my naughty female president

But I finally held back, I can't interrupt him, I want to hear what else he has to say!I want to know, I want Quanxia's mother to know too!
"When I was young and frivolous, although I felt guilty about the woman I didn't love, I didn't have too much entanglement! I thought that as long as I gave her enough money so that she could have a comfortable life, I would do it. I got it and I did the same, I think this is also a compensation for her! But I didn't expect that I sent her countless remittance slips but she always refused to accept them, and all the remittance slips were returned to me inside……"

"At first I thought she was angry with me, so I didn't give up sending her money. On the contrary, I sent her more money, which was enough for her and her children to live a comfortable life, but she still didn't accept it. Over a..."

"My behavior of remittances has been going on for more than ten years. I thought that as the child grows up, her life will become more and more difficult. She will eventually accept my help, but I was wrong again. She never... until finally I Finally give up!"

"As time went by and my daughter grew up, I gradually realized that her rejection of me was actually a silent accusation against me... I realized how deeply I hurt her!"

"Decades! As I get older, I feel more and more guilty, and I know more and more what an outrageous mistake I did..."

I listened quietly, and only then did I know that he had done such a thing, but my mother never told me about it until she died!
I know why my mother is so decisive. Although she is uneducated and illiterate; although she can't say any gorgeous principles, she has a noble personality. She would rather suffer all kinds of grievances than bow her head to accept that betrayer gift from!Because she knew that once she accepted it, it would undoubtedly show her tolerance and compromise for what that man did, which she could not accept, even if she was once so poor that she didn't even have the money to buy medicine for illness...

"Over the years, I have dreamed of going back to my hometown. I want to go back to see her and my child. He was only one year old when I left..." He had a painful look on his face.

"But I dare not, I don't have the courage, I don't know how to face them..."

"My child should be as old as you now. As a father, I have not fulfilled my responsibilities as a father. I really want to know what kind of life they are living now..." His voice trembled It's so powerful, it seems that I can't go on talking.

I can't bear it anymore, I really want to tell him loudly that his first wife has been dead for many years, and his son is sitting directly opposite him with injuries all over his body, I want him to know what he made Sin, I want him to know that no matter what he does to save him, he will not be able to atone for his sins, not even a single ounce...

This is what I finally endured in my heart!I can't let him know, I can't give him a chance to redeem himself, all of this is what he should bear, I want him to bear this guilt until the moment he dies.

"Have you ever regretted it?" I asked with a cold tone and trembling voice.It's just that he, who is emotionally extremely fragile, didn't notice the change in my tone.

"Over the years, I have been in extreme regret all the time. Although I am successful and famous and have a happy family, I know that I don't deserve these happiness at all."

I just felt a certain emotion rushing straight into my heart, like anger, excitement, or sadness. Some kind of unspeakable emotion quickly filled my eyes with tears.

I couldn't sit any longer, and when the tears were about to flow out of my eyes, I hurriedly got up, said sorry to me, turned around and rushed into the bathroom!

I rushed into the bathroom, put my hands on the sink, looked at myself in the mirror, and tears fell down.

"Mother! Did you hear that? He regretted it, that man named Wei Jianguo regretted it!" I said to my mother silently in my heart. "Mother, you may rest in peace!"

I took a handful of cold water and washed my face vigorously.The blood in the whole body seemed to be boiling, surging...

I stood in the bathroom for a long time, trying to calm my emotions, and then walked out of the bathroom.

He was still sitting there, staring blankly out of the window, motionless.

I didn't go any further, I've found him, I've found the answer I wanted, and I finally have an explanation for my mother.

I went to the cashier, paid for two cups of coffee, then took off the pendant around my neck, put it on the counter and told the cashier to give Wei Jianguo the pendant when he left .

The moment I took off the pendant, I suddenly felt that some kind of shackles were quietly loosened. This thing that has been suppressing me for decades can finally be unloaded now!I have returned the only thing he gave me, and I have settled the matter so far. From now on, my life only belongs to my mother and has nothing to do with him!
I looked back at him for the last time and left the coffee shop resolutely.He was still sitting in the same place, his gaze was still fixed outside the window, since he started talking, he didn't seem to have moved a bit!
At that moment, I faintly felt that he was also very pitiful. For so many years, he was tortured by his conscience all the time, and he was in remorse all the time. Even his favorite wife and daughter couldn’t tell this secret. , What kind of pain is this!
But there are some wrong things in this world that can be redeemed. Once some things are wrong, there is no chance to make up for them.Punishment must be carried to the end, there is no possibility of reconciliation!

