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The two sat in the coffee shop, looking at each other face to face.Xiaozhen hung the handle of the coffee cup on her thumb, and held the cup with both hands, as if her hands were cold and needed the boiling hot coffee in the cup to keep warm.After a long time, Zhaoshi finally asked, "Didn't you marry in Wuhan? Why did you go back to Shanghai? Where is your husband?" Xiaozhen smiled, "Let me tell you the truth, anyway, sooner or later you will Asking. I'm divorced." "Li, Li, divorce?" The coffee in Zhaoshi's cup almost spilled. "What's so surprising about the divorce? Have you heard about Mr. Xu Zhimo?" Zhaoshi nodded, "It was published in the newspaper, but I always feel that he is a bit lucky." "Yes, I am the same. It's just my husband It's not that you have a new lover, but that you have too many lovers, and you don't know which one to love, heh!" Zhaoshi muttered, "Actually, I heard about this, um, it was my elder sister who said it, you know my elder sister People, you can’t hide your words in your heart, and the sister-in-law asked her to persuade you. But, according to what you said, are you going to divorce her?” Xiaozhen shrugged: “Why, women can’t take the initiative to ask for a divorce with a man. Divorce? What is Grandma planning to persuade me? If I live indiscreetly and hang out with men, what will they say about me? Why should I be persuaded to endure like my elder sister if I were a man? Zhaoshi, I used to It is a bird in a cage. It used to be in the cage of my house, working with its head down every day, serving my parents. My parents loved me and said that your Shen family is a rich family, and the eldest grandma is a Bodhisattva. I can live in marriage. Good day. So I worked again in the cage of your Shen family, with my head bowed, serving the grandma. The grandma also loved me, let me marry, and chose a good marriage for me. The wife of a military officer is so respectable. How nice it sounds. So I went to that cage in Wuhan again. My ex-husband was fine, he saved all the salary from the army, took me to make clothes, took me to the movies, and took me to the club. I I know, they all think it's for my own good. But, Zhaoshi, you are the only one in this world, and you are the only one who ever asked me whether I was happy or not. Before, I never thought about whether I was happy or not. After you asked me I often think about this question. When my husband is out fooling around and doesn’t come home, I’m not happy. I believe that sister Zhaoquan is also not happy, let alone grandma. Her demeanor and character are ruined by your elder brother. Zhaoshi, do you know that the night I got married to your house, I heard someone playing the flute, and the sound of the flute sounded like crying, but I later found out that it was the flute of the grandma, so I felt very sad What a pain. I lived for my parents, brother, grandma, and my ex-husband for many years, and now I am finally living for myself."

Zhaoshi's breath became short of breath in shock, he didn't know what happened to make Xiaozhen change so much, could it be because of his own words?Or is it because of the seemingly decent but unhappy marriage?He lowered his head and took a sip of his coffee. It seemed that the coffee was so bitter today that he choked on it. He looked up at Xiaozhen: "So now, you are living for yourself, are you happy?" Xiaozhen nodded sincerely, " At least now, I am happy. Zhaoshi, I am very grateful to you, you taught me how to read and read, let me read so many enlightening articles, and let me know that I should live for myself. Do you know? I have actually It’s been a while since I’ve been back to Shanghai. Before I made this film, I did the same job as you. I taught in a civilian girls’ school for three months. I want those girls to have the opportunity to read and write like me. Watch Read the article in the newspaper, you can have a sober day. Later, I met the director, and he said that making movies can make more people think. Zhaoshi, have you seen the movie "Jade Mother's Complaint", I often Secretly rejoicing, didn't I almost become like Yuniang?"

When they were in Shen's house, Zhaoshi and Xiaozhen both called each other "Auntie" and "Second Master". It seemed that they were reprimanded by their sister-in-law for saying their names when they met for the first time.Now Xiaozhen calls his name over and over again, and he thinks the voice is really nice.Moreover, he also had the courage to call her: "Xiaozhen." Xiaozhen raised her head, her eyebrows and eyes were still so light, she looked very delicate, Zhaoshi remembered that her lips were also light red, But now that she is wearing bright lipstick, she can't see the way she used to.Xiaozhen smiled: "What do you want to say." Zhaoshi blinked: "I can see that you are happier now, you laugh more than before. You don't always keep your head down." This time Xiaozhen laughed Aloud: "I don't feel that I always lower my head, but I think you always lower your head." Zhaoshi thought for a while, about a long time ago, when they saw each other, they always lowered their heads .

