered that when a new wound occurred, she was still a little girl who couldn't help crying to her friends.Just recalling that text message again, she felt very sad again. "When I saw the big and small wounds and bruises on my body. While I felt pleasure, there was deep hopelessness and fear. I felt that I was full of strong hatred for a world, and I felt that I was about to see I can't see those lights anymore. I'm afraid I can't find my way back. I want to hug you, but I find myself cold all over. How can I protect you and give you warmth when I'm so unbearable. I can't love myself well."

Maybe people will find it hypocritical, but she is a sensitive woman herself, and she wrote those words out of her heart at that time.Sometimes the pen she holds tightly in her hand seems to be her last resort.The panic that suddenly overflowed in my heart spread like a tide, and it was a large piece of naked barrenness.She stood in the sun, her palms desperately covering her.All the fragility is like this wound exposed to others.For the first time, she felt that these wounds brought her not only venting, but also shame.External vulnerability is shame.

Mental torture far outweighs physical torture.One is never destroyed, always remembered, but the other is just a temporary pain.Compared with these mental pains, she is more willing to accept those physical pains, and she accepts them gladly.

When life was better, she once wanted to find a way to remove those scars on her body, but in the end it was fruitless.If it exists, it exists, and it can also remind her from time to time, absolutely not, one step is wrong, one step is wrong.

I am paranoid.If I love, I must love deeply.If you have him in your eyes, you will be with him for the rest of your life.I don't need extra emotion.I just ask the people I love to treat me as wholeheartedly as I do.I'm the only one in my life, and I'm the only one who loves me in my life.Unique to each other, loyal to each other.

Now she finally has her own happiness, she has Lu Yushen, her grandma is gone, and she has a child in her belly.What about in the future?she believes.She will get better and better.