love addiction

"Abandon your own hands or lose her, you make your own choice." Xie Di said simply and clearly.

Holding the knife, Shen Shaogong never thought that he would face this day.

In the past, the knife was used to save people, but at this moment, this knife was told him to use it to hurt people.

Xie Di raised his hand to check the time, "I only give you 20 seconds to think about it, you still have ten seconds."

Shen Shaogong clenched the knife in his hand, and said firmly, "It won't take that long, I already have the answer."

Xie Di let Chu Linxiang watch this passage and saw the conversation between him and Shen Shaogong.

The picture stopped at this moment, Xie Di smiled and looked at Chu Linxiang, "Do you still firmly believe that he will choose you?"

"Crazy! You are a lunatic!" Chu Linxiang glared at Xie Di jealously.

Xie Di enjoyed her eyes very much, with a bloodthirsty smile on the corner of her mouth, "No one can live well after plotting against me, and you, Chu Linxiang, are no exception. If you let me lose something, I will naturally It’s fair to let you lose something.”

"What have you lost?" Chu Linxiang sneered, and the veins in his neck emerged, "You not only got Peng Mingyue, but also got Wanhua Industry. With Wanhua Industry, you can equalize the rights of Xie Tian, ​​and you can Let you continue to occupy a place in Xie's family, what can you lose? What you lose is a love that does not belong to you, Xie Di, I have never loved you before!"

"Very good." Xie Di praised her, as if admiring her courage, "You have a lot of backbone, just like me back then."

He suddenly approached her, locked her with a pair of deep eyes, and asked ferociously, "But do you know what I lost because of that so-called backbone?"

Chu Linxiang yearned to retreat, but she had no choice but to face Xie Di's hideousness.

He sneered, laughing scarier than ghosts and gods, "Let me tell you, I lost my mother because of that so-called backbone. The blood stained the whole bathtub red, and I was sitting opposite her, watching all this, my mouth was sealed, my body was tied up, I couldn't struggle, I could only watch all this, and My mother never snorted from the beginning to the end, and even until she died, she didn't feel that it was a painful thing. There was only relief on her face. She said that people must be cruel when they are alive, whether it is for others. Still to myself."

"People from the Xie family have never had friends, only enemies."

"That's why I've always lived like this, but when I met you, I thought you would be the exception, but you absolutely cut off this possibility." Xie Di got up slowly, and slowly pulled away from her. With the distance from Chu Linxiang, the smile on his face became even weirder, "So, how can I make your life better?"

Chu Linxiang had this nightmare for a long, long time.

During those seven years abroad, she often woke up in a nightmare, and then looked at her legs, her eyes were so empty that she couldn't shed a single tear.

The words Xie Di said always lingered in his ears.

Xie Di said that Shen Shaogong already had a choice.

To be honest, she never blamed Shen Shaogong.

Even if he gave up on her in order to save his own hands, she never resented him.

Senior Sister is right in saying that love is one of the weakest emotions in the world, how can it stand any test.

It's just that she lost, so she can't resent anyone.

But every time she dreams back at midnight, she still thinks of that heart-piercing scene.

Shen Shaogong rushed towards her with his car, so decisive, without any hesitation.

This pain lasted for many years, and gradually became numb.

She fled everything in embarrassment, escaped from Shen Shaogong and all those fame and wealth, and hid in a foreign country to heal her wounds alone.

Perhaps Shen Shaogong will never find out that she actually bought the house abroad, and she has been in that place during the seven years of convalescence.

There she saw those notebooks, which were used up by Shen Shaogong.

Those notebooks are really full of things, and what can be written is not the notes, but the thoughts of her.

At the beginning, I will record in detail, such as what I ate and thought of her, and what I saw and thought of her.

When I see a bouquet of flowers, I want to give it to her. When I see a suitable dress, I think she will look good in it.

He even once recorded how he thought about proposing to her when he saw the ring.

Also, when I went to the professor's house, I was very envious when I saw the appearance of the professor with both children and children. I wondered whether the way he and Chu Linxiang spent their whole life together was as warm and sweet as the professor and his wife.

This kind of record continued for more than a year one after another, but after that, it was all about missing him.

The one with only one sentence on a page, even the date will be the same.

Chu Linxiang, I miss you.

He wrote more than 20 books like this, and it was written on the last one.

I can’t wait to see you, so I used up all the notebooks in the fastest way. If you see it, you will definitely say that I wasted it, but I don’t think it’s a waste at all. Although it’s just a simple sentence, it is All my heart.

It was you who said you could meet as soon as I ran out of my notebook, and I did, so I'm back.

Chu Linxiang checked the date. He came back when the rumors were spreading, and she also came here to look for him at that time.

Chu Linxiang read these notebooks countless times, and even thought about burning them countless times, so as to destroy all the feelings in his heart.

But she was reluctant, so relying on these records, she survived for seven years bit by bit.

She can't forgive, but she can't be the same as before. Maybe they still love each other, but they can't love like before.

