love addiction

The car was driving on the road, and there were people coming and going on the street, but none of them seemed to have anything to do with me.

Qin Pianran drove the car, just kept walking forward, he didn't know where he was going, where should he go, who should he go to, or where should he go?

Zhuo Ran's words echoed in his mind all the time, and he couldn't get rid of them no matter what.

Zhuo Ran asked, a lifetime is so long, do you want to spend the rest of your time living a life that has nothing to do with He Xijue?

the answer is negative.

He did not want!
In the past half a month, it has been difficult for him to accept this fact, let alone a lifetime?

People always have to live for themselves, and people are always selfish.

These two sentences were fiercely fighting in his heart, challenging his principles again and again.

Perhaps, he should give it a try.

Thinking about it this way, he seemed to have found his way, and he drove to the hospital.

Qin Pianran originally thought to visit her mother, and then went to Hexi's house to find the old man.

Who knew that when he arrived at the hospital, he saw a person, a person he really wanted to see.

After He Xijue and Si Yin came back, they didn't go home immediately, but came to the hospital.

He had promised to come and see Aunt Qin when he was free, but he was delayed because he went out with Si Yin for two days, so he rushed over as soon as he returned to Jiangcheng.

And at this point, it happened to be a different time from Qin Pianran who hadn't got off work yet, which was another intention of Hexi Jue.

"Xiaoba, you go back first, I'll go in and see my aunt, and then go home." He Xijue said to Si Yin who followed.

"But I want to take you home." Si Yin insisted, "Sister Xi, don't refuse me, anyway, I'm fine when I go home, I'll wait for you here."

"It's cold."

It was snowing again in Jiangcheng, it was bigger than last time, there was a layer on the ground, it was much colder than the place where they just came back, and he was wearing very thin clothes.

He Xijue couldn't bear it, and knew that he was stubborn, so he took off his scarf and wrapped it around his neck, "Then you wait in the car and turn on the heat, you know? I'll go in and have a look." Come on, try not to waste time."

"Okay." Si Yin obediently let her tie the scarf on herself, with a satisfied and happy look on her face.

As soon as He Xijue saw his appearance, he couldn't help but want to laugh, "Look at him, he's smiling like a fool."

"That's right, I'm a fool." Si Yin admitted seriously.

He Xijue laughed happily, and was about to tell him to get in the car quickly, when the two cars on the side slammed into the flower bed by the side of the road, making a loud noise.

They and the people around looked over. After all, this is the entrance of the hospital. If there is a car accident, it will definitely attract the attention of many people.

He Xijue was just looking casually at first, but after seeing the car, his face turned pale immediately.

She ignored her boss Yin and rushed towards the car in a hurry, running faster than anyone else, even Si Yin didn't know what happened.

He Xijue's eyes were red with anxiety, although the distance was only a few tens of meters, it made her feel like a century had passed, and finally ran to the side of the car, she opened the car door forcefully, and shouted inside, "Qin Pianran? Qin Pianran!"

Hearing He Xijue's voice, Si Yin immediately understood why she was so emotional.

Not allowing him to think too much, Si Yin also ran over to check the situation of the people in the car.

Qin Pianran was stuck in the cab, her forehead was stained with blood, and she was sweating profusely from the pain.

"Qin Pianran, what's wrong with you? Where are you injured?" He Xijue was so anxious that he was about to cry, "Don't move around, I'll go find a doctor."

She took out her mobile phone and tremblingly wanted to make an emergency call, but Si Yin rushed over and said hurriedly, "This is the hospital, a doctor has already arrived, don't worry."

"Oh, yes, yes, this is the hospital, everything will be fine, Qin Pianran, you will be fine." She wiped her tears in a panic.

The medical staff and the ambulance stretcher had arrived, and He Xijue moved aside to make it easier for the doctors to rescue Qin Pianran.

When Qin Pianran was rescued from the car, she saw the blood on his leg.

It was the leg that was injured last time again. His expression was so painful just now, it must be very painful.

He Xijue cried and followed the doctor to the emergency room.

"Sister Xi, don't be afraid, nothing will happen."

Outside the emergency room, Si Yin said to He Xijue who had been flustered all the time, "Why don't I go buy you something to eat, you still eat at the express service station, you must be very hungry."

"Xiao Ba, eat some yourself." He Xijue told him, and he still waited here quietly.

Si Yin looked at her, and finally left without saying anything.

Before Si Yin came back, Qin Pianran came out of the emergency room, her leg was put in plaster again, and the small wound on her face was also treated.

He Xijue ran over and asked nervously, "Doctor, how is his leg?"

