love addiction

"She has been subjected to campus violence all year round, but she has been reluctant to tell her family that her mother and I are busy earning money and lack of care for the children. She has been pressing these things in her heart, and finally she can't bear this kind of life. She chooses committed suicide."

As a father, Fang Fang felt the heaviest at this time.

Lan Xiu didn't even dare to imagine how Xiaobai would accept it if something like this happened to him.

So their family has become what it is now, he can understand.

"The death of Yingying hit both Nini and her mother hard. Nini couldn't keep her child, and she suffered from depression because of it. But at that time, we were only concerned about Yingying's sad death. How could we care about Nini? What about her mood? She endured it alone."

At this moment, Lan Xiu's heart ached.

He didn't know that Fang Boni was under so much pressure in private.

The death of her younger sister, the changes in her family, and the failure to keep her child were all the last straws that oppressed her?

"Our whole family is sick. Nini's mother can't eat or sleep well. She shed tears every day. That kind of life is too depressing. I always want to escape every day. I always leave early and return late. I even always find The reason is not to go home, because I am afraid of facing all this, and even started to drink too much..." Fang Fang regretted his cowardice at that time.

In this world, not all men are responsible, and they can bravely support a family when encountering things.

There are wimpy ones too, like Equation.

So much so that he has been living in regret now...

"During that time, Nini was the one who had the hardest time. Not only did she have to hide her wounds to comfort her mother, but she also had to worry about whether I would be in danger outside. From that time on, she and Are you starting to distance yourself?"

"...Yes." Lan Xiu has always been brooding about this matter, so he remembers it very clearly.

Fang Fang said sadly, "At that time, her depression was already a little serious, and she was always thinking wildly. You know that she felt that she was too far from you at the beginning. After she got depression, she cared more about these problems, so she wanted to leave You, especially every time she argues with you, she feels that she is too hysterical, that she is torturing you and wants to give you back your freedom."

It turned out...it turned out to be because of this.

Lan Xiu was blamed, it was because he didn't give her enough sense of security that made her think this way.

If he had been more careful at that time, maybe the result would not have been like this.

"I could tell at that time that you were sincere to Nini. Even though she had become like that, you never separated from her. Every time you got angry, you would still come back to her. You have tried your best. You really did your best." Fang Fang comforted Lan Xiu when he saw the pain on his face.

But Lan Xiu felt that it was not enough. If he had done well enough, Fang Boni would not have committed suicide.

In the final analysis, it is because it is not good enough.

Fang Fang patted him on the shoulder and said, "If she is just depressed, maybe she can still be influenced by you and gradually get better, but... the last straw that overwhelmed her was not depression."

"What's wrong with her?" Lan Xiu was startled.

"During the days when you were having a lot of trouble, her mother's condition became more and more serious. She didn't eat for a long time, shed tears, and her speech became illogical. At first we thought she was just sad, so she would There was such a situation, but later this situation became more and more serious, we had to get up officially and sent her to the hospital for an examination. The doctor told us that she had lost her mind, which is what we call mental insanity now. The patient, this matter has dealt a great blow to me and Nini, we both felt that our family was over..."

Fang Fang grabbed the handrail of the balcony very hard, feeling extremely heartbroken, "Nini and I couldn't accept this fact, and we both begged the doctor to treat her mother well. The doctor asked us to go back and check the family tree and see my mother. Whether there are any relatives and elders in her mother's family who have suffered from mental illness, this investigation will find out the cause, Nini's mother's family has a history of hereditary mental illness..."

A history of hereditary mental illness, even for a normal person, is difficult to accept.

What's more, what about Fang Boni, who was still suffering from depression at the time?

"The day she jumped off the bridge was the day she learned the news. She felt that one day she would go crazy, like her mother, and then drag down her family, friends and even her lover. She couldn't accept this kind of herself, so she was so Impulsively choosing to commit suicide, the suicidal tendency of patients with depression is much higher than that of normal people."

Therefore, the root cause of what he has always cared about is here.

Fang Baini lost her sister and child one after another, and suffered from severe depression.

It was already very difficult, but her mother started to get sick again, her father's temperament changed drastically and he drank alcohol every day, she was just a girl who just left school, these things were like a big mountain, pressing her down firmly.

So during that time, she has been struggling, living hard and suffering.

But all these struggles and sufferings were defeated by that paper diagnosis.

***
After leaving Fang's house, Lan Xiu immediately called Fang Boni and asked her where she was.

Fang Boni was a little surprised, "I'm all in the coffee shop."

