99 days trial marriage

Curled up in the corner of the bathtub, Gu Lingse's eyes were red, her cheeks were red, and she was clutching her chest with her hands.

"Ye Chengshu, enough!"

"You said you would relieve me."

"I said that!"

"Because you love me."

"That's right!"

"Then what are you hiding from?"

"Because I said to help you relieve it, I didn't tell you to help me too! I don't need it!"

"I love you too."

"so what?"

"I want to make you comfortable too."

"No. I'm fine like this. I don't need your help."

"Love is mutual."

"But I really—"

Don't need three words, it was swallowed into his mouth.

Until she was hugged into bed by him in a daze, Gu Lingse still couldn't understand what kind of plot development this was.

It was agreed that she would help him, how did it somehow become the current virtue?

but--

"Well, it's very comfortable. Use a little more strength."

"how about this?"

"Yeah! That's it! Don't stop!"

Gu Lingse is like a little emperor, Ye Chengshu is fast, she shouts slowly, he is slow, she shouts fast.He is light, she calls heavy, he is heavy, she calls light.In a word, it is comfortable to fly to the sky!
Lying on the edge of the bathtub, she groaned lazily, with a pair of winking eyes like silk, her long black hair casually scattered on her shoulders, a coquettish dark red rose flower on her shoulder blade, on her snow-white skin, it was particularly shocking .

His water-stained fingertips gently touched and slid over, and his pupils tightened, showing soreness.

Even with tattoos, he still couldn't cover up the palm-sized scar.

The big palm, neither light nor heavy, massaged her shoulders with just the right strength, soothing her sore and stiff muscles.

Fingertips, lingering on the coquettish rose, gently asked: "Does it still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt anymore." Lying on the edge of the bathtub, her cheeks were flushed, and she squinted her eyes comfortably. "When the car accident happened, I didn't care about the pain at all. The only thing in my head was Uncle Zhang's words that the child could not be saved. Later By the time I realized it, the wound had started to scab and heal. It didn't hurt, it was just itchy."

"Does it hurt when you get a tattoo?"

After thinking about it, Gu Lingse nodded, "It hurts."

"Me too. Heartache."

"Me too, my heart hurts." She reached out and grabbed the big palm that helped her massage her shoulders, and rubbed her face gently, "I put all the hatred for you into it. The more I hate you in my heart, the worse my body will be." more numb."

He hummed, and his fingertips lingered on the coquettish rose, refusing to leave.

"Why did you choose such a pattern?"

"Because you always have a faint scent of roses on you."

"Well, but not because you love me."

"Because I hate you." She let go of his big palm, and she continued to lie on the edge of the bathtub, winking like silk, with a lazy tone, "I want to imprint the hatred for you on my heart. So I just I chose your scent as the pattern. Every time I take a shower, this pattern will be printed in the mirror, Ye Chengshu, that represents my hatred for you."

"I know, you hate me."

"I've always hated you. I hated you before, I hate you now, and I'll hate you later."

"En." A soft reply, he knows, he understands.

She hated him to the core.

"But I love you more."

"Ah."

Turning around, the eyes stained with mist were shining and looked at him.

"Ye Chengshu, no matter I hate you, it doesn't stop me from loving you. Do you understand? I know it's contradictory, but—"

Pressing his big palm gently on her red lips, he curled his lips, smiled lightly, and nodded, "I understand, this is not contradictory."

Too many things happened between him and her.

Love it and hate it.

But in the end, it is love and hate that cannot be balanced.Therefore, they can only continue to entangle like this.

"No matter what the ending is, whether it's love or hate. As long as we're together, that's enough."

If she wants to be very angry, she will hate it.

After all, as long as he knows that she still loves her, he will be satisfied.

A child, a child who died at birth.Perhaps it is doomed that they cannot love purely.

But as she said, no matter how much they hate, it doesn't prevent them from loving each other.

"Torturing each other?"

"That's better than severing kindness and righteousness, and you just walk away."

"It took me seven years to forget that child, but I couldn't do it, I couldn't forget that child."

"You don't need to forget. That's our child. If you forget him, he really doesn't exist anymore."

"So, I've decided. I want to come back. I want to come back and face it with you. Even if it's heartbreaking, I want you to be with me."

The pain of bereavement, the pain of dystocia, the pain of parting, the pain of longing.

She wants him to accompany her to taste all the flavors together!
"If you feel three points of pain, I will feel very much pain. How about this?"

"it is good!"

With a heavy head, Gu Lingse suddenly wrapped around him, opened his mouth, and bit!

The sharp little canine teeth were firmly embedded in the skin of his shoulders.

Soon, a strong smell of blood filled the mouth.

The profuse blood flowed down her red lips, all the way down his shoulder, and finally mixed with the milky white bubble bath.Not long after, the liquid surrounding them has been outlined by the red liquid into a coquettish and ghostly pattern.If you look closely, it actually vaguely resembles the rose tattoo on her back shoulder blade!
Ye Chengshu didn't even frown.

It wasn't until she was almost vomited by the bloody smell that Gu Lingse let go of her mouth.

He raised his head and looked at him with burning eyes, "Does it hurt?"

It hurts.But it doesn't hurt either.

If she hurt three points, he would suffer seven points.For the first time he couldn't imagine it.How much pain should she have?That's why he bites so hard.

"Are you in pain?"

