love addiction

"Why are you here?" After looking at each other for a long time, Fu Yebai still opened his mouth.

"Aunt Ranran said she couldn't find you. I wanted to help, so I came here to try my luck. I didn't expect you to be here." Long Yaxi looked at him, hesitated for a few seconds, and went in.

The grid door was closed, and the two sat facing each other, neither of them spoke again.

In the end, the master who operated the Ferris wheel took the initiative to restart the Ferris wheel, and the grid slowly walked forward.

The rain that had been misty just now gradually started to patter again, covering Jiangcheng in mist, making it hard to see clearly, very much like the road they were going to take now.

After the Ferris wheel slowly rose and gradually left the ground, she asked, "Why are you hiding here? What happened? Can you tell me?"

Before coming here, Long Yaxi guessed that Fu Yebai's depression might be related to Lou Ruochun's illness, after all, they are husband and wife now.

Fu Yebai frowned, then shook his head, "It's nothing, I just want to calm down and sort out some emotions."

"Your wife is still young. I heard from Dr. Xie that the possibility of being cured is over 80.00%, which is very high. After recovery, she will be the same as a normal person."

"It's not about this." Fu Yebai looked up at Jiangcheng in the rain outside, "Two days ago, she proposed to divorce me."

"..." Long Yaxi was taken aback for a moment, this was something she had never thought about, and then said, "She probably doesn't want to drag you down."

But Fu Yebai just shook his head, "I failed her."

"What..." Long Yaxi really thought he heard it wrong.

"In fact, she is a very simple girl. She has done a lot for me over the years, especially during the time abroad." Fu Yebai talked about the past, "You know I am prone to allergies , I almost died once, it was she who guarded me day and night, took care of me, her eyes were red from the boil, such a thin person ran to the hospital with a person as big as me on her back, and she didn't care when she fell and hurt herself."

Long Yaxi listened to what he said quietly, and seemed to be able to see the scenes he said in his mind.

"I also often lose everything. Once I forgot to bring the materials. The professor was very strict. I couldn't go back to pick them up, so I called her. She sent them to the school for me. But at that time we just went abroad, and she couldn't speak any language. It didn’t work out, she took a lot of trouble to send the materials, but it was already late at that time, I was reprimanded by the professor, and I was in a bad mood when I came out. When I saw the materials she sent, I was annoyed and threw them into the trash can. She was very embarrassed and her clothes were all broken. She told me that she had fallen. Later, the police found her home, and I found out that she was tricked by a black car driver and got into the car. She was almost forced by those people and managed to escape. ...But I threw her heart into the trash can with my own hands."

"During the time you came to see me, I always went to drink in a low mood. She helped me out of the bar many times. Do you know how dark the bar is? The men there like oriental women , she even tried her best, she knew how dirty it was, but she broke in because of me, and more than once..."

"We got married. It was my willful decision. She persuaded me, but I still insisted on doing so. The life after marriage... is actually the same as before, but she never complained." Fu Yebai smiled wryly. For a moment, "In the end, I failed her."

When Long Yaxi heard this sigh, he almost thought he heard it wrong.

Because the Fu Yebai she knew was always cold and indifferent.

Many years ago, she thought that Fu Yebai might be an iceberg in this life, and there would be no day when it would melt, even if she herself might not be able to melt...

But now, she realized that she was wrong.

There is no iceberg that cannot be melted, just because her love is not enough.

Compared to what Lou Ruochun did, her love for Yebai is completely insignificant.

Fu Yebai's saying is correct, she has always been self-willed and self-centered, so she never thought about Fu Yebai.

If she thinks she likes it, she likes it, and even if she thinks she likes it, he has to like herself.

It was like this when I was a child, and I also think this way when I grow up, so I can't accept the fact that he and Lou Ruochun are together.

During those five years, she exhausted the love in her heart little by little, and gradually saw the pattern inside.

The grid rises little by little, and slowly reaches the apex, the highest point.

Long Yaxi's thoughts gradually cleared up, she said after a moment of silence, "I never regretted liking you, even now I still think so, but I was ignorant in the past, and brought you a lot of joy. For bothering you, I apologize."

Fu Yebai shook his head, "It's not important anymore."

"I know it's not important anymore, so I just said it." Long Yaxi kept calm and looked at him hotly, "Then can you answer my question calmly?"

Fu Yebai looked at her, his eyes were bottomless, and finally nodded.

Long Yaxi slowly relaxed, and then asked, "Have you ever... liked me?"

She had never asked this question since she was a child.

It's not that I didn't think about it, but I didn't dare to ask.

When he was very young, he was very cold to her, unlike other boys she came into contact with.

She is the little princess that everyone cherishes and dotes on, but Fu Yebai is the only one who treats her coldly and doesn't like to pay attention to her.

Maybe it's because of this specialness that she pays more attention to him, and is gradually attracted to him, which is why she likes him later.

It's just that she didn't have the guts to ask this question anymore, she was afraid that he would still hate herself as much as before, even though she had tried her best to correct herself, not to be like a spoiled little princess, because he didn't like it.

