love addiction

"Okay, I'll go." He let go of her hand, turned and left angrily.

Tang Mianmian, however, still stood there sadly.

Long Chenyu could only shake his head helplessly.

Women are such difficult creatures.

She obviously didn't want him to go, but she wanted to say that, when she really went, she would be disappointed and sad again.

This is the so-called duplicity.

Long Yejue walked for a while, but Tang Mianmian stood there in a daze and never left.

In fact, she didn't want him to go at all, but she couldn't be so selfish.

Especially in this situation, she has to think about how much Li Xinnian has paid for him.

Women can't embarrass women.

*****
Long Yejue left in anger.

He didn't expect Tang Mianmian to be so generous and let him chase him out to comfort Li Xinnian.

He is crazy to comfort him!
Even if he has no conscience and doesn't know how to repay kindness, for Li Xinnian, he really can only do so much.

It's not that he hasn't worked hard in the past five years.

Especially when he hated Tang Mianmian, he tried his best to get along with Li Xinnian.

It's not the person in your heart, you can't make it anyway.

Later, Zhu Wenyi found out about her illness. In order to satisfy her wish, he pretended to be married to Li Xinnian and called them husband and wife, so that Zhu Wenyi could rest assured and recuperate.

Keeping a happy mood is good for her condition. This is what Li Xinnian told him, so he accepted Li Xinnian's suggestion.

Who knows, she took it seriously.

Drive the car to the fastest speed, feel the extreme speed, and use this to blow away your troubles.

After going around in a circle, he found that what he was thinking of was still her.

Ignoring the traffic rules, he parked the car on the elevated road. He beat the steering wheel angrily, hating himself for not living up to expectations.

He Xijue was really right, her whole life, she just fell into Tang Mianmian's hands.

He smoked a few cigarettes and looked at his phone countless times, but nothing rang. He could only start the car, get off the elevated road, and turn back.

That woman must be silently sad.

He didn't want to see her tears more than his own anger.

What Long Yejue admired even more was that on the way back, he stopped to buy something that the mother and son at home liked.

With his current appearance, if his friends knew about him, he would probably die laughing.

Depressedly looking at the snacks on the co-pilot and the newly released yogurt with large fruit, he felt depressed again.

He drove the car to Emgrand, and before he got in, he saw a figure coming out from the side.

Li Xinnian.

Standing obliquely in front of him with tears on his face.

It turned out that she hadn't left yet.

Long Yejue thought about it, but stopped the car.

Li Xinnian just stood there, looking at her pitifully, without the sharp look just now, his eyes were red, probably because of crying for a long time.

"Go back." Long Yejue stood still in front of her, and said indifferently, even the initial guilt was gone from his eyes.

At some point, they went farther and farther, to the point where they feel strange today.

All these years, she has been working hard, only wishing to return to the past.

But since he had Tang Mianmian in his life, he has become a completely different person.

From then on, she, Li Xinnian, became a passerby.

If it wasn't for the incident at the beginning, which made him feel guilty, I'm afraid she would have no reason to stand by his side now, right?

Whenever I think of this, Li Xinnian's nose is sore for a while, and finally he choked up and opened his mouth, "Jeez, I don't want us to become like this, haven't we been good these few years?"

Long Yejue's eyes were dark, his tone was cold, "Who is in my heart all these years, you know better than me, don't you?"

A plea, in exchange for his sharp blade, pierced into her heart without warning, causing her to bleed profusely.

Li Xinnian covered her painful heart with a pale face, and asked with trembling lips, "How can I be inferior to her? Before we met her, weren't we all good?"

Where is it inferior?
Long Yejue shook his head, only felt that this question was a bit naive, but he still wanted to answer, and it was the answer in his heart, "You are better than her, I believe everyone thinks so, but you are not her, this is the answer. "

More cruel words, just hitting her heart like this, the pain is so overwhelming.

Li Xinnian gasped for a long time before finding her own voice, so ethereal and ethereal, "I see..."

He didn't speak, just looked at her with deep black eyes.

I wish she could really understand.

Li Xinnian bit her lip and leaned over, her tone even more aggressive, "Can you agree to my last request?"

Although Long Yejue hesitated, he still nodded, "Say it."

"Kiss me once."

"..."

Obviously, he would not agree with this answer.

Long Yejue looked at her indifferently, without any warmth in his eyes.

"You've never kissed me..." Li Xinnian lowered her head and said in pain, "I know I'm dirty and don't deserve your kiss..."

Long Yejue clenched his hands beside him.

He was also struggling in his heart.

"This is my last prayer, don't you agree?" Li Xinnian asked in pain.

His brows were tightly frowned, and his face was full of depression. It took a long time for heaven and man to fight before he said, "I'm sorry."

Only three words are needed to place her thousands of miles away.

