99 days trial marriage

When Gu Lingse woke up again, the sky was already bright.

Reach out, there is still a touch of warmth beside the pillow.But that person has disappeared.The house is not big, but it makes her feel unusually empty and lonely.

Hugging herself with her hands, Gu Lingse shrunk herself into a ball, like a fetus in a mother's womb, full of anxiety.

Closing her eyes again, Quan Zimo's indifferent face last night almost broke her down.

She was pregnant, Quan Zimo forbade her to drink.But I drink one bottle after another.When she went to the supermarket to buy vegetables and cook for him, she also specially bought him a few bottles of wine.It just so happens that the supermarket is running a promotion, buy five and get one free.She bought five bottles of whiskey in one go.In the end, Quan Zimo drank the whole thing without dropping a drop.

Even though she didn't drink a drop of wine, she felt that she was already unconscious.She couldn't remember how she fell asleep and how she was carried to bed by him.

Alcohol is not intoxicating, people are self-intoxicating.

Is this how you describe it?
Leaning on Quan Zimo's shoulder, she babbled a lot of nonsense on him.

"Quan Zimo, you don't know how much I love Ye Chengshu. You don't know. I can love him without dignity, and I don't need anything just to love him. However, to Ye Chengshu, I am just a Trouble. Can you understand, that sense of frustration of being helpless? That sense of suffocation that cannot be overcome. For Ye Chengshu, I would even die without hesitation. But God didn’t give me this chance. There is no chance for him to die. What I have is to cause him endless troubles and let him help me clean up the mess one after another. I don't know how long Ye Chengshu can pamper me like this, and I don't know , How long can I endure this feeling of suffocation myself."

"From the time I got married to the present, I haven't let Ye Chengshu stop for a moment. Tell me, how much trouble have I caused him in our marriage for more than a year? Yes, there are some troubles, and I am innocent. They have to deal with Ye Chengshu , but I didn’t have the courage, so I had to take the knife. But Xiao Nai, I’m not innocent, am I? This time, I’m not innocent, am I? You say, if I’m just a troublemaker, then forget it. Ye Chengshu has Ability, has the ability to reach the sky. If he is willing to spoil me, I will accept it. That's not the case."

"My family always wants to gain some benefits from Ye Chengshu. How can Ye Chengshu be so easy to take advantage of others? It's because they are uneasy and kind, and they should be punished for doing something wrong, but they don't care about it at all. I don’t think I did something wrong. I always feel that it’s all Ye Chengshu’s fault. It’s because he didn’t care about family affection and struck too hard. I put myself in Ye Chengshu’s shoes and thought about it, and I was almost impatient. But he, Say nothing, take everything down."

"I hate this state! I tried my best to change something, but I couldn't do anything. I even couldn't stop my family members. I could only watch them step by step into the eternal hell. But I have nothing to do. Quan Zimo, I'm really tired."

"You're tired, I know. Ye Chengshu's tiredness won't lose to you. Gu Lingse, since you've already talked about this, then let's talk about what else you have in mind. I'm listening. "

"I don't have any worries anymore. I just feel very tired, and I live in a state of depression and suffocation every day. I don't feel like a human being anymore. Like a walking dead corpse. Living in a muddle, nothing but wasting food and wasting air , I can't do anything. Quan Zimo, I know you all think I'm an idiot, a stupid idiot. I don't want Ye Chengshu's three thousand extravagant pets, but I want to separate from him. What a man, A woman wants to jump up, but I want to push him outside, am I stupid? I feel stupid too."

"But I can't help it. I can't stay by Ye Chengshu's side. The better he treats me, the more pain I have. His kindness, for me now, every minute is torture. I know how much I love He, but as soon as I see him, my heart twists and hurts. Even I can't control myself. After being separated from him, I have been trying to adjust. I also want to be alone Hiding behind his back, owning him selfishly, getting his favor. I tried hard, but it was useless. I couldn't do it, I couldn't ignore those things, just blindly ask him for it."

"I also thought that with this child, there would be some changes between the two of us. Some problems that lingered in my heart could be changed because of the arrival of this child. But it turns out that this child is not so magical. My pain has not diminished at all. Quan Zimo, do you know that when I was kicked out of the house by my father, I never experienced such pain. "

"So, Gu Lingse, what do you want to do? You still love Ye Chengshu, but you don't want him anymore. Don't you?"

"No! In this life, it is impossible for me not to want him. If I lose him, I would rather choose to die."

"But you're going to run away from him now."

"Quan Zimo, I'm only leaving temporarily, not running away from him. The thing I'm most reluctant in this life is to leave him."