"The fixation in the last operation was damaged. We fixed it again, and it's fine. However, you can't move around casually during this period. You need to pay attention to self-cultivation." The doctor explained briefly.

He Xijue felt at ease with his hanging heart, followed the car into the ward with red eyes, saw the nurse put on the drip for him, and explained the things he should pay attention to, the ward became quiet .

His anesthetic hadn't expired yet, and he was still sound asleep. He Xijue found a towel, carefully washed the blood on his face, and sat aside after confirming that there were no other wounds.

The fear in my heart is slowly calming down at this moment.

Just now when he saw that the car was his, at that moment He Xijue felt his heart stopped beating in fright.

This might be the thing she feared the most in her life. Only when all this happened before her eyes did she realize how terrifying it was.

She wants him to be good, at least to be good, to live healthy and healthy.

He Xijue thought about all these things, and her eyes became moist. She wiped away her tears and began to resent the person who got up on the bed.

"I thought that without me, your life, Qin Pianran, would be better, but why did you keep hurting yourself over and over again? Qin Pianran, can you be well?"

The more she talked, the more excited she became. Before he was awake, she seemed to want to express all her grievances, "It doesn't matter if you don't like me, as long as you are good, everything else is fine. It's important, you don't like me appearing in front of you, if I don't appear, you don't like me pestering you, I just let go, but you have to be good, so that I can leave with peace of mind..."

"You are so cruel. For so many years, you always say nothing. No matter what method I use, whether it is coaxing or persecuting, you never express your opinion. If you just refused back then, how good it would be ?”

"But think about it, even if you reject me, I will still like you as always. I just can't control my heart. I know that liking you may hurt me, and I will be hurt badly, but I still love you." Then I fell in love without hesitation."

"I once doubted my own feelings, whether it was just my childhood obsession with you, but the older I got, the stronger this love became, so strong that I was afraid and even thought of running away, but this idea I just got up, and I was overwhelmed by the feeling of liking you strongly."

"On my birthday, I went to you with great joy, thinking of giving myself to you as a gift. I really prepared for a long time, but when I opened the door and saw you in bed with another woman, I My heart really has a death-like pain. I never thought that I would see such a scene in my life. I really thought that I was going to die. I even thought that it would be better if I died at that time, so that there would be no pain. , it won't be so uncomfortable..."

"I want to never forgive you. I will never forgive you for the rest of my life. Even if you beg me, I will not forgive you. However, I am always the one who bows my head and admits defeat first. I can't be indifferent to you. I bowed my head again and went to find you. You, this is probably the most unprincipled thing I have ever done in my life, compared to you, principles are not important at all, only you are the most important thing to me, He Xijue."

"I like you so much that you have no dignity, and are so humble that my friends look down on me, but I still like you."

"Qin Pianran, I like you."

"Qin Pianran, I love you."

"Qin Pianran, I still love you."

"Qin Pianran, I can't let go, what should I do?"

Si Yin stood there, staring blankly at the front, but didn't know what he was looking at.

He could hear everything he said to her clearly, it hurt a lot, and the position of his heart hurt a lot.

There was a voice in his heart telling him, Si Yin, hurry up, don't listen to anything, just act as if you didn't hear anything, everything is still the same, she is still by your side.

But, but, his legs seemed to be fixed, unable to move away.

Qin Pianran, I can't let go, what should I do?
Miss Xi, what about me?
***
When Qin Pianran woke up, it was already an hour later, and He Xijue was lying on the bedside and fell asleep, his nose was still red, it looked like he had just cried.

He wanted to reach out to touch it, but it involved the wound, causing him to frown in pain.

It seemed that there was still her accusation against him, but the silence in the room at this moment made him feel that the crying just now was just an illusion.

He heard it all. Although the anesthesia was gone, the amount of anesthesia for the leg operation was not large, and he was still very conscious.

It's just that at that time, he couldn't speak, and it was in this way that he could listen to her words and understand her heart.

She said, Qin Pianran, I can't let go, what should I do?
The dullness that had accumulated in my heart for many days suddenly disappeared, and everything became brighter.

He slowly raised his hand and touched her nose lightly, with a gentle arc on the corner of his mouth.

There is a voice in my heart that says very clearly, if you like it, keep liking it.

Well, if you like it, just continue to like it, everything is the same as before, there is no need to let go, Qin Pianran's life must have He Xijue's existence.

Just now when he saw them talking and laughing at the entrance of the hospital, at that moment he really thought he was going to lose her.

Then, I did something I never thought of.

The car accident was not an accident, but he deliberately bumped into the flower bed.

He thought, take a gamble.