love addiction

"I know, you are worried about me." Xie Yimin smiled gently, with tenderness.

Seeing that he could still laugh at such a time, Long Yaxi became even more annoyed, "What if, what if I disagree?"

"Huh?" Xie Yimin looked at her like this, and really wanted to reach out and stroke her head, just like comforting the orange cat in the previous home, "Are you angry?"

"...Mmm." Long Yaxi nodded sullenly.

"Don't be afraid, it's really okay, just like... just like you girls cut your hair, in fact, hair is also one of the organs of the human body..." Xie Yimin planned to persuade her again.

Long Yaxi stared at him anxiously, "Stop talking about your long speeches, I don't want to hear them, so I just want to ask you, what exactly are you going to do to give up this decision?"

Xie Yimin sighed, grabbed her two hands with both hands, and squeezed them gently in the palms, "Will you ignore me because I lost a kidney?"

"How could it be!" Long Yaxi denied it.

"Then you will look down on me because of this?"

"impossible!"

"Then does that make you think I'm a crippled person?"

"Didn't you say that losing a kidney is not important?"

Xie Yimin smiled slightly, "Isn't that right? You won't ignore me, you won't look down on me, and you won't feel that you're not perfect without a kidney, so donating this kidney doesn't have any effect?"

Realizing that he had been fooled, Long Yaxi angrily shook off his hand, "Anyway, I can't accept this result."

"So you still think I'm not perfect." Xie Yimin sighed intentionally or unintentionally.

Long Yaxi's eyes were red with anxiety, "I didn't mean that, I was just worried about you, if I lost a kidney, you would be worried too, right?"

Seeing her like this, Xie Yimin was really helpless.

He has never felt such a sense of helplessness when making any decisions.

And this little woman who had only appeared in his life for half a year had already occupied so much of his thoughts, and even influenced his thinking.

It is really not to be underestimated.

"I've learned to infer other things from one instance, Long Yaxi, you are really capable." Xie Yimin smiled helplessly.

"Then do you agree to me or not?" Long Yaxi asked stubbornly.

"Sorry, I'm afraid I can't agree to you so quickly, because I have already promised others."

Hearing this answer, Long Yaxi was really disappointed, and finally ran out with red eyes.

At the door, I ran into Meng Xueyao who had returned from shopping for vegetables. She said goodbye to her aunt with red eyes and ran away.

Xie Yimin chased him out, Meng Xueyao pulled him and asked, "What's the matter? You two had a fight? I just saw Xixi's eyes were red... Xiaoyi, you are a boy, should you let the girls know?"

"Mom, I'll explain to you later." Xie Yimin didn't stop, and chased him out.

It's a pity, he was a road idiot, and he couldn't catch up with Long Yaxi.

She didn't answer her phone calls, and even turned off the positioning. This was the first time Xie Yimin was so helpless.

***
Long Yaxi didn't know how long he had been running, but he stopped slowly when he ran out of strength, and then sat on the side of the road, wiping his tears in pain.

She is not a cowardly person, but this time she doesn't want to face the result so much.

In fact, what she hated even more was that she couldn't influence his decision, that's why she ran away so powerlessly.

If possible, she doesn't want time to move on.

But time will eventually move forward...

The phone rang over and over again, and Xie Yimin's name kept flashing on it.

She didn't answer, and even turned off the location, not wanting him to find her.

Later, he probably knew that he couldn't get through the call, so he didn't make any more calls.

The world seemed to have quieted down. Long Yaxi looked at the phone and flipped through their previous chat records.

She searched for the words Qingqing Anhao, and there were more than 100 such messages in total, all of which were sent by him to report his safety.

During Qingqing's hospitalization, if Xie Yimin hadn't been there, she didn't know how she would survive.

Thinking of these, Long Yaxi became even more flustered.

In fact, if he can't find himself, he must be anxious.

What would he look like in a hurry?

Thinking of this, she seemed to be less angry, which was really strange.

Long Yaxi wiped away the last tear and thought bitterly in her heart that as long as he calls again, she will forgive him.

Maybe it was because of her own thoughts, the call really came in, she picked it up in a hurry, and said in a hurry, "Xie Yimin, I know what you want to tell me, but can you listen to me now? "

"If you don't answer, I will take it as your acquiescence. I know that I have no right to interfere with the decisions you make, and I don't have the qualifications to interfere, but I still hope you can listen to my thoughts. You are still young. Although the loss of this organ has no effect on you, and I will not treat you differently just because you lack such an organ, but I still hope that you can live healthy and healthy without even a single hair Little, can you understand me? I don't want to see you lying on the hospital bed..."

"I know you are a doctor, and you take life and death very lightly, just like I am not a doctor so I can't understand what you do, so can you listen to my advice and don't do it?"

At the end of the story, Long Yaxi had become a little begging.

There was still silence on the other end of the phone, deathly silence.

Just when Long Yaxi thought that he could hardly wait for the answer, the person over there said, "It's me."

That voice shocked Long Yaxi severely.

