love addiction

There were thousands of questions in Long Muye's mind that he wanted to ask, but none of them came out.

On the way back, Xu Qingqing seemed particularly quiet.

She has been leaning in the chair, her eyes looking out of the window, lost in thought.

Several times Long Muye wanted to speak, but he was reluctant to interrupt her rare peace.

He knew that she was sorting out many, many memories.

For a person who has just recovered his memory, the world must be a mess, and it takes a little time to sort it out before he can face it again.

Arriving at Fuyun, Long Muye opened the car door for her, just as Xu Qingqing got out of the car, he grabbed her hand and kicked her into his pocket.

His big hand was warm, and it felt safe to be held tightly by him.

Long Muye said while leading her towards the gate, "Let the butler prepare the mutton hot pot tomorrow, go to Quhan, by the way, you have to add sliced ​​lotus root that you like."

Xu Weiwei tilted her head slightly and looked at him.

It's obviously the most common trivial matter, but why do you hear him say it like this, but there is a very different feeling.

Long Muye was still rambling on, "You like fermented bean curd seasoning the most, so you have to prepare it in advance, but you've just recovered a bit, so you can't eat too spicy..."

"Long Muye." Xu Weiqing suddenly stopped him.

Only then did Long Muye stop, and looked sideways at her, "What's wrong?"

"Won't you ask me what I said to my sister tonight?"

Long Muye's ink eyes moved slightly. '

Xu Qingwei was talking about my sister, not Xu Wenrou, nor that person...

He seemed to be a little moved, and was about to ask, but Xu Qingqing pulled him to the chair next to him and sat down, "Sit with me for a while."

Long Muye was about to say that it was too cold, fearing that she would freeze.

Xu Qingqing said first, "If you are really worried that I will freeze, just wrap me in your clothes."

Long Muye didn't say a word, he untied his clothes and wrapped her tightly in his arms, making sure that she wouldn't freeze again before he said, "Accompany, don't talk for a while, you can stay with me for as long as you want, forever Yes, I can be with you in the next life and the next life."

Xu Weiwei laughed, although this kind of words sounded a bit sweet-talking, but listening to them still made people feel happy.

The first snow is still falling, sporadic and scattered, and the street lamps illuminate the first snow in a dreamy way.

Xu Weiqing suddenly likes this kind of artistic conception, or likes that at this moment, she can have someone who can give her warmth by her side.

In the past, she always felt that independence is something that a person must persist in doing.

But after meeting Long Muye, she realized that she didn't need to be independent at all, as if she could rely on him for everything.

She can give him her heart and soul with peace of mind, even if the whole world may be against her, but Long Muye will not.

This is the one-in-[-] probability that she has met it.

Xu gently buried her face in his chest, feeling more and more warm.

It turns out that the feeling of the first snow is warmth.

Xu Weiwei raised the corners of his mouth and laughed, "Long Muye, I will take care of her with you in the future."

"Ok?"

"My sister, Xu Wenrou."

Long Muye was a little moved, Xu Weiwei snuggled into his arms and said, "I didn't understand before, why you promised to take care of her for the rest of your life, but now I know, so let's take care of her together in the future."

"You... remember everything?" Long Muye became nervous, eager to find something from her face, and eager to comfort her.

But Xu Weiwei was very indifferent, she nodded, "Well, I remember everything, including the memories I forgot before, I remember them all."

Long Muye's heart immediately twitched.

Xu Weiwei put her face close to his chest, listened to his strong heartbeat, and said slowly, "I know you are worried about me, and I also know why you chose to operate on me to make me lose my memory. You are afraid of me Can't take this."

What he did for her, Xu Qingqing remembers and feels deeply in her heart, especially after going through so many things, she knows what is sincerity and what is false.

No matter what this man does, his starting point is always for her good.

So what is she going to blame for those white lies?

"In the past, I always felt that my sister owed me. She is such a bad person, arrogant and willful, and always avoids the truth, but now I want to understand that she just expresses it in a different way from us."

"She was a bit arrogant and indulgent since she was a child. She always liked to bully me, and she always wanted to blame me for doing wrong things. I blamed her at that time, but now that I think about it, she also helped me a lot."

"Once I broke my father's suit, and she took care of it for me. My father didn't blame her, but said that she praised her honestly. I was very wronged at that time. Will she be rewarded? Thinking about it now, I was too stubborn at the time to make my parents happy. She has a sweet mouth and can always make Dad happy, so it is understandable that Dad loves her."

"Later, when I came to the adoptive parents' family, she was always trying to please and behave in front of them. I used to look down on her, but in fact, if it wasn't for her being so obedient, we might have been abandoned again long ago."

