love addiction

What should be proved has already been proved, so she is eating her own jealousy from the beginning to the end.

No wonder Mr. X knew everything about himself, no wonder he said it was not the time to let her know.

She hung up the phone, suddenly didn't know what to say, just stood there in a daze.

And Jun Lin walked around the table, grabbed her shoulders worriedly and said, "Shang Haojia, listen to my explanation."

"Junlin, my mind is a little messed up now, I want to be alone for a while, is that okay?" She asked softly with a pleading voice.

I don't know why, looking at her like this, Jun Lin was very flustered, but he also knew that forcing her like this would be counterproductive, so he could only nod his head, "Okay, I'm right here, call me whenever you need me, but Promise me, don't think about it, you know?"

She didn't know how she agreed to King's Landing in the end, but she slowly reacted when she was sitting alone in the room and felt the cold.

She has not been a smart child since she was a child, so she has always been unable to think through many things.

But there are some things she can remember deeply.

For example, Mr. Xu, for example, the two characters written by Junlin, Yuanyang.

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Shang Haojia remembers very clearly the day he met Junlin, it was a thunderstorm.

Because she works at night, she basically sleeps at home during the day. Whenever there is a thunderstorm, her heart is always very depressed.

In the dream, it seemed that I had returned to that elementary school. Teacher Xu was still wearing the same white dress and was writing the word "Mandarin Duck" on the blackboard.

Shang Haojia tremblingly wrote on the mottled desk with his frozen red hands, while listening to the teacher tell the story about mandarin ducks.

The rain that day was particularly heavy, accompanied by thunder and lightning, rumbling and particularly noisy...

So much so that when the stones rolled down from the mountain, they didn't feel it in advance. It wasn't until the stones broke through the dilapidated walls that the classroom reacted.

Sitting on the farthest side, she was directly frightened by such a battle, her legs seemed to lose consciousness from the cold, and she couldn't run out of the classroom like other children.

There were crying and shouting sounds beside her ears, she could no longer tell them apart, she just wanted to run in embarrassment, but fell down in the chaos, it was Teacher Xu who rushed over, picked her up and ran out.

Obviously she could run away, but when she was at the door, the whole house collapsed, and she screamed in fear...

Teacher Xu seemed to have sensed something, turned around quickly, and saw the falling wood hitting Shang Haojia's back.

It hurt so much, Shang Haojia fainted almost instantly.

I don't know how long it took, she woke up faintly, and found herself lying on the bed in the town hospital, lying on her stomach with a large scar on her back. The doctor was treating the wound, and the alcohol seeped into the wound, making her cry in pain Come out, screaming in fear, "Mr. Xu, Mr. Xu..."

The old principal told her with red eyes, "Jiajia, Teacher Xu... is dead..."

At that moment, she didn't seem to feel the pain anymore, and her mind was full of the words that she kept thinking about, Teacher Xu died.

At that time, she just understood what death meant, so she knew that death was a kind of despair, which meant that she would never see Teacher Xu again.

She stayed in the hospital for a week, hoping every day that what the old principal told herself was just a dream, and when she returned to school, she could still see Teacher Xu wearing a white dress on the podium and giving lectures to them... …

But when she returned to the school again, she found that it was already in ruins, and the only three classrooms were buried by mudslides.

Teacher Xu...will never appear again.

That day Shang Haojia stood in front of a pile of ruins and cried heart-rendingly. She didn't know why she was so sad, but felt that there were countless sorrows surging, which made her unable to stop the pain.

Later, the students could only attend classes in the temporary cowshed, and she never saw Teacher Xu again, but learned from other students that it was Teacher Xu who pushed her out on the day of the accident. However, he was hit by the falling beam, and the whole person fell down and was buried in the ruins.

I don't know how many times I have had this kind of dream, the same scene, the same sadness, which made her wake up from her sleep with tears in her eyes...

But she can only forcefully put away these sorrows, pack herself up and go to work.

Because of crying for too long, she was very haggard. Sister Zhang was still talking about her, but she smiled perfunctorily and put on heavy makeup to cover up her red and swollen eyes.

Later, she saw Jun Lin in the private room, and they seemed to be discussing business with several other people, and the other three had women around them, so Shang Haojia had no choice but to go to Jun Lin's side.

Before she sat down, she actually guessed that this man must be difficult to deal with, so he was kept until now, otherwise he would definitely be popular based on his appearance.

Sure enough, as soon as Shang Haojia passed by, he was swept over by Jun Lin's cold eyes, as if he could freeze her in an instant, with the words "no strangers allowed" written all over his face.