"Thinking of having you with me, it doesn't seem to hurt so much."

He smiled lightly, shining with grace.

"That's fine."

If he hurts, her pain can be reduced, that's good.

Clenching his fist, Gu Lingse lowered his head.Avoiding his focused and expressive eyes.

Why did their love come to this point?
In every love, there is a hatred, a resentment, and a lingering shadow.

She really wanted to say something, in fact, she also wanted to have a good time.

But there was a child between them, a dead child.

The child, the child...

Suddenly, she slumped down her shoulders and leaned on his shoulder wearily, "Ye Chengshu, give me some more time."

"it is good."

It's good that she can come back.No matter how long she needs to heal, he will wait, and will accompany her in the pain.

"I tried very hard to forget. But I, I can't. When I see you, I can't help but think of our child. When I see grapefruit, I can't help but think of him. I repeat it over and over again If the child is still alive, his eyebrows are like you or me. His eyes are like you or me. Will the curvature of his side face be as sharp but soft as yours. He—”

"Don't think about it!" Ye Chengshu burst out, "If you torture yourself like this, that child will never come back!"

"I, I..." She moved her lips, looking at him vaguely, she tried to hook her lips but couldn't smile.

Yes, she is torturing herself like this, so why isn't she torturing Ye Chengshu?
But the child never came back.

She saw with her own eyes that the child was burned to ashes and buried in the cold ground.

Her child will never come back.

When she thought of how cold the land was, and full of bugs, her heart felt desolate.It was empty, as if she was walking alone in the boundless sea of ​​red soil, with desolate depressions on both sides and vultures hovering above her head.But in front of her eyes, there is no end, and she can't see the boundless vast land.

Only she, and only her, was walking alone.

"Ye Chengshu, actually, the person I hate is not you, but myself."

Distressed, he wanted to take her into his arms to comfort her.But Ye Chengshu couldn't do it.

He couldn't hold her like this in his arms.

He could only restrain himself expressionlessly, and respond calmly, "You should hate me, and you must hate me. Only when you hate me, can you have an outlet for your emotions. Otherwise, you will drive yourself crazy."

"If this continues, I will not only drive myself crazy, but also drive you crazy."

"I don't care! As long as I'm with you, I'm willing to be crazy."

"Nonsense. You are Special Assistant Ye from Jiangnan Province. You are crazy. What should the others do?"

The man hooked the corner of his mouth bitterly, "What kind of assistant Ye am I? I couldn't even protect my own wife and children. I said I would give you a clean world, and I promised to protect you well. But I Neither did."

"I sent you to hell."

"But, Ye Chengshu, even in hell, you will stay with me, right?"

"Well, I will accompany you wherever you go."

So, stop hating and stop thinking about it.Just let her go.

"Then what if I die? Will you accompany me too?"

The corner of Ye Chengshu's mouth twitched, and he asked in a casual tone: "How do you want to die? Cut your wrists? Jump off a building? Throw yourself into a river? Hang yourself? Sleeping pills? You name one, and I'll accompany you to the end."

She understood that he was not joking, nor was he trying to comfort her.

He means it.

As long as she dared to say it, he would do it now.With her, to die.

"Hey, let me think about it..."

"Think about it slowly, and let me know when you're done thinking about it. I have time anytime."

Picking up the Absolut vodka he just brought from the living room, Gu Lingse took a big gulp from the bottle, gurgling, and just like that, half of the bottle went into her stomach.

"Wine is strong and cowardly!" she said, passing the bottle over.

Ye Chengshu dismissed it and knocked the wine bottle to the ground.

The wine bottle hit the ground with a crisp shattering sound.

"Isn't it just death? It's not like I haven't died before. During the seven years you left, I died once a day before going to sleep. When I opened my eyes, I found that I was still alive, and I accumulated a share of torture. It's like entering an infinite cycle of death and death. During the resurrection. If you can really die, it will be considered a relief."

What wine to drink, what courage to be strong.

die?
What he fears the most now is death.

Frowning, he calmly raised her chin, and smiled treacherously, "Honey, have you thought about how to die?"

Shaking her dizzy head, she hummed, "Thought it out."

"Say."

Her slender fingers grabbed his neck fiercely, and her nails were deeply embedded.

Close to his body, he climbed up his chest in a snake shape.

The red lips parted slightly, brushing against his earlobe vaguely.

"Assistant Ye, are you really ready to die with me?"

"Manager Gu, it's romantic to die under a peony flower and be a ghost."

"Okay then. I want you..."

The red lips enclose his earlobe, and the tip of the tongue clumsily licks and gnaws.

Because of the alcohol paralysis, she doesn't even know what she's doing now.

"Dead in the abdomen. Has Ye Tezhu heard of it?"

Her winking eyes are like silk, and her smile has never been so coquettish and ghostly.

His pupils tightened suddenly, and he looked at her expressionlessly, the emotion in his eyes had turned into a kindling that could start a prairie fire.

She doesn't need any skills, as long as she appears in front of him, she can easily arouse all his desires.The reason he was so proud of collapsed in an instant.

What's more, what about her current charming appearance?

Ye Chengshu smiled.The smile is extremely bright, and it is also extremely casual.

He said: "This way of dying, to me, is the best ending."

The lingering kiss swallowed his cold voice.

It also devoured the remaining sanity of the two of them.