"And that time she told my adoptive father that I was going to run away from home. Now that I think about it, my adoptive father should have found out a long time ago. She disclosed the complaint in advance to distract my adoptive father, so I should avoid beating and scolding me. You say she This person, that's it, she always does things in her own way, no matter what others think, she does her own way."

"Also...and that time, the adoptive father was drunk and became violent, and she hurt the adoptive father in the struggle. When I saw her hand was covered with blood, she handed me the knife in fear..."

Recalling the past again, she still trembled with fear.

Long Muye hugged her even tighter, wanting to comfort her fear.

"Later, my adoptive father lost blood and died. All the evidence at the scene pointed to me, including her. She also testified that I killed my adoptive father... During those years in prison, I really hated her. I even told me Myself, I don't have this sister anymore..."

"I always feel that she owes me, and I always think that she is the one who owes me..."

"Actually, I owe her all the time."

"So, Long Muye, let's take care of her together from now on. You and I will take care of her for the rest of my life."

In the night, facing the vast sky, Long Muye nodded heavily, "Okay."

***
There are always many, many secrets in this world, and those secrets are hidden in dark corners, not known by others.

The so-called paper can't wrap the fire, but it's because the paper is too thin and dry.

If it is endless paper, wet paper, how can it not keep those fires.

This is the fourth year that Xu Wenrou has been in the nursing home.

She knew she was sick, and it was serious, but she just didn't want to admit it.

Everyone with a mental illness is unwilling to admit this fact.

She strives to live like a normal person every day, and strives to do things that normal people will do.

But when emotions came, she couldn't control herself at all.

After the indirect collapse, she took a long time to heal herself.

When Long Muye found her, she didn't know how long she had been wandering on the street.

When she is in a bad state of mind, she is no different from those crazy beggars on the side of the road.

She didn't remember how many people bullied her. When she was in a better state of mind, she started to abuse herself again and again.

What kind of mental torture is this? Others don't understand it, she thought, probably no one in this world understands it.

The day Long Muye found her, she was living on the street, because she hadn't eaten for several days, so she grabbed a little girl's snacks and ate them.

The little girl's parents came and beat her severely.

But even so, Xu Wenrou insisted on not saying a word, and insisted on finishing those things. After eating, she smiled and said to the crying little girl, "Xu Qingqing, why are you crying? Have you eaten something, why are you crying so uselessly?"

The little girl's parents cursed and took the little girl away. After all, no one wants to argue with a lunatic.

She squatted on the ground and drew circles, thinking of cursing, drawing a circle to curse Xu Qingqing.

Long Muye came over and blocked the hot sun above her head.

Xu Wenrou raised her head, trying to see the man clearly in the backlight.

This was the first time someone reached out to him.

He said, come with me, and I will take care of you in the future.

She asked him, "I won't be hungry if I walk with you, right?"

Long Muye nodded, "Yes."

"If I walk with you, I won't sleep on the street, right?"

The man nodded again, "Yes."

"Then I'll go with you, Xu Qingqing won't be able to find me, no, I have to wait here for her."

"No, I'll tell her you're with me."

Xu Wenrou was still a little entangled, but she couldn't resist the temptation of food and clothing, and finally grabbed Long Muye's hand.

When she first arrived at the nursing home, her mood was very unstable, and she always screamed in fear at night.

Long Muye would always show up to comfort her at this time, gradually, Xu Qingwei began to rely on him, "Muye, will you take care of me for the rest of your life?"

She always asked this question, and Long Muye answered yes every time.

Later, for a while, Xu Wenrou's memory became disordered. She regarded herself as Xu Qingqing, and accused herself all day long, "My sister Xu Wenrou is not good to me at all. She is a bad woman. Made me go to jail, by the way, the little brother I rescued, she was going to expose me, and made me kidnapped, Xu Wenrou is a bad woman."

The doctor told Long Muye that this kind of situation is a guilt-related mental illness, because he felt too much guilt towards this person, and gradually evolved his role into this person, and then began to crazily resist himself.

Xu Wenrou's current situation is like this, she regards herself as Xu Qingqing, and begins to accuse Xu Wenrou of all the bad things he has done.

Xu Wenrou's situation is actually really bad, and it is impossible to recover.

There were too many psychological traumas, and this was the only way she could do it all her life.

All the doctor can do is to make her as good as possible.

She is receiving treatment every day and every day, taking various medicines every day.

Sometimes she tried hard to get better, but sometimes it backfired and made things worse.

Xu Weiqing has been troubled by nightmares before, and Xu Wenrou has more nightmares.

To put it harshly, she, Xu Wenrou, has long been insane. Ever since Xu Qingwei was imprisoned, she has suffered from severe insanity. Because she missed the best time for treatment, she has become what she is now.