It's Fu Yebai...

She put down her phone and looked at it. The name was indeed Fu Yebai.

Fu Yebai, who hadn't called her for more than five years, actually called her at this time.

What she said to Dr. Xie just now was heard by him, and Long Yaxi was completely dumbfounded.

Fu Yebai said, "Originally I wanted to tell you about this matter, but I didn't expect you to know it already. It seems... I don't need to say anything."

Now Long Yaxi became silent.

Two people, speechless.

"Go back first, it's getting late." Fu Yebai made a hasty confession and hung up the phone.

Long Yaxi was stunned for a long time before leaning weakly on the chair.

In the evening, the clouds were dense, and it seemed that it was going to rain, so she slowly got up, took a taxi and left the place.

On the other side, Fu Yebai personally found the doctor who operated on Lou Ruochun, and told her to give up the operation and wait for the next donor.

Yang Wenshu found Fu Yebai after hearing about it, and asked him, "Why did you do this? That is Chun'er's only hope. Why did you do this?"

"There are too many reasons for this. It's not that I gave up on saving her, but I'm waiting for the next opportunity." Fu Yebai explained.

But the impulsive Yang Wenshu couldn't listen to such an explanation at all, "I know, you don't love Chun'er, that's why you want to give up on her, right? Can you see that she is my only relative, just this time, help me she?"

"I didn't say to give up the treatment, but let her continue to wait for the next donor, and she can wait."

"Can you wait, can Chun'er wait? Can I afford to wait?" Yang Wenshu couldn't accept this arrangement, "Shuang'er passed away without waiting for a donor, and I don't want to make the same mistakes again! If you don't sign this consent form, I will sign!"

Fu Yebai was in a state of desperation for a while, Yang Wenshu refused to listen to the persuasion and went to see Dr. Meng.

He sat on the bench, trying to calm himself down a bit before seeing how to resolve the matter.

Lou Ruochun stood behind him at some point, her eyes were red, and she tried her best to cover her mouth to keep herself from crying.

After she endured the heart-piercing pain, she walked over slowly.

Fu Yebai heard the voice, raised his head and saw her.

Lou Ruochun tried hard to force out a pale smile.

"Why did you come out?" Fu Yebai hurriedly got up and went to help her.

During this period of time, her body became weaker and weaker, relying entirely on medicine to continue her life, and her bones became thinner and thinner, as if she would be blown down by the wind in an instant.

Fu Yebai originally planned to help her back to the ward, but Lou Ruochun wanted to sit here for a while.

Opposite the bench is a row of windows that look out onto the lights of the square outside.

Those lights became the only light in the dark night, Lou Ruochun wanted to catch it, but he couldn't.

That feeling was like Fu Yebai in front of her eyes, she wanted to catch it, but after all, Fu Yebai was those lights, which disappeared at dawn, and also showed others the way at night.

Lou Ruochun breathed a sigh of relief, and then said, "Do you remember the last time I went back alone?"

Fu Yebai nodded and said, "It was raining when you came back that day."

"Well, I went to see my sister that day. In a blink of an eye, she has been gone for more than five years. In my memory, she has always been brave. Even when she is sick, she is also facing it. I always feel that she is our The only support in that precarious family, so no matter what decision she made, whether right or wrong, I have no right to blame her." Lou Ruochun clenched the drip tube in her hand, feeling the cold The liquid entered her body little by little.

Fu Yebai frowned, "Did you know something?"

Lou Ruochun nodded, "Knowing a little bit, and guessing a little bit, I can probably figure it out, maybe after a person is sick, there are more things to think about. I have thought about all the time carefully. Back then, I was the sister I saved accidentally. You helped me out of gratitude. At that time, I was the most vulnerable and powerless, so your appearance represented to me Hope, I follow this hope, and I also like you, but I know you have someone you like, so I never show it, but I can't hide it from my sister, and she sees the reason."

Lightning and thunder had begun outside, and it was going to rain again.

The summer rain is always so sudden and unprepared...

"She did that for my own good, seeking a piece of happiness for me. I hope that my future life will be stable. I won't live a miserable life like my mother, and I won't be as confidant as her. If I knew the truth back then, Maybe I won't marry you."

"It's all in the past, don't think about it, it's important to treat the disease properly." Fu Yebai tried to persuade her.

But Lou Ruochun only exists in his own memory, unable to extricate himself, "I was in front of my sister's grave that day and heard what my mother said. I just felt that my life was like a joke. I lived between my sister and my mother." In the fairy tales I made up for me, I also lived in the stories of self-fantasy. In those years, I thought you would see my heart, and I would warm your heart little by little..."

"Everything is a self-deceiving dream. When you wake up from the dream, it will be fine."

Lou Ruochun closed her eyes, it turned out that it only took such a small action to block those bright hopes, she heard herself say, "Fu Yebai, let's get a divorce."

What I owe you, I will pay you back. In the future life, I can walk on my own, just like my sister, go on strong.

(Okay, it's late, good night, I'm tired)