love addiction

Fang Fang called her, but she didn't answer, just looked at him like that.

That look made Fang Fang very guilty, "If it doesn't work, I won't have the surgery."

After Fang Boni heard this, she lowered her eyes and looked down at the floor, "Didn't I tell you not to drink? Why do you still drink?"

"I... just feel irritable." Fang Fang wanted to explain.

But Fang Boni has heard this explanation for countless times, "Do you drink when you are in a bad mood? Then do you see that I am in a good mood?"

"I know I'm burdening you again..." Fang Fang slapped himself on the face and scolded himself, "It's all my bastard! It's all my fault! I'm dragging you down, or you can leave me alone Now, let me fend for myself!"

Fang Boni couldn't hold back after all, and started crying silently.

Even if she was crying, she could only endure it like this, tears falling down patter.

Fang Boni slapped herself repeatedly, and Fang Boni cried silently.

No one else in the ward dared to make a sound, but they all looked at the father and daughter.

The hospital is often the place where humanity can be best witnessed.

"Enough." Fang Boni waited for the strong grievance to pass, and then stopped Fang Fang's self-harm behavior, "I have to raise money for your surgery now, and I have to take care of you if your legs are inconvenient, so I have to Go ask for leave, now you rest for a while, I will go home and get you some clothes and daily necessities, if you need anything, call me."

Seeing that she had returned to her usual dead silence, Fang Fang felt more and more guilty.

He opened his mouth to say something, but Fang Boni left without looking at him again.

Fang Fang closed his eyes and punched the hospital bed several times in regret.

But what can this change?Nothing will change.

After Yingying's accident, her mother fell ill, and her father's emotions were also affected, and he was at a loss all day long.

The situation at home has also plummeted, and it is no longer the well-off life it was in the past.

Later, my mother was sent to a mental hospital, and my father was depressed. He spent all day getting drunk and drinking alcohol to relieve his worries. She had to earn money to support her mother, and she also had to support her father.

Fang Boni didn't know how she survived these two years. Sometimes when she looked back, she admired herself for not falling down yet.

But when she looked forward, she felt sad again, because she didn't know when she would fall down.

Maybe it will be tomorrow, or even the next second...

She went home to pack her things, checked the little balance left in the card, and finally stood in front of the piano in the bedroom and hesitated for a long time. Finally, she sent a message to the owner of the musical instrument store and decided to sell her piano.

That is the only valuable thing in the house at present. In the past two years, Fang Fang has smashed things when he was drunk, but he has never touched the piano.

Because he knows how important that piano is to Fang Bo Ni!
But now, liking is far less important than life.

She likes someone, but life prevents her from liking, so she can't.

She likes the piano, but life makes her unable to like it, so she can only sell it.

There are always many multiple-choice questions to be done in a person's life, and each multiple-choice question has a choice and a trade-off.

Spiritual needs are often ranked after material, which is her deep understanding after being educated in life.

Fang Bo Ni managed to scrape together enough money for the first surgery.

Fang Fang didn't dare to ask, but he knew that Fang Boni must have struggled to get the money together.

The operation was finally carried out as scheduled, but Fang Baini had no idea where to borrow the next money.

She can no longer be a milk powder shopping guide, nor can she do the job in the bar, and she can barely do the job of playing the piano in the coffee shop.

During this period of time, she hired a temporary nurse to help take a look, the one with a relatively low price.

Losing two incomes at once is another challenge for Fang Boni.

It's been a long, long time since she smiled, and she doesn't even know what joy looks like.

After finishing today's work, Fang Boni hurried back to the hospital.

My father recovered fairly well after the operation, which is probably the only comfort.

Fang Boni wiped his body for him, helped him out of bed and sat in the wheelchair and pushed him out to get some air.

These days, the father and daughter have hardly communicated.

When Fang Boni came to the hospital, she was silent most of the time, and Fang Fang didn't know what to say.

In this matter, he knew that he had a big problem and dragged down his daughter.

The sun is out today, and the cold weather seems to be warming up a bit.

Fang Fang wanted to stay longer, so he told Fang Baini weakly.

She found a place to stop, and sat aside to accompany Equation.

There were sounds from the surroundings, but the two still did not communicate.

In fact, Fang Fang had a lot of things he wanted to say to her, but he couldn't find an opportunity. He endured it for a long time, and finally said it, "Nini..."

It seemed like he hadn't called her that for a long, long time.

Since the accident at home, he never called her so affectionately, and always called her by her full name.

So all of a sudden, Fang Boni didn't react and didn't respond to him.