Whoever said that the person who falls in love first loses. She doesn't know if she is considered a loser, but she knows that deep love is murder.

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"Linxiang...I'm sorry..." Shen Shaogong began to rave, with a very painful expression on his face.

Chu Linxiang was startled by him, so he hurriedly got up and turned on the light, and pushed him who was having a nightmare, "Husband, what's wrong with you?"

"I'm sorry Linxiang, I'm sorry..." Shen Shaogong just kept apologizing.

He also grabbed Chu Linxiang's hand indiscriminately, holding it very hard, as if it would disappear as soon as he let go, "Linxiang, I'm sorry, don't leave me, don't..."

Seeing him like this, Chu Linxiang felt distressed, and quickly reached out to pat his face, "Honey, wake up, you're having a nightmare!"

She patted a little hard, Shen Shaogong finally woke up, and then saw Chu Linxiang, and hugged her hard the next moment, "I'm sorry, Linxiang, I'm sorry..."

Chu Linxiang felt a little baffled, and couldn't get away, so he could only be hugged by him, and asked sullenly, "What's wrong with you? Did you have a nightmare? What did you dream about?"

Shen Shaogong's body froze and fell silent.

"It's okay, it's okay if you don't want to say it, but don't be afraid." Chu Linxiang tried to comfort her.

Shen Shaogong seemed to be appeased, and he was not as scared as before, but he didn't let go of her, and kept holding her tightly.

Chu Linxiang didn't struggle when he arrived, and patted him on the back again and again, as if to comfort him.

After a while, when Chu Linxiang was about to fall asleep, Shen Shaogong said in a deep voice, "I'm sorry, I failed to protect you and hurt you, I'm sorry."

Chu Linxiang woke up when he heard the word "injured", and asked worriedly, "Did you remember the past? Don't think about it, am I fine now? We are married now, and there are three lovely And Ruohuan is about to get married, we are going to be father-in-law and mother-in-law, these are happiness that can be seen and touched."

"Yes, you are still by my side." Shen Shaogong slowly breathed a sigh of relief.

"Well, I will always be by your side." Chu Linxiang gave him an affirmative answer.

Perhaps this answer reassured him, and he finally fell asleep in the second half of the night.

But because of the nightmare last night, both of them got up late.

Chu Linxiang was not in a hurry, anyway, he was out to relax, so he had to live a more casual life.

So the two ate breakfast and lunch together. After the meal, Shen Shaogong wanted to take her to a nearby lakeside park, saying that he wanted to take her to see it when he was studying here.

In fact, Chu Linxiang knew about the lake, and she had been there many times, but Shen Shaogong didn't know about it.

But she still pretended to be very interested, as excited as if going for the first time.

This lake is not far from the medical school, so many students will come here to play.

Shen Shaogong also talked about the interesting things in the past, saying that he and Yang Qi came here to fish together.

The fishing activity was arranged by the professor. He was afraid that the two of them would have been obsessed with studying medicine, so they arranged extracurricular activities.

Unexpectedly, the two men began to dissect the fish on the spot, and separated the various organs and bones of the fish clearly.

The key is that they still use the method of competition to see who compares the speed.

Chu Linxiang asked him, "What happened next? Who won?"

"Later..." Shen Shaogong looked a little embarrassed, "Then the professor came and made a fuss, asking us to burn the fish for the students who participated in the activity together."

Chu Linxiang burst out laughing with a chuckle.

"The point is not this. The point is, the boiled fish we cooked. How could any of my classmates at that time have eaten boiled fish? Cook boiled fish with Yang Qi for them to eat, so that we have a conditioned reflex when we hear fish."

Even if Shen Shaogong talked about it now, he still had a look of helplessness.

Chu Linxiang was overjoyed, "I said the boiled fish you cook is so delicious, so you have been trained a long time ago."

Shen Shaogong took a fishing gear from nowhere and said to her, "I'll make it for you today, but this time I want to fish by myself."

"Row."

The two just sat by the lake leaning against each other, watching the sunset and listening to the autumn wind of another year.

Shen Shaogong still failed to complete the task that day because...he didn't catch any fish!

It is said that the fish in the lake were cured because they were too flooded, so there were basically no fish left, which caused him to return without success.

Chu Linxiang couldn't help but want to laugh when he saw his disheveled face, but in order to save face for him, he had to hold back and persuade him, "It doesn't matter if we don't catch any fish. We can buy fish. There are some fish nearby." This is a market, where the river fresh seafood is very good, I used to buy it often.”

Shen Shaogong was taken aback, then looked at Chu Linxiang.

But Chu Linxiang didn't realize it yet, and thought he didn't believe him, "Really, if you don't believe me, I'll take you to see it, but it's been more than ten years, and I don't know if this market is still there..."

"Have you been here?" Shen Shaogong finally asked her this question.

Chu Linxiang was taken aback for a moment, and then realized that he had slipped his tongue. When he looked back at Shen Shaogong, he would inevitably feel a little guilty.