love addiction

He Xijue's face was red the whole time, like a new daughter-in-law.

When she arrived at the supermarket, there were fewer people in it, so she became more natural.

Qin Pianran took her to buy snacks first, and the things he picked were basically He Xijue's favorites, and while putting them in the shopping cart, he said, "When I cook later, you can eat these first."

"...Okay." Although this was not the first time Qin Pianran bought snacks for herself, it was the first time that she went to the supermarket holding hands like this.

She didn't know if this man still remembered what he said that night, but judging from his expression, it seemed that he couldn't remember.

That night was very shocking for Hexi Jue.

It was also the first time she entered Qin Pianran's inner world in the ten years since she knew him.

It turns out that he loves far more than himself, works harder than himself, and endures far more than himself.

In the end, it was she who felt a little guilty, just like what he said, she loved her wantonly and had no scruples, but he had to bear so much pressure and even restrained his love.

It turns out that there has always been fairness between the two.

Later, He Xijue thought about it carefully. If he had accepted his feelings early, he might not get any blessings, and he might even be pointed at. Such a relationship would not last long.

"A-Jiao, what are you thinking, follow along." Qin Pianran turned her head and said to her distracted.

He Xijue hurriedly followed, looked at the full shopping cart and asked, "It's just the two of us, why are you buying so much?"

"I'm afraid you're hungry."

As soon as Hexi decided to warm up, he stopped talking.

Qin Pianran bought two shopping bags full, and went home with He Xijue.

On the way home, she was eating snacks and he was twisting things.

The picture is like a couple who have been together for a long time, beautiful and harmonious.

When they got home, Qin Pianran put her in the living room, and went to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

He Xijue was half full with snacks, thinking that the man probably hadn't eaten, and walked in with snacks, saw that he was handling the duck, so he reached out to feed him potato chips, "Eat some first, too. "

He didn't refuse, and opened his mouth to catch the potato chips she fed.

The two of them ate one piece at a time. It wasn't the most delicious food, but it tasted extraordinarily delicious.

Hexijue washed the fruits again, this place is not comparable to Jiangcheng, the quality of the cherries is naturally not as good as those in Jiangcheng, and they are not as sweet as those bought there, but Hexijue still ate a lot, but he just fed Qin Pianran one, and he refused .

When she was half full, the food was finally ready.

Two people, one table, three dishes and one soup, very simple dishes, not comparable to the sumptuous dinner at home, but it gave her a more warm feeling.

"I was afraid that you would eat too many snacks, so I kept it simple." Qin Pianran tore the lemon duck for her with meticulous care.

He Xijue really has a feeling of being taken care of. I once read a joke saying that the love that treats a girlfriend as a daughter is the best.

That's how it felt.

It was beautiful, so beautiful that she felt unreal.

After dinner, Qin Pianran found her a coat that belonged to him before, wrapped her up completely, then took her hand and put it in his pocket, and took her out for a walk.

The folk customs here are simple and honest, and you can meet many people when you go out for a walk.

Along the way, people greeted Qin Pianran, and even ran into Granny Zhang whom she had just met at the entrance of the supermarket.

When Qin Pianran introduced her to people along the way, they always said that she was his girlfriend.

very sweet.

But how long can such sweetness last?

She wanted to think about it, but she didn't dare to think about it.

Since the two met, they haven't mentioned anything else, as if they were completely isolated, he is just him, and she is just her, without any other people or things to mix.

Originally, He Xijue planned to go back to the hotel to stay, but Qin Pianran took her home directly without mentioning anything about the hotel.

This is probably an invisible tacit understanding between the two, He Xijue has an urge in her heart not to want to be separated from him, she thinks, he is the same way.

It's just that they packed up a room in the afternoon. There was only one bed and not even a decent sofa. In such a cold day, it was impossible to go to other places to sleep.

Sleeping in each other's embrace seems to be a matter of course, the moment He Xijue was hugged by him, his heart was completely at ease.

What to think about in the future, what to think about in the future, she just wants to be hugged by him.

Qin Pianran's kiss landed lightly on the top of her head, forehead, and cheek.

The hand holding her only got stronger and stronger, but never parted.

But his kisses only stopped here, and never crossed the line. He Xijue felt his increasingly hot temperature, and he seemed to be melted. He couldn't help but raise his head and bite his chin.

This bite made Qin Pianran lose control of her rationality in an instant, and then she lowered her head impatiently, looking for her lips.

