First Marriage and Trial Love: The Doting Wife of Hundreds of Billion Lovers

Zhang Yang, who woke up again, had already forgotten how long he had been asleep just now. He got up and looked around in the corridor for a while, making sure that Shen Juntuo had left here, and she was not lost. The only thing Zhang Yang did well was that she knew Shen Juntuo doesn't belong to her, at least for now, even if all her plans are successful, it doesn't mean she can enjoy the joy of receiving the goods comfortably.
In her heart, she is always preparing for her loss. She is afraid of the pain, so enjoying it carelessly seems to be a habit of hers.
"Auntie, why are you here?" Zhang Yang turned around and saw Gao Lei's mother who had rushed to the hospital. Seeing Gao Lei's mother appearing in front of him, Zhang Yang's expression was a little unnatural, and the guilt reaction was very obvious, even a little uncomfortable Dare to raise your head.
"I'll come and see you, silly girl. It's windy outside, come in." The old lady thought that she was being controlled by this girl these days, and that she had done so many boring things with SMS remote control, so she wanted to taunt her with words. A few words, but Zhang Yang's face is pale. It makes people feel distressed.
Zhang Yang, who was sitting on the hospital bed, didn't know what topic to use to break the silence between the two. She didn't want to raise Lei, but the one sitting in front of her was Gao Lei's mother, and the topic between them didn't revolve around this man. what else.
"Yangyang, don't have any pressure. In fact, life is rich and colorful. It's not that failure in one thing is doomed to failure." I don't know how to comfort this woman who is almost twisted in her heart.
Although she was on the hospital bed with an expressionless face, she didn't seem to have any emotions on the surface, but she might be a little angry when she just woke up. In fact, in Zhang Yang's heart, it was like performing a long TV series. Shen Juntuo kept repeating all the scenes and all the dialogue until he was sent to the hospital yesterday.
"Thank you auntie for coming to see me. To be honest, I feel very conflicted. When I wake up, I find that there is nothing around me. I long for others to care and care for me, but I am afraid that others will know that I have done so many things. It’s why I’m going to end up now, I feel very contradictory,” Zhang Yang felt that there was no trace of warmth in this room, which made her feel very lonely here, but what would happen if she left her family.
When I was in high school, the classmates around me didn’t have prominent backgrounds or their families had hundreds of millions of fortunes, so I seemed to be out of place in the crowd. But along the way, her inferiority made her feel that only good people in this group Only grades can get the teacher's attention. She can only study, study, and study hard. The high cost of studying abroad in the university makes her go to the supermarket to work part-time in addition to attending classes every day. She has no time to have a rich after-school life. .During her days in Singapore, she didn't even have time to enter a place that required a ticket.
No, there is also Gao Lei. I still have Gao Lei for what I have gained in Singapore. It’s just that she didn’t realize the harm she had done to Gao Lei. During those lonely days in Singapore, it was Gao Lei who made her feel a little bit more secure. If it wasn't for Shen Juntuo's belief in his own will, Zhang Yang must be willing to accompany Gao Lei to change his past.
Zhang Yang thought of all the plans so beautifully. She never thought that her own would fall to such a point. Is everything in front of her dream? Zhang Yang really fell into reflection on what Auntie said.
Standing up and occupying the window, Zhang Yang opened the curtains, the night outside was bright with stars. But now he was trapped in this cage. Did he really reach the point of mental illness? Zhang Yang felt a little scared. Are you going to spend the next few days in this cold ward?
"Son. Auntie has always liked you because Gao Lei is willing to accompany you to do what you like to do. Auntie is very relieved that you can be with Gao Lei, but your current situation is mainly about mentality. In fact, something you can have A lot. Sometimes it’s really unfair to think about God. He gave you so many things that others don’t have. But he didn’t tell you how to make these advantages shine.” The person who always likes to brag seems to have a little sincerity in his words this time .
Someone told Zhang Yang this way before, but he still couldn't figure out what is the advantage God gave him. Gao Lei's mother could come to visit late at night for his son, Zhang Yang also thought of his mother , My family has cultivated it for many years, but I just hope that my daughter can not live in a chaotic stall like me every day. The days of getting up early and waiting for night made Zhang Yang very resistant when he was young, and he dare not recall it until now.
"I miss my mother a little bit. It seems that I haven't seen her for a long time. Auntie, to be honest. I suddenly feel a little ridiculous. In order for Lin Xiaoxiao to hire my mother as a nurse, I bribed the nurse. To deceive others, I asked my only friend, my best friend, to pretend to be a nutritionist." My mother, Gao Lei. Gao Lei's mother, and my only best friend, this is probably all that Zhang Yang has Right. Everyone has agreed to participate in this purposeless plan in various ways.