But now, she dares to ask because she can face it calmly, neither happy with things nor sad with herself.

Fu Yebai looked into her misty eyes, stayed there for a long time, and finally gave the answer, "Yes."

Long Yaxi laughed slowly, seemed to have accepted this fact, and then sighed, "This is enough."

With this answer, it is worthy of her past liking, and the disappointment of those five years is not in vain.

Really enough.

The smile on the corner of her mouth gradually spread, and her tone became more relaxed, like the rain gradually dissipating, and the clouds and mists were cleared to see the blue sky, "Lou Ruochun is gone."

"What?" Fu Yebai was taken aback by the sudden change of topic.

"I said, your wife is missing."

***
Getting off the ferris wheel, Long Yaxi personally sent Fu Yebai to the hospital.

Along the way, he answered many calls and made many calls, but the answers were all the same, and Lou Ruochun couldn't find them.

When she arrived at the hospital, Yang Wenshu was already in tears.

Fu Ranran kept comforting her, but it was of no use.

Fu Yebai went to Lou Ruochun's ward to look around, and finally seemed to remember something, and suddenly started to search for things.

In the end, I really found the letter left by Lou Ruochun himself in a stack of inspection reports.

When Yang Wenshu saw the letter, she couldn't help crying, and she didn't have the courage to read it.

Fu Yebai held it and looked at it for a long time, it was obviously just a few simple words.

In the end, Fu Ranran couldn't help asking, "What did Ruochun say?"

"She said...she wanted to leave quietly by herself."

When Yang Wenshu heard this, her eyes darkened and she passed out.

The ward was in chaos, but fortunately this is a hospital, the doctor immediately checked Yang Wenshu, and after confirming that she was only in a temporary faint, Fu Ranran was relieved.

Fu Yebai sat slowly on the chair, still holding the two pieces of paper in his hand.

The first one is a few words and phrases left by her.

The second one was the divorce agreement she had signed.

She did what she said, and set Fu Yebai free.

When Long Yaxi left the hospital, Fu Yebai still maintained the previous posture, holding the two pieces of paper without moving.

No one tried to persuade them, because they didn't know how to persuade them.

After leaving the hospital, Long Yaxi personally called her elder brother Long Chenyu and asked her to help find Lou Ruochun, and inform Fu Yebai as soon as there was news.

Long Chenyu was a little surprised by Long Yaxi's request, but he agreed without asking anything.

As for Xie Yimin, he seemed to be thinking about something with a complicated expression.

After Long Yaxi sent him home, he planned to go to the monastery immediately, but as soon as he arrived at the door, Xie Yimin's expression became serious.

Because at the door of his house, there were four men in black and a black car.

Long Yaxi knew that kind of car was very expensive and ordinary people couldn't afford it.

She looked at Xie Yimin worriedly, and wanted to ask something, but Xie Yimin unfastened his seat belt and got out of the car, and told her, "Go back first, don't ask anything, don't look back, just go, and, during this time Don't come looking for me."

Although Long Yaxi didn't understand what it meant, but in the current situation, she could only follow suit.

Xie Yimin passed the four men in black and entered the gate.

Long Yaxi reversed the car and slowly left the place.

A storm is quietly brewing, and it looks like it will unfold at any time.

She went back to the monastery and talked to Tang Mianmian about what happened today, including what Fu Yebai said to herself, and what she said to Fu Yebai at the end was enough.

Tang Mianmian patted her head and said, "My daughter has finally grown up."

Long Yaxi leaned in her arms, and Tang Mianmian gently stroked her hair, just like when she was a child.

Long Yaxi asked, "Mom, before you met your father, you had a relationship. What do you think about that relationship?"

"How should I put it, some people may experience three feelings in a lifetime, one time of ignorance, one time of deep-seated, and one time of a lifetime. To me, your father is both deep-rooted and life-long, but I have to say that the ignorant feeling is not his. , although your father minds this matter very much." Speaking of this, Tang Mianmian smiled helplessly, "The result is actually not important, what is important is the process, whether you can grow in this relationship, whether you are grateful for this A relationship, rather than loathing its existence, I belonged to the betrayed party, and I was jealous when I was young, but after going through too many things, I finally understood those people who appeared in my life , has the meaning of his existence, and this meaning will accompany me for the rest of my life.”

Long Yaxi nodded half understanding, "I will remember it forever."

"Yeah." Tang Mianmian touched her face, "In a month or so, we will be able to take Qingqing home. During this time, you should stay here with Qingqing at ease, and don't run around. ,do you know?"

"Yes!"

Long Yaxi even went to Qingqing's room to find her. The two sisters hadn't had a good chat for a long time, and Qingqing was lying on the tatami and reading a book.

Long Yaxi took the book and glanced at it, a little dizzy because it was full of scriptures, "Qingqing, where is the storybook I gave you?"

"Master He Jing said not to read those story books." Long Qingqing said innocently.

"Then can you understand these scriptures?"

Long Qingqing nodded.

Long Yaxi didn't know what to say, but Long Qingqing didn't care at all. She even held her turtle in her arms and touched it, then continued to read the scriptures.