This kiss was not like the previous predatory and domineering kiss, but more sweet and eager.

He Xijue had already closed his eyes, and devoted himself wholeheartedly into such a kiss.

She thought, such a quiet night seemed suitable for something to happen.

Qin Pianran kissed until she lost herself, when she stretched out her arms to hug his waist, he asked depressingly, "A-Jiao, is it okay?"

Her answer was her kiss.

The man completely lost control, and no longer controlled himself, but suppressed her and possessed her to his heart's content.

The feelings that had been suppressed for more than ten years were completely released at this moment.

***
This night seemed to be the best and most peaceful night for Qin Pianran to sleep in the past ten years.

He clearly remembered what happened, and he knew exactly what it was like to have her.

Even the whispers in her ears are so clearly remembered, the feeling of climbing the clouds is something he has never had in his life, and only He Xijue can give him such a feeling.

He gasped and said to her, Gillian, I love you and I want to marry you.

He Xijue nodded while trembling.

He also completely gave himself to her at this moment...

In the end, he hugged her and fell asleep exhaustedly. After a long and heavy sleep, it was already afternoon when he woke up.

He stretched out his hand, wanting to hug her tighter, but the feeling of hugging her was not the feeling of last night.

Qin Pianran suddenly opened her eyes, a little confused between reality and dream, and after a short period of confusion, she quickly looked to her side.

What he held in his arms was a pillow, not Gillian.

Is it a dream?
Qin Pianran got up and looked at the room, no, it was not a dream, that clear feeling had existed before.

"A-Jiao, A-Jiao..." Qin Pianran got out of bed in a panic and looked around.

But in this huge house, there is still her figure there.

The snacks she didn't finish last night are still on the table in the living room, the flowers she cut in the yard are still in the vase, and the self she loved is still here.

But what about her?
Where did you go?

Qin Pianran found her mobile phone to call her, but the phone was turned off again, Qin Pianran didn't care about putting on her coat, so she rushed out of the house and went straight to the hotel.

But when he got there, he was told by the waiter that she had left and left a letter for him.

Holding that letter, Qin Pianran only felt that the world had collapsed.

He didn't seem to have the courage to open it, and he also felt that the letter was so heavy.

He didn't know how he walked home, sitting where she sat yesterday, watching her interjection, distracted again and again.

Something cold fell on the back of her hand, Qin Pianran lowered her head, and the cold thing fell even harder.

Qin Pianran raised her hand to wipe it away, and then slowly opened the letter.

It was her handwriting, very delicate and neatly written.

"Pianran, by the time you read this letter, I have already left. I'm sorry, please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye, because I'm afraid that when you wake up, I will be reluctant to leave."

"It's been a wonderful thing for me to go around between you and me for more than ten years. I have never regretted the past ten years. I believe you think so too."

"After coming here from Jiangcheng, I have thought a lot, and what you said to me after getting drunk that night. I am very satisfied. Really, I am really satisfied with these. And last night , I really feel your love for me, so strong..."

"Pianran, I love you. Over the years, I have loved you selfishly, but let you suffer those things. It is unfair to you, so I think, let's separate for a while, give us some time for each other Whether it is forgotten or remembered, there will always be a result, and I believe that this result will not be too far away."

"I know that if you say this in front of you, you will definitely not agree, so I used this method."

"I hope that in the days without me, Qin Pianran will also be well, work hard, eat well, rest well, and live the life that Qin Pianran should have lived."

"I haven't thought about the future, just like I have never thought about what my future would be like without Qin Pianran. You know how stubborn I am, so I might still be stubborn." I like you."

"But I think, before you let go of your hatred, I should give you a little time, and give us a little time for each other."

"You see, even when I'm writing this, I've already started to miss your arms, I didn't let you hate me like you once thought, saying that hate is easier to let go than love, because I don't want you Let go, because I think you have been thinking about me, you see, I still like you so presumptuously, so Pianran, I will come back."

She wrote a bit messy and hasty, but she also tried her best to express her meaning.

Only Qin Pianran, who knows her best, can understand her good intentions. She is giving herself time.

The problems between them cannot be solved in a short while, so she is willing to give herself time to solve them, whether it is downplaying or letting go, as long as they have each other in their hearts, such problems will eventually be resolved.

She shared the pressure in the past, allowing him to breathe a sigh of relief to think of a solution, so he couldn't let her down.

However, he still wanted to find her.