"Okay, I'll come right over, you wait for me."

Lan Xiu said eagerly on the phone.

Fang Boni felt even more strange when she heard that, when she wanted to ask something, Lan Xiu hung up the phone.

She held the phone in a daze for a while, and finally continued to work without thinking too much.

Lan Xiu almost drove all the way to the coffee shop, he couldn't wait to see this woman, wanted to give her the warmest hug in the world, wanted to hold her in his arms, and followed her seriously. She said sorry.

He owed her too much.

It takes 10 to [-] minutes to drive from Fang's house to the coffee shop, but it took him just over ten minutes to get there.

After pushing the door and going in, he strode to find Fang Boni.

The clerk told him that Fang Boni went to the back kitchen to check the coffee beans.

Lan Xiu rushed to the back kitchen to find Fang Boni.

There are more people in the back kitchen, some make coffee and some make desserts.

After he rushed in, he seemed out of place with the people here.

But he is the boss, and everyone will greet the boss politely.

Fang Boni was checking the condition of the coffee beans. When he heard someone calling the boss, he knew that Lan Xiu had come, so he turned around to say hello.

But before he saw Lan Xiu, he bumped into a solid and warm chest.

The next moment, she was hugged tightly by Lan Xiu.

"what happened?"

Fang Boni was a little confused.

Lan Xiu said eagerly, "Nini, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Why did he suddenly apologize?
Fang Boni was even more confused, and there were still many people around looking at them, so he didn't know how to restrain himself.

Then Fang Boni felt a little embarrassed, and said with a blushing face, "Let go of me first, let's go out and talk about it."

"No, I don't want to let go of you, not for a second!"

Lan Xiu today is like a big boy.

"What's wrong with you?" Fang Boni asked in confusion.

From coming in to now, he has been hugging her and saying sorry all the time, what happened?

"No, I just want to say sorry to you." After Lan Xiu hugged her hard, he finally let go.

Fang Boni was finally free. She blushed and looked at the others, and found that they were all looking at her curiously, and she was even more embarrassed, "Let's go out first, don't hinder their work."

"No, I have something to say right now." Lan Xiu said stubbornly.

Fang Boni really wanted to persuade her, but Lan Xiu knelt down on one knee in front of her.

At that moment, everyone was surprised.

Then they all became excited, "The boss is asking for marriage!"

Proposal?

Lan Xiu, what's the matter?What stimulated you?Asking for marriage all of a sudden?

Could it be because of last night... that he was so impulsive?
"Fang Boni, marry me!" Lan Xiu eagerly expressed his heart.

Fang Boni was almost ashamed, and said with a blushing face, "Get up first, let's go out first."

"No, you promise me, you promise me first."

"Lan Xiu..."

"I'm not joking, I'm proposing to you very seriously." Lan Xiu said solemnly.

Fang Boni also saw the seriousness in his eyes, and was stunned for a moment.

Her mind is also in a mess right now, and she can't understand everything logically.

It was Lan Xiu who explained, "I know everything."

"Know... what?" Fang Boni's heart skipped a beat.

Lan Xiu looked into her eyes and said seriously, "I know everything, including why you left me and why you got rid of me in that way, I know everything."

Fang Boni's face turned pale all of a sudden.

For her, that was something unbearable in life.

She has been carefully hiding it, not wanting anyone to know.

But Lan Xiu knew, all her secrets were known by Lan Xiu.

She began to be afraid, just as she had imagined.

After Lan Xiu knew that she might have this disease, he would dislike her very much and leave her without looking back.

Seeing her take a step back, Lan Xiu was a little worried, and hurriedly grabbed her and said, "Nini, don't be afraid, I will never leave you, forever, I will marry you, not because of other things or because of guilt, The idea of ​​wanting to marry you came from the moment I fell in love with you. I have been waiting for you to nod, and I can pull you to get married right away. Why did I say it now? It’s because I can’t wait. Now, Nini, I have been waiting for you for a long time, can you let me walk with you in the future? Please marry me, okay!"

"I..." Fang Boni really never thought that the result would be like this.

She thought... She thought Lan Xiu would not accept her like this.

From the day she knew it, she thought she was not perfect.

However, Lan Xiu is still so good, so he feels that he is not worthy of him, so he is so determined to leave him.

But she never thought that Lan Xiu could accept her like this.

Even she can't accept herself like this...

How much love is there to be so uncomplaining and regretless?

Fang Boni was really moved by this man.