Li Xinnian almost failed to hold himself down, and it took a lot of effort to keep himself from crying, "Then... give me a hug..."

She had expected this far.

How sad.

"Okay." This was within his acceptable range, Long Yejue nodded without any doubts.

Li Xinnian stretched out her hands and leaned towards him.

At first, his hands were still hanging on his sides, without any movement.

But Li Xinnian hugged him tightly, feeling the warmth from him.

That was what she had been pursuing all along, and now, she was about to lose it all.

The dull pain in her heart made her almost die, but she could only grit her teeth and persist.

The slender shoulders trembled slightly, highlighting her sadness, "In the future, I will not pester you again, and I hope you are happy, but you have to promise me one thing, don't tell anyone, you are not divorced yet."

He frowned, and pursed his thin lips.

"I don't want to be the mistress that everyone criticizes." She said humblely.

A woman has humbled to this point, and he is not so cruel, let alone she has paid so much for herself.

Long Yejue nodded and agreed to her prayer, "I won't tell."

"Thank you." Li Xinnian said tremblingly.

Long Yejue finally reached out and patted her, "I'll take you back."

"……it is good."

Helping her to open the back door, Li Xinnian paused, looking at him with some injuries.

Long Yejue explained helplessly, "There is something in front."

Li Xinnian looked over the car window, and there was a bag of snacks on it.

There are some things that children like to eat, as well as large fruit yogurt.

This brand of yogurt is nothing special.

But Li Xinnian has a deep memory.

In the few years without Tang Mianmian, whenever Long Yejue couldn't hold on, or encountered any difficult problems, he would ask Lan Xiu to buy this brand of yogurt.

Don't drink it, just put it in front of yourself.

Keep staring at it, just looking at it, it's a whole day.

After he couldn't hold on anymore, he rested for one night, and became busy again the next day.

Lan Xiu once joked that the yogurt was Long Yejue's power bank, and whenever he ran out of battery, he just needed to look at it to become an omnipotent him.

Seeing it now, Li Xinnian finally had an epiphany.

For Long Yejue who lost Tang Mianmian in the years, that yogurt must be Tang Mianmian's incarnation.

It turned out that Tang Mianmian was already deeply entrenched in Long Yejue's world.

She was stupid and didn't see through.

Li Xinnian bit her lip, despite being wronged, she got into the back seat.

After Long Yejue closed the car door, got into the driver's seat, turned around without any hesitation, and drove towards the sea and sky.

Along the way, neither of them said anything.

Li Xinnian kept looking out of the car window, even though the car was well heated, she still didn't feel any warmth.

Winter has come, where can she find warmth?
******
Haitianyixian is the only real estate that Long Yejue has kept in Jiangcheng. Maybe it's because he had the best past somewhere, so he has kept it all the time.

But Zhu Wenyi knew this place, so after returning to China, she brought Li Xinnian to live here.

She is an elder, so Long Yejue can't refute, but can only agree.

And the layout here has also changed a lot under the interference of the two, and there is no shadow he wants to see.

Even those green plants are not left.

Even the password of the door has been changed to a new one.

Long Yejue opened the door and turned on the light. Looking at this place, his long eyebrows frowned slightly, but his tone was incomparably emptiness, "If you like being in Jiangcheng, I will buy you a house and ask someone to take care of you. If you I don’t like to stay here, and the same arrangement abroad.”

"I haven't thought about it yet." Li Xinnian said lightly, her mood has calmed down a lot, looking at the huge hall, she just felt like a bottomless pit, without any sense of security.

"I'm going back."

After that, he turned to leave.

But Li Xinnian reached out and grabbed him, "Since you're here, please sit with me, I have something to say to you."

He reached out to check the time.

Li Xinnian hurriedly said again, "It's the rush hour to get off work, and you will be stuck in traffic when you go back."

It was indeed what she said, Long Yejue paused, then nodded.

Only then did Li Xinnian let go of his hand, turned around and walked in.

Long Yejue followed suit.

On the green trees not far away, there was a flash of reflection.

"I haven't eaten all day. I'm a little hungry. Let's go get something to eat. Do you want to eat?" Li Xinnian asked quietly.

Having compromised so many times, he couldn't bear to refuse, so he nodded.

Li Xinnian was busy in the kitchen for a while, while Long Yejue looked at his phone from time to time, unable to sit still.

What she made was a very simple noodle soup, which took less than half an hour.

Long Yejue sat down at the dining table.

Li Xinnian smiled lightly and said, "Last time on your birthday, I failed to make longevity noodles for you. This time, I will make up for you. I still remember that when you were young, you liked to eat longevity noodles made by Madam Xu, but you were too short-tempered to speak up. , every time I pester Xu Ma to make it, and then I will eat it for you. At that time, you doted on me very much, saying that I was arrogant and indulged in giving you things I didn’t like, and at the same time indulged me to do this..."

She had a longing expression on her face.