"Sex girl, tell me, what's in your heart. Tell me, and I can help you."

"I will continue to stay by his side, hiding under his wings. In this life, I can only be Ye Chengshu's burden. But I don't want to be his burden. I want to help him like Lawyer Yao , can share his worries. At least, I can no longer cause trouble for him every day. The truest thought in my heart is this. "

"Then do you think that your temporary departure can make you the kind of person you want to be?"

"I don't know, I really don't know. But Quan Zimo, if you don't try it, who will know the result? I used to think too much and do too little. This time, I want Use my own efforts to do something, even if I fail, I can give myself an explanation."

"If you want to become someone worthy of Ye Chengshu, you don't have to leave. Stay—"

"No. I'll stay. I have Ye Chengshu, you, Jingjing, the secretaries, and people who care about me so much. I can't change without your protection. Quan Zimo, In the animal world, in order to make her child have the ability to survive, the lioness will also reluctantly drive the child away from her. Otherwise, the child will only have a dead end. Quan Zimo, you will help me, let me have the ability to survive Bar?"

"You want to leave so desperately. Is it to hone yourself and make yourself better so that you can stand beside Ye Chengshu better? Or is it just because you can't bear the guilt in your heart? Gu Lingse, don't try to lie Me, I know you better than you know yourself. You can't fool me."

"Quan Zimo, you are still good friends if you see through or not. Didn't you tell me this sentence?"

"I just said it through, I'm still your most important person. So, what am I afraid of?"

"You can be really annoying sometimes."

"Then you admit it? You want to leave because you are selfish, and you can't bear the guilt for Ye Chengshu in your heart. That's why you want to escape from him, but you come up with some nonsense to make yourself better. Even the animal world The laws of nature have all been brought out, Gu Lingse, are you lying to yourself, or are you lying to me?"

"Yes, I am selfish. I have considered Ye Chengshu's feelings, but I still want to leave selfishly. Because if I stay again, I will collapse! No, it is not collapse, it is collapse! It is completely bad drop, I—”

"I promise."

"Quan Zimo? What did you say?"

"I said, I promise you. If you want to leave, I will help you."

"Quan Zimo, are you sure?"

"When have I ever joked with you? Where are you going, it's up to you. If you don't want to tell me where you are, it's up to you. If you want to come back after leaving, it's up to you. As for whether you will contact me, contact We, what do you like. I don’t ask a word. The sky is high and the sea is wide, let you be free. Even if you want to remarry, I will not frown. Isn’t this what you want? I will help you. "

"Quan Zimo, you are angry."

"I'm not angry. I have no reason to be angry when I meet a heartless little white-eyed wolf. If you insist on leaving, who can keep you? I won't help you, and I don't know how you are going to torment yourself. Toss The child in your stomach. You are very stubborn girl, what can I do. Besides helping you, can I tie you up with a hemp rope? "

"I will not not contact you, nor will I not come back. Here, with you and Ye Chengshu, how can I not come back. My home is where you are."

"Just know the way home. I'll help you. As for Ye Chengshu, leave it to me. If you want him to know, I'll help you convince him. If you don't want him to know, I'll help you leave first. Then tell him."

"I don't want him to know. But... If you help me leave without telling him, he will go crazy. "

"You tell him you want to leave, he will still go crazy. What's the difference? Don't worry about me, no matter how terrible Ye Chengshu's anger is, I can't die. And... Ye Chengshu will understand you. The pain in your heart, He also understands. Give Ye Chengshu some time, and he will accept it."

"Quan Zimo, you agreed so easily, I can't believe it. I thought you would tie me up with a hemp rope first. Who knows, you agreed to help me so easily. I'm wondering if I'm drunk or not."

"Actually, your decision didn't surprise me at all. The moment you moved out of the South Palace, I knew that you would leave sooner or later. If Bai Zinuo hadn't been arrested , you may not leave. But this happened, and your behavior just now was a little too calm. The calm is not like yours, so I knew at that time that you had already made the decision to leave You decided, that's why you're so calm. Because you're leaving, you've accepted everything a long time ago. Gu Lingse, I'm not surprised by your choice at all. "

"...What about Ye Chengshu, did he guess it too?"

"I guessed it all, so he can't guess it. He is a shrewd person. Ye Chengshu must have guessed that you are leaving this matter before me. He entrusted Mu Huiqiu's life and death to you To make a decision is also to use this to keep you. He wants to tell you through Mu Huiqiu's life and death that without you, he will not show mercy to your family. He thought that doing so would discourage you from leaving."

Unfortunately, Ye Chengshu also miscalculated this time.