"I think she misses you all the time. Seriously, the reason why I was able to participate in this matter was mostly out of guilt for Gao Lei. For so many years, I thought I could give him a high-quality life. But I overlooked too many things. I didn’t even spare time to go to the park with him. Gao Lei was very autistic for a while. This is why he likes music.” Zhang Yang never understood all these things.
In Zhang Yang's eyes, Gao Lei is an omnipotent person, but is Gao Lei really that perfect? ​​Maybe it's just like this in front of his lover.
"Suddenly feel that everything I own has been squandered by my own willfulness, and what I pursue may not belong to me. No matter how hard I try, it is futile. I even feel that I have reached a peak in my life. I don't want to go to What are you looking for, and you have no goal?" Zhang Yang has reached a state of decadence. Poor child, in fact, she did nothing wrong at the beginning, and her willfulness in the end did not lead to any substantial mistakes. Her willfulness can be forgiven, but Everyone's consent is required.
"You are still young, you have many things to do. Do you know the value of your existence in this society? In Dacheng Middle School. You are an excellent student in the teacher's mouth, which is what many parents dream of. You have so much knowledge , why not give back to the society. It is your family that gives you life, not that man." Thoughts as a mother. She expressed the most sincere thoughts. Zhang Yang never understood it before.
"Let me think about it. I feel like I understand something." Zhang Yang sank for a long time. She couldn't make a quick decision. After Gao Lei's mother left, Zhang Yang was left alone in the ward .
Zhang Yang opened his Weibo. It has been a long time since he updated his status. Zhang Yang updated his status in doubt.
"Is it true that people who like me are sick?" There are people in this world who are infatuated like me. In an instant, hundreds of fans responded to her status, mostly greetings and casual insults.
Zhang Yang felt a little tired. She was thinking about what would be her opportunity and position to realize her value. She was suddenly curious about what kind of woman Lin Xiaoxiao was to win Shen Juntuo's heart.
Zhang Yang wanted to be willful for the last time. Since she had the courage to face Shen Juntuo, she must also have the courage to face Lin Xiaoxiao.
Lin Xiaoxiao's phone number was saved in Zhang Yang's phone book, but she never had the courage to save his full name, and even changed a digit.
"Can we meet up?" Zhang Yang plucked up his courage and sent a text message to Lin Xiaoxiao. Her heartbeat was very fast, and there was no reply after 2 minutes. Zhang Yang turned his phone to silent mode.
Zhang Yang is tired of waiting. Watching the time go by for a long time without purpose. That feeling is a kind of torment.
Lin Xiaoxiao who received the text message replied to the other party.
"Who are you?" Probably only Lin Xiaoxiao hasn't fully understood everything. But what kind of mentality should Zhang Yang use to face Lin Xiaoxiao.
"I'm Zhang Yang. I hope I can meet you. I have something important to do." Zhang Yang told Lin Xiaoxiao his name very frankly. When the phone edited his name, Zhang Yang thought it was ridiculous. He could have poured out his feelings like that. A diary-like book. Zhang Yang never had the courage to name it after himself.
"Yes." Lin Xiaoxiao responded generously to Zhang Yang. Zhang Yang did not expect such a happy response. The two of them made an appointment to meet in the coffee shop in the square tomorrow. As for why they agreed to the appointment so unpreparedly. Lin Xiaoxiao also felt that Zhang Yang This girl is different.
Lin Xiaoxiao, who has been relying on medicine for a long time to be able to sleep deeply, slept very soundly this night. She originally planned to go to the lake to have a barbecue with everyone, but after Shen Juntuo dropped off her aunt, she only returned a phone call and never came back Pass.
But Lin Xiaoxiao also felt extremely relaxed. She didn't feel burdened. It made her sleep soundly and soundly, so that her complexion was so good the next morning.
"Long time no see." It was not easy for Zhang Yang to come out of the hospital. He was afraid that he would be taken back by the doctor. After seeing Lin Xiaoxiao, Zhang Yang immediately turned off his cell phone.
However, during this period of hospitalization, Lin Xiaoxiao also wanted to understand a lot of things, in terms of life, work, and even... and relationship.

Perhaps, I have always been too careless.The many things she experienced during this period gave Lin Xiaoxiao a new understanding of everyone around her.