After the coffee was finished and the cheesecake in front of them was eaten, the two stood up.Zhaoshi asked: "Xiaozhen, where do you live now? Shall I take you back?" Xiaozhen generously took out a pen and paper from her bag, and said while writing, "I live in the apartment behind the Carlton Theater Here, I’ll write you an address and a phone number. I don’t have a phone at home, but I have one downstairs. It may take a while. I have to go downstairs to pick it up. It’s already late today, so don’t send me off, so you don’t have to go back and talk to Grandma I can’t explain it, I’ll just call a rickshaw.” After finishing speaking, he curled his lips: “You see, I still think it’s easier to call Grandma.” Zhaoshi was a little uneasy: “Actually, you should still write a letter For her, she misses you very much." Xiaozhen replied: "I didn't write it before, because I was afraid that she would feel sorry for me, but now I dare not write it. The things I do now won't catch her eyes, so why don't I say it? " Zhaoshi still insisted: "After all, you can't hide things like acting in movies, and besides, my sister-in-law may not be unreasonable." Xiaozhen sighed: "Let's take a step and take a step. When the day comes, I will naturally talk about it." That's it." After finishing speaking, she boarded the car gracefully and went.

When Zhaoshi returned home, it was already completely dark.Jing Xian asked him what he was doing, but he replied that he went to the library with Lan Xin.Jingxian didn't suspect that since Zhaoshi told a lie about a trivial matter when she was a child, she was taken to the ancestral hall by her sister-in-law to break the family law, and she never dared to lie to her sister-in-law again.Even though his heart was still beating violently today, and his face was flushed, Jingxian just took it as a spoiler about the young man's affair, and felt embarrassed.

At night, he was lying on the bed looking at the ceiling, thinking in his heart, could it be that today's coffee was made too strong, why he couldn't fall asleep.Xiaozhen's smiling face was right in front of his eyes. Since seeing her today, Zhaoshi felt that his world was different from usual.He can read books and newspapers, he has read about the homeland of the sages, and he also understands the Revolutionary Party’s Three-X Democracy, but these words and sentences are not as vivid as Xiaozhen’s, and they even look a little crazy.He wanted to reach out several times in the dark, but he always felt that he could touch that little face with his hand, and his eyes were shining with excitement.He never imagined that Xiaozhen, who is hidden behind his sister-in-law, can burst out with such energy. She can recognize her heart and pursue her own life boldly. Even Zhaoshi is ashamed of such bravery.He also asked himself silently: "Am I happy?" After asking, he was a little dazed because he didn't have an answer.Such a result made Zhaoshi a little frustrated. He lived to be almost 20 years old, and he didn't even know whether he was happy or not.He was born as the young master of the family, and he never worried about food and clothing, and he didn't even know that these things would be worth worrying about.It seems that his task is to study. If he reads well, his parents and sister-in-law will be happy;They didn't ask him if he was enjoying reading.Later, when the eldest brother left home, he had the task of taking on the family business again.This family business was left by his ancestors, and he has to bear it whether he is happy or not.But what if you don't bear it?Like his big brother?People betrayed their relatives, were beaten up and left on the corner of the street, isn't that happy?

Zhaoshi didn't have an answer, and couldn't sleep more and more.He sat up from the bed, and found the address left by Xiaozhen in his pocket.There is a faint scent of perfume on the small paper head, with a hint of sweetness.It is neither as strong as Zhaoquan's French perfume nor as cold as the sister-in-law's sachet.He thought of the sweet-scented osmanthus cake that Xiaozhen sent to his study.Now, will she make osmanthus cake again?Zhaoshi lowered his head and carefully read the small characters on the paper, each stroke was very graceful.This character was taught by him, he taught Xiaozhen and Huanzhu both to read the "Jiucheng Palace" posts, girls are suitable for writing European style.Unexpectedly, a soft and cowardly child like Huanzhu would fall in love with thin gold characters later on, only Xiaozhenlin's is vivid.He put the note under his pillow, thought for a moment, then turned it out and put it back in his shirt pocket.

Then she lay down and kept thinking in her mind, how could she live alone, who would take care of her food and daily life?Oh, yes, Xiaozhen has no one to take care of her at home, she has always served others.However, she is a girl's house, isn't it dangerous to live by herself?The lamp is broken, the chair is crooked, who will fix it?