Forgive me for not being able to call you father, forgive me for not being able to forgive you, since my mother didn't tell me to forgive you when she was dying, I must never make up my mind to give up my resentment towards you.Mother's soul is still watching from the sky, I can't chill her heart...

I boarded the train to the easternmost part of the motherland, but felt extremely tired. When the train just started, I leaned against the window and fell asleep in a daze.

I even had a dream where I was standing on an isolated mountain surrounded by cliffs.I yelled, only to hear my own echo.

I looked around in despair, and suddenly I saw Annie, I saw Wei Lai, I saw Mu Xichun, I saw Da Bin and General Wei!They smile at me, then they turn around and they fade away.

I called each of them by their names loudly, but they didn't seem to hear my voice.I watched them helplessly, disappearing one by one before my eyes...　
I felt utterly hopeless, as if I was the only one left in the whole world, I suddenly lost all hope, I walked slowly to the edge of the cliff, and jumped down!
I woke up suddenly in a cold sweat!It was already late at night, and the passengers in the carriages had already fallen asleep, only the sound of the train's wheels colliding with the rails was still echoing in my ears, tirelessly...

I looked around at the people who were sleeping soundly, and my heart was full of anxiety. Even in such a situation, they could sleep so peacefully. It seemed that everyone had his destination, and once there was a destination, there was nothing to worry about!It seems that I am the only one, fleeing in a hurry from a place where I stayed briefly, and going to an unknown place...

The journey of dozens of hours almost cost me half my life. The train finally stopped at a small station. When it arrived at the station, there were not many people left in the carriage!
I looked around in a daze, it seemed that this place was as cold as the starting town, and the wind here was particularly biting, which made me shiver involuntarily!
I followed the crowd out of the station, standing on the side of the road but hesitating not knowing where to go.I suddenly remembered what the old monk said: Go to the east, there is a sea, and you will find a new life!
I don't know what the old monk is referring to, but I think I should go to the seaside to have a look.

So I asked a sanitation worker how to get to the beach, and he patiently showed me the direction, and told me which car to take and where to get off!

According to him, it is very close to the beach, and he only needs to take a 10-minute bus ride to reach the beach.

Following his guidance, I got off the car at a place called Zhuwang Town, and then went along the only road leading to the east of the town with my travel bag.According to the uncle of the sanitation worker, the beach is a short distance away.

The town is very dilapidated, the unplanned houses look a bit messy and old, and the road surface of the streets has become potholed due to years of disrepair, looking like festering scars everywhere.

The roads at the entrances of some houses may have been frozen into ice and condensed on the road surface due to the water splashed just now. If you are not careful when walking on the road, there is a danger of slipping at any time.

From this scene, I can probably guess that this place should be another place that has been forgotten by society and economy. Probably because the location is too remote, it is really difficult to affect the political outlook of the local government, so it is naturally forgotten.

I ate something at a food stall and asked the store for directions.Knowing that the beach is not far ahead, I carry my travel bag and continue walking east.

When the shopkeeper learned that I was going to the beach on foot, he stopped me kindly. He told me that it would take a long time to walk. He kindly helped me contact an elderly man next door and said he could take me there. Just pay him ten yuan for the fare.

So I got on the uncle's motorcycle tricycle and went to the beach.

The uncle took me to a small village. He pointed in a direction with his finger and said something to me in a dialect that I couldn't understand. I can probably guess that he was telling me the direction of the sea.

This small village is even more dilapidated than the small town just now.Although the village is large, the residents are extremely scattered, most of them are the kind of blue brick houses I saw when I was a child, and the high raised chimneys made me feel a kind of primitive desolation.

When I passed the village, I hardly saw anyone. I only heard a few dogs barking from unknown courtyards here and there. I think it was because the weather was too cold and no one was hanging out.

After walking through the village for a while, I knew that the sea was very close to me, because I could already smell the fishy and salty smell in the air. Although I had never been to the seaside, I thought, this probably smells like the sea.

Sure enough, soon I saw the sea. The moment it came into my eyes, my first feeling was an incomparable vastness rising from the bottom of my heart, and my mood also became distant. .

The blue water is full of waves, showing its vastness and vastness to a stranger like me in the afternoon sun!As the sea breeze blows, I can even feel the tingling sensation of the sharp wind passing through the weaving gaps in the fabric of my clothes, like fine needles, making the wind substantial!

I went to the beach and scooped up a handful of seawater to taste it. It turned out to be really salty!