Shang Haojia was a little embarrassed standing there, and the middle-aged man who came with Junlin said with a smile, "Girl, our Third Young Master Jun doesn't want to be a prostitute, you can't touch it, you should find another opportunity, such as Mr. Liu, He likes to be lively."

Of course Shang Haojia understands what this so-called hot spot is. After secretly scolding the old hooligan in his heart, he still went to Junlin, "Boss, can you teach me to write? I have no education, and I write in a special way." Ugly, when you just signed the bill, your name was written very well."

I don't know if his compliments played a role, or if King's Landing is out of order tonight, anyway, he really agreed, picked up his pen and asked her, "What to write?"

"Mandarin duck." She blurted out the word.

A few people on the side laughed, "Mandarin ducks, those are a pair of lovebirds, they are very lingering."

For some reason, Shang Haojia, who usually laughs at all of this, now hears this kind of laughter, and feels particularly resistant, and his eyes gradually turn cold, "Forget it, I won't write."

When Jun Lin arrived, he ignored her words, but took a pen and wrote two words on the tissue paper, Yuanyang.

Every stroke is beautiful, and every stroke is written smoothly. After finishing writing, Shang Haojia was already stunned.

Because those two words are very similar to the two words in memory.

If it weren't for the fact that she is now in a rich and luxurious family, she probably thought she was hallucinating.

Shang Haojia picked up the piece of paper, looked at it again and again, and finally asked Junlin cautiously, "Can you give this to me?"

Jun Lin was surprised. He leaned back, looked at her with interest, and said teasingly, "Although I'm not a famous calligrapher, I don't want to give away my calligraphy casually."

Everyone could tell that Jun Lin was deliberately joking, probably because what Shang Haojia asked for was too strange.

Shang Haojia said directly, "Well, if you give me this word, I won't charge you, and I will be yours tonight."

Hearing Shang Haojia's words, everyone in the private room became excited, and everyone urged Jun Lin, "Sir Jun, such a good event, you must not miss it, and this girl is also very handsome! Can't miss it, can't miss it, if you don't like it, let me, I can write you ten or a hundred, hahaha..."

Shang Haojia clutched her skirt, suppressed her anger, and tried to force a smile, "I'm sorry there is only this special case, Mr. Jun, is it okay?"

Jun Lin smiled coldly, stretched out his hand, and pulled her into his arms.

The deal appears to have worked out.

Later, she didn't drink much or talk much, it was Jun Lin who took her out of the private room and went directly to the private room behind.

There, he was direct, straight to the point.

Shang Haojia didn't have any complaints, just let him possess her, and occasionally cooperated with him.

Later, Junlin still gave the money, although Shang Haojia politely declined, but finally accepted it, no one would make things difficult for the money, even if she is looked down upon by others now, isn't it just for the money that she is here?
Moreover, Junlin paid a lot of money, the money was enough to buy medicine for President Gu for a week.

Later, she had never seen Junlin, but she had kept the tissue with the word "Mandarin Duck" written on it, and would take it out to have a look when she couldn't hold on any longer.

But this kind of spiritual sustenance was destroyed in the end. The roommate in the same room accidentally knocked over the water glass, and just grabbed a tissue and wiped it. The tissue with the words "Mandarin Duck" was just thrown into the trash can. The same as discarded self-esteem.

That day, Shang Haojia lost her temper with her roommate for the first time, like an enraged lion, she changed her previous good temper and lost her temper everywhere.

But it didn't save anything, the roommate broke up with her and moved away, and she lived in that place alone, like a lonely cat, homeless.

That night, when she went to Yese Noble House again, and saw King's Landing again, Shang Haojia had a feeling of a heartbeat for the first time.

Just like Principal Gu told her that when he met Mr. Xu for the first time, his heart skipped a beat, and then he decided that she was the other half of his life, and he began to pursue Mrs. Xu passionately. In the end, they walked together and became a pair of talented men and beautiful women, which everyone envied.

But fate is always so good at making jokes, separating lovers from yin and yang.

When Principal Gu got the news and rushed to the village primary school, it was also the day when Shang Haojia was discharged from the hospital and returned to school. She cried earth-shatteringly, while Principal Gu was on the sidelines, weeping silently.

Shang Haojia heard everything about love from Principal Gu. For her, nothing like Cowherd and Weaver Girl can compare to the love between Principal Gu and Teacher Xu.

She thought that it was impossible for her to meet such a love in her life, and she even planned to die alone.

But at the moment when she saw Junlin again, she heard the voice of her own heartbeat, so clear, so clear, exactly like the feeling described by Principal Gu and herself.

It was at that time that she fell in love with King's Landing.

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