Still, Fang Fang raised his voice a little and continued to shout, "Nini, I have something to say to you."

Fang Boni looked at him, his eyes were empty at first, as usual, not angry.

It was only later that he gradually realized that he called himself by his nickname.

But she was not surprised, but rather puzzled.

That puzzled look made Fang feel guilty, "For the past two years, you have worked hard, I know, I am not a competent father, I have dragged you down, I am sorry."

Fang Boni's eyes quickly faded, and her tone was extremely flat, "It's nothing, no need to apologize."

"No, let me finish my sentence." Fang Fang interrupted Fang Baini and said, "When this accident happened, I immediately thought of our family's past. It's time to see things through! So I must say it."

Fang Boni lowered his eyes and looked at the ground in front of him, wondering what he was thinking.

"In the final analysis, I'm too weak. I can't accept such a big change in my family, so I'm so depraved, and I've suffered for you." Fang Fang began to confess himself, "Since I met your mother, she has always been in our family. I am the master of the house, and I rely too much on her. Others say that I am a softie, and I am not angry at all. Your mother persuaded me like this. She said that what you say to others, let others say it, and the mouth grows on them. No, so with your mother, my life is easy."

When he said this, Fang Fang sighed heavily, and then continued, "It is also because I live too easily that all the burdens fall on your mother. It can be said that she supports this family. When she was young, she insisted on letting you learn the piano. Even if our family conditions were not very good, she would let you learn the piano even if we lived frugally. She kept telling me that when my two daughters confessed, she and I would be able to enjoy life in the future. Life is always bitter before sweet, but who knew... such an accident would happen. "

"Stop it." Fang Boni tried to prevent Fang Fang from mentioning these painful things.

But since Fang Fang spoke up, he naturally wanted to make it clear, "Yingying was bullied at school, but she didn't dare to say it when she came back. Your mother and I were busy earning money and ignored this, which led to the later tragedy, so something happened to Yingying. Afterwards, your mother has been very guilty, has been aggrieved, and then fell ill. For me, it was my backer who fell, and I was also very flustered. I didn’t even know how to persuade your mother, so she had a nervous breakdown I'm sick..."

Fang Boni covered her face, not wanting others to know her emotions.

She didn't want to remember this painful memory at all.

"I can't accept the fact that your mother is crazy, so I'm depressed all day long, drinking alcohol, I know I don't think about your feelings at all, I only care about venting my emotions, but I don't think about you and you're just growing up, You have to bear all this, how much can you bear?" In front of Fang Boni, Fang Fang was ashamed of himself.

Although his awakening was late, he hoped that he would have the opportunity to make up for it in the future.

After all, Fang Boni couldn't help crying, even though she controlled herself, she tried to cry as softly as possible.

But the tears that kept falling down his hand couldn't fool anyone.

After all, Fang Fang felt sorry for his daughter, especially when he saw her like this, so he persuaded, "Nini, I have seen that man, he should really love you, otherwise, you can go back and find him."

Fang Boni cried and shook her head, she still covered her face so that no one could see how painful she was.

"I know what you're worried about, but the doctor also said, it's not [-]%."

"I told you not to talk about it! I know what's going on with me. I just ask you to live a good life? I'm really tired." Fang Baini couldn't control it, and roared in a low voice.

It has been a long, long time since Fang Boni collapsed like this.

He knew that it was his words that hit the sore spot in her heart, and that's why she had such an excited reaction.

He felt distressed, but...he also hated himself for not being able to help, so he could only sit there silently.

Fang Boni used a lot of strength to control her emotions, her eyes were already red from crying, but she still tried to maintain her composure and said, "Don't mention this matter again, let's have a good life in the future, wait for you to leave the hospital , just rest at home and stop drinking, this is my only request."

"...Okay." Fang Fang agreed to her.

"Going back." Fang Baini got up and pushed the wheelchair back.

Both of them were silent on the road, and when they were about to enter the elevator, Fang Boni paused, and then said in a low voice, "Also, he already has a girlfriend."

"Then..." Fang Fang was worried and wanted to say something.

Fang Boni said again, "The others are fine, and they are fine, so those things have changed."

Equation nodded again with difficulty.

He couldn't say anything except nodding.

After sending Equation back to the ward, Fang Boni saw the consumption list on the bedside table.

The balance on it was already negative, and other patients in the ward reminded her, "The nurse just said that you have no money in your card, and asked you to pay the bill."

"Thank you." Fang Boni held